Just a warning I am Dyslexic so my stories will not be perfect but I now have one Beta reader to help me along the way :D
Thank you so much to Roshelle Diall for offering to work with me :D
Well my sweetie's I'm back again :) no sure if I will be able to keep up with my fast 2-3 chapters a day release now my daughters back at school half the day and I have so many things to do, but I will try to get up at least one chapter a day :p
I will do a Q&A at the end of this chapter for questions I've had in review's and PM's so please as always
Enjoy...
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When the nurse knocked and entered the scene before her was quiet and calm. The four people in the room stood almost as one and silently followed her through the corridors and hallways to the critical care unit. As they passed the reception desk to the unit itself the nurse stopped to collect a blue tray.
Ren's heart leapt as she handed the tray to him. "These are Mogami-sans belongings."
The tray contained a clear plastic bag. In each bag was a different item a blood stained blond and pink wig, piercings and jewellery. He nodded his thanks to the nurse and they continued down the corridor. The nurse asked them all to wash their hands in the sinks provided along the wall then gave them all a face mask each.
"We have to be very careful of any infections or viruses while Mogami-san is in this weakened state so if any of you feel unwell, I would ask you to please wait outside." they all nodded as the nurse continued.
"I'm sure Hideyoshi-sensei has already told you this, but when you see Mogami-san it may come as a bit of a shock to you. At the moment we have 18 machines monitoring and assisting her so it's not easy for me to say this, but please keep in mind that she will look very pale and fragile." again they all nodded in acknowledgement as the nurse turned and slid back the sliding door.
The room was large and airy with large windows that looked out over the city like the waiting room had, yet this room was filled with a cacophony of noises and sounds. Many small beeps and clicks ranged as the electrocardiograph monitor called out what Ren had been so desperate to hear.
Her heart beat…
Ren looked first to the life support machines spaced around the bed: he saw oxygen cylinders spin and deflate/inflate in a regular rhythm, a multitude of wires and drip feeds criss-crossed in complex patterns as his eyes finally fell upon her. Her normal glowing skin was ghostly white, the entry points of a multitude of drips laced her arms and hands. Monitor connectors on her finger, chest and head stood out in relief from her tiny form. She looks so small, how can she look smaller now than when she was 6? This thought amazed Ren, but looking at her now the oxygen tube breathing for her, making her tiny chest rise and fall.
"Can I get closer?" he looked at the nurse who had guided them to her. There were three more nurses in the room and also Okami who was sobbing hysterically on Taisho's shoulder as he led her from the room followed by another nurse who was talking about going and getting a strong cup of tea for them both.
The nurse nodded to Ren's request.
"She hasn't regained consciousness yet, but you can hold her hand if you like. Some people believe that people can still hear you and are comforted if you talk to them." Ren nodded slowly as he walked towards the bed.
Even with his long strides it seemed to take a decade to reach her side. Seeing the chair beside her bed for the first time, he pulled it out and sat next to the bed, it took a few minutes for Ren to work up the courage to take her tiny hand. He had to be careful of the heart rate monitor clip attached to her finger and drip feeding into the back of her hand, but he slowly slid his hand palm up along the covers and under to grasp it lightly. Lory turned to the nurse watching the young man before her.
"If it's not any trouble we'd like to give them a little while alone? This has been a very big shock for him."
The nurse smiled at Lory, "Of course. I understand perfectly. We will be just outside if we are required." she motioned to the other nurses and they all left silently, Lory watching Ren realised he probably wouldn't have even known if the sky was falling, he had eyes only for the love of his life sitting before him.
Oh Ren I thought falling in love with her was your greatest torture, but seeing her love for you in return is even too much for me to bear.
Walking slowly to Ren he watched as the tears silently made paths down his cheeks, glistening in the florescent lighting "Ren we will be just outside the door if you need us." he patted the trembling shoulder before departing the room.
Left alone with the woman he loved above all else Ren's turmoil of emotions overflowed in waves as tears and agony. The tiny hand he held so lightly he felt if he was to hold on even a little harder it would break like glass into a million tiny fragments that he would be unable to stick back together again. He would never understand why? Maybe subconsciously he remembered what the nurse had said about people believing unconscious people could hear you talking to them, but he began to speak to her then.
