Chapter 10: Truth
"ouch..Ouch…OUCH!" Ren shouted in pain as I treat the wounds from his face. I was angry at him that's why I really want him in pain to realize that fighting is not right. "Mikan do it with a little bit care." He suggested while I just glare at him
"It's your fault. You should not just fight him. Look what happened." I said angrily finishing aiding his wounds.
"It's his fault I told him not to touch me but he didn't listen." He murmured
"Geez ren grow up." I said rolling my eyes how come they are so immature or maybe this is really what boys are. I am not good at boys I don't get them some times my only friend before that is a boy except Ren and Ruka is Yuu and he is sometimes…hmm…. Soft he is just different from these boys. I was deep in thought when suddenly Ren touches my cheek.
"Does it still hurt?" He ask with concern. 'Nope not anymore." I lied I don't want him to worry about me but actually the truth is that it really hurts it feels like Aya's hands was attached to my cheeks. Ren remove his hands then he sigh
"why sighing" I ask as I look at his sad face
"Mikan…" He started then look at the sky "I just have this one question and I want you to answer it honestly…" he again stop and I saw him close his eyes he looks bothered and sad. I nod my head whatever that question is I swear I'll tell him the truth "Do you like that bastard…..I mean ….Hyuuga…." he continued then I gasp how did ren know? Am I that obvious? He again open his eyes his fist was close it was like it was shaking. I look away and started
"Am I that obvious?" I answered. Suddenly I heard him sigh again
"Why him? What did you see to that bastard that makes you like him?" he said in an angry voice. His jaw clenched and his fist is shaking. What's happening?
"Ren you're shaking are you okay? Did I say something that makes you mad?" I ask in a worried voice
"just answer the question mikan." He ordered. Actually I don't know what my answer really is that is also the question that was still unanswered
"why do I love Natsume?" I thought what really is the reason that I love him? I don't know why but as soon as I saw him I just feel some love and until now my love for him is still here.
"I'm sorry Ren that's the question I also ask myself and haven't found my answer." I explain while he continue in shaking, I touch Ren's face to calm him down then suddenly he look at me for a short period of time then he rest his head on my shoulders. I can feel his warm breath touch my skin.
"Now I really hate that bastard." I heard him said. Why? Why does he really hate Natsume? "Mikan he has a girlfriend." He said out of the bloom I was actually startled at what he said. Why does everyone reminds me of that I know it already
"I know, we're just friends nothings wrong with that I guess." I said defending myself.
"For now how about in the future just forget about him." He told me as he touched my hair. I sigh
"I already tried that but I can't. Nothing will happen we're just friends' period." I said in an unsure tone. What if what Aya said about Natsume just using me what will I feel? What will happen if that really is true?
"Mikan..Mikan… You stupid.. But still I guess it's too early to give up right?" he ask me. He removes his head from my shoulders and look at me "right? Tell me it's too early to give up" I looked at him and he is waiting for my answer. What is he talking about? Without knowing I just nod my head and he just smiled.
I ask Ren not to give me a ride because I have to go somewhere else and he agreed. The truth is I just want Ren to rest he looks so tired.
I was near my house already when I saw a figure leaning on my door. Guess it's a good thing Ren didn't give me a ride or else there will be round 2. I walked to my door and get my key from my bag. I saw the person look at me and sigh. What's with sighing really people? The person stands away from the door to give way for me. I unlocked the door and open the lights.
"You gonna come i-" I was about to ask if he wants to enter but he just pushed me away and enter my house then I saw him sit on my couch. Really very respectful to the owner of the house. I went to him and sit beside him "Why you here?" I ask and he just look at me.
"You 'kay?" He ask me back and I just nod at him I saw his eyes look at my wrist with some bruises because of Aya's nails his brow twitched
"it's nothing." I told him as I hide it by covering it by my hand. Suddenly he looks annoyed then I remember Aya. What happened to her? Did they had fight because of me? I don't want that.
Then I looked at his face and I notice theirs a bright red hand mark the same with mine and I assume Aya must have slap him also. She must have been angry at me that much wherein she brought out her anger in Natsume.
