She will be loved – Chapter Ten – It's Complicated

I woke up with the sun gleaming down and I groaned loudly. My head was like a thousand hammers, no jackhammers were drilling inside.

'Bout time you got up.' I heard a voice like Taylor beside me say. Ok fine it probably is Taylor but I can dream right?

I sat up and blinked then realized Taylor and I weren't the only people in the room. Great even better. Then Taylor stood up from the couch and folded her arms. Everyone except Marie (Thank God!) and Taylor's boyfriend was sitting there.

I rolled my eyes and looked sideways at Taylor. She squinted her eyes and glared at me.

'Where did you go last night?' she asked and I sighed.

'To my friends club. I didn't do anything there except meet her though.' I said wearily looking at the clock. It was seven. Why was I up?

'Oh sure, the magical fairies just came down and made you drunk right Pixie?' she said sarcastically. I let out an exasperated sigh. Everyone was pretending not to notice and watch TV but I knew they were eavesdropping.

'I had some champagne in the back of a limo, ok?' I said and she narrowed her eyes further.

'Yeah speaking of it, who was that guy who dropped you have.' She said. Damn had she seen him? Last night was a little fuzzy…

'That's my cousin Jason.' I insisted. Why didn't I just tell her. It wasn't as if he wasn't a decent guy and not good looking. Oh yeah because the supposed 'love of my life' is a couple of feet away from me listening.

She frowned. 'What side is he on?' she said and I racked my brains.

'My mom's brother Pete is his father. He's not much of one, not around much.' I said. Pete was actually my mom's only brother and he spent most of his time gambling and getting fast women so it wasn't a complete lie.

'Oh yeah I think I heard your mom and mine having a conversation about him once. Well why did you drink, your not twenty one.' She added indignantly and I spurted out in laughter. I stopped slowly realizing she was serious.

'Oh right. Uh…it's New York???' I said and she rolled her eyes and sighed.

'Well I should go to school, I haven't gone in a while.' I sniffed and got up, wobbled and fell back down then clutched my head. I got up more slowly then and made my way towards the closet and closed the doors behind me.

I put on a purple pleated skirt, over the knee black socks with lace, peep toes and a vintage rock T-shirt then came back out. Miley stared in awe.

'That's your school uniform?' she asked and Taylor half giggled, half moaned into her hands.

'You are so dumb Miley. They don't have a uniform!!' she said and Miley nodded slowly. Then Taylor looked at me. 'They don't right, your not just making a stupid statement?'

'No. Well there is a kind of dress code. Pleated skirt and over the knee or knee high socks, hair bands and stuff and plain high heels. It was made by the girls that 'rule the school' and you sort of have to wear it. I meet them halfway.' I said shrugging and Miley rolled her eyes heavily and stood up.

'But you'll be a loser then, why would you want to be? Do you have any friends?' she almost screeched and I blinked then snorted.

'Who would want to be friends with them. But yeah I'm officially one of the 'higher standard' girls since I'm step sisters with Grace.' I said her name with disgust.

'And she's cool?' Miley continued. I started gathering up stuff and throwing them into my bag.

'Yeah she's the sort of queen I guess you could say. Gossip Girl was taken from fact.' I said and then stood up. 'Well I'm off, see ya, if I don't then…goodbye.' I said half waving and then stumbled out the door. I was so dead if my mom found out about this.

I walked down and waved to Jasper and thanked him then headed towards my school. It was a tall brick building…I personally think it used to be a prison or some kind of mental institution. It would make perfect sense.

I walked up and straight away saw Shenae coming towards me.

'Omg you went out Jason Lockhart?' she asked me, putting her perfectly polished and manicured nails up to her mouth. I opened my mouth to respond but saw the plastic twins coming. Well they weren't twins but I liked to call them that as they acted the exact same. Two-faced, suck-ups, wannabes…

Penny had long (extensioned) brown hair and blue eyes and was Grace's worshipper. June had red hair cut to her shoulders and had a nose job done last May.

They looked at me eagerly, awaiting my answer. I rolled my eyes.