"You remember that day at LME when we first met Kyoko-chan? You were badgering Sawara-san to become a talent for our agency, but when asked you really had no clue at all about show business. You didn't want to enter any section you just wanted in no matter what."
A smile crossed his face at this thought.
"I remember we threw you out and I couldn't help but think 'Who the hell is this girl?' You were so stubborn, you sat outside the offices all day. You probably don't know this, but I watched you outside the window a couple of times. I kept telling myself you would give up eventually. Then without warning you walked right into me as I walked around the corner not a few days later, so caught up in reading you just hit me and flew backwards. I remember looking at the paper for your newcomers audition, realising you must have worn Sawara-san down in some way. I also remember the anger I felt when you were telling me you were auditioning for revenge."
Again that faint smile as he remembered their first fight.
"I could not have told you this back then, but it wasn't your reason for revenge that made me so mad, but the feeling itself. Revenge is a hard emotion to carry Kyoko-chan. In my own life seeking revenge has caused me nothing but pain and suffering. It was my own stupid desire for revenge Kyoko-chan that led to me killing my best friend."
His words were faint and quiet, but now that he had started he couldn't help but let them pour from his mouth.
"You see when I was younger growing up in America my mother and father was away a lot working. I was raised in this industry so like many kids raised in the same way we grew up in an adult society. I went to school of course, but due to my time around adults I found it really hard to fit in so as life goes I was bullied. I kept it locked away pretending it didn't bother me by smiling around my family and friends. But there are times when even I wasn't strong enough to smile. I would sob my heart out alone in my room or out and about where I thought no one would see me. It just so happened one day I was noticed, it was the son of my father's friend. He was 5 years older than me, Rick was his name."
*hmph* Ren snorted as he thought back to that day.
"Of all the people to see me crying it just had to be him. You see I idolised him. He was so big and strong yet gentle. He carried himself in a way that you couldn't help but to recognise him, everyone loved him. So there I was sobbing away. Can you imagine caught by the one person that above all else I respected, but he didn't laugh at me or make fun of me he just hugged me and asked the one question that had been my personal dream for so long, 'Do you want to be stronger?' I nodded and from that day on Rick taught me about life. He showed me ways to build up my body and taught me moves so I could defend myself from being hit or beaten as I had been many times. He taught me what true strength was and forced me to face my own fears."
Ren thought of the rooster Rick had once asked him to kill and cook. He hadn't of course there was no way he could have done it. Instead he had given Rick some chicken nuggets he had brought from the local KFC.
"It wasn't only strength and fighting he taught me. He also tried to teach me about love, but sadly by then I was already becoming conceited in my own strength. I would listen, but some of the things he would say would just annoy me about a woman's magic. Hell to me at that time it was all lust. I went through girls like water never staying with one long before they would leave me." he said with a smirk. "I suppose I really was a playboy. Over time my arrogance and self-esteem got the better of me and I found myself going out to take the anger I felt towards my parents for never being there to everyone. The bullies had tortured me for years and lately Rick who had got himself a new girlfriend didn't have as much time to spend with me."
Shaking his head at his own selfishness, Ren smiled.
"I was a stupid spoilt little brat Kyoko-chan. Something you could never understand.I doubt you have ever been spoilt not even once."
He stroked her fingers lightly with his thumb.
"I went out looking for trouble and found it easily. A local youth gang that would hang around the town by where we lived, a few of the boys had been the boys who had bullied me at school. We got into a scuffle and I was knocked around pretty bad, but they kept baiting me calling me things like 'Filthy half breed' and 'Japanese scum.' It was the normal way kids would bully each other with words, but something just clicked inside me as it had so many times before and I saw red. I'm not sure how many I hurt that day but it was past double figures. Someone that knew me had seen what was happening and they had called Rick. He turned up with his girlfriend in tow to stop me. He held me back telling me if I didn't stop then the guy I was hitting would die. He pleaded with me to go home with him, that if we left now our families would come up with something to diffuse the situation."
