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Chapter 9- Decision.

(Still Leah's point of view)..

''Aren't you going to hear what I was about to say?'', Jacob shouted chasing me up and standing in front of me. Instead of walking around him like I should of done, I stopped and stared past him.

''Shoot'', I said out of memory, I still can't believe he can't recognise me. I said that all the time. Jacob winced rubbing his chest.

''You don't have anywhere to stay do you?'', Jacob asked taking a step back from me. So I was repulsive? Or just repelling?. For the past three years I had imagined myself coming back to meet him but this, I never planned for this.

''No I don't'', I said still imitating another persons voice.

''I have a friend that might be able to help you, his names Seth Clearwater and his family will take you in for a while, they've got a spare room'', Jacob stopped in thought, his eyes closed. So they were replacing old Leah? With fake Katie?. My heart burned around the edges. Was I not wanted anywhere?. I've spent years missing my family, just wishing they were near me.

''I'm sorry but I shouldn't be here, I'm sure your friends are nice people but I really don't think that's the right idea. I'm practically a stranger to them'', my voice strained, that hurt a lot to say that. Maybe I should come clean? But then why would I ruin Jacobs life?. He seemed to be hiding something and I couldn't help but want to be near him -he had my heart.

''Don't be silly, you can stay here as long as you like and I'm sure the Clearwaters will take you in for a while'' -Jacobs jerky smile lit his face, the same one he used to always show me, the smile I fell in love with, Maybe he recognised me!-''Katie''. My heart ripped, my teeth clenched. For all the hope I had allowed myself to feel, he thought I was this 'Katie'. I would of killed to of heard my name in his husky male voice, for too long I have waited and waited for him to find me but he never came. He didn't want me. The old Leah was showing through, I allowed that. I allowed a piece of the real me to show through -my sarcastic smile and defensive body posture. I blinked away the dwelling tears in my eyes and closed myself up. Your better than this, don't be a weakness in front of him Leah!, I thought over and over again. When I didn't speak, Jacob did.

''Common lets go, it will be okay'', Jacob put his hand on the back of my shoulder as a friendly gesture to help me through the forest. It wouldn't be okay Jacob!, don't you dare say that!, I'm Leah!, I screamed in my head. I allowed myself to be guided through the forest towards my house. Just one glimpse, just one, then I would leave when Jacob leaves. Just to make sure Seth was okay.

He lead me silently out of the forest and down the road past the La Push beach, past his house and down the long winding road towards my house. I could see it now, the house -my house.

Why did I have to come back?, this is going to kill me. I had made three years progress and just thrown it down the drain. Your weak Leah Clearwater!.

''See the house down the road. That's the house'', Jacob whispered next to my ear. His scent filled my nose making my heart wince. Memories flashed back through my mind. So many memories!. Like the old Leah would, I kept it together and kept quiet whilst I secretly broke inside.

A figure far away in the distance was dangling himself from a tree and back flipped towards the ground and continued to fall. I gasped.

''He's going to hurt himself!'', I shouted running towards my brother with a speed like no other human girl. It felt nice to feel the air whipping through my hair so fast. My hands started trembling. I would not change!. I gripped my hands into fists running closer towards Seth who was now laying on the ground moaning.

''Are you okay!?, you could of hurt yourself'', I knelt down beside him, controlling my trembling. I looked back over at Jacob who was still walking down the road.

''Leah?'', Seth whispered staring at me if I was a ghost.

''Ssh Seth its okay. Don't tell anyone. Not even Jacob'', I begged helping him sit up.

''You came back!'', Seth shouted trying to hug me, I pushed him back to the ground and pinned him down like I would when we were fighting.

''Listen you say anything to Jacob or to anyone else you're dead meat, now play along and say your hurt jerk'', I threatened in a low voice. Seth looked at me and nodded as Jacob walked up next to us.

''Owe!'', Seth moaned clutching his arm. Perfect, my brother was the best actor in the world.

''Are you okay?, my name's Katie and I saw you fall'', I acted out my part with a high pitched voice.