'No he just dropped me home. I'd tell you if anything was going on, seriously.' I lied(about the telling her part…she'd be the last person I'd tell) and went to my locker before the first bell rang. Shenae looked disappointed but then chatted to Penny and June about 'Valentines Day'

I made my way over and saw the guy from the café look over and smile and then sort of half wave. I shut my locker and went over to him.

'You go here?' I asked and he shut his locker, looking pleased I came over.

'Well I just moved here. Your impression of this school made me not totally opposed to going here.' He said awkwardly and then shrugged and I smiled. I had forgotten his name again…I was sure it started with 'J' though, but I did remember me telling him that I ditched and hated this place so it was obvious sarcasm.

The bell rang. I looked back at him. 'What do you have?' I asked and he looked down at his timetable.

'Calculus now then English.' He said with a frown and I perked up.

'I have English with you.' I said and he smiled at me then I waved and walked backwards. He was pretty cute. So was Jason. Why couldn't I see any other guys??? There was something wrong with me mentally, there really us. I had to complicate everything up and twist it so it made sense not to go out with boys. I focused on why not to instead of why to.

I oddly looked forward to English and after finishing biology I walked in chatting to Amanda, a really cool girl in my year who's dad worked with the Bon Jovi. She had dyed red hair and pierced nose too. Although the plastics and the Rich Bitches didn't 'approve' of her I thought she was well cool.

I sat down next to her and then the guy came in. He smirked at me then gave his note to Mr. Undermine which is actually his real name, and then went and sat beside me.

I really had to find out his name and fast. I suddenly got an idea. I leaned over to him.

'What does your note say?' I said, trying to look curious and he looked at it, wrinkling his brows.

'Not much just says my name and it's signed and stuff.' He replied. Damn. Then another idea hit me.

'What's your second name again? I can't remember if you told me.' I said, and it was the truth.

'Um it's Young yeah Joshua Young.' He said and I exhaled, relieved. He looked over to the teacher who had his back turned and looked back to me quickly.

'And yours is?' he asked.

'White. Pixie White.' I said and he nodded then Mr. Undermine turned and clapped his hands and everyone stopped talking and sat down.

After English, I didn't see him until lunch. He gave me a quick awkward wave and I decided to sit by him. I sat down and he looked at me surprised.

'Won't sitting with the new, sort of geeky guy ruin your reputation?' he asked me, looking around.

'Not really, I can't seem to ruin my reputation. Anyway your not geeky you were hanging out with that Howard guy right?' I sniffed and looked down at my cell. There was a text from Taylor and she was asking me about the music hall I went to with Karen and them. Them as in meaning you know who and Mike. I remembered what happened that was specifically scary and amazing and got caught up in daydreams. Joshua coughed.

'Yeah he's a jerkass…it's just his sister's getting married to my brother so I sort of guessed I should be nice.' He said then added. 'Plus I'm all into journalism and stuff. Isn't that seen as geeky here?' he said and I laughed.

'Probably. I don't think it is though.' I said then bit my lip, hoping he didn't take that as a flirty move. He just smiled then looked up again.

'That coffee place, Esquires?' he said and I nodded. He carried on. 'Yeah it was nice…I was wondering you know if you wanted to go there…maybe after school?' He said nodding. I smirked. I felt he liked me and I liked him. He was so cool and down to earth too.

Ah what the hell no use passing off every boy just because my old crush is back. Heath would go back to Carson and wouldn't think twice of me and go and marry some pretty older girl who wasn't…well like me. I mean like grungy, into rock, smoking and drinking and getting rides with strange boys. Not to mention four years younger. He was better than that.

'Sure.' I nodded and he looked at me, surprised but then turned happy and collected his books as the bell rang.

'What time, cos I need to ditch the rest of school.' I said and shrugged.

'Whatever time suits you.' He said and I smiled and he walked me to my locker.

'As soon as you can after school then I guess.' I said, flashing him a half-smile, throwing my books into the locker and walking away. Oh yeah, I was back.