Chapter 10- My Newfound Happiness
Kyouya Point of View How do ya like dem apples?
A/N: Chapter 10, done Chapter 11, almost finished
"Hey, are you okay?" he smiled down at me, but the uncertainty in his eyes were evident.
"I've certainly been better." I replied, looking away from his gaze. "I'm really sorry for leaving you like that." I uttered, remembering the events of last night that now rendered me speechless. So many painful memories came to mind at the single mention of last night.
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"Excuse me, but umm… Kyouya-kun?" a small voice called from behind me.
"Yes? Oh… hi Masamune." I replied. Masamune-kun was one of the smallest boys I had ever seen, and not to mention cute, even for a boy.
"Call me Sakurai." He smiled, a small blush forming on his face. Did I embarrass him? But, I kind of liked the blush that I had brought upon his face.
"Is there something you needed?" I smiled, trying to assure him I wouldn't say anything that would make things awkward. It really felt like I was talking to a girl.
"Umm… I really like you. Will you go out with me?" The words fell off his lips with such a determination, but with the slightest hint of insecurity. The sight of his beautiful green eyes made me want to blush too.
My heart skipped a beat as I realized that I was being expected to give an answer.
"S-sure, I'd like that." My heart skipped a beat as his breathe caught. My face burned as we walked home together, and my hand wrapped delicately around his.
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Ever since that moment, I thought Sakurai and I would be inseparable. However, slowly yet surely the cuteness wore off, and the monster shone with a putrid aura. He became more and more possessive, and all he ever wanted to do was go shopping and make me buy him things. We'd go out on dates, and I'd pay for everything because he always thanked me and kissed me with what I thought was 'passion'. That's what I thought was him loving me. But I was obviously a novice when it came to love. I ultimately lost in the end, and that night will somewhat haunt me for the rest of my life.
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"Kyouya… I can't do this anymore!" he stopped, proclaiming this fact with the sound of displeasure staining his once sweet voice.
"Do what, be rude to my childhood friend? Be in a relationship with me? What, Sakurai?" I shouted, knowing no one would be around in this desolate park so late at night. It had to have been at least 9:30 or 10 at night.
He turned around, and began spewing his truth at me, his eyes becoming darker and darker as he continued to rant.
"I'm sick of you constantly clinging on to me and this relationship that you thought was going oh so well. I have a confession, and I think that it will wake you up." His face contorted into a devilish grin, his eyes the darkest forest green I had ever seen them in my life.
"I have been cheating on you for the last 6 months of our relationship. To be honest, I was thoroughly done with you since the 3 month mark. All you wanted to do was kiss me, or hold my hand… But I was looking for more than you are ever willing to give."
He paused, and looked down at the pavement, and I felt as if I were about to collapse there and then.
"So… this was all… a lie? All of it? All those sweet kisses and beautiful words I held onto so dearly, were nothing more than a huge story?" Tears streamed down my face, and I knew that I wouldn't be able to speak soon, the sobs already beginning to break from my chest.
"Well, yeah. My real boyfriend is a wonderful boy. He buys me whatever my heart desires, and I have had made real love with him so many luscious times. He has an amazing dick." He smirked, his eyes so cold and distant.
He walked up close to me, and slowly put a hand on my shoulder. "You see, what's mine is mine. The reason I 'misbehaved' tonight, is because that brat had an eye on you, and he knew that you belonged to me. If he wanted you, I would do anything to get in his way, but with the help of your little friend, I realized that I didn't really need you anymore. You are nothing more than a small fling." He giggled, his old façade pulling the corners of his lips up.
With one more smile, he turned away from me. It is as if he just planted a bomb he had spent months developing, and I was the detonation he had always dreamed of.
"So, you just used me for my money?" I asked, stopping him from walking away.
He turned to me and said bluntly, "And your penis, but I digre-"before he could finish his 2 cents, I smacked him across that once precious face.
"I hope you lose all of your precious money, and then finally realize that your perception of what you call love was totally off the mark. Have a good life with your real boyfriend." I uttered coldly, walking away from the biggest mistake I ever made. I never turned back, but I felt him staring at me, as he stood where he was had.
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"Kyouya, are you sure that you're alright?" he asked quietly. I looked up t him, realizing that I was spacing out.
"Oh yeah, sorry about that… I space out a lot these days… Anyway, I am sorry about last night. It really was my entire fault…" I paused, still affected by my memories.
"Don't worry about it. I knew you needed to go after him, I know what it is to love someone." He smiled at me sadly, but his eyes…. They looked so pained and lonely. Had he been through a situation similar to mine? If so, I felt that he hadn't really healed from it yet. He looked as if he wanted to cry.
"Well, I obviously didn't know the first thing about it." I smiled jokingly.
"Don't you ever say that! I saw the way that you looked at him, and I know what that look means better than anyone! Don't you…" he paused, looking away from me. His bangs covered his eyes slightly, but his cheeks were so red that anyone in the classroom could tell. I looked over his shoulder, and found that some people were actually looking at us.
The group Tamaki is usually in was staring at us avidly, but I could say otherwise for the small blonde, and the Hiitatchin twins. Those three were glaring at me with what looked like irritation or anger on their faces.
"Um… Kyouya…" Tamaki started, breaking me away from my staring/glaring contest.
"Yes?" I replied, looking at his now visible eyes. Instead of sadness however, there was a sense of determination emitting from him.
"You are fine, just the way you are. You know what love really is, and if Sakurai ever doubts you, I don't think he deserves you." He finished with a small huff, and he really looked like he knew what he was talking about.
I couldn't help but feel my lips turn up into a smile at his kind words.
"Thank you for your kindness. You made me feel so much better, just by talking." I commented, smiling even more as his blush darkened even more.
"It wasn't kindness, it was the truth." He ensured, smiling a little bit too.
The bell rang, and startled the both of us, who seemed to be off in our own little world.
"Well, I guess I'll see you later than?" he asked, standing from the desk he was sitting at.
"Of course. Thank you, Tamaki." I smiled, causing him to smile right back at me.
"Anytime." He whispered, walking away. Somehow, his back turned away from me looked so familiar, and my heart gave an unwelcomed stutter. I felt like I had seen this somewhere before, but it was probably nothing. However, I felt like if I let him walk away, I'd never talk to him again.
It felt irrational, but essential to me. "Tamaki, could you do me a favor?" I said at the last minute. I was sort of loud, and got a few unwanted stares in my direction, but I needed to do this.
"Anything." He said immediately as I asked him. My heart stuttered again…
"Can we hang out sometime soon?" I asked, feeling my cheeks burn. My voice sounded so needy, it irritated me so much…
"Sure! Whenever you want to is fine with me!" he seemed so… happy.
"How about this weekend?" I smiled at his childlike excitement. It was so refreshing to see a genuine smile for once.
"Definitely!" he smiled. Then, he walked off to his P.E. class, and I sat there in math, not paying any mind to the person who sat so close, but was now so far. Yet, I really couldn't give a bigger shit, and was actually happy about it. Maybe things aren't as dismal as they led out to be.
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