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'Cause we gonna fight, yes we gonna fight, believe we gonna fight... fight for our right to love.' - Dont Matter-By: Akon
Kagome walked at the base of the hill over looking the small village that she called home, thinking. The wind blew hard around her winter clothing, trying to bite its way through the thick material unsuccesfully. Instead, settling for nipping frostly as her nose and rosey cheeks.
The crunch of snow under her boots and children laughing and playing in the distance is what caressed her ears.
They had been back for almost two weeks now. After getting the villages back to normal the best they could, they departed back for home, leaving a barrier made of three holy rieke's for the protection of the people. The barrier was strong. Even if the Dark powers of the enemys mikos could break through them, they would do so with forfieting their lives in the process. But most of all, if the barrier is under attack... then they would feel it. And be able to make it to the village before they can be attacked.
It was the least she could do for them. They had lost so many... She refused to let Naraku kill anymore of her people... She refused to allow Naraku to kill or hurt anyone else again... if she could help it.
Once they had made it home, Kagome sunk into herself. The kiss with Sesshomaru still very fresh on her mind. It was... toe curling. Kagome thought with a giggle.
His lips had been so soft and heavy on her own. It had been as if all of this had never happened. And she waited patiently for him to look her in the eyes and laugh in her face for thinking he would ever forget her. His mate. She wanted him to pull her closer to him and ruffle her hair as he always did to annoy her. She waited to see that familier smile with his fangs on display... The one she couldnt help but to smile back at.
But it didnt happen. And now, after sharing a moment with him... one that she had only dreamed of since the day was both sweet and bitter on her heart.
Kagome looked up when she ran softly into a tree. The sacred tree. Looking around, kagome was shocked to find that she had walked so far and didnt know it. No longer hearing the happy laughter of the children throwing snow into the small windows of their huts, pegging their parents in the backs. Of landing a few amongst each other.
Looking back up, kagome smiled weakly. Her bottom lip trembled as she tried to hold back the whirlpool of emotions that wanted so desperatly to be set free.
She touched her bare hand to the trunk, feeling the power thrum though her freezing fingertips. She could feel them. Her Mama, Sota and gramps.
She missed them more then she would ever show. And at a time like this when she was so deperatly confused, she needed her mama. But this tree was as close to them as she was able to get. So she sat at the base of it. wrapping her cloak more securely around her.
Sesshomaru... She had hoped he would have regained his memory by now. There was so much going on, and she really needed him. But at the moment, only she was able to remember what they had. For the first time in a long time. She felt isolated.
Kagome jumped slightly when a soft thud landed beside her. Hiro whined soflty, nudging her free hand with his big head, purring in a soothing manner. She smiled. He was always there when she needed company.
Hiro layed down on the dirt under the tree. The snow hadnt reached under the canopy of its branches just yet.
What was she going to do. She knew that if she didnt find a way to rid Kimi from Naraku, then she would end up dieing. Naraku would slowly push her soul to the far back recesses of her own mind... and without any way of coming to the surface... The soul will soon die a slow and lonley death.
She didnt want that.
Kimi and Kagome had never gotten along. They fought and bickered like two old bitties fighting over the last box of fruit cake. But still, Kagome couldnt help but feel as if it would be entirely her fault if something were to happen to her. She was Sesshomaru's mother... and as his mate, she should have known that Kimi would never intentionally hurt him. Even if she didnt approve of Kagome as is mate. She had always respected his choice none the less, and just settled for irritating the hell out of kagome when it came time for her to teach her how to properly act her role as lady of the house of moon.
Oh, how she missed just being herself. Kagome smiled in spite of the way she was feeling, taking a hand and wiping it gently under her eyes and raising to her feet. She needed to hunt for their dinner that night. The sun had been hiding behind the clouds for the past few days now... so she had no clue how much time she had just waisted feeling pitty for herself.
"Wanna go hunting with me?" Kagome tilted her head to look into the big eyes of Hiro. A laugh escaped her when the cat pounced up on his feet, acting as if he were a tiny excited kitten.
Why had he done it? He couldnt even answer that question. He had seen her about to fall off of the edge of the hut, his heart lurched in a painful way and his body had acted on its own. Jumping from the spot he had been seated at and snatched her arm, dragging her back to safty. He could understand protecting her... But the way his body had heated up at her nearness, and the way she had looked down, seeing the redness of her cheeks... He had wanted her attention back on him. He had wanted to see her eyes elight with that familier softness looking back at him. But once again, his body acted on its own. and when his name slipped from her lips, before he had even known it himself... his lips found purchase on hers. But what had shocked him the most was how right it had felt.
