Lindsay put a hand on her once flat stomach, just thinking. It wasn't until just now that she realized how terrified she was of having this baby. She wanted the baby, she really did, but the idea of supporting the life of another human being scared the living daylights out of her.
Danny walked into the bathroom just then. "Morning, honey." He said. He saw the look on Lindsay's face. "What's wrong?"
"I'm getting fat, Danny."
"You're not fat, Linds, you're having a baby."
"Well, I'm still fat."
Danny sighed. "This isn't about getting fat is it?"
"No," Lindsay said, beginning to cry, "What if I'm a bad mom?"
"Oh, Linds, baby you're gonna be a great mom!" Danny assured her, taking her into his arms.
"How do you know? I don't have any experience with little kids! I'm the baby of the family. I never did much babysitting as a teen…. I don't think I can do this!"
"Yes you can. I'm not sayin' that it isn't gonna be hard, 'cause it probably will. But we're gonna get through this together. I'll be here with you every step of the way. Everything is gonna be fine."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, Lindsay, I'm sure. You're ready for this."
"Ok, ok." She said taking a deep breath. "I'm sorry," she apologized. "It's the hormones…they're getting me all worked up all the time."
"Not your fault." He reminded her.
"I know, but I just feel bad for crying all the time and putting you through this."
"I wouldn't have it any other way."
"Danny," Mac said, coming up behind him. Danny was processing some evidence in the crime lab, and was alone until Mac had entered the room.
"What?" Mac and Danny's relationship had been slightly strained ever since their argument about the baby.
"Lindsay's beginning to show." Mac said simply.
"You think I don't know that? She's my wife, Mac."
"I know, I'm just saying that you need to think about making a formal announcement sometime soon."
"I'm aware of that, Mac, but I don't know if the time is right. Lindsay's still a little hesitant to let everyone know."
"And why would that be?"
Danny sighed, not wanting to have to fill his boss in on every feeling his wife had. "She's scared. She's scared about how people will react, she's scared that she won't be taken seriously as a cop, but most of all she's terrified that she won't be a good mother."
Mac shrugged. "That stuff is none of my business, it's between the two of you. But as your boss I'm telling you that you need to let everyone know."
"Ok. Fine."
"What were you and Mac talking about earlier?" Lindsay asked her husband later that day when they were eating lunch.
"When?"
"You were in the lab. I was walking down the hall and saw you guys talking."
"Oh…. Mac says we gotta tell everybody."
"Now?"
"He said soon."
"Danny, we haven't even told our families yet."
"I know."
"I'll talk to Mac after lunch."
"You sure you want to?"
"No. But I know I have to."
"Alright. I'll be right beside you the whole time."
Later that afternoon the whole team was gathered in a conference room. It was rare that Mac called a team meeting, so they all chatted amongst themselves wondering what was going on. Flack, on the other hand, kept to himself. He had noticed that Lindsay was beginning to show and figured that this meeting had something to do with her.
"Ahem," Mac cleared his throat to get the attention of his team. "I called you guys here today because some team members of ours have an announcement to make." He nodded at Lindsay and Danny.
Biting her lip, Lindsay stood up and faced her co-workers. "I'm pregnant." She said quickly.
Everybody smiled and began to congratulate her and Danny.
"What is it?" Hawkes asked.
"We're not sure yet." Lindsay answered, still uncomfortable because of all the attention. "I have an appointment next week and we're going to find out."
After a few more minutes of excitement, Mac told everybody to get back to work. Stella approached Lindsay for the first time then. "Congratulations." She said hugging her. "This is so exciting!"
Lindsay smiled. "Yeah, it is."
"Have you picked out any names?" Stella asked as they walked down the hall together.
"There's a couple that we like, but we haven't picked one yet. It'll be easier to look for a name when we know if we should be looking for a boy or girl."
"True…. I'm happy for you." Stella said, as they parted.
"Thanks." Lindsay smiled, as she watched her friend walk away. She sighed, relieved that she had been relieved of the burden of telling her co-workers. She then realized that she had yet to tell her mother. 'Oh boy.' She thought. 'This isn't gonna be fun.'
A/N Ok…so my chapters have had slightly lame endings recently. I just can't figure out the best way to end them. It seems like my ideas are all running together making chapters confusing. Whatever. I've decided on a name for Baby Messer. But you don't get to know it! Ha ha so there. You'll have to keep reading if you want to know what he/she is going to be named. Coming up next: Lindsay tells her mom and the happy parents to be get some surprising news!
