Jade can't sleep. She's been lying in bed for several hours staring at her ceiling and breathing and nothing more. Nothing more is a lie; Tori has been on her mind and all she wants to do is talk to her. Talk to her, walk with her, hold her, laugh with her, and kiss her. God, all she wants to really do is kiss Tori and just be, but she can't. She can't because of Beck – she still needs to talk to him and chastise him for taking her car – and she's just afraid.

Being afraid is normal, right? Like, everyone is afraid of liking another person, especially so intensely... right? Putting yourself out there, putting your heart on the line where it can easily get smashed and stomped on; it's scary. Jade's never experienced that before. She's never liked anyone so much that she was the one to put herself out there. With other guys and Beck, they were the ones to come up to her and ask her out and she was the one to smash their heart, well, except for Beck's.

There was something about Beck when she first met him. He was handsome, sure, kind, chill, relaxed, just really down to earth and he wasn't intimidated by her. He didn't scurry off – like all the other guys did – when she bitched, or yelled, or growled, no, he just laughed and smiled at her. He wormed his way into her heart and she liked it – him. She thought she'd be with him forever and she hated thinking of something as forever but whatever, he was a good guy, he calmed her down. Feelings change though and in her case, they changed and transferred to someone else. She still loved Beck and always will – he was her first – but there was just something about Tori that she couldn't pass up on, she had to go after it, whatever it was.

Jade looks at the digital clock on her dresser and groans at the time – 3:23AM, really? She's been laying there for 5 hours and the only part of her that's tired is her mind. She can't do this anymore, thinking is driving her crazy and making her restless and she just wants to talk to Beck, end it, and then call Tori and kiss her.

She pulls out her phone to send a text to Beck. The sooner she gets into contact with him, the sooner she can end it – as softly and nicely as she can, she doesn't want to lose him – and the sooner she can get to Tori and Tori's lips. She sighs at that thought; her lips meeting Tori's, light closed-mouth kisses at first, and then turning it into something more, more harder, wetter, passionate.

She shakes her head and texts Beck before she gets carried away.

Beck, call me as soon as you wake. You have my damn car and we need to talk.

She almost signed the text off with xo like she always did when she text Beck but she caught herself and she frowned. Will they be friends? Will he even want to be? She's going to break up with him, if the roles were reversed, she wouldn't be friends with him. She'd be angry, upset, sad, and fucking angry. But Beck isn't her, he's good.

7:05AM and she's still awake. Everything in her room is still, it even feels like the air is still. She looks back at her clock, 7:06AM. The time is just mocking her now. She reaches for her phone and as soon as she grabs it, it vibrates. A text from Beck.

Sorry. I'll pick you up at 7:30. We'll get coffee and talk. Xo

She's about to reply back but her phone vibrates again and this time, it's a text from Tori.

Hey Jade, idk if you're going to talk to Beck today but if you do, I hope all goes well. Uhm, if you want, you can text or call me, if you need. Ok bye!

She smiles and sends a Thanks Vega, talk to you later. She just can't with this girl.

She gets out of bed and dresses quickly. A car horn sounds outside while she's brushing her hair and rolls her eyes. He doesn't need to honk, it's Saturday morning and people are still sleeping.

She walks outside and up to the passenger side, she opens the door and gets in. They sit there, the car idling, for several minutes before Beck reverses the car and drives to a coffee shop. Neither of them talk and the radio is off, so they're just sitting completely in silence and it's awkward and uncomfortable. Which is weird because nothing is ever awkward or uncomfortable between them and God, it already feels like it's going downhill.

They arrive at the coffee shop and order their drinks. They find a spot in the corner and sit while sipping their coffees and staring at the everything but each other.

"Ok, well-"

"So, uhm-"

They speak at the same time and laugh awkwardly. When is Jade ever awkward? She shakes her head and sighs before looking Beck in the eye. He looks sad and she falters but pulls through.

"Beck..." She stars off.

"I already know what you're going to do, Jade. I just- why?" He interrupts.

"If you didn't interrupt me, I'd be explaining that right now." She didn't mean for it to come out so harsh but ugh, she hates being interrupted.

He doesn't say anything so she continues, "Beck, God, you know I love you, like a shit ton and at first, I honestly thought we'd be together forever." He laughs softly and nods so she can continue. "I don't know what happened, honestly, my feelings, I just- I loved you once as a lover but now, I love you as a friend." She stops when she sees him wince and she sighs.

"Is there someone else?" She freezes, does he know? Should she tell him?

"Why do you ask that?" She questions warily.

"I don't know. You don't really change on things. When you set yourself on something, it's set... for, like, life." He shrugs and she deflates. She has to tell him.

"Beck, I didn't want to say anything just yet because I'm not even sure but..." He's staring at her intently and her hands are getting clammy. She wipes them on her pants.

"There is someone else. I can't- I don't know if I should tell you who-"

"Just tell me, Jade. Stop trying to spare me my feelings or pride or whatever." Why does he keep interrupting her?

"Tori." She blurts out.

"Tori?" He asks incredulously.

She nods, "Yes, Tori."

