IM SOOOOO SRRY!!!! i have just been so busy and i've had a little bit of writers block, but its all good now. well this next chapter is BPOV and it starts where the last bpov ended, with her finding the note and jake just getting there. oooooooo!!!!! I have awsome news, I have the outline for the rest of this story writen so all i have to do is write and thats just the easy part. oh, also before i forget i think u guys should all go read Lost Cause by Passionate86, IT ROX MY SOX!!! well i luv it, and so u will actually listened and to make ur life easier hears a link : .net/s/4911676/1/Lost_Cause ! well i dont own twilight but i wish i did and i wish that stephanie meyer would write another book in the twilight series but htats not going to happen, just like calium and sodium will never bond.(yes im a chemistry merd, deal with it!) i can not stress enough how much i would luv it if u guys reviewed, u people whos stories i read, i always review ur stuff so why dont u review mine, and those who do review are awsome. oh also im changing the name of this story, any suggestions? also special thanks to rockellie, for caring enough about my story to write me and offer suggestions, U ROCK!!! and a super duper thanks to one of my best friends monse, u rocks too, thanks for still reading my story and sticking with me through ups and downs!!! well that took long enough, lol, now go r&r before i decided to be mean and delete this chapter.

BPOV

"I don't know what happened." I told Jake through sobs. "I thought we got off to a good start, it was going so well."

I couldn't control it, I was crying again. I felt so bad for Jake, having to see me like this. I couldn't, but I did; I shouldn't, but I have. I wouldn't for much longer, I had to get myself together for at least five minutes; so he'd believe me and leave me alone to wallow in my misery.

I calmed the crying down to a sniffling, then tried as hard as I could to sound calm, "Jake, I think I'm ok now. Can you leave me to myself for a little while? I mean, I appreciate everything you are doing, but I would really love to be alone for a little while."

I saw reluctance in his expression, so I quickly added, "I promise I'll stop by and see you later."

"Fine, but if you need a shoulder to cry on, just remember I'm here for you. Since I met you I felt a strong bong being formed Bella, so never doubt that I'm here for you." he was being so honest that I almost believed him, but I learned from this past experience not to believe everything I hear.

"Ok Jake" was all I could say. Still somewhat reluctant, Jake got up, gave me one last hug and left.

Once I closed the door, a fresh wave of tears spilled out; so I went to take a shower. Showers are something that calms me completely, but somehow today it just didn't work.

Every second my mind wasn't filled with other thoughts, he slowly crept back into it. I decided to relax every part of me slowly to keep myself occupied; it would be like meditating in the shower. I decided to start at my feet and work my way up, knowing my mind would be the hardest.

I freed my mind of everything but breathing and trying to release all the weight in my body and become weightless. I realized this was slightly to hard to do standing up, so I turned the shower head off and let the tub fill with water.

As I waited for it to fill, my thoughts filled with thoughts of him. The beautiful Edward, the to good to be true Edward, the will never be mine Edward. It was painful just to think his name.

As I heard the water trickle in the background; what was predominant in my mind was his voice. It was what I least wanted to think about right now; but there it was, like a gerbil gnawing away at a piece of cardboard. His beautiful, silky angel-like voice was gnawing away at my every thought, fighting for dominance in my mind.

Why would he tell me that he loved me, if it wasn't real? Why would he kiss me, if this was going to end? Why would he tease me, like a mouse with a piece of cheese, and then snatch it away at the last second?

I suddenly felt water surround my feet; I vaguely remembered that my feet weren't in the bathtub. I looked down to find the water spilling out of the tub, great now I'd have to clean that up. Just screw it; I'm tired and I've had a terrible, depressing day.

I got in the tub, causing more water to spill over, that is going to be killer to clean up. Then again maybe it would be a distractions, I would worry about that later. Right now, relax Bella, breathe in, deep breathe, out.

This might end up working; I could feel the numbness taking over. Why? The completely useless and forever unanswered question roamed idly in my mind.

Well maybe not unanswered, oh he made it pretty freaking clear why he was leaving ME! I don't even blame him, but some how I know something is wrong. I can feel it, something is definitely off.