''I think I've just seen a voice. Is that Jacob standing there?. Of course it is. What could he possibly want now?, my forgiveness?'', Seth winced rolling his eyes. I nudged him secretly in the back with the hand I was using to support him up. He jumped a little.

''Listen Seth, I haven't been fair in the past three years but I'm sorry and would like to talk more about it but then I met Katie and she needs a place to stay'', Jacob began lifting Seth of the floor onto his feet. Seth hadn't changed in three years, accept get a little bit taller and muscular.

''We have an old room that she can stay in. She will feel as if she's lived here before'', Seth smiled at me. I kicked his foot when Jacob wasn't watching. He seemed troubled.

''I have to check on Billy now Seth and I'm sorry, real sorry but please make Katie comfortable and I will come by tomorrow'', Jacob grinned half-heartedly and started walking back down the road slowly.

''Thank you, it was nice to meet you'', I called after him staring at his back. I never knew how much it would hurt me to watch him walk away.

''No problem, it was nice to meet you too, see you tomorrow'', Jacob waved and started running down the road.

''So Leah, where the hell have you been!'', Seth grinned pulling me towards the front door. I hesitated and then let myself be dragged into the house.

''San Francisco'', I smiled quickly not telling him where in San Francisco.

''That's miles away!'', Seth shouted happily hugging me whilst slamming the front door. The house hadn't changed in the three years, accept a few family portraits had been nailed to the walls.

''I know but I had to get away'', I looked around our small living room and listened out for the familiar singing or whistling. That's when I saw her. My mother coming down the stairs with her hair bunched on top of her head wildly. Her clothes were baggy but comfortable for after work. Her eyes carried black bags and her skin creased with worry lines. She wasn't old -just a constant worrier. She was cradling a washing basket full of clothes and had my favourite apron on. Without looking our way she began to talk her soothing voice.

''Seth dinner is in a few minutes'', She continued to walk towards the kitchen.

''Hi mom'', I whispered. She stopped dropping the washing basket and turned her head. Her face had turned pale. Her eyes stared at me for a minute trying to reassure herself that I was actually there.

''Leah my baby!, she's home!, Oh honey!'', My mother cried out making her way towards me. I ran towards her with my arms stretched. I had missed her soothing voice and gentle comforting hugs. She embraced me into her arms.

''You came back to me!'', She cried, I flinched at her wet tears. I would soon have to leave -what would she do then?. I stiffened trying to pull out of her embrace.

''I came back to say hello'', I smiled tightly, in my head I said 'I shouldn't have come back at all'.

''Stay with us!, dinner is almost done and I always cook to much food, you know that!. Oh your beautiful hair!, its grown back lovely. Its down to your waist!'', She smiled touching my hair, caressing my face proudly.

''I know I started growing it again'', I smiled staring at the floor.

''Its beautiful, you are so beautiful. Now take your things upstairs and come back down for dinner'', She clapped happily kissing both of my cheeks before walking away in the kitchen. With my hands, I touched my cheeks staring after her.

''For mom's sake, stay for a few days'', Seth nudged me taking off my backpack for me and leading me up the stairs. In shock, I kept my hands on my cheeks walking with him like a robot. He lead me up the stairs to my bedroom, which was as I left it but neater. It looked like it had been recently polished and cleaned.

''Why is my room clean?'', I snapped out of robot mode and started picking up random pieces of my belongings. Seth ignored my question.

''She cried every night you know, she even started doing your laundry and cooking extra meals in case you came back'', Seth sat down on my small bed.

''It must have been hard for her'', I nodded gnawing on my lip.

''What about me?, I had to comfort her and give her zero information on her daughters disappearance. She has finally stopped crying'', Seth stood up angrily.

''I'm sorry'', I looked at the floor again, spotting one patch of dust. At least there was something that was still here when I wasn't.

''Sorry doesn't cover it. Now tell me where you went or I'm calling Jacob'', Seth threatened. I spotted the open window beside my bed, ready to run towards it.

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