Hello my lovelies!

So I have this big essay due soon so I might not be able to update for a little but I wanted to mention it to you guys so you don't think I'm dead. (that would not be good)

Anyway, back to the story!

Disclaimer: I do not own BMW or GMW.

Something had changed between Riley and Lucas. It was noticeable, everyone, from Maya and Farkle to Topanga and Cory, noticed a change. They were closer in some indescribable way. Ever since the night of the park, Riley and Lucas had been smiling at each other like crazy and they were staring at each other when the other wasn't looking. They were next to each other whenever they were in the same room, leaning into each other like the other one might disappear if they looked away.

Riley hadn't told anyone that Lucas told her that he loved her, not even Maya. Lucas had done the same. It was their little secret, almost like it was an exclusive club that only Lucas and Riley knew about.

The next day when Maya had come to pick Riley up from school, Riley wasn't peppy and ready to go. She was more relaxed and laid-back. Those were two words that really weren't associated with Riley, usually she was nervous, on edge, careful for any bad happenings. But Maya knew Riley enough that she was aware when Riley wasn't telling her something,

When they got to school, Maya decided to bring it up.

"You're holding back," Maya informed Riley.

"What?" Riley asked confused.

"You. Riley Maria Matthews, are not telling me something. So spill," Maya demanded.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Riley stuttered.

"Bullshit. You go on and on about how you're scared we won't stay best friends and we promised each other that that would never happen, but here you are hiding something from me. God," Maya paused to take a breath. "You're such a god damn hypocrite."

Riley exploded. "I'm a hypocrite. I'm the hypocrite here. Right? Yeah says the person who admits that she is in love with Farkle but then doesn't even tell him that their dating. Newflash Maya, he likes you and you like him."

"It's because I'm not ready!" Maya defended.

"And I'm not ready to tell you about what happened so can you just back off?"

There suddenly was a deafening silence between them. No one had ever seen this big of a fight between the two best friends. It wasn't long before the other began talking drawing the attention of more people.

"You know what Riley? Fine, have it your way. You know why? Because you won't let anyone else have their share until you get yours. You beg and plead and cry until you get what you want. You know what you are, you're a selfish bitch," Maya spat.

Another silence, and soon enough Lucas and Farkle had gathered around to watch this go down.

"What? Too scared to speak?" Maya drawled. "That's right because you're also insecure and the only confidence you get is from me. There I said it. Try being your own person Riley. I'm done."

Maya started to walk away but then Riley shouted back.

"Yeah, and you're actually a ticking time bomb that wants control and has mommy and daddy issues!"

That got Maya's attention.

"What about you? Huh, Matthews? You live in a fantasy! You are so convinced that the world is this nice place that will treat us all with care if we treat it nice in return. But guess what? You're wrong. And I may have mommy and daddy issues but at least I'm not an uncultured idiot that treats her dad like scum. You're lucky to have a dad you ungrateful little bitch. You know what you can do now? Go jump off a cliff you asshole."

Maya walked away, chin up, shoulders back. Riley stood there, tears slowly starting to pour, as she watched her life break right in front of her eyes. Farkle and Lucas who had been standing there for a while now were debating what to do. Farkle wanted to go after Maya after all Riley had addressed her parental issues in front of everyone but Riley wasn't as headstrong and confident as Maya. She could break at just the slightest poke and that's where he needed to be.

"Riley," Farkle soothed.

"Don't touch me. I just lost my best friend. I addressed her weakness in front of everyone. I don't deserve you Farkle, and especially you Lucas. I'm so sorry," Riley pleaded.

She ran down the hallway and out the door as the crowds started to disperse. Maya, who was sitting on the steps of the school, watched as Riley ran. But she wasn't heading home. She was running away. And her stomach dropped. She might have pushed Riley too far and called her a bitch first but she also had pointed out how weak Riley was. She was vulnerable and she wasn't good at making choices right away.

Riley was running away. To where, Maya didn't know. But she couldn't go after her. Then what was she doing now? Running towards Riley, pulling her back as she struggled to get away from her best friend then collapsing from exhaustion was not in Maya's plan book. But she did it anyway.

"I'm sorry," Maya whispered.

Something was off though. Riley's breaths had become short and fast like she couldn't breathe. She was having a panic attack. Maya wasn't really sure what caused it but she had to do something.

Maya held Riley and took her phone and called Mr. Matthews who rushed out with Farkle and Lucas not too far behind. And Maya stood still as Farkle called an ambulance and Lucas cried quietly and Mr. Matthews holding his daughter so tight she was afraid that Riley would break. She watched on as the ambulance arrived and Riley, though not in extreme pain, was put into the back with an oxygen mask over her mouth. She saw Lucas break down at the sight of Riley being in pain and she saw Farkle as he came and gave her a hug. But she still stood still.

Eventually, once school was out, the now three friends made it to the hospital. They were informed that it wasn't serious, but that Riley's panic may have been triggered from the fear of loss and the rash decisions that she made. The doctor suggested therapy to which Cory had denied and said they'd have family therapy at home where everyone would talk. The doctor, albeit reluctant, agreed.

"You guys can visit her now," Mr. Matthews said calmly.

Maya went in first. Riley was awake, she wasn't in her gown anymore since they were just running some simple tests then letting her go. But Riley wanted some time to process the fact that she might have a panic disorder that was caused by this panic attack, so the doctors let her stay in the room until 5. Which was 15 minutes away.

"What did the doctors say?"

"I might have a panic disorder."

"Is that bad?"

"It's not good," Riley joked good-heartedly.

"Was it because of me?" Maya asked.

"Partially," Riley simply stated. "But it was more the thought that I might lose you was what could've triggered it. But since it was one time it might not be a problem."

"Might," Maya reiterated.

"Yeah, but it's more likely that because it happened, it'll happen again. But only in extreme circumstances."

"Like, if one of us died," Maya suggested.

"Yeah, I guess."

"I'm sorry, Riley."

"Don't be. The doctor said that this was a minor panic attack and that-"

"Not about that," Maya said. "Well kinda but, I'm sorry that I called you a bitch."

"I'm sorry I said you have parental problems."

"Well I do."

"And I am kinda a… b-word," Riley mumbled.

Maya laughed at Riley's innocence noticing for the first time that they depended on each other more than they thought. She was grateful that they were best friends.

"By the way," Riley remembered. "Lucas told me he loved me. That's what I wouldn't tell you."

"Why not?"

"I don't know. I guess it was nice to have something to myself."

Maya and Riley smiled, understanding each other without talking. But after everyone had visited and Riley was checked out there was an undertone of concern hanging in the air. Riley was now a potential panic disorder person and that was scary in itself.

But there was going to be no more secrets. That was a promise.

I know that this was a little weird and kinda unexpected but I felt like things were getting boring and I need to spice things up. So I'm not an expert at hospitals or panic disorder so I'm sorry if I did something wrong or offended someone.

Please review! This was a little out of my comfort zone and I want to know how I did.

Love, ChevronStars