Chapter 10

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1 week later…

"I'm pregnant!" Olivia announced then continued eating her salad as Casey did a double take and had to shake her head to make sure that her ears heard right.

"What did you say?"

"I'm pregnant."

"OH MY GOD!" She yelled and Olivia immediately shushed her. "Oh my god!" Casey exclaimed much lower this time but her excitement was still at shout-level. "That's what I thought you said. Is it me or are you not excited about this? Why aren't you more excited about this?"

"I am excited; I want to be."

"Then?"

"Case, I'm a month along." She said with a mouth full of salad.

"What does tha- oh fuck! Liv, tell me this isn't Manny's baby!?"

"I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know? Didn't you use protection?" But all she got was silence. "Oh god! Liv, what the hell were you thinking?!"

"It's not that simple, Case…" She said quietly.

"Okay, what does that even mean? Better yet, why do I get the feeling that there's more to this?" When she got silence again, she knew that there was and immediately called her on it. "Liv, what aren't you telling me?"

Olivia sat there and after a moment, when she was about to speak, her phone rang and she was so thankful when she looked at the screen and saw that it was Cragen. "I gotta take this!" She halfheartedly apologized. "Yeah Captain? ...where? Yes; I'm on my way...okay." And she hung up the phone.

"I gotta go." She said to Casey.

"Now? Liv, what are you going to do?"

"You mean other than deciding how I'm gonna tell Nick? I don't know, but I've thought about it, and I'm keeping it."

"You think that's wise?"

"Case, you know how hard I've tried to get pregnant; I didn't think it would happen and now...look I gotta go!" She said as she got up and kissed Casey on the cheek. But Casey could tell that her friend was holding something back and it bothered her to let Olivia go like this even though she didn't have a choice.

"Olivia, call me!"

"I will." She said and left.

What followed was a hard 2 days where they worked the case of twin little girls who at 5, went missing from a shopping mall in Yonkers. When they found one of them, she had been raped and murdered by a janitor, strangled and her body thrown into a shallow grave in the woods left to rot and all of the detectives, especially Olivia, felt like crying. She had always had a soft spot when it came to children but since becoming a stepmom to her own little one and now having gotten pregnant, something she never thought she'd be doing, her mind immediately went to Zara and the baby that was now five weeks in her belly and she wondered how she would ever be able to keep them safe in such a world.

The cops from Yonkers needed the Manhattan SVU; the man they were looking for who they strongly suspected of committing this crime had disappeared and they had all reason to believe that he was in their city. They needed to find the second of the little girls and prayed that she would still be alive when they did.

With pictures in hand, and no clues on his whereabouts, the detectives began their search. Surprisingly, thanks to some helpful people on the street and neighbors who were more than eager to help, they caught the guy hiding out in a construction site in a midtown neighborhood. Since it was the weekend he didn't worry about being caught and they found the little girl, but she was dead by the time they got to her. Strangled mere minutes earlier and being put into a wall!

When she got home that night, after the sitter left, she went to Zara's room and planted a million kisses on the sleeping child; imagining those little girls as she did. Their mother probably gave them a ton of kisses each night and now she has no one. She wiped her tears and whispered in Zara's ear how much she loved her before finally retreating to she and Nick's bedroom where she stripped and jumped into the shower, determined to wash the last two days away.

Thinking about how lucky they were as she thought about Zara and touched her stomach; maybe Casey was right. Maybe she should forget about the possibility of Manny as much as it pained her and just focus on the blessing she has. There's was no reason that she shouldn't tell Nick about the baby. She already decided that she's having it but at the same time, there he was in the back of her mind. But if this baby turned out to be Manny's, there's no real way, even with DNA, to tell unless she specifically told the doctor the situation and they began looking for special markers to determine paternity but did she really want to know?

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After she showered and dried her hair, she put on her pajamas and went to lay with Zara. She just couldn't take her mind off those girls and needed to be close to her own baby. Slipping in the room and without waking her, she climbed in bed with her and snuggled up, just thinking that if this all blew up in her face, she'd lose this little girl and that wasn't something she would ever be prepared for. She'd been a part of Zara's life since she was three, and these last two years they had grown so close, even before she and Nick disclosed to everyone about their relationship. She couldn't imagine not having her to wake up to every day and as she stroked Zara's long, beautiful hair, she felt tears drop.