With her lips on his, he had a small clip of a memory. Another moment... almost like that one. A scene of her smiling face danced behind his lids as she threw her head back with a hearty laugh as he pinned her to a tree. A growl had sounded in his head then his lips pinned hers with a searing kiss. Pulling back slightly, He saw her smile, bringing her hand up to brush a thumb across the mark on his forehead. She opened her mouth and began to speak... but the words were hard to understand... Her lips moved as she spoke... then another smile it up her face.
The memory cut off there... He didnt feel anything still. Only knew one what he had seen. But with the image, it brought up more questions. What exactly had kagome been to him?
Sesshomaru snapped his head up upon hearing her voice, and saw her walk up to Sango and hand her a few rabbits.
She was beautiful. He felt his heart beat harder in his chest. He rose a hand and placed it over his chest. He didnt understand... Damnit all... He just couldnt understand this need he felt for her.
Later that night, after dinner was eaten and the dishes had been washed. Kagome sat on her futon with her back to the wall. She bit her nails, lost in deep thought. It was a nasty habit of hers but she only did it when she was torn on something.
"Kagome."
Kagome didnt know what to do. She had never had to extract a soul from a body. She knew the process... but even still it was dangerous when there were two souls in one body...
"Kagome..." Kagome snapped her head up at the sound of her name. looking around in a dazed way.
"Huh? What?" She asked softly looking at Kikyo.
"Whats wrong. You have been like that since dinner." Kikyo said kneeling down infront of her friend.
It was then that kagome noticed that all eyes were on her. Wow. She hadnt even realized how deep in thought she had been... But she knew that everyone needed to know. She wasnt the only one who suffered at the hands of Naraku. Everyone in this room had been hurt by the evil man. And now he was back trying to go for another round.
Kagome sighed. I guess now is as good a time as any. She thought. Sitting up straight, she took a deep breath and...
"Naraku has is living in Inu Kimi's body. He is slowly killing her soul and wants Sesshomaru to mate with a full blooded demoness to produce a strong pup for him to take over and grow up the heir to the western lands so he can reak havoc on the entire world from the thrown of the most powerful lands." Kagome gulped in a big lung full of air and looked around the room. All faces were staring at her in a mix of shock and anger. The silence stretched on and it was beginning to wear on her.
Inuyasha was the first to pick his jaw up from the floor and growl.
"What the hell did you just say?" It was low and dangerous sounding. He didnt yell. He just stood there staring down at kagome with eyes flickering from red to gold.
"I found out a few weeks ago. I had been planning to tell you all so we could come up with a way to extract the soul, but then the village on the boarders were attacked and winter fast coming..." Kagome stumbled over her words. "I just didnt have the chance to tell you all. Please forgive me." She said feeling the tears coming to her eyes.
"Its going to be all my fault if Inu Kimi is killed..." Kagome choked on her words and wiped angrilly at her face.
Sango and Kikyo share a saddened glance then got up and each took up a side on kagome, hugging her to them for comfort.
"Kagome, its not your fault." Sango said
"Yes Kagome. You hadnt known..." Kikyo said, but recoiled when kagome's reiki began to crackle around her dangerously to even her.
"But you guys dont get it! If anything I should have known! I should have realized something wasnt right when everything had happened! That is Sesshomaru's mother! She may hate me but she would never harm her own son! I should have known Damnit!" Kagome yelled.
Inuyasha roughly grabbed Sango and Kikyo by the arm and drug them behind him as Kagome's reiki surged again.
"What the hell is going on Kikyo?! I have never seen kagome this out of control with her reiki before." Inuyasha questioned. He grunted as the sparks drew closer to him enough to feel the heat radiating off of the out of control spiritual power.
"Her emotions are out of control! She cant see past her pain right now!" Kikyo explained looking worriedly at kagome as she pulled her knees to her chest and clenched her hand in her hair rocking back and forth shaking her head.
"Im so sorry, Im so sorry... Im so sorry!" Kagome repeatedly as if she were saying a mantra.