I can't possibly relax now that this thought is stuck in my mind. I got out of the tub. Wow, such a big mess for nothing in the end. I laughed without humor, somehow even without even being here, he managed to ruin another aspect of my life.

I dried off, got in my PJ's, and went to the living room. I found his note under the couch after about ten minutes of looking. Jake must of thrown it down there, always looking out for me.

I couldn't help but smile at that, what was I doing again? Oh yeah, the note, there had to be something here, something out of place.

I knew then that I would put my knowledge of the English language to good use; in other words, analyze the hell out of this note. There would be something and if there wasn't then I'd give up, I wouldn't say move on because I'm not really sure I was capable of that.

Even though I had only gone out with him for all of one day, I felt like I was somehow connected to him.

I grabbed the note, put on my white Ray-bans to hide the puffiness of my eyes from all the crying, and grabbed my cell and keys on the way out the door; on my way to Angela, my best friend's, house.

She would surely know what to do, she was destined to be a journalist as soon as she was done at Yale, well high school first, then Yale.

She always knows what to do, I was about to call her, going down the stairs, when I realized I was wearing my PJ's again. Why do I always do that? Well these weren't that bad either, good thing I didn't bring my Victoria secrets night gown my mom had bought me a couple of birthdays ago, it was safely tucked away in Arizona and not being exposed to all of New York City.

I should probably call a taxi, but the fresh air will help clear my mind and help me think; plus I left my money upstairs. I crossed the street and decided to cut through the alley.

Hmm…lets see what exactly do I know about Edward; Angela would need some where to start. Well he's probably rich, and he's hot, with his gorgeous blue eyes.

I suddenly felt like something was following me. I quickly looked behind me but there was nothing.

That's it, maybe Edward was kidnapped, that happens a lot in a city like New York. There was motive, that being that he was rich, they could of done it for the ransom. I suddenly felt an urgency to get to Angela's house, so I started running.

I felt like someone was following me again, I didn't stop, but looked behind me. This suddenly felt like a horror movie, especially in this alley. When I turned back to look forward, I was stopped dead in my tracks.

There was someone standing here. How was that even possible? There was about half a mile from where I was standing to the end of the alley, there was no way she could've got there without me hearing, or even in that short amount of time.

She was beautiful with her pale skin that complemented her beautiful fire red hair. She didn't look a day past twenty; she was the kind of girl Edward would fall in love with, not plain me. She started walking towards me, as I started walking back.

"Don't be scared Bella." she said in a lovely angel like whisper. Wait how did she know my name?

I started running in the opposite direction, I looked back to see if she was following me. She was gone, so I stopped and stared at the spot where she had been standing.

Had she been a figment of my imagination, I really don think so, she had looked very real.

"Silly Bella, you can't run from me." she said right by my ear.

I jumped and turned to see her standing there with a smile on her lovely face.

"Who are you? And how did you do that?" were the only words that escaped my lips.

"silly me" she began, "I forgot to introduce myself. I'm Victoria, and well I know your Bella."

"how do you know I'm Bella?" was all I could manage to utter in an almost silent voice. Victoria must of heard me because she answered in a very fake voice,

"Dear Bella, that's for me to know, and for you to never find out." I wanted to run, but I couldn't move, also that wouldn't be the greatest idea in the world; who knew what Victoria was capable of.

A surge of courage flowed through me and I spat out, "what do you want? And why are you following me?"

I started to walk backwards again but tripped and fell to the ground. She was in front of me in an instant.

"Sweet Bella" she continued in her fake voice, "We were going to do this the easy way, but now because of your foolishness, you are going to suffer,"

her next words caught me off guard,

"just like Edward."


cliffy again, i just luv doing that. i know i evil, and if u knew me u would also say im weird. well next chapter is going to be pretty short so im probably going to go post it right now, wow , thats initiative. LOL! well it really is considering its 1:30 in the morning. wel i think im going to start uping my standard after next chapter. well i think i did enough talking before so now go review and if you dont i'll find u, i knows where u all live and im going to send victoria to find you!!!!! REVIEW!!!!!!!!

much luv always
elie