Edward's POV

I don't exactly know how I am going to do this, but I have to try. I sort of have a plan, I suppose. Go to Mike's house, beg him for pills, steal them, and then…the rest is obvious. I just need something to knock me out for a little while. 'Cos, God knows that I have barely even gotten three hours of sleep in the past week or so. Who knows how many days that was? Because I sure don't. All I could tell myself was that she isn't coming back, and that I have got to get over her somehow. Ugh, why the hell is this so hard? Oh yeah, because I'm in love with her. I almost forgot. Almost.

"Hey, Edward? Wait a sec?" Alice called out. I groaned internally, praying to God she didn't find out my plan.

I turned reluctantly, and she smiled but it didn't reach her eyes.

"Don't do anything stupid, ok? She'll be back. One way or another. Things always work themselves out. I should know," she said, pointing to her head.

I laughed bitterly and nodded, "Ok, Alice. I won't do anything that I will regret in the near future." I was careful with my word choice, but that seemed to satisfy her. She just walked back to where the rest of our friends and family were sitting, and staring blindly out the window.

Did Bella seriously not know how much she meant to the rest of us back home – err – I mean here. But that's what this used to be to her, home. I smiled, lacking any amusement, and ran out to my car. I decided to visit Charlie first. I needed to see him, before I did something rash and possibly the worst mistake I'd ever make.

Bella's POV

After the sorta 'epiphany' I'd had last night, I couldn't help but have another side to the story in the morning.

I missed Edward and home and didn't really like Alex or any of my new friends. I cursed myself for thinking this, but part of me wanted to believe it. I hadn't called Forks since I got here, and there was only one reason for that. But just because I wasn't planning to contact Edward didn't mean I had to shun Charlie and my friends, too, right? And wouldn't they want an explanation for everything? Unless, of course, Edward had been strong enough to tell them. But I definitely know that Alice will want to know 'what the hell was going through my mind that made me leave and never speak to all my friends until now.'

I wouldn't call Forks yet, but I will, soon. After all, today is Friday, so I have school all day. I could text Alice, though. Just to let her know I'm okay and adjusting. I decided I would, just to see how angry they all are at me. So, I pulled out my phone and clicked on Contacts, Alice, text message, and began typing.

Hey, Alice. I'm so sorry I haven't called or anything. It's about school time here, but I just wanted to let you know that I am doing okay and adjusting well. I have some plastic, Barbie doll-like friends and a new boyfriend. How is everyone doing? (Especially Edward – and your self???) Please don't be mad at me. I'll explain to you everything after school ends here – which is at three. I miss you, Ali. Text me back? Love you, Bye.

Ok, so it was more like a letter or a message on an answering machine, but I have a lot to say – and explain. I secretly hoped that she wouldn't mention the fact I am already dating someone else to Edward, because then he would think that he should date someone? Yeah, no. As much as I would just love for that to happen, I'd rather not chance it. Knowing my luck, he'd go for an easy girl and choose Jessica or Lauren. Or even both. Heck, they wouldn't care. As long as they got to be with Edward. So, I added:

P.S. Do NOT tell Edward I have a boyfriend. IstillloveEdward, okay?!? Stop screeching, because all of your non-existent neighbors will have a cow. And I really DON'T want him to think that he should date someone, too. Got it? Good, please do text me. Or have Rosalie, or Emmett, or even Jasper. Tell Charlie I said: 'Hi' and 'I miss you.' Tell that to everyone else, too. Talk to you later.

I hit send and sighed, not believing I let Charlie influence so much that I moved here, with my mom. Really, what was I thinking? Oh yeah, that I didn't want Edward to go to jail or rehab, or something like that. I am way too selfless sometimes.

Edward's POV

I didn't know what to think at the moment. I can't believe that Bella hasn't even called her own father. I am truly disgusted. Or disappointed. I can't tell. I needed some kind of support, something to keep me from falling off the edge. So far, nothing was working. Obviously, Charlie was no help. The gang would tell me if Bella had called them. Wouldn't they? Ugh, never mind. No need for doubts now. And Mike, not even he, was there for me. He wasn't even home. Damn it. Damn this all. I need Bella. I need her bad. But – but maybe. I-It's time I move on? Yeah. Wait…no. I can't do that. It wouldn't feel right. Not at all. I just, I need her back. Maybe I could convince Alice to…

YES! I am brilliant!

AN: Doesn't it suck how I never update anymore? Well, it does for me. I have no excuses, I guess. But fanfiction is more for fun. I'll just update when I get in the writing mood, I suppose. All my work I do when I can't stand writing severely sucks. Sigh. Authoring a story is tons of work. Lol. Maybe I'll update this same month, day, week, year? Idk. Just, whenever. Haha. Maybe never. Okay, totally kidding. I haven't given up on any of my stories, but every time I write the ideas, they suck. Have you figured I'm a perfectionist (sort of) yet? Ha. I kinda am. Whatever, I hate long A/N's, so I'll just stop typing here…maybe…

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