Kagome felt as if she were burried deep within herself. She could feel pain radiating all over her body. She could see the sparks of blue as her reiki crackled and surged dangerously to all of her friends. Trying as hard as she could, kagome tried to get herself under control, but she felt she had no power at all over her body. She had never felt like this before. Her power had never caused her pain before. It had never bursted from her person as if she were being stabbed by a thousand senbon needles. What the hell was happening? It was almost as if all of her emotions began to attack her at once... and before she had even noticed, she was trapped and there was no way out.
A scream ripped from Kagome's throat as another surge of power forced its way from her body.
"Somethings needs to be done! If she doesnt get herself under control the reiki will end up killing her!" Miroku yelled as he moved to go to kagome, just as he reached out to her, kagome surged again, another painful scream ripping from her as it threw Miroku into the wall.
Miroku slid down the wall clutching the arm that had hit the wall.
"Sesshomaru..." Kikyo said hurriedly. Sesshomaru just stared at kagome. His heart lurched and tugged in his chest. Beating like a base drum. Without even thinking, took a step toward kagome.
"Sesshomaru She will kill you if you get..." Sesshomaru took another step. Kikyo couldnt believe her eyes. Sesshomaru hadnt been harmed by her reiki. Instead she watched as Sesshomaru's Aura rose from his body and slowly began to take control of the sparks and surges of kagome's Reiki.
Kagome's reiki would surge, and then Sesshomaru's Aura would surge and over power it. It was almost like a dance.
Kagome felt herself coming back. It was almost like she had been numb from the head down, and feeling was finally starting to breath life back into her deadened nerves. But they hadnt been deaded... She felt all of the pain like she was being ripped from the inside out... Burned so deeply.
Slowly it began to receede.
Sesshomaru his eyes begin to sting and itch. He couldnt tell you exactly why he knew, but he had just known that kagome's reiki would not hurt him. He felt the first tendrils of it as it surged forward to clash with his aura.
"Sesshomaru..." It was kagome's voice. He could see her laughing as she called his name in a teasing manner and took off running, her laugh growing in power and heart. He was chasing after her. He felt a warm sensation in his heart and he could even feel the happiness he was feeling in that moment. The humor he was feeling as she ran from him and he played with her by letter her think he couldnt catch her, then he heard himself laugh as she squealed when he appeared right in her path, she ran into his chest and he locked his arms around her, picking her up and pecking her lips playfully.
"Hey, no fair!" She scowled playfully, just as the image began to turn blurry and... change.
Her Reiki surged and met with his aura as if it was caressing fine silk again.
He felt smooth lips and soft skin on his skin. Each touch felt like it was lighting his veins on fire.
"Sesshomaru..." Kagome's voice was barely a whisper, but he kissed his way up her jaw and then made its way back to her lips... He could feel the bite of her nails scorch his back, but the pain was nothing. He pulled her closer to him as she straddled his lap and tipped her head back arching into him as he pecked a small spot on her neck. It was like a small blotch on her skin... He couldnt make out what it was exactly, he just knew it was important to both of them.
"Mama! Papa!" two children burst into the room, and he watched as Kagome jumped in shock, losing balance and falling off of the bed with the grace of an elephant. He face palmed himself as she jerked the sheet off the bed with a red face and covered herself.
He filled with humor and laughed once again. His laugh was full of merth, and he only seemed to laugh harder, rolling over into the bed when she finally dragged herself from the floor and stood by him with a pillow in one hand and the other on her hip. He felt his own shock the sound of a muffled thud rang through the room and noticed the pillow had become her weapon to use on his head. She tossed her mussed hair over her shoulder and tossing the offending object at him playfully.
"That is how a girl sticks a landing." She said stomping over to the now giggling children.
Sesshomaru blinked his eyes and noticed he was kneeled in front of Kagome. Some how she was in a kneeling position as well and he had her pushed up against the wall behind her. He had a hand on either side of her head. Her head was cocked to the side... The side that he saw held a mark in the memory. But it wasnt there at the moment. His fangs were scrapping the flesh as he growled lowly. He didnt know what he was doing at the moment. He was winging it purely with instinct and it seemed to be working.
The others watched when Sesshomaru pushed her roughly into the wall. Not enough to hurt her, but enough to get his point across.
"What is he doing?" Sango asked, feeling like she needed to do something before kagome ended up purifying her mate.
"He's showing dominance and demanding subbmission." Inuyasha stated.
Kagome's Reiki surged again and Sesshomaru pressed his fangs a little deeper to her skin drawing a small bit of blood. He growled louder, pushing himself tighter to her until there was no space between them anymore.
