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Previously: (Do you like that I always put this in or not?)

Slowly I turned the envelope over and slid a finger under the opening. I quickly hid a wry grin while thinking back to opening my birthday present just a couple of days ago and the subsequent paper cut that had started it all and thought that if this isn't ironic I don't know what is. I pulled out the crisp white paper and was confronted with familiar elegant script and the first line which read,

Bella, you might as well read this out loud, I know everyone is there eager to hear what I have to say...

BPOV:

My hands trembled as I read Alice's words out loud, causing the letter to shake in my hands, making it difficult for my human eyes to focus on her words.

I quickly shot a glance to Edward, my eyes begging for his reassurance and his love to help me to continue. He instantly gave it to me with no hesitation and with a slight nod of encouragement he let his love for me blaze from within his golden depths.

I took a deep breath, spurred on by his love and moved on to read the next sentence out loud:

"Bella despite what you think, none of this is your fault..."

I managed to croak out the last word before my voice faltered and I collapsed shakily into Edwards awaiting arms.

"Edward, how can she say that, it is all my fault. I can't do this...please" I said, my eyes pleading with him to continue for me.

He showed no hesitation and just held me lovingly for a few moments more, before placing a reassuring kiss on my cheek and moving me to take his place on the couch. He then picked the letter up from the coffee table where it had fallen from my hands and standing by me, he leant down his hand and gently caressed my shoulders soothingly, before inhaling an unnecessary breath and continuing to read Alice's letter out loud with his beautiful voice:

"Bella, despite what you think, none of this is your fault. None of us could have foreseen this; especially me, no matter how much I wish I did. None of us could have prevented it; it was a freak, instant thing. Jasper had a natural reaction, which he was unable to control and none of us could have stopped him because he was so close to you.

We love you Bella, nothing will ever change that. Jasper loves you Bella and is so sorry and devastated over this. He feels that you will never forgive him but I know you and I know you will. I have seen that you will forgive him, everything will be alright and we will be returning sooner than you all think

Edward, tell everyone we love them and that all will be ok. Make Bella understand it's not her fault and that we're sorry to you all. We will see you soon...Jasper just needs some more time.

Love Alice

When I heard Edward read out his own name, I realised Alice must be speaking the truth, she must have seen this would happen, that Edward would have to take over reading for me. But still I doubted some of her words...I knew I would forgive Jasper, there was nothing to forgive as far as I was concerned, he did nothing wrong, nothing that could be helped.

But despite Alice's words, I knew it was all me...that this situation was my fault, beginning with my stupid paper cut. I caused this I thought anxiously, my heart beat accelerating rapidly and Edward was instantly beside me, alerted and concerned with my panic.

We all just sat frozen in the lounge room for I don't know how long, absorbing Alice's words. Contemplating her letter and the whole situation...the night of my birthday that started it all.

I sat there next to my love, our hands held together tightly over my belly, while I tried coming to terms with Alice's and Jasper's continued love for me despite what I felt I had done to them. Tears fell unnoticed down my cheeks until Edward gently swept them away. Great I can cry still too I thought wryly, so not vampirish.

Finally I couldn't handle it anymore and I shot up from the couch with more speed than I was used to, shocking everyone, myself included. I turned to Carlisle and Esme on the opposite couch, standing before them with pleading and desperate eyes

"I'm so sorry Carlisle and Esme" I begged

"I didn't mean any of this, I'm so sorry I made them leave, that I broke up the family. I hate that they had to leave all because of me, I'm so sorry. I didn't want to cause you any pain" I cried, more tears flowing now from my anguished eyes.

"Bella" Carlisle cautioned me in a reassuring father-like tone, while Esme quickly shot up to embrace me in a motherly hug. Giving me comfort that I had sorely missed and I embraced her back with all my love.

"You have nothing to be sorry for, as Alice said, none of this is your fault. It happened and we'll deal with it as a family. You are family Bella, as are Jasper and Alice. You have not broken the family, they're coming back" Carlisle said determinedly, getting up to cup my cheek gently as he continued,

"We love you Bella, none of this is your fault, it will be alright you'll see" he said and Esme embraced me harder, kissing my cheek gently. While Edward came up behind us and put his arm around me reassuringly, kissing my forehead.

"I love you Bella. This is not your fault...do you believe us now" Edward said softly into my hair.

I looked into the eyes of my love and I knew he could see my confusion, my difficulty with letting this go and accepting what they were all saying, but we could deal with that later. I just gave him a silent nod of my head and turned fully into his embrace, snuggling into his neck and inhaling his sweet scent, which always made me feel safe.

"Way to be a cry baby Bella" Emmett chimed in, sensing that the initial drama was over and trying to break the tension. But instead was followed by Rosalie giving him a swift slap to the back of his head

"What?" cried Emmett

"That's for being a dumbass" Edward said with a quick murmur.

