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Carlisle still had my hand in his when we got to the drive way, he hadn't let go and I didn't want to either, his car was parked in front of the house. A black Mercedes, that went perfectly well with his personality and job description; I couldn't imagine a respectable doctor driving something that wasn't classy or elegant, and that Mercedes of Carlisle's was both.

Just when he was about to open the passenger door for me, I remembered that I was still in my pajama shorts and tan top, and that my knees were scrapped and in desperate need of some alcohol and band aids.

"Can you do me a favor?" I said looking up at Carlisle. He looked at me expression soft, eyes understanding, and at that moment I thought that if I ask him to go to the end of the world that he would go, even if it was to buy me some new shoes.

"Yeah, sure. What you need?" his voice was soft but still had the underlying sorrow in it. For me. It made me smile, no that "ahh.. thanks for worrying" kind of smile, it was more of a "yeah if you just had care" smile, that I was sure looked fabulous on my new look: Tear stained cheeks, red-puffy eyes, Rudolf-red nose, and my hair that looked like birds were living in it. I could just see the head lines, if a paparazzi were to take a picture of me, it would say "Even stars have shitty days, " and what a shitty day I had. god, I'm messed up.

Carlisle cleared his throat, getting me out of my crazy-thoughts and making me pay attention to him, who was waiting like an idiot for me to tell him what I need it.

I gave him what I hope was a semi-apologetic look. "Sorry, spaced out for a moment. I need you to go inside and tell Alice that I'm a mess, she knows what to do." With that I gave him a final smile, thinking that he would do what I asked, and I got inside the car. Just when I was about to shut the door close, he pulled open and looked at me with a said-what?-look, that didn't look good on him.

"Do you need something" I asked, my tone telling him that I wasn't in the best of moods and that waiting for him wouldn't make that better.

"Why do you want Alice to know you're a mess?" why didn't men just do what one asks? It was just a simple request and he couldn't do it without asking questions or complaining.

I rolled my eyes at him. "Look at me" I said to him, he nodded. "We're going into town and I'm not exactly wearing clothes made to get out of the bedroom. Plus, I'm not planning on going inside that house until I'm drunk or dead on my feet. So hush hush…" with that I successfully shut the door close and relaxed in the comfy seat of his car.

From the window I saw him go inside the house.

I sat back and closed my eyes knowing that Alice would have Carlisle inside that house for at least twenty to thirty minutes, that's it if he doesn't tell her where he's taking me. I sighed and let my mind wonder, knowing that this might be the last time in some days that I would have time for myself, to be alone and wallow, to curse the gods and hope this was just a nightmare.

I could feel a set of new tears gathering behind my close lids, new sobs working their way out of my body and a fresh wave of sadness hit me full force without warning. And at that moment I hated everything and everyone, for making me feel broken, my dreams destroyed, my life chaos.

A lonely tear slipped from my shut eyes, marking a new trail, a new beginning , and dénouement. Conclusion.

I wiped the tears away just in time to see Carlisle open the driver's door, a bag in his hand and a smile in his face. I looked at him and gave him the most fake smile of all.

Dénouement: end to my sorrow, to myself pity, to being broken!

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"I cant believe you change in the backseat of the car" Carlisle said to me. We were in a diner just outside of Forks, seating in a booth that was next to the window, waiting for our food to arrive.

I giggled and sipped my iced tea. "And I cant believe you couldn't keep your eyes off the backseat" I told him teasingly. I had change my clothes in the back of his car while he was driving out of the manor. I had change from my pajamas shorts and tan-top, and I was pretty sure he had seem my pink tong while I tried to put my jeans on without flashing him. Alice had packed the little bag to its fullest; she bagged two change of clothes: a pink polka dress that I was sure would go to my mid-tights, and a pair of skinny jeans with a gray strapless blouse. There was also my Gucci aviators which I used and make up which I didn't use and white ballet flats.

Carlisle looked down sheepishly "You know, I would have never imagine you doing that!" his voice was filled with awe. At that moment the waitress came up with our food, I had expected her to wait and ask us if we needed anything else, but no she just left. Just like that.

Carlisle must had seem my what-the-hell expression because he chuckle softly. "When was the last time you ate at a diner?" he asked me, incredulous.

I shrugged and flashed him a smiled "Do a café in Venetia counts?" I asked him curiosity filling my voice. I was curious really, I knew I didn't have the normal teenage life. It began from me dating a senior to being a model at age sixteen.

Carlisle looked at me in shock, mouth open, eyes like saucers. It was a funny picture. "No. Let me rephrase the question. When was the last time you ate at a normal-middle-class diner?"

"When I was sixteen.." I said sheepishly, letting out a few giggles while Carlisle laugh filled the little diner. His laugh wasn't booming like Emmett's, or high-pitched like Alice's. it was a fine combination of the two, it was a laugh that demanded that you laugh along with him. That was his type of laugh. Contagious.

