Chapter 10 Lose Control

"Akira, where are you going now?"

"Osaka, I'm going home."

"Home…? You have home?"

"Yeah… Why?"

"No, it's just weird that someone like you has a house in the big town."

"Someone like me…? Like what?"

"A poor kind."

"It's better than having a poor personality."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Well, you're so easy to be seduced to have sex with someone."

"Akira! He's not seducing me! And I'm not that kind of person!"

"Whatever. If he wasn't seducing you, then what? You're volunteering yourself? A normal girl wouldn't do that, you know."

"Damn it Akira. Could you just forget about it?"

"Okay, I won't bring it up this time. By the way, are you coming with me to Osaka?"

"Still asking?"

"Just curious…"

After leaving the Sanada house, Akira and Tokito are walking down the mount Kudoyama. They're heading to Osaka, location of Akira's house. Tokito doesn't know why he's heading back to his house but she doesn't have a choice but following him. After a long tiring walk to get through the forest for almost 2 hours, the night is coming and Akira decides to camp somewhere in the forest.

During that 4 hours walk Tokito couldn't stop thinking about Sasuke. Her mind always haunted with Sasuke's image. How he talked to her, laughed, teasing, and how he smiled sadly when they're parted. But the most unforgettable memory was at the waterfall one. Everytime she thought about it, she flushed and felt a strong will to do that again. Her lower part was also emanating that strange sensation again. She's like, well, addicted to those sensations. The way he touched her body part one by one was just simply too good to be forgotten. Akira realized that she's been too silent and sometimes smiling to herself. She's like lost on her mind.

"Tokito, we're going to camp here. Bring up some branches to make a fire."

"Why don't you do it?"

"Because you are unofficially my disciple, I have the right to command you."

"Damn you. Do it yourself."

"I won't and it's up to you to catch a cold or not this night. I'm an ice natural wielder. So, cold isn't affecting me at all."

"Asshole…"

Tokito stands up and starts collecting some branches. Usually, Akira was the one who did this job but tonight Akira wants her to do it instead. Tokito does that with grumbles and swearing. Well, afterall she's a high-class raised girl. So this kind of job isn't familiar for her. In fact, she hates it.

After 10 minutes Tokito goes back to the camping place, bringing some branches that she thinks enough to make a fire. After receiving those branches Akira makes a fire and then sits down. Meanwhile Tokito's already lying down. She puts her both hands on the back of her head and stares to the clear black sky above her. "How beautiful…" then her mind starts to think about Sasuke again. What's he doing? Is he missing me? Does he feel the same way too? She closes her eyes, trying not to think about him for now. She wants to rest, tomorrow she has to walk again for about 3 hours. Not long after she falls asleep while Akira's still sitting on his place. He's like, thinking hard of something.

Tokito vaguely feels a soft touch on her thighs while she's still sleeping. Her half-asleep mind thinks that it must be Sasuke. Maybe he wants to do something again to her, like he did at the waterfall. So she just silenced and trying to enjoy those touches. After rubbing her thigh, slowly those hands move up to her chest. She feels a squeeze is applied there. She moans a little, still with her half-asleep state. Then she feels soft lips are pushed against hers, she quivers a bit receiving that kiss. His lips feel so… Cold…?? Wait a minute…! I'm on the forest right now, without him. He's still at the Sanada house! So, this must not be him!!! Rashly Tokito opens her eyes and his state of mind is fully awakened immediately. She can't believe her own eyes when she sees what's happening. Akira is the one who touched her and kissed her instead of Sasuke. Startled, she backs her head a bit to give her a room to space the distance and also to speak.

"Akira?! What are you doing, ass hole! Stop it!" She pushes her hands against his chest, trying to get him off. But, Akira isn't that weak and he keeps on trying to kiss her. He pushes her down abruptly and then landing a passionate kiss once again on her lips. Tokito's hands are already pinned down by the pressure of his body. She is entangled, can't move or struggle to release herself from his rage. Akira puts his hands on her chests and rubbing it slowly at first, then harder and harder. Tokito tries to scream but sealed off by his mouth. Akira is driven by lust, just like Sasuke did previously. Tokito knows about it, but she can't find out the reason. She wasn't seducing him, was she?

"Akira, please stop…" Her voice becomes smaller and she knows it's futile to warn someone in this state, who is driven by lust. A tear is rolling down from her eyes, no girls like to be raped like this and she's no exception. Then when she finally can release her hand from the pressure, she pushes him abruptly and Akira is actually pushed away with that sudden move. She slaps him right on his left cheek. He's startled and then realized what he has done to her when he sees she's crying.

"T-Tokito…?"

"Shut up!"

"I-I'm So—"

"I said shut up!"

Akira stops, he rethinks again what's happening just now. All he remembered when he saw that she's fallen asleep he approaches her and then watching her. Then he didn't know anything again until she slapped him and regained control over himself again.

"Tokito, listen to me."

"Shut up!"

"Please, I'd like to explain everything."

"I don't need it! It's clear that you're trying to rape me!"

"No, I couldn't possibly do that."

"Yes you could! Just look what you've done, damn it!"

"If I had an intention of doing so, why didn't I do that before when we're camping like this all these past three years?"

"Hell like I care. You can't deny the fact that you're intended to rape me just now!!"

"I said I didn't have an intention of doing so. Now listen to me please?"

"…"

"I'm jealous of him."

"What…?! What are you talking about?"

"You didn't complain when he did that to you, did you?"

"Did what?? Who's this him??"

"Sasuke-kun. You love him, right?"

"Yeah… So what?"

"Why, why is it not me?"

"What…?"

"I love you Tokito, since these past two years." He flushes and then he sits down after being pushed by her.

"Say what…??" Tokito can't believe what he has heard. That… That cold Akira has loved her these past two years? Ridiculous! He's always cold toward her and never paid attentions to her even for a little. Well, maybe that's what she felt, but not with him.

"At first when I knew that you love him, I felt a strange push on my chest. Well, I guess you can say it was a jealousy. But I wasn't that selfish. I didn't want to force you to love me back, instead I wanted to give you happiness with sacrificing my own one. And I gave that happiness when I bridged you with the one that you loved, Sasuke-kun."

"What…? Jealousy? Happiness? Sacrificing yourself? Bridging me with Sasuke? What's this all about?? Don't kid me! Akira never cared about me! Ever! You mustn't be Akira that I know! Who the hell are you?!" Tokito can't believe what she has heard even for a slight. Akira sighs then shifts his seat, getting closer to her. On his face, she can see a sad expression there. Tokito startled, she never saw his face like this before.

"Tokito, this is the real me, Akira the former member of Shiseiten. A mere human who falls in love with Tokito, the former member of Taishiro." Tokito jumped a bit, she realizes that this is the real Akira, she feels a freezing aura is emitted from him.