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And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real til it's gone

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Have you ever woken up to an empty bed? I'm not used to it. I'm used to having my beautiful Matt next to me when I go to sleep, and when I wake up. It was seven in the morning, where the fuck could he be?! Breakfast wasn't until… what, nine? I heard the shower going, and smirked. Matt was in the shower…

And you know, people don't shower with their clothes on.

I got out of bed, stretching. I cracked my knuckles like I did every morning (that might result to arthritis when I'm old). I got up; the bare wood floor felt cold against my naked feet. I tip-toed towards the bathroom in our bedroom, turning the knob. I peeked my head in. Matt never turned on the fan, so the bathroom was all steamy. Through the light steam, I saw Matt. He wasn't facing me, he was facing the shower head. I let my eyes wander over his body, sort of… eye-raping him, I guess. His body was so perfect, it sort of sent chills up my spine. It clicked in my mind that I was staring at him ass. I slowly licked my lips; oh how I wanted to smack that perfect ass. He was so perfect.

I slowly tip-toed into the bathroom, turning to shut the door as quietly as possible.

"I know you're in here." I heard Matt's voice. My eyes widened a little, I blushed.

"When did ya' realize I was in here?" I turned, blushing.

Matt looked over his shoulder, a big cocky smirk on his face. "Oh, I don't know… maybe while you were checking me out."

My blush worsened. "Shuttup,"

"Nah, it was cute." He turned off the water, shagging his red hair like a dog would to get dry. He stepped out of the shower, and I knew my face was bright red. He got into his bathrobe, and walked over to me. I felt an erection begin in my boxers. Matt was a load taller than me, by at least five inches. He sort of jerked my head to look up at him, and kissed me. I kissed back, no duh…

As the kiss deepened, I started to try and undo the bow tying his bathrobe closed. My boner was getting really hot and uncomfortable… I felt his lips leave mine, and he grabbed my wrists. I blushed again.

"Well somebody's desperate to get into my pants…" He smirked. "Too bad."

"Come on," I rolled my eyes.

"No." He cocked his eyebrows, then let go of my wrists. Matt left the bathroom.

"Better hurry up and get dressed for breakfast, Mello-pie."

"I swear to God Matt, stop calling me that!"

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I was sitting at our usual table, in the corner of the cafeteria. Matt wasn't down here yet, he said he had something to do. I waited, not really patiently. I was sort of pissed that people would shut the fuck up about mine and Matt's relationship. It wasn't any of their concern, so unless they want my foot up their ass they better shut up.

"Hi Mello." Near said quietly, as he shuffled by my table to go sit where he usually sat. Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw Linda jump up from her table to go join him, practically pushed down anyone in her way. I chuckled to myself. I liked Linda, she was nice, but I felt bad for her. She was in love with Near, had yet to admit it to the boy (thought it was quite obvious), and he didn't love her back. He considered her 'someone to talk to when I'm bored', to put it in his words.

I saw Matt walk into the cafeteria. His red hair was pretty messy. He smiled at me, wiping his face. He walked toward the table to get us both some cereal, and I swear he was walking with a limp… why?

Matt turned to walk to our table, and I noticed Rock and Ryan tap him on the shoulder. Matt turned his head, and Rock's fist met his cheek. I gasped, I felt the anger boiling inside me. I quickly got up, knocking down every chair and person in my way to Matt. Ryan and Rock were kicking him and punching him, and of course there were no adults around. I quickly got myself into the middle, kicked Ryan in the balls and punched Rock in the stomache. Rock bent over, clutching his stomach, and I took the opportunity and punched him in the nose. I hope I broke it.

"Let's go, Matt." I spat, glaring down at the two boys. I stormed out of the cafeteria, followed by my broken beauty. As soon as we got to at least the rec room, Matt stumbled and fell. He didn't get up.

"Matt, get up."

"No… it hurts!" He sighed.

I sighed, picking him up and slinging him over my shoulder. Yeah, he was taller, but I was stronger. I carried him up the stairs and to our bedroom, setting him on our bed.

"What happened?!" I exclaimed.

"Nothing, I'm fine." He didn't look at me.

"Liar." I spat.

"Okay, fine. Maybe Rock and his fags beat the shit out of me maybe because I am gay." I rolled his eyes, irritated.

Matt was a