"You have had a life that I never thought you would have!" I raised an eyebrow, my expression was clearly not amused. "not in a bad sense- not that I think that you cant- what I mean is…" after watching him struggle for a few more minutes I decided to put him out of his misery.

"It's ok, Carlisle. I understood what you meant." I said to him softly, but I still had an amuse smile playing across my face.

He sighed in relief and gave my a small grin.

"What I was trying to say is that I always imagine you would go to the Army or Navy, you know your dream job and all that." He smiled at me. I nodded in understanding because that was really the only thing we talked about in high school. He wanted to be a doctor, I wanted to enlist. Our dreams were always made known, there were not secrets, no shame of what we wanted. Just us. Until…. College… limited communication…Esme…

"Yeah, dreams change Carlisle" I tried not to sound curtly but instead my voice was laced with blame, and I had not idea were it came from. But it was directed at him.

"People change too" I didn't know if he was talking about himself, or me, or even about the both of us. I just chose to ignore the comment and looked down at my plate. Chicken salad, French dressing.

"Yeah, they do" I said under my breath before I picked up my fork and started to eat my salad.

After seeing I wasn't going to talk about the subject anymore, Carlisle began to eat too. He stole some glances at me from time to time, while I stole some at his plate; stake and French fries. God, I haven't eaten French fries in a long, long time. Five years to be exact. Damn Alice!

Carlisle catch me between glance and smiled. "You want some? I wont tell!" I looked at him, my expression doubtful. He rolled his eyes good naturedly and smirked at me. "Boy scout honor's"

"You weren't a boy scout, idiot" I said to him and threw him a piece of lettuce, it landed on his nose. I burst out laughing, he looked too damn funny.

Carlisle send me a glare that most people would have found intimidating, but I knew he had found it funny too. His eyes were sparkling and a smile was cracking thru his pissed off façade. He was eyeing his fries, a playful glint on his eyes and I could see the wheels turning in his head.

"Don't do it Carlisle" I said, my voice strong but he took no notice and threw a French fry dripped with ketchup at me, it landed on my boobs. In the valley between my breasts, to be exact.

I looked between my boobs and Carlisle. My hurt female pride was telling me to start a full-blown-out food fight, but my Alice-well-mannered side was telling me to let it go and start a diplomatic conversation were neither of the parties would get hurt. Emotionally or physically.

Hurt female pride side won and Carlisle found himself wearing my salad. As I said before Carlisle brings the worst out of me. I smirked.

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I sighed. Loudly. "Hurry up Carlisle, we don't have all day" god, he took more time than Alice getting dress. After our little fiasco in the diner, Carlisle had decided that I have had enough fun at his expends and asked me that if could go to his car and bring him a gym bag that was inside his trunk. I did all that, twenty minutes ago and he was still inside the diner's bathroom 'changing'.

"If you hadn't dropped your salad on me, I wouldn't need to be here changing so wait" his voice wasn't exactly curt but it wasn't exactly pleasant either.

"It was an accident" I was an impatient person by nature but Carlisle talking back to me was slowly driving me to the loony bin!

I had clean myself fifteen minutes ago, and since then I had been waiting by the men bathroom door. "God, Carlisle hurry up. Will ya?"

"When did you became this impatient?" he asked back.

"I don't know Carlisle. On my sixteen birthday?" I asked sarcastically. "As you said people change!" just after I finished that sentence, the bathroom door flew open.

"Yes, you have" he said sadly and walked away.

"Hey, what's wrong with that?" I shouted after him, completely forgetting that we were inside a diner, and that there might be people that didn't want to hear me talking.

"That you're different. That you do things I'd had never expected you to do. That I don't know you and I cant see myself being a part of your life, because I don't know a thing about Izzy Swan the super model. And I know that is basically my fault but I'm still mad at something, at someone, and everything points to me; to how I fucked up, to how I made you cry and hurt you, and I cause all that for a spring fling that meant nothing and only caused trouble." He paused. "I'm sorry. I know you told me you didn't want to listen to any of my BS but I just exploted! C'mon let's get out of here!" and he gave me a happy smile, that clearly was as fake as Paris' nose.

I smiled and walked up to him. I sighed, I didn't have an idea of what to say to all that. My mind was running a marathon, deciding if I should believe him and give him another opportunity. My feelings were a whole different story but hurt top it all. And I dint know what to do. I felt as if I was in the ocean and was slowly drowning. Like I was running and wasn't getting anywhere. My instincts were telling me to give it a shot, that you couldn't live without taking chances. But taking those chances were probably going to hurt me, and if it happen a second time and by the same person, I was going to go crumbling to the ground faster than the Twin Towers and maybe as destructive. Self-destructive.

I decided to let the dice roll and play the game just like every other player out there. Because that was life and I loved to live my life at its fullest.

"How about we start over!?! Like when we were in preschool and we had to be friends because we didn't have a choice, and we played day in and out getting to know every one of our friends!" I gave him a smile, a sincere one this time. "Like we didn't know each other"

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