Kwazii hadn't been heard from in weeks. The crew missed his joyful laughter, wild calls and actions, wild pirate tales and stories. Peso was worried about his health and wanted to check on him, but Kwazii had changed the code on his room and wasn't letting anyone in. Everyone was worried. No one ever saw him eat or do anything really, not since the Captain had died. It had been a freak accident, that left everyone broken and scarred, Kwazii mostly since he'd been the one to find the body. Dashi knocked on Kwazii's door but didn't get a reply.
"Kwazii? i-it's Dashi. w-we need you out here. you were his lieutenant, so you have to take his place." Dashi said. Kwazii's door flew open and Dashi gasp at how miserable and angry he looked. She could see his ribs and the bags under his eye's. he looked like the walking dead. His fur was matted and messy, his eye's dead and cold.
"h-how dare ye! n-no one ca-can take his p-place!" Kwazii screamed, tears and fire in his eye's. "no one! not me! not Shellington! not ye! not Tweak! not Inkling! and certainly not some stranger!" Kwazii shouted. He slammed his door shut and locked it. His eye's welled up with tears and he sank to the floor. "I-I need ye Bear. I-I can' live without ye." Kwazii sobbed softly. Dashi's heart broke when she heard his sobs, she hadn't mean to upset him. She listened to his sorrow, heart breaking sobs as long as she could. She heard his plea's and his begging to either be taken too or have his lover come back. She turn and walked away to tell everyone what had happened.
"I-i'm sorry Kwazii." Dashi said tearfully. Kwazii sobbed into his paws. He needed his husband. He couldn't survive without him.
"I-I love ye." Kwazii cried. He was surprised he could still cry. It'd been three weeks and that seemed to be all he could do. He had all of Barnacles personal possessions and his room looked like a shrine. Kwazii had never felt pain like this before. it felt like his heart was shattered and gone. Kwazii looked regretfully at the knife he had. He'd tried suicide several times, but couldn't seem to do it, something told him it would shame his mate, so he cut himself. He grabbed the knife, put it to his skin, and didn't even flinch when he cut his arm. He watched the blood run down his fur and laughed like a crazed lunatic. He laughed as more tears fell and he swung around, flinging the knife into the closest wall as hard as he could. His laughter suddenly turned into a long, loud pain filled scream that rattled his dome and made his voice crack harder. He curled up on the bloodstained floor and wept. "I need ye baby." Kwazii cried.
"Peso, I think Kwazii needs you. he's been cutting himself and I can see her ribs." Dashi said softly. Peso nodded and went for Kwazii's room. His heart broke when he heard Kwazii's sobbing.
"Be-Bear I need ye!" Kwazii sobbed. Peso sighed and knocked on the door.
"Kwazii, it's me, Dashi said you were bleeding." Peso said softly. Kwazii continued to sob and didn't answer. Peso opened the door and was shocked to see the floor covered in blood along with Kwazii and a knife. "Kwazii!" Peso cried. He teared up. "Kwazii! Please! Speak to me! Please Kwazii!" Peso shouted. It was too late. Kwazii was gone he'd slit his wrists and curled up in the floor, clinging to a picture of Barnacles and him together. Peso walked into the HQ cover in blood and tears. "Kwazii couldn't take the pain. He commited suicide. I got there too late to save him, but he gave birth to a baby boy to which he named Barney in a note I found on the floor stating he never knew he was pregnant." Peso said soft holding up a little blue bundle. "He gave full custody to Dashi." Peso said handing the baby over. Dashi cried and held him.
"Little guy, you'll know your parents, dont worry." Dashi said through her tears.