A whimper sounded from kagome's throat as she finally tipped her head fully to the side and her body relaxed against his.
The fog had cleared from kagome's head and she felt her heart hammer in her chest. It had been a while since he had needed to subdue her like that. Back then she had hated it. She would fight until she absolutly couldnt anymore. But she had never appriciated it.
Sesshomaru's tounge snaked out and nursed the two small wounds on her neck and kagome shivered. She could feel tears running down her face to drip from her chin, because now she understood. The true meaning behind this isnt just to control her... its to also show her that he loves her with the tiniest of intamacy. And she also realized how much she really missed it.
Sesshomaru pulled away from kagome slowly. He remembered... Not everything of course. But he knew why she always looked like she was holding in so much pain. This woman in front of him had loved him more then anyone in the whole world herself included. And he had forgotten... And he had even forgotten if he even loved her back or not... He knew she was important to him now... But did he ever return this womans devotion and love? And if he did... Why in the hell would he forget her so easily?
Their eyes met, and they stared back at each other. Gold gazing deeply into her blue's. She wanted him to say something... That had been intense for her... He had kissed her at the boarder village... he had to feel something... right?
But his eyes just showed confusion... Deep confusion... Did he not even notice what he was just doing to her?
Kagome dropped her gaze to the floor and nodded her head in acceptance. more tears fell silently down her face as she rose to her feet and walked out of the hut with a low apology to the others. She needed to be alone. She didnt want to know about the reason behind her episode because at that moment... She felt as if her heart was shattering all over again.
She couldn help but to get her hopes up. She knew it wasnt good, but she missed him so much. She would give up her very life right there in that moment if only she could see that look in his eyes one more time. The look that told her in volumes about how much he loved her. If only to feel him hold her with certainty instead of with confusion.
She knew it was bad to get her hopes up... But she just couldnt help it... She knew he may never get his memories back... but she felt if she believed that... even for one second... Then he would really be gone. And that was something she knew she wouldnt be able to handle. To her, a world where he wasnt... wasnt a world she wanted to be in anymore... She would die... Even if she had to do it with her own hands... She would die.
"We need to go to the west and deal with Naraku's soul in Inu Kimi's body. But figureing out how to get into the gates to the keep is what is proving to be troublesome." Inuyasha stated as they all sat in the small hut.
Kagome listened closely to the discussion. She refused to look toward Sesshomaru even though she could feel his stare boring a hole in her head like it had been for the past two days since that night.
"But even if we do manage to get in, how are we going to pull his slimy ass out of her body and kill him?" Kagome asked genuinly curious on how the plan is going to work out.
"Well that is when you and kikyo come in." Inuyasha said. "You said you were able to pull her soul to the front of her mind and push him back right? Maybe if you and her both work together. Imobilize the body. Then one of you can keep InuKimi's soul safe while the other is extracting Naraku's." Inuyasha stated, looking around to see if any of the others agreed.
"Ok, Even if that works and we are able to pull him out. we cannot kill a soul. only tensaiga had the power to kill a soul like that and it was absorbed back into tetsuiga. We would have to seal him away. Its the only way to make sure that he doesnt come back again." Kikyo said. Inuyasha looked to Miroku and saw him nod his head.
"Yes, and I think I know how we can do that." Miroku pulled out a sutra from his robe and show it to the others.
"This sutra was made by my father a long time ago when he himself went into battle against Narku. He had planned to seal him away just as Kikyo has mentioned. He feared that Naraku would be to powerful for him to kill. But he lost and ended up stretching his windtunnel to the max limit... he died two days later by the curse." Miroku said. "But I believe if we can get him into a hanging scroll, we can seal him away and burry the scroll into the deepest depths were he will never be found and brought back again." Miroku explained.
"Ok, we can do that. That bastard wont ever see the light of day again." Inuyasha stated. "But that still leaves us with the problem of how we will get into the keep." Inuyasha looked toward Sesshomaru and then an idea came to mind.
"Sesshomaru should be able to get us in. He is the Lord of the western lands. If he were to tell them that we are with them, then they wouldnt have a choice but to let us in." Inuyasha stated. Kagome jumped to her feet faster then lightning.
