Do What You Want with Me

by HappyBlushCalayapie

Kaoru is depressed. He knows what he wants, and Haruhi suggested that he write it down and give it to Hikaru so that he can understand. "...Do what you want with me, Do what you want with my body, Take it all the way, And go even further, if you like..." HikaKao. Eventual lemon.

10. Chapter 10

Title: Do What You Want with Me
Anime: Ouran High School Host Club
Pairing: HikaKao
Chapter 10

The girls were watching them, waiting for them to do something… anything. They hardly even spoke. It felt like there was a dark cloud over them, threatening to pour down rain.

'It's awkward and tense… I don't even know what to say to him, right now…' Hikaru thought. 'And he isn't even looking at me… just at his lap.' Then, he got an idea. He moved closer to Kaoru, closing their distance dramatically, and wrapped his arms around him in a gentle hug. Kaoru was surprised. The girls started smiling, seeing that it had begun.

"You looked so lonely and sad… I just thought you'd want a hug from me, Kaoru." He said honestly.

"Hikaru…" he replied, softly, and sadly. "I am lonely…" he looked up at him into his eyes, his reply just as honest as what his big brother said.

"I never wanted to hurt you… I'm so sorry."

"It's not your fault… I don't know whose fault it is, anymore…" he adverted his gaze.

"Mine. Definitely all mine."

"Hikaru… stop trying to make this into something bigger than it already is."

"It couldn't possibly get any bigger, though…"

"It can. And it will." He managed to get out of Hikaru's embrace.

"Kaoru… don't be so distant…" he said sadly.

"Last night…" he paused. "I was happy. Because you lied to me… saying all of those nice things to me…"

"Those weren't lies!" he pulled him close again in a way to where he couldn't escape him. "I was telling you the honest truth." He tilted his chin up so that their eyes met again. "You matter to me. You're the most important person in my world."

"Hikaru… I want to believe that… but…"

"But?"

"But I feel like we've become strangers…"

The girls were wiping tears away with their handkerchiefs, smearing their mascara a little bit.

"I never want you to feel that way." He cupped Kaoru's cheek, bringing their faces close together.

"This is all a lie, and you know it." He said, looking away for a moment before Hikaru forced his eyes to meet his, again.

"What do you mean?" he lowered his voice. The girls had to strain to listen. Kaoru cheated to make sure he couldn't see his eyes when he said it and whispered in his ear,

"It'd never work." Even though he wanted it to more than anything in the world.