Why didn't you think about any of this before? She wondered and she knew why; if she thought that she could get pregnant, maybe she wouldn't have slept with him from the get go. Maybe she would have insisted that Manny wear a condom and not cum inside her but dammit, she'd been having sex since she was 16, and plenty of times without a condom and there was only a pregnancy scare that one time in college but that turned out to be nothing, so why now? Why of all the times in the world for her to get pregnant did it have to happen now when she and Nick were trying and ironically, she slept with his brother around the time she was ovulating?

Suddenly, she didn't feel much like lying in the bed with Zara and she got up and shut the door, heading into the kitchen suddenly feeling hungry, but as she was passing by the closed door to the guest room, she didn't know why. She hadn't gone into that room since that morning, but for some reason, standing here, she put her hand on the knob and slowly opened the door, going in.

She'd gotten maybe two feet into the dark room when a chill went up her back!

"Shhh! You don't wanna wake Zara!" He said as her held her other arm down and began thrusting hard inside her. He didn't understand that he was hurting her, causing so much pain that tears fell from her eyes.

"You're hurting me!" She cried, letting off an agonizing moan when he slammed against her cervix.

"Just take me, just like yesterday, you know you want it!" He said in her ear as he continued fucking her.

She quickly shook the thought away and felt her stomach through the fabric of her silk pajamas. It has to be Nick's, it just has to be! So busy thinking about Nick that she didn't hear him come in the front door, or call to her before he got to the room.

"There you are, didn't you hear me call you?" He said as he pecked her lips. "Are you okay?" He said as he took her in his arms. He'd known that they were looking for this guy and when she'd called him at the job to tell him that they'd found him and the little girl's body, he knew that she wouldn't be okay in spite of her "I'm fine" rhetoric.

"I'm just glad you're home!" She said in tears, the fact that they were still in this room definitely not lost on her.

"You wanna talk about it?"

"I'm all talked out, can you just please make me forget, at least for now? That's what I need more than anything!"

"You sure that's what you want?"

"I'm sure...oh god I need you!" She uttered breathlessly as they kissed and he unbuttoned her shirt as he kicked the door shut and began backing her into the bed.

"Baby…" A protest started to leave her mouth, she needed to leave that room but when he opened her shirt and his mouth was on her neck and then her nipples, it felt so good that she just moaned as they went down on the mattress.

...

Fucking. Not lovemaking. Fucking. He's fucking her hard. He's fucking her deep. He's fucking her like he owns her and though she's going to lose her mind from the unbelievable penetration he's giving; she loves it! He's behind her, and it takes everything in her to not scream loud enough to wake Zara!

"Niiiiick!"

"I know baby!" He says as he rocks deeper into her, hitting her spot so hard that she collapses beneath him, gripping the sheets but he continues; driving into her at a slow, delicious, yet tortuous pace. It's his intention to fuck her until she can't take him and begs him to withdraw and it looks like he's well on his way to completing that mission!

"Oh shit!" She cries, face down, into the pillow. How can anything feel so deliciously, painfully good?

"Put your ass back up!" He smiles and demands, rolling his hips into her and she cries out.

"Please baby!"

"Put your ass back up!" When she does, when she manages with all the concentration in the world, he goes hard and she lasts about 10 seconds before she collapses again screaming Oh my god! into the pillow but he keeps going, in total, bringing her to cum three times until he wins. She's spent, and begs him to stop his assault on her pussy as she's squirting a huge climax!

In Miami, Manny went out clubbing when he could find no rest at home. It was just too quiet in the gigantic apartment and he couldn't stand it. All day he was haunted by memories of her and as much as he tried, he couldn't shake them.

He thought, over and over again of them making love, of him being inside her; her riding him. God the way she rode him! Her full breasts with her large dark nipples bouncing as she sat astride his waist and ground her hips into him while she cried out; her hands against his chest trying to pace herself so that he didn't go too deep too fast! He'd penetrated her balls deep for most of their lovemaking but when she couldn't take it anymore, she flipped them over and took charge. He remembers everything about that morning; how she played a game where in spite of what she was saying, in the end, she took him anyway. He thinks that was the sexiest part, how she told him she couldn't, said it over and over again and then she'd let him! God she'd taken him for hours, letting him have it, have her any way he wanted. He fucked her so good, her mouth, pussy, ass. She even fucked his cock with those unbelievable breasts!