"Are you insane! He is the one Naraku is after to begin with?! What if his Dark Miko is there?! She could place that damn curse on him again and this time it just might kill him!" Kagome huffed, her cheeks felt like they were on fire all the way up to her ears. There was just no damn way she was going to allow Sesshomaru anywhere near them people until she knew for certain that it was safe for him. She was so close to getting him back but so far away... She didnt want to risk it.
"You do it Inuyasha. You are still a born prince to the western lands. You have the royalty mark to prove it." Kagome retaliated. Inuyasha sighed and waved his hand in a way for her to sit down. Reluctantly, kagome sat back down.
"I cant kagome. Naraku had me banned when he took over Inu Kimi. And they will kill me on sight just for breathing as a hanyou right now." Inuyasha stated. "Im sorry. But in order for us to get through, it has to be Sesshomaru. He is the only one the guards will recognize as aly right now." Inuyasha said. "Although as soon as I have restored my place in the western lands, Im gonna put each and every one of them traitorous guards on a full hell week routin until im satisfied." Inuyasha finished with a grumble.
Kagome sighed. She had already known that. She knew Inuyasha wouldnt be able to get them through. But the fear of having Sesshomaru back in their hands scared her more then her rational brain could think. cursing, she nodded her head.
"Only if Sesshomaru is ok with it. If not, I will just blast the damn gate down and go in myself." Kagome said.
"Im perfectly ok with this plan. If this saves my mother and my lands, then i will do what ever is neccesarry." Sesshomaru said soflty.
Kagome sighed again in defeat. Even if she tried, she didnt think that she could change his mind... no matter how much she wished she could. They already knew that she had broken the seal on their curse... or atleast she thinks they know.
"Ok. then I will go and gather the herbs we need for the extraction potion." Kagome rose from her spot, grabbing her sword from the wall and dashed out of the hut before anyone could stop her or say anything.
She knew she shouldnt be avoiding Sesshomaru like this. But she couldnt seem to face him after knowing that the reason his eyes are completly void when he looks at her is all her fault. She didnt regret the decision. But that didnt mean that it still wasnt her fault. She just wanted to save his life. She needed to know he was safe more then she needed him to know her at the time.
She picked a clover from the ground and counted the leaves. Four... wow. This was the first one she had ever found in her life... Holding the clover up, kagome made another wish... All she wanted in the whole world in that moment was for one moment when he didnt look at her as if she were a complete stranger.
With a smile, kagome placed the cover back into the small patch of them. She wanted to give others a chance to find and gain from the small plant.
As she stood up, kagome took a step to head into the direction of the herb garden Kikyo and her kept up just for these type of purposes.
"Kagome." Hearing her name wasnt what had startled her and made her stiffen her back straight as a board... no, it was the person who had called it that sent kagome almost into a panic state.
Even kagome didnt know why she was acting like this. Hadnt they shared a moment a few weeks ago? Hadnt she been fighting for years just for one of those moments? So why all of a sudden when she finally gets what she wants, is she trying to shut him out? Is that really what she wanted?
Kagome sighed, letting her muscles relax. No, She never wanted to shut him out... but what had happened with her emotions... What it made her do... She didnt want a repeat of it. Because next time. There is no telling what it will make her do. Was it getting close to him again what caused it? She didnt know what had happened. And she didnt know what to say to kikyo when she had tried to talk to her about it. Maybe she should have let her in. Told her everything. Maybe she knew what had happened and tried to explain it.
Damn... She was such an idiot.
Kagome slowly rose to her feet, and turned around. Her eyes caught his boots and she steeled herself before she cautiously drug her eyes up his body to meet with his. Knowing the confusion in them was going to hurt like hell. And she was right. It did. But surprisingly not as much as she had been so afraid of.
Hidden in his eyes, there was a sizeable spark of recognition when he looked back at her. She couldnt help but to widen her eyes when it didnt dissapear as she had been so used to it doing so.
"Sesshomaru... What are you doing out here?" Kagome tucked a piece of hair that had been hanging in her eyes behind her ear.
"I knew you wouldnt come to me on your own." Sesshomaru said, standing with regality.
Kagome looked down at the ground. How was she supposed to respond to that. She had been avoiding him... almost like the plauge. But it wasnt because she wanted to... not even because she felt she had to. It was just an instinct that had kicked it and happened without her even noticing it. And then there was the issue with his mother that came up. And now everyone knew it was her fault... and she couldnt even bring herself to look at him for any length of time. She was so ashamed of herself. Pissed at Naraku and hell bent on ending his miserable life with her own hands. But in that moment, she felt like the biggest loser. A faliure at his mate. Not good enough to stand by his side. After all... He had been the one to teach her to keep her eyes open to any possible threat.