He's gaping at her. His eyes are wide, his mouth is open and now he's choking on his own saliva. She wants to laugh but she's not sure if it'll be because he looks ridiculous or because this situation is ridiculous, maybe it's both. Instead, she just smiles softly and sadly and waits for him to come back to earth. He does after, like, five minutes.

"You're shitting me. Are you shitting me? This is- this isn't real. You're lying." He still sounds incredulous and she wants to punch him because why would she lie?

She shakes her head no and keeps her mouth shut because if she opens it, she might just regret it.

"Why?" Is all he asks.

"I don't know. I've- I've always had some sort of feelings for her, I've just never thought of them. Things happened. Remember that Friday when Tori and I had that accident during lunch?" He nods, "Well, I spend the night at her house and ok, yeah. You went to Canada and more things happened and-"

"Did you kiss her?" He really needs to stop interrupting me, she thinks.

He's staring at her expectantly and she's confused. Why is he staring at me like that?

"Why are you staring at me like that?" She asks.

"Did you kiss her?" He asks again. She's taken aback.

"Wh-what?" What?

"You heard me, Jade and by your reaction, I'm guessing that's a yes." She doesn't like how he's acting, how he's reacting. This was suppose to go well.

She looks down for a moment and when she looks back up, Beck's eyes are glistening.

"Beck," she says softly, "I- I didn't mean for anything like this to happen."

He looks down to hide his face but she can see tears landing on the table. "Jade, I thought- Why did- I don't understand."

God, she can feel her heart breaking and squeezing the life out of her. She hates seeing Beck cry – she's only ever seen him cry once before and it almost fucking killed her – and all she wants to do is go to him and hug him till he stops, but she doesn't.

"I don't understand either, Beck. I really don't. But there's just something about her that I can't- I can't just pass up on. I-"

"You really like her, don't you?" He barely strangles out and she can feel her eyes stinging. This is all too much so fast.

"Yeah, I do." She whispers, "A lot."

He nods his head and it's quiet now between them.

"I'm so sorry, Beck. I'm so sorry. I didn't- I never meant to hurt you. You're the only one who's ever been there for me. I just-"

"I know." He says softly, reaching for her hand and holding it. "I know, Jade. I- this is going to be hard but... I think- I think I can do this."

She doesn't even think about what she's doing as she gets up and hugs him tightly. He hugs her back and they both sigh. It's been a long morning.

They pull apart and walk out of the coffee shop. Beck stops in front of her car and laughs, "Hey, I'm sorry too."

She looks back at him, confused, "Why?"

"For taking your car yesterday. I didn't even think about it."

She laughs too and smiles, "It's not problem. I would have done the same thing."

He smiles back and gets in the car, driving them home.

She's at red light when her phone vibrates. She checks it really quick and smiles.

Hey Jade, just checking up on you. Is that weird? I'm sorry. Uhm, ok. Bye!

The light turns green and she makes a quick right, driving the opposite way of her house. There's a certain brunette who she has to see.

She's at Tori's door about to ring the doorbell when the door opens. The next thing she knows is that she's on the floor with a bunch of flat boxes and a body are on top of her. They both groan and grunt as the body top on tries to stand up and accidentally steps on Jade's leg.

"Ugh, ow- ouch, that hurts. Get. Off!" Jade grunts.

"Jade? Is that you?" Of course it's Tori. It's always Tori.

"Vega! My leg!"

"Right, right. Sorry!" Tori scrambles off of Jade and grabs one of her hands, pulling her up.

"Seriously Tori, we have got to fucking stop meeting like this." Jade says, amused as she wipes the dust off her clothes.

Tori smiles widely and Jade looks confused, "What?"

"You called me Tori." Jade just rolls her eyes.

"I suppose I did." She smirks and Tori laughs.

"So what are you doing here?" Tori asks as she picks up the flat boxes.

"I talked to Beck this morning."

"You did?" Tori all but yells.

"I did."

"WELL! How did it go?" Tori's shocked.

"Well."

"Can you elaborate, please?"

"Yeah, I can but I don't think I want to." Jade's saying everything so nonchalantly that it's driving Tori crazy.

Tori is giving Jade such a stare that all it's making her want to do is grab Tori's face and kiss her so hard that everyone can feel it. But instead, she just laughs and walks inside Tori's house and sits on the couch. Jade pats the seat next to her, calling Tori to her.

They're sitting next to each other in silence, both relishing each others presence and feeling content.

"So at the end, it was all good? He... accepted it?" Tori asks.

"Yeah, kind of. I mean, he's still kind of wary and confused but yeah." Jade says, her eyes closed.

"Wow, that's... awesome."

Jade hums her agreement and they're silent again. Everything is cool, calm, and collected and when Tori covers Jade's hand and pushes her fingers in between Jade's, everything is great.

A/N: Hey! Sorry for taking so long to update. It's winter break but I've been like super busy and tired, it's crazy!

I hope you like this update. It's getting closer to the end. I think there might be 2 more chapters after this and I'm kind of excited.

So, review! Tell me if you like it, not, blah blah, you know the deal. :-)

Also, I'm going to be writing a New Year Jori little ficlet and if it goes according to plan, it's going to be good and on time! (or at least I hope it will, haha)

If it's not out, I hope you all have a HAPPY NEW YEAR and that it treats you all well. :-)