Santana POV
I'm awake looking at Brittany still asleep. She's an angel, so beautiful. I caress her face moving the hair that were there, I can't not think about last night. I can't do that to her, I can't break her heart.. But if I break up with her I'm going to break her heart anyway.. I'm fucked.. My phone buzzes it's a text from Quinn "come home as soon as possible" did she read my mind from so far away?! I get up from the bed and I dress myself, I freshen myself in the bathroom and then I shake Brittany softly.
"What?" She mumbles.
"I have to go"
"Why?"
"Quinn texted me she told me to go home fast"
"Ok, I'll call you later"
"Perfect" I peck her lips and I run home.
"QUINN?" Where is she? "QUINN ARE YOU OK?" She appears in front of me "Oh here you are, I have to tell you something"
"No San I have to tell you something" she says.
"No Quinn you have to listen me, me and Brittany.."
"You and Brittany what?"
"We did it.. Sex, well love, it was amazing, but now I feel like the worse woman in the world"
"Fuck, this shouldn't have happen"
"Yeah I know.. well I'm happy that happened but on the other hand I have to say that I'm fucked" I look at Quinn and she seems really absent "Quinn what the hell, are you listening to me?!"
"San you have to listen me, Puck .." I interrupt her.
"I don't care what Puck did, Quinn it's serious, me and Brittany made love yesterday, I'm in love with her"
"What?"
"Yeah and she loves me too, but I can't..yesterday I had to stop her, she was going to say it to me and I can't.. I'm going to break her heart Quinn and I don't want to.. But I don't know what to do. I'm going to break her anyway, if I told her who I am. I can't think about it, but if I break up with her.. It's the same, but maybe if I break up with her it's better, what do you think? I don't know what to do Quinn. I feel like shit, she doesn't deserve this. I shouldn't have let her fall in love with me"
"It's what you think?" She asks.
"Yes Quinn, what the hell is going on in your head?!"
"San I have to tell you something and you aren't going to like it.. Puck.. Puck told Tina"
"Puck told Tina that he loves her? Whoa maybe I was wrong about him, he is not so stupid after all"
"No San.. He told Tina what he is" I look at her, I don't know if I heard right "he told her that he is a vampire"
"What? What did you just said?"
"San stay calm"
"Stay calm? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Did you listened a word of what I told you before?"
"San.."
"No Quinn, he fuck ruined everything"
"You told her" Puck says and I turn to him.
"Puck I think it's better if you go away" Quinn says.
"No, just because she's 'special' it doesn't mean th.." I lost it. I jump on him and I start to punch him, we start to fight.
"Hey stop!" Quinn tries to separate us but it's in vain "Fight it's not going to fix anything, you are fucking vampires you can't even get hurt!"
"You are a fucking asshole" I shout.
"You are not the only one who has a relationship Santana"
"But I'm going to lose more than you, you could have told me"
"You would have said no" he shouts.
"You could have waited Puck, I can't"
"If she loves you she is going to love you anyway"
"She loves me that's why I didn't wanna tell her" I shout "And now you destroyed everything"
"And what was I supposed to do? Don't tell anything about me to Tina because you don't wanna say anything to your girlfriend?"
"Fuck you Puck, I hope you will be happy with Tina 'cause you destroyed everything me and Brittany were"
"San you should go to her" Quinn says.
"Why? Tina told her for sure" I say.
"You should talk to her, she is going to feel bad, really bad, San I think you should go"
"I can't see her Quinn"
"San you have to, you know that you have to face her, yeah you could wait tomorrow but it's going to be worse" she says.
"You are right, you will be here right?" She nods "ok" I leave and I start to walk. I don't wanna see her, I know what it's going to happen, I'm not ready to lose her. I'm in front of her door, I don't have the courage to knock, but do I have a choice? I knock softly and the door stays closed, what am I gonna do? Should I go back home? Maybe Tina didn't tell her and they are out, maybe ..
Someone opens the door and I freeze, Tina, she is crying, she looks at me but she isn't really looking at me, a few seconds and the door closes. What does this mean? What can I do? I can't go home I have to see her. I go under her window, I look around and I jump. I see her, her back, she is sitting on her bed. I knock softly on the glass, I can see her tense but she doesn't turn. I can't believe that I'm the cause of her pain, what was I thinking. I'm a monster what else could I do if not hurting people?
