I soon found myself wandering closer and closer towards the door. I would be a total bust if Mom came home and found Rory by himself. Or actually him there at all - the last time she checked in on us which was the very end of the school year - I was the only one here.
"Hey,"a voice greeted me from somewhere near. It sounded familiar but I couldn't make anybody out in the dark.
"Hey yourself. You know I can't see man,come out before I start swinging." I said,thinking I knew who it was. I predicted Rory but it could have easily been Ephram even though I think he might have needed to go back home.
"I'm not hiding,I'm in a tree."he stated.Yeah,that was definately Rory.
"Get down from there,you're not supposed to be out this late."
"And you're not supposed to be drinking."he said,taking my hand and leading my inside like a blind mouse.I guess he could smell it on me."Nor smoking,and you are supposed to be getting rest."
"Hey, you stay outa my problems!" I replied angrily.
"How can I stay outa them? You don't exactly take care of them by yourself!"he fired.
"I do what I want. I know what I'm doing."I said following his footsteps. He was walking upstairs.
"Oh yeah? Then you would have stayed!"he said. I could barely see him through the thick fog that has been clouding my vision.
"No,no I wouldn't have."I told him,losing my harsh tone.
"But then you'd be here longer."he said,his voice quavering.
"Don't worry about when I'll leave okay? Dulcie will stay with you and you won't have to go back."I said,getting on my knees and trying to soothe my little brother.
"I know, I just don't want to lose anybody anymore."he said,letting his hot,angry tears flow.
"Rory,I'm never leaving you for good."I said attempting to hug him.
"No,please,don't."he said,looking at me and walking away.
Feeling hurt,I walked away. I didn't know what to do with him. He knew way too much for a twelve year old. He was also very mature but this was too much of a burden.
I then automatically put my hand to the wall and walked slowly towards the bathroom. I never would have thought a crappy metal boarder aligning the walls is what would be something that I needed to depend on. Of course, I'd never thought it'd come down to this.
I then took a steaming hot shower. Once,after having quite a few shots in me, I turned the water on near freezing and almost jumped through the glass door. Ever since I make sure I turn it all the way to the right,so it won't and can't go any farther. Next I pulled on a pair of flannel night pants. I told Dulcie that if I had to wear the equvilent of a parka, I'd at least go out in style.
Then I felt my way towards the medicine cabinet. We have an old timey kind that is built into the wall. I counted my two pills out the first bottle,one pill out of the second,and skipped all the way to the other end and got out four from the last and popped them into my mouth,chewing them each individualy. That's what I have to take to have a day similar to this one. The amount to have a crappy day is beyond me.
"Matt?"Dulcie asked unsurely,knocking on the bathroom door. "You okay?"she asked.
"Yeah,I,it just hurts."I said,noticing that I had whimpered outloud.
"Hey Matt,"she said.
"Yeah?"I replied.
"Open the door."she said. I had no choice but to give in. I fumbled with the door until it opened.
"Come one,"she said,taking my hand and leading me to my room. "You talk to him.He thinks that you're giving up."she stated sullenly.
"I don't even see the point in trying. Do I try some more to stay here and lose the sliver of vision I have or stay to go through chemo every week?"I said angrily.
"You stay for us."she said.
"I'll try to stay as long as I can."I said,accepting the hug.
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Man that one sure took a long time. Those were the characters that I made up, Dulcie and Rory that is, and it's from Scug/Matt's point of view. Expect a surprise in the very near future, I have something really really big in store for ya.
Please review,
Everwood89
p.s. - aw! thats so...well not cute. but its soo...yeah. thanks for updating!! - what's that mean crazy4nc128 ?it went totally over my head.....
p.s.2 - in case some of you guys didn't catch on, ephram doesn't know quite as much about scug as he thought!
"Hey,"a voice greeted me from somewhere near. It sounded familiar but I couldn't make anybody out in the dark.
"Hey yourself. You know I can't see man,come out before I start swinging." I said,thinking I knew who it was. I predicted Rory but it could have easily been Ephram even though I think he might have needed to go back home.
"I'm not hiding,I'm in a tree."he stated.Yeah,that was definately Rory.
"Get down from there,you're not supposed to be out this late."
"And you're not supposed to be drinking."he said,taking my hand and leading my inside like a blind mouse.I guess he could smell it on me."Nor smoking,and you are supposed to be getting rest."
"Hey, you stay outa my problems!" I replied angrily.
"How can I stay outa them? You don't exactly take care of them by yourself!"he fired.
"I do what I want. I know what I'm doing."I said following his footsteps. He was walking upstairs.
"Oh yeah? Then you would have stayed!"he said. I could barely see him through the thick fog that has been clouding my vision.
"No,no I wouldn't have."I told him,losing my harsh tone.
"But then you'd be here longer."he said,his voice quavering.
"Don't worry about when I'll leave okay? Dulcie will stay with you and you won't have to go back."I said,getting on my knees and trying to soothe my little brother.
"I know, I just don't want to lose anybody anymore."he said,letting his hot,angry tears flow.
"Rory,I'm never leaving you for good."I said attempting to hug him.
"No,please,don't."he said,looking at me and walking away.
Feeling hurt,I walked away. I didn't know what to do with him. He knew way too much for a twelve year old. He was also very mature but this was too much of a burden.
I then automatically put my hand to the wall and walked slowly towards the bathroom. I never would have thought a crappy metal boarder aligning the walls is what would be something that I needed to depend on. Of course, I'd never thought it'd come down to this.
I then took a steaming hot shower. Once,after having quite a few shots in me, I turned the water on near freezing and almost jumped through the glass door. Ever since I make sure I turn it all the way to the right,so it won't and can't go any farther. Next I pulled on a pair of flannel night pants. I told Dulcie that if I had to wear the equvilent of a parka, I'd at least go out in style.
Then I felt my way towards the medicine cabinet. We have an old timey kind that is built into the wall. I counted my two pills out the first bottle,one pill out of the second,and skipped all the way to the other end and got out four from the last and popped them into my mouth,chewing them each individualy. That's what I have to take to have a day similar to this one. The amount to have a crappy day is beyond me.
"Matt?"Dulcie asked unsurely,knocking on the bathroom door. "You okay?"she asked.
"Yeah,I,it just hurts."I said,noticing that I had whimpered outloud.
"Hey Matt,"she said.
"Yeah?"I replied.
"Open the door."she said. I had no choice but to give in. I fumbled with the door until it opened.
"Come one,"she said,taking my hand and leading me to my room. "You talk to him.He thinks that you're giving up."she stated sullenly.
"I don't even see the point in trying. Do I try some more to stay here and lose the sliver of vision I have or stay to go through chemo every week?"I said angrily.
"You stay for us."she said.
"I'll try to stay as long as I can."I said,accepting the hug.
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Man that one sure took a long time. Those were the characters that I made up, Dulcie and Rory that is, and it's from Scug/Matt's point of view. Expect a surprise in the very near future, I have something really really big in store for ya.
Please review,
Everwood89
p.s. - aw! thats so...well not cute. but its soo...yeah. thanks for updating!! - what's that mean crazy4nc128 ?it went totally over my head.....
p.s.2 - in case some of you guys didn't catch on, ephram doesn't know quite as much about scug as he thought!