Alright I was dead for a while there, at a time I must have forced myself into stasis lock but Primus needed to have a friendly chit chat with me. He brought me to his domain, I don't know what to call it Cybertronian heaven? Anyway he told me I wouldn't remember many things before my death but also told me I would slowly begin to remember them as a gift. He told me I had a rough path and with my memory he promised me something else, he said he didn't want the other half of his creation to become evil and so he gave me my memories from a chip that was in my processor, whatever that means. Plus another gift, one that I need to discover on my own. He said I need to prepare myself for a challenge in my life but that he will always be there for me along with my family. I don't know if he actually meant family by energon (which is impossible) or team family. The rest of the conversation didn't make sense but I don't remember it anyway just that it didn't make sense. He said the rest of the conversation was going to be like the chip that was removed from my memory banks, that it would slowly return to me on my journey. My processor came back to my current position and I watch the doc bot examine me.

"how did you survive?" I followed his stare to my chest plate I opened it up and saw my spark chamber it was scolded like someone shot me

"huh that's new" I say as calmly, it must have been Megatron or one of the cons at a point.

"doc bot, what happened to me? Do you know?" a little worry eats at me but I force myself to stay neutral but my optics give me away.

"I'm not sure Stormblaze" he assured me although his face and voice weren't promising me a story, all my years of interrogating, I could tell right off the bat that even a skilled liar was lying to me. I narrow my optics threateningly the CMO picks up on my expression and looks at me puzzled.

"don't lie to me medic" I growl.

"please my name is Ratchet, and I am not lying to you I don't know all the events that led up to your current condition" I caught his half-truth instantly.

"fine then tell me what you know 'Ratchet'" I say stressfully not really yelling but pretty damn close.

"it is not my place" he stated flatly continuing his scans on me

"then who's place is it to say?" my nerves settle back down, the last time I woke up in this kind of situation and got my memory back I nearly went into shock, I wanted to know this time before I got my memory back and the same thing happened, when a bot goes into shock it is pretty much like stasis but you can still feel and see you are awake you just can't move and you are totally vulnerable to anything and anyone.

"please Ratchet, this has happened to me before and I know I will get my memory back, I want to be prepared for the worst" I practically begged Ratchet looked at me unsure then finally said:

"fine"

Ratchet finished telling me what happened.

"and you jumped into Optimus's line of fire so it would hit your spark chamber directly instead of just hitting you in the shoulder" Ratchet finished as he was telling me the story I was getting flashbacks, and it all came back to me, there was still a large hole of my memory was missing that I will have to fill in. despite being told this I looked at Ratchet then smashed my faceplate into my hand I felt horrible.

Ratchet making a sound out of his vocalizer about what happened to the femme, it wasn't his place to tell her. She smashed her hand into her face then ran it down to her mouth plates where she held it she looked like she was going to cry but kept herself calm. Ratchet had the worst feeling she was coming to hate Optimus and he put her in the position to do so.

"I-" she had to stop so she wouldn't cry.

"I attacked Optimus prime?" this surprised Ratchet.

"Primus, I attacked the leader of the Autobots! I am horrible!" her servos turned into fists and she placed them on the foreplate of her head she seemed so angry, but with herself.

"I hurt him! Why was he happy to see me online? I don't deserve to be online I am a horrible!" she flung her servos off of her head and looked up at the ceiling trying to calm herself.

"Stormblaze, you heard the fragment of the story where the Decepticons planted a chip in your head and were controlling you correct?" Ratchet reassured

"That's no reason Ratchet! I should have been able to fight it! Optimus doesn't need to fight Decepticons AND weak minded Autobots!" she cried she shook her head Ratchet hoped her air filter wouldn't get congested and cause her to begin to overheat. He could hear the whiz of her systems as she exhaled air. Ratchet again took another shot at soothing the femme before he shut her down for repairs.

"Stormblaze, you're not weak minded Optimus told me you were fighting the control the entire time you were forcing yourself to hesitate giving him the upper hand, you jumped in front of his round for Primus sake! What more could you of done?"

"Not let them plant that fragging thing in my head to begin with! I hurt my leader! My role model, my motivation to continue fighting through the tough times I went through and when I finally meet him I hurt him! Nothing like a: 'hey thanks for being the best soldier known to Cybertron, here's a token of my appreciation! bang!'" the statement would have been funny to Ratchet later on but right now he was irritated yet relieved, relieved because she wasn't at the slightest mad at Optimus or Elita anymore and irritated because she blamed herself for this whole mess when it was really the Decepticons.

"you weren't in control of yourself, no one could of fought off that control, Optimus is fine, the bot has been through far worse and is just glad you're okay don't throw your stress on him" Ratchet figured if she won't help herself maybe she will be willing to help Optimus.

"I have done a lot of thing through my life as a soldier but this one tops it off, I won't tell Optimus or anyone what you told me, I just hope the prime can come to forgive me" she whimpered.

"I'm sure he can, now get ready for stasis I need to proceed with repairs now that I have most of your diagnoses" he stated back to his doctor/business tone. The pink flamed bot immediately went into defensive mode.

"but I still need to clean out my cannons! Make sure they are ready for the next fight" Ratchet gave her a look of pure irritation then stabbed her with a sedative the liquid drained from the syringe type form before the femme could come to realization and yank it out she looked at it in her hand then glared at Ratchet.

"you shall pay doc bot" she growled darkly, Ratchet smiled with victory.

"maybe in due time yes but until then, pleasant dreams" the femme stayed awake but groggy for about 30 more seconds muttering about how next time she saw Ratchet she was going to stick the syringe up his…. Well, you get the idea.