A tear rolled down his cheek as he looked down and away from her, ashamed at himself.
"I didn't listen. As I turned I saw one of the boys who had been bullying me for the longest time run. I only remember thinking 'You can't get away from me.' I was enjoying it can you believe that Kyoko-chan? I loved every minute of hurting those people who I felt had wronged me all my life, but not only them, more like every single person that had ever wronged me. I chased him out of the alley we had been fighting in and across the road."his voice broke off with a sob,"I..t...was ...then Rick chased me. He never looked, just ran straight into the street. I heard the tyres screech and turned to see Rick's body flying through the air."
Ren's sobs racked him with sorrow and guilt, it took him a few minutes before he could continue.
"He died right there on that pavement Kyoko-chan, in a pool of his own blood while his girlfriend was screaming the whole time. She called me a murderer and the horrible, painful truth was she was right. From then on something died inside me. Not just Rick, but even myself. No one could do anything right, no one could draw me out of that guilt. When the hospital gave out Rick's belongings to the family I was there. His girlfriend picked up Rick's watch and flung it at me screaming that his watch was my shackle and that I should wear it forever. So not a day would go past that I didn't remember what I had robbed from them all. So I wore that watch as my punishment. One day the President appeared like a knight in shining armour and he asked me a simple question.
"Did I want to escape and make myself a new life? If I wanted to he could help me, but I would have to leave everything behind. How could I refuse him, Kyoko-chan? I couldn't tell you even now if I was running away or simply trying to forget, but that day I left with just my passport and a little money in my pocket and came here to Japan."
Looking back up at his beloved he smiled again.
"And that was the start of Tsuruga Ren you know today."
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Well hope you enjoyed that a bit of solid background on Ren *or a background that I've filled out with my own ideas* Kyoko is alive and fighting for life, Ren is slowly coming clean with his life to her unconscious form while slowly a storm approaches.
I really can't wait to get started on the next chapter :D
Q&A
first for everyone that has left a review thank you very much, I deeply appreciate all the support and encouragement I really am enjoying writing this Fanfic I hope as much as you are enjoying reading it.
I was asked on chapter one if I had seen chapter 199 before I thought up this story, honest answer I had seen part of the raw's untranslated but only about 5 pages so if the storyline seemed to match up a little I'm glad, but I doubt it will go like the actual manga from after 2-3 chapter :)
thanks so much to veronca55 for realising I had made a very stupid mistake, I feel extremely foolish because of it because its so stupid but yes from now on I will be using nii-san (big brother) instead of nee-san (older sister) though what a twist that would be if Ren actually turned out to be female *joking of cause :P* and I have to agree with you about having feeling so close yet unable to speak which is why I'm so desperate to try and find someone to draw out the picture I have in my head of that scene "between a wall"
Yes there is a big chance that my story will get more dramatic and yes I'm a bit soppy romantic :P
the Quote at the end of chapter 5 is actually from a song by the artist Adele called Someone like you I use music a lot when I'm writing as normally I sit in a quiet area with my music on full blast and I find it easier than to lose myself in the story while writing if anyone wants a list of my play list of the 15 songs I associate with my story let me know and I'll write down the names artists ect :)
No I would never allow Kyoko to end up with Shotaro sorry if that's a big spoiler but I just could not bring myself to allow someone who treated her so badly to get her if you haven't already guessed I'm a big Kyoko X Ren shipper, going back to the whole writing to music there is an amazing song According to you by Orianthi that I love to think of with sho and kyoko's relationship take a listen there are even some AMV's to it on youtube I believe
I know the chapters are long and very emotion focused at the moment but bear with it, I write it this way as I believe its very important to understand how they are all feeling and with so many people that are going to play parts in this stories ongoing future, I want to be able to show you everyone's view points not just one or two when things calm down a bit character wise the story will hopefully progress at a faster rate (or I hope it will)
I'm always happy to answer any of your question's or queries so feel free to PM or leave a review thanks again for your support :)