"Natsume…." I started. "…If I am becoming the reason why your relationship with your girlfriend is mess right now. Guess we should just stop being friends." I said as I look down I don't want that I'm happy becoming his friend. I'm already accepting the fact that we are just friends but seeing him hurt and sad because makes me feel guilty
Sigh.. I looked at him as his eyes were locked on mine
"I'm sorry." He said which made me look at him. What the it's the second time he said sorry to me and moreover he didn't do anything which needs to be sorry.
"What?" I asked as I heard him sigh again.
"Aya, she is not what you think she is." He started as I listen to him "I don't know the reason why she did that to you but I'm sure she has a good reason." He stop, then he looked away from me. NAtsume is just defending Aya he was saying sorry in behalf of Aya. He was lowering his ego just for Aya. OUCH. That's the one thing I can say. Aya must have not told the reason why she attacked me; well I also have no intention to tell him.
"You don't have to.. you know say sorry. I understand her." I said which made him look at me again his eyes were wide as if I just said something wrong.
"You understand her? You're not mad at her." He asked in shocked
"yup…" I nod "Well we girls are like that you know so I'm also sorry if you know I bring problems to you guys. Sorry. But don't worry I'll try helping in fixing this problem." I sighed I know I have told Aya and myself that I would fight and protect this friendship I have with Natsume but everything's not in order I have to fix this I don't want Natsume to be hurt.. "NAtsume.."I started again after a long silence "Tell me the truth.." I touch his sore cheeks which I assume was done by Aya "Did you two have fight?" I asked trying to stop my tears.
"It's nothing, and it's not your business." He said coldly which make my heart hurt more. Is it wrong to worry for the guy I like? I can feel the silence it's disturbing what should I say? What should I do?
"yup you're right." I said and I smile at him as I look in his eyes. I want to say it's not my business but really I was the reason why they are in this state because I'm so ambitious, because I want to be closer to Natsume because I'm so selfish thinking of myself and not others. I only think my own happiness, AYa she must have been having a hard time trying to get back Natsume's attention to her. It's all my fault that Natsume is not having time with Aya his girlfriend. I'm selfish I hate me. "It's not my business but I'll still help in fixing things to bring things just like before." I smile at him a sad smile I have decided I'll stay away from him not because I am a coward but because I was strong enough to fix things for him, he must have been hurt when his girlfriend and he fights.
"Don't worry you don't have to try yourself to like me anymore." I laugh sheepishly and I saw him raised his brow he must have not understand what I have said. But I know if he found out that I will start staying away from him he would like it since from the start he doesn't really like me anymore it's just me who push myself towards him. I look at him again as I saw the unaided bruises I stand-up and went to the kitchen to get the first-aid kit there. After a minute I went back as I cupped his face to look me he must not have the time to aid himself since he went here to say sorry in behalf of his girlfriend. He was startled at my touch but I didn't mind him I just continue on aiding him. Then suddenly Ren's image appeared to me he was hurt which made me shrugged I looked at Natsume as he look back at me then I push a little harder my fingers to his bruised face which made him twitched in pain.
"What the fu**!" He shouted and I just laugh
"Never hurt Ren again." I smiled and was about to continue curing him but before I touched his face again his hand touches my own and suddenly I feel something in my stomach it's a weird feeling I don't know it feels like there's something inside it tickling it.
After we looked at each other I can feel his face nearing to mine which made me gulp.
What the heck I want to move but I was frozen he continue on nearing to me as I tried myself to move. Suddenly an image of Aya appeared which made me shocked. Without thinking I pushed Natsume away which made me stand.
"I think I'm finish you have to go home Aya must have been waiting for you." I said in a low voice.
I can feel the heat in my cheek even though I don't know what he was about to do just the fact he was so near me makes my heart jump. I saw him shook his head then he went outside not bothering to look back at me.
I sigh
Today was the last day I will be like this with NAtsume….
I'll try my best to stay away from him for the sake of his happiness for the sake of everyone's happiness…..
Hello guys…..
This chapter was not that nice…But don't worry the next chapter will be worth it…
^All of you might be saying "I hate Aya, she a *****" but I'll give you some idea ….some thing happen before… and that some thing made her life miserable…. if you are wondering what it is well just wait for the other chapters to come…
^To those people who loves Ren .. well let's see… but another idea not all things he say is true but I don't say it's a lie… also he's a coward..
^To Natsume's team … well…. What can I say he's a pervert… and also a man who likes to take advantage….
You might all wonder now so if you want to know all the truths just tuned in….
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