Carlisle gave a soft chuckle before turning serious. Edward then gave a resigned sigh and turned me around out of his embrace to face Carlisle while keeping his arm firmly around me.

"Bella I think it's time you hunted, surely your throat must be burning with thirst by now" Carlisle inquired.

I nodded quickly before turning my eyes downward and I waited for the familiar sensation of my cheeks turning red to give away my embarrassment. But it never came, thank goodness that human trait had disappeared I thought thankfully. But alas my love knew me too well; he knew my body and all its signals. They had not changed and he reached a finger under my jaw to bring my eyes gently up to meet his. And as I stared into the love shining from his, he whispered to me

"Bella, why are you embarrassed? Hunting is a natural thing for us that we can enjoy together now" he asked curiously.

I slowly turned into the security of his embrace and despite already knowing that the notion of whispering was in vain with vampire hearing, I thought I would try anyway and I whispered to him desperately, looking imploringly into his eyes

"Edward, I'm not sure how to..." I confessed softly.

Edward swiftly took me into his arms, holding me tightly to his body and whispered into my hair

"I will show you my love, it will be my pleasure" he said softly and then pulled his body back slightly to unleash the full depths of his dazzling eyes upon me and I knew I was lost.

The next thing I knew, Edward was tugging my hand and we were racing out the back door and I mean racing. I felt a wonderful sense of freedom being able to run like this and we hopped over the river before racing off into the forest. I was still nowhere near as fast as Edward and probably not even as fast as a normal new-born but it was still much faster than a human and the feeling was exhilarating. Edward matched his speed to mine and held my hand while I giggled with joy as we ran together through the forest.

Suddenly Edward stopped, bringing me to a halt with our joined hands. He looked at me curiously, as if waiting to see what I would do. Eventually after I just stared blankly back at him he looked at me and said,

"What do you smell Bella?"

I could smell hundreds of different things; the damp earth, the green moss that covered nearly every surface, the fresh rain still dripping down from the tress above and then faintly I could smell...

"Rust" I asked curiously, my eyebrow arched.

"Rust?" Edward replied back questionably

"Well yes...rust...its blood I think, just over the ridge. That's what blood smelled like to me before and its familiar now, is that what it is?"

"Is it making you feel dizzy?" Edward asked

"No, not like before. But it's still not a pleasant smell, is it an animal?" I enquired.

"Why don't you go find out Bella, just let your instincts take over. I will be right behind you sweetheart"

I looked deeply into Edward eyes and was met with encouragement and love. I looked intently at them for a couple more seconds, absorbing his strength and belief in me. I then turned around to face the mountain ridge and closed my eyes, allowing my sense of smell to hone in on the rust and then before I had even thought about it, I jetted off and was over the ridge instantly.

I could hear Edward silently following behind me, but I didn't turn around, I didn't stop. I was solely focused on silently sneaking up on the scent and finally when I was within seeing range I saw it, a mountain lion. I instantly felt cold liquid rush into my mouth and I was startled to realise that it was venom.

Before I could hesitate and think about what I was doing, I moved into a crouch and quickly pounced for the mountain lion. Unfortunately it was not as easy as I thought and the lion deftly escaped my grasp as I landed face first on the ground, my arms surprisingly empty.

I instantly jumped up to follow the lion, hearing an angry snarl that I was startled to realise came from me. I set off to chase my prey...yes prey. Maybe I'm more vampire-like than I thought.

I was quickly gaining on the rapidly dodging mountain lion and swiftly made a more calculated lunge this time. I instantly landed on its back and straddled the struggling animal and before I'd even realised it, my teeth were at its neck and warm liquid was filling my mouth.

I drank quickly; the taste was unpleasant and rusty but thankfully bearable. I released the poor animal to the ground when I had finished, quickly wiping my mouth on the sleeve of my blouse. I was startled to see the smear of blood left behind and finally came back to where I was and what I was doing. I looked around for Edward and my eyes finally met his; and the piercing intensity I saw reflected back at me startled me, his eyes were glazed with... desire.

"Bella" he said huskily

"That was so...sexy...you don't know how long I've waited to be able to do this with you. You were beautiful, a natural...and I have to tell you it was hot...it must be my inner vampire animal" he said huskily, turning his eyes downwards as if ashamed to admit that it turned him on.

"Edward" I breathed huskily.

I swiftly crept over to him and it was my turn to put my hand under his jaw and bring his eyes up to look at me. And when they met mine, there were no words to be said, I just closed the gap between us and crashed our bodies together against the nearest tree. Bringing my lips to mesh passionately with his, our lips caressing hurriedly as I begged for entrance into his mouth with my tongue. We were kissing like I had always wished we could and it was incredible.