"Im so sorry... I should have known that..." Sesshomaru was infront of her in just a few short strides. He hooked his finger under her chin and pulled her shocked eyes up to his.
"I am not talking about my mother right now. I want to know why you have been avoiding me. Did this Sesshomaru offend you in any way?" He asked sternly but tenderly and kagome once again was struck speachless.
"Do you hate me so much to not even dignefy me with an answer in the least?" He asked. To her shocked eyes, his held a bit of sadness and of course confusion. But the confusion wasnt from his lack of memories. It was because he didnt know what he had done to upset her.
Tears stung her eyes as they glassed over. She had hurt him. Without even noticing, she had broken a small piece of his heart from her actions.
Sesshomaru closed his eyes for a moment, then sighed reopening them to look down at hers again. He nodded his head.
"I see." Was all he said, then slowly started to pull his hand back.
Kagome felt her heart slam into her throat, and she choked out a sob.
"No!" Kagome reached out and grabbed onto his arm with both of her hands. Her grip was tight but her arms and body trembled, as she tried to fight back her tears. It wasnt working.
Sesshomaru looked down at her again, his eyes held... shock? No it was anticipation. He was eagerly waiting for her response.
"Im sorry. I... I..." Kagome licked her dry lips. "I didnt avoid you on purpose... atleast not at first." She started explaining. "That day you... you kissed me..." Kagome felt her lips turn up into a smile. "I had been so happy. But you didnt mean it..." Kagome smiled at him sadly. "Not really. You still dont know everything yet. Even though that was the best moment in my life right then, I still knew you dont really know me. So I started to pull away a bit so that maybe you could have time to think. I didnt really know that I was hurting you instead." She whispered. The tears finally dripping from her eyes and making tracks down her face.
A stiff wind blew toward them and kagome shivered.
"Then..." Kagome squeaked... Wiping her eyes, she tried again. "Then telling everyone about your mother... It was that reality that this whole shit storm is all my fault!" She yelled, shaking her head to clear her vision. "I dont deserve to be kissed by you! I dont deserve to even be touched by you!" Kagome yelled, and dropped her hands to her side as if she had been scolded by hot water.
Sesshomaru stared at the girl before him. He felt his heart ache painfully in his chest. He knew she was important to her, that much was so clear to him now. As if a fog had been lifted. His eyes widened in surprise when he realized that he never wanted to see her in this state of agony ever again. He wanted to see her smile at him, and hear her laugh. But never see her tears. They were like acid to his heart.
"Kagome." Sesshomaru started and waited for her to look back up into his eyes. "Do you love me?"
Kagome was shocked at what he had just asked. It was a simple question, but the accusation behind it held more then just the question alone. And in that moment Kagome couldnt bring herself to lie to him. Especially when he came right out and asked a straight forward question.
"Yes..." It had been whispered so quietly that it could have been mistaken for the wind blowing past their ears. But Sesshomaru had heard it. And it was all he needed to hear.
Sesshomaru snatched kagome's wrist and pulled her sharply making her lose her balance and fall into his chest. Before she could even understand what was happeneing, Sesshomaru curled a clawed hand into her hair and pulled it roughly, forcing her head back. A small smirk caught kagome's eyes and then Sesshomaru molded his lips to hers in an angry, passionate kiss.
It if hadnt been for the playful look on his face when he did it, kagome probably would have dismissed it as another kiss like the last. But this one was different. It was like he was teasing her while trying to give her a message at the same time. What the message was she had no clue. Her brain fogged over not long into the kiss and she was puddy in his hands.
He wanted her. He knew that now. But he also didnt feel like he was inlove with her yet. Not yet. But he felt it wouldnt take long before he was. Just knowing that she loved him was enough for him right now. He would try his best to be who she needed him to be. Because before all of this, He was sure that they belonged to each other in some way. They had been lovers and He still felt the attraction and the care that his old self held for her. Yes... It wouldnt be long until he felt the same love for her as she felt for him... But still he needed time. Because this... This was all still so new to him.
Smiling into the kiss, Sesshomaru pulled back to look into her dazed eyes. Pleased the mess he had made her. The tears were gone, and a goofy grin spread across her lips.
With her help... He knew he would be able to find himself again.
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