Man, she was so cute when she'd scream motherfucker, especially when he'd grab those beautiful nipples and bite and pull them with his teeth. And when he took hold of her waist and bounced her hard on his cock…

"Why won't you dance with me, Manny?" A blonde girl, whose name he couldn't remember for the life of him said as she came up to the back of where he was sitting.

"You know what, mami, how about later?" He asked. He had a serious hard on right now and if he got up from the VIP booth where he was seated with another girl, a brunette and very scantily dressed and yet he paid her no mind either, he'd probably have a situation on this hands.

"But I want to dance, now!" She pouted, bouncing up and down, her breasts that had no support rebounding, not that she needed it. He guessed that her implants were blown up to at least a D cup.

"How about we have some fun right here, huh?" He said as he took her hand and pulled her around to the front of the booth. She smiled as she came around, squeezing in past the girl who was sitting there and ended up on his lap.

"What did you have in mind?" She said as he put her hand in his shirt.

"How about you" He kissed her "and you" He said to the brunette on this left as he kissed her lips. "Give me a little attention down below? I have a raging hard on!" He said as Brandi, the brunette and Jazzi, the blonde smiled seductively and kissed each other, their and roaming each other's nipples, pinching and squeezing before they quickly went down beneath the table and unzipped Manny's pants, letting him spring free for their hungry mouths as he threw his head back and closed his eyes as he let the music take over and lost himself in the feeling of what the ladies were doing to him as he thought about Olivia!

Late that night, she was up, sitting in the kitchen in his shirt and eating ice cream in the dark. She sat there, a million thoughts running through her mind. Manny, the baby and those little girls. She just couldn't get them out of her head, like she couldn't get out of her head why she was up at 1AM eating ice cream! She guessed that maybe her cravings were starting and her mind went right back to Manny; stupidly trying to count how many times she'd let him cum inside her versus the two times she knows he did, that morning he raped her. She'd counted every single thrust he gave - 134 of them before he came for the last time then three more, the last three being extra hard and painful. She remembered how in spite of her not wanting it, she came. She squirted all over the floor while she cried and she felt like dying, especially because he didn't stop, not even then. He kept on and it became even more painful because she still hadn't gotten wet, she never did throughout the whole ordeal but when she came, that just egged him on and he got rougher with her.

"Manny please stop...please!" She cried. She was bleeding now at this point and the pain was unreal!

She wiped her tears and shook off the memory. She hadn't thought about the rape until that night a little over a week ago when she began throwing up; she had no reason to. Even though it was hard, she had decided to put all of it behind her and recommit herself to Nick. She never thought that this would come back to haunt her in the worst way!

She was finishing up her ice cream when Nick suddenly wandered in the kitchen, turning on the light.

"What are you doing here, sittin in the dark?" He said as he came and stood, putting his arms around her from behind.

"I couldn't sleep, I was hungry." She said and turned to kiss him.

"Ice cream?" He grinned.

"I had a craving." She said almost whispering and put the last spoonful in his mouth and kissed him again as he swallowed.

"You okay?" He asked as he pulled her up and led her to the sofa where he sat down and she joined, sitting beside and leaning into his embrace.

"Not really. I'm thinking about those little girls and I'm wondering how their mom is gonna get through this. They were the same age as Zara Nick, I just can't imagine something like this happening to us.

"And god forbid, it won't! We'll be alright."

"Ever since becoming a mom, my need to protect is stronger than ever, if anything ever happened to either of them…"

"That's not something we ever ne-" And suddenly it hit him, what she said. "...either of them? Liv; what are you saying?" He hoped with all his might that she was telling him what he thought she was. She realized that she'd made a mistake that she couldn't take back and she sat up, figuring she might as well tell him, and turned to face him.

"...that I'm pregnant!"

Chapter 11 coming soon or something. How about a review?