I let out a soft moan of pleasure as Edward traced my lips with his tongue. I was feeling dizzy, gasping for breath and decided to take charge, breaking my lips from his and pushed against Edwards's shoulders, pushing him hard against the tree trunk. As I slowly but aggressively kissed down his jaw, to his neck, taking little nips of the sensitive skin on his collarbone. Before reaching the buttons of his shirt and quickly ripping the shirt apart sending buttons flying and revealing his gorgeous toned and pale muscles to my eyes.

I felt myself let out a little purr of pleasure which Edward echoed with a guttural groan as I ran my hands over his chest, trailing my fingers over his clenching muscles. Before moving up to tease his nipples and slowly bringing my tongue to circle their hard peaks, causing him to moan and try to move from my grasp. But I was having none of it and pushed on his pecs, pushing him back against the tree before bringing my mouth to suck on his delicious nipples, eliciting a guttural groan of pleasure from him which only caused me to suck harder as I let my tongue swirl around his peaks.

Then I trailed kisses down his stomach muscles, circling his belly button with my tongue. Before moving onto my knees and trailing kisses as I followed the downwards trail of his fine hair leading to the place that I knew was just begging for my touch.

Edwards's erection was prominently straining against his jeans and I smirked up at him as I brought my hand to cup him through his jeans and he groaned gutturally, his eyes staring down at me, glazed with arousal. I quickly undid his jeans and pulled them and his boxers down his thighs, his large thick erection springing free.

He was beautiful, hard and pale and I tentatively reached my hand out to grasp his thick length. This was the closest I had ever been to it as I hadn't done this when I was human. Edward let out a sharp hiss at my touch on his cock and I quickly looked up at him in alarm, but his face was only contorted beautifully in pleasure, which encouraged me to continue.

I slowly gripped his cock in my hands and began to move them up and down his length, judging my speed and grip by the groans coming from him. He was gasping for breath and gripping the tree behind him so tightly I could hear the bark ripping under his hands, but he didn't notice. And when I leant down to lick the glistening drop of venom off the head of his cock he let out a loud deep groan and I felt his cock twitch in my hands.

"God Bella, so good, please...don't stop" he cried

There was no way that was gonna happen. I greedily took the rest of his cock in my mouth and it seemed to grow impossibly larger. I began to move my mouth up and down his length, swirling my tongue around his length and sucking his head, while my hands continued to pump his length and gently caress his balls.

"Bella...ugh I'm so close...I'm gonna" he rasped

And I just kept sucking him hard, swirling my tongue around him and caressing his length as I continued to move him in and out of my mouth. Then I felt him tense and let out a harsh groan as he screamed my name and pumped his venom into my mouth, while I heard a harsh cracking sound as Edward snapped the tree with the strength of his orgasm.

I continued to suck him gently, licking every last drop of his release as he came down from his orgasm. I then gave soft kisses to the top of his thighs before moving to his hips and then to the v of his muscles that I love so much, kissing along the valley there.

I suddenly noticed that Edward was hard again and I swiftly looked up into his eyes that were so full of love and gratitude. Edward reached down to pull me up into his embrace and hastily melded his lips to mine, kissing me hungrily and gripping my face in his hands. Then slowly moving them to caress my jaw and my neck while his tongue continued to torture my mouth, soft sighs of pleasure escaping me.

"God Edward, I want you so much" I cried

"Oh Bella...me too" he grunted between our joined lips

Edward then hastily brought his hands to cup my aching breasts through my shirt and bra as we were swept up in the intensity of our need for each other. I let out a rough purr of pleasure as he gently twisted my hard peaks through my clothes. I pushed my body hard against his, loving the feel of his hard cock against me in all the right places. Edward thrust his hips against mine, causing us both to growl in pleasure. He quickly went to reach between our bodies to rip my shirt off, but as he did he suddenly halted kissing me, freezing his body still against mine with his breaths coming in rough gasps against my neck.

"Edward?" I cried softly

"What's wrong...why did you stop?"

He quickly recovered, pulling his body away from mine to look into my face, his eyes taking on a mask of false happiness as he said,

"Nothing love, we just better be getting home. I've got to talk to Carlisle and they will be wondering where we are"

I just stared back at him in shock; unsure of what just happened...replaying it in my mind and realising what made him stop. I cringed and wrapped my arms around myself while he slung an arm softly around my shoulders and we quickly walked back home. We were silent and all I could think is he doesn't want me...

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About time we got some lemony goodness again hey?

But what's Edward up to now?

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"The summer Edward Cullen came through my window".

It's all about the night Edward came to visit YOU! It's just a one-shot at the moment, but I'll see what happens...

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