Maura clenched her fist, closed her eyes and began her usual mini meditation technique to quell her mixed emotions. Her eyes flew open, a darker shade of green than normal and she slammed her fist into the bag. Every nerve ending screamed at her and she used that adrenaline to make her decision and she flew out after Jane.
The detective walked into the elevator, turned and leant her forehead against the cool metal and tried to seep that coolness to douse the fire she felt inside. She heard the doors closing then being interrupted, she sighed not wanting to face anyone.
"You can't avoid me forever."
No Maura...not you...don't do this...don't push me.
Jane didn't move and Maura felt her emotions begin to bubble. "I deserve an explanation."
Jane gritted her teeth and clenched her eyes shut praying she could just vanish.
Maura slammed her hand on the emergency stop button "We are not going anywhere until you talk to me Jane. You can't run from me."
Jane spun with such fury it even shocked her, she tried to reach the lift controls when Maura stepped in her way. Jane was shaking with anger and pain she had no outlet for. She slammed her fist into the metal wall and screamed in frustration.
Maura was shaking from emotion and fear, she knew Jane would never hurt her but it did hurt. It hurt to see Jane hurting so much and not being able to be the one to soothe it like she always had done before. To not understand what was running through her best friend's mind. "What happened to you last night Jane?"
Jane was frantically shaking her head. I can't. If I tell her then she'll know. If I tell her it's because I saw Ian she'll know I was there early. She can't know why. I have to get over this.
Maura felt tears falling down her face "Jane why are you running from me? It's me!" She reached out.
Jane felt like a caged animal, pent up and trapped. She couldn't get far enough away from Maura to avoid her touch. It burned her skin and it did nothing but fuel her anger. She pushed past her and hit the lift button again and they started moving.
Maura looked at her feeling so dejected, disappointed, scared and angry "You don't get to pick and choose when I am your friend Jane. You can't just run away from me and then expect to come back into my life. It hurts."
Jane spun and scowled at her "No?" Maura shook her head. "Funny that, guess it's a chick thing then! You don't seem to mind Ian picking you up and dropping you like a sack of shit when it pleases him!"
Maura watched the change come over Jane as she spat out her accusation "Jane I-"
"No! You wanted to talk?! I'll talk! It's pathetic! You let him use you, break your heart and then let him back in for more! Once wasn't enough for you?" She laughed cruelly "You think you might have learned about trusting men, if not with Ian then at least with Dennis!" As soon as the words left her mouth she regretted them, she felt herself physically pale. Her anger, fury, intensity slipped off her like water and she felt like she was going to pass out.
Maura looked at her emptily, she felt as if Jane had just reached into her chest and ripped everything out. The doors pinged open and Maura just silently walked out.