I stay here sitting on her window, waiting, she didn't shout at me to go away so I'm not. I wanna stay close to her even in this way. After about 10 minutes I hear the window opening. I turn and she is there, she opens the window and she goes back to her place on the bed. I come in and I stay up, there waiting for her to say something and I waited 8 minutes and 24 seconds.
"Say it" she says with a teary voice.
"I'm so sorry Britt.. Can you turn around? .. Please?" After a few minutes she turns and what I see makes me fall on my knees on the ground. Her eyes are all red and swollen, I can see how hurt she is, her face shows how much I destroyed her. "Britt" I whisper.
"I can't.. How could you do this to me?" She says in tears.
"I'm sorry"
"Don't.. You lied to me, you are.. I can't even say it, I couldn't even believe it.. What was I? Your little toy?" She says angrily.
"No Britt yo.."
"I don't wanna hear you talk Santana, you made me fall in love with you, you made me break up with my girlfriend, you made me believe I was happy for what? Break me at the end? Are you so cruel? Who the hell are you? You didn't say anything what were you thinking? What did you want to do? Stay together until I notice or find out about you? Why did you do this to me? Do you hate me so much?"
"I don't hate you"
"Don't talk to me.. You took advantage of me.. Fuck we made love yesterday Santana and I was the happiest person in the world. I fucking wanted to tell I love you yesterday.. Yesterday was the best day of my life and this morning was the worst, all because of you" She shouts at me "I can't even look at you, I don't even know what you are Santana, what the hell are you? Should I believe Tina? Are you really a vampire? Is it true?" I stay silent "ANSWER ME"
"Yes I am, I'm a vampire" I say looking at the ground.
"I don't wanna see you.. Can you just .. Go" She is crying again. I look at her and I jump off the window going back home. I open the door and Quinn is on the couch waiting for me, but I go straight upstairs to Puck's room, I slam the door open and he turns to me.
"I want you fucking out of this house" I say angrily.
"Santana you ca.."
"DID YOU HEAR ME PUCK? GET THE FUCK OUT OF THIS HOUSE" He goes downstairs and I am right behind him, he stops looking at Quinn.
"Quinn I don't .." He starts.
"I know Puck" she says.
"Santana I'm sorry if Brittany.." I punch him in the face.
"Don't even say her name, get out, I don't wanna see you Puck. I'm serious, stay away from me" I say and he leaves, Quinn takes some tissue and she clean my face "What are you doing?" I ask confused.
"You are crying San.. Come with me" she sits on the couch and I lay my head on her lap.
"I don't wanna talk"
"It's ok" She says and I cry myself to sleep.
A few hours earlier. Brittany POV
"Brittany, Brittany wake up now" Tina says shaking me hard.
"What? What happen? What?" I open my eyes immediately confused.
"We have to talk"
"Tina I'm tired"
"Britt it's really important please" I look at her and she is crying.
"What happened Tina?" I hug her.
"Puck.. He.."
"Did he break up with you?"
"No Britt it's worse"
"Worse?" What happened between them?
"Britt you have to listen to me and to understand everything ok?" She sits in front of me.
"Tina you are scaring me"
"I know, I'm scared to"
"Scared of what ? Did he hit you?"
"Nope Brittany, we talked"
"What the hell did he tell you?" I ask.
"Shut up Brittany. He is not what we thought.. He is different from us.. I couldn't believe it when he told me but he showed me and I think I passed out"
"Tina you are confusing me, what are you talking about?"
"He is not human"
"Oh please Tina, nice try"
"Britt I'm serious, I thought he was joking too but then he showed me that he is.. He is a, a vampire"
"Tina they don't exist"
"Britt I'm fucking telling you, I SAW HIM, they are real, they aren't human" she says, she didn't ever scream at me.
"It can't be possible" it can't right? Why does she seem so believable?
"I fucking saw him run faster than light, he cut himself and nothing happened, I saw his fucking fangs appear"
"Oh my.. OH MY GOD" I scream as I realize that if Puck is one of them then..
"Yes, they all are"
"I can't .. I can't breathe" and I start to cry like I never did before. This isn't happening, the world is tearing apart under my feet.. She lied to me.. She isn't human... She played with me.. She.. And yesterday.. What was yesterday? .. Oh my god I'm so stupid, I fall in love with a .. It's not possible, but it could explain why they are so weird sometimes..
This isn't happening to me, it can't happen, she was here, we made love yesterday and now? It can't be possible. I look around and Tina left, then I see the cuddly toy she won me yesterday and the only thing I can do is fall in a mess of tears. Yesterday was our day, the best day of my life and I shared it with.. Yesterday was.. And now is.. A nightmare. I was happy, how could she lie to me? How could I be so stupid? She .. I love her.. Yesterday was the best of my life and now..
Present time.
I couldn't look at her.. How could she look like the same girl of yesterday when she's not? I looked at her and I saw her, my Santana, but she's not, she never was my Santana. She was a lie, a girl who played with me.
They all lied to us, what kind of people are they? They are not people.. I don't know how handle this story, how to handle my broken heart, should I be scared of them? They are fucking vampires after all.. I can't think about Santana sucking my blood until death.. Well I never thought it was even possible, I don't know anything. I'm just a stupid girl who trusted the wrong people, who fell in love with the wrong girl.
I'm in this empty cold bed, yesterday it wasn't cold, it was warm. Flashes of me and Santana come into my head, wonderful memories of the previous night, but now, I can only cry about them. I stand up and I take the sheets, the blanket, everything from this bed and I put it all in the washing machine, I wanna wash out everything from that night.
"Britt what are you doing?" Tina asks me.
"Yesterday me and Santana.. We made love" I keep looking at the machine.
"Oh.." she whispers.
"I'm going to get a shower"
"Ok, I'm in my room if you wanna stay with someone.. If you wanna cry with someone" she leaves and I undress myself and I look at myself on the mirror. How pathetic am I and then I see it, I have a huge hickey on my neck and I feel so bad that I throw up.. I avoid the mirror and I get in the shower.
Santana POV
I wake up and my head is still Quinn's lap. I don't wanna stand up, I don't wanna think about anything. I just want everything to end. I can't live thinking about what I've done to Brittany, who am I kidding? Live? I'm a fucking immortal person, I'm dead, I am nothing.
"San please" Quinn whispers.
"I can't Quinn, you should have seen her, she was, she was.. destroyed, by me"
"Maybe she is going to forgive you and accept what we are"
"Why should she? I wouldn't forgive myself"
"San"
"No Quinn.. Maybe it's better this way, she hates me now, she can go on now, she can go on, find someone else, a normal girl who can give her what she wants, what she needs"
"You could too" she says.
"No I can't, I'm a monster Quinn, a monster"
"No you are not, you are an amazing girl, anybody should be happy to have you"
"Maybe, maybe not" I stand up and I go toward the door.
"Where are you going?"
"I wanna go out, I don't know where, I don't wanna stay here"
"You are going to come back.. Right?" I look at her for a few seconds.
"Yes"
I close the door behind me and I start to walk. It's dark, everything is dark, outside and inside me.. I don't know where I'm going.. I'm with in love with a girl who hates me and she has every right to and I hate myself too..
I'm in love, wow I never thought that I could feel love. I met a lot of girls, I liked a lot of girl, but I loved only few and by love I mean that I really cared. But this, with Brittany it's something more, was something more.. If I never thought I'd be in love imagine being heartbroken! It's ridiculous.
After hours I end up in front of her house, it's late, she is probably asleep. I jump on the three in front of her window and I sit there. She's right there, in her bed, sleeping, covered by a blanket. She is so beautiful, her face is turned to me and I can see the tracks of her tears on her cheeks. I stayed there all night, watching her sleep. I didn't close eye and now that the sun it's up I know that I have to go, her alarm is going to ring and she doesn't want to see me.
I jump down the three and I walk home. No one is around, only me, in this lonely street. This fresh air round my body while the sunlight is trying to get me warm useless.. I'm back home, Quinn is sleeping on her bed. I go in my room and I lay in bed, crying until my eyes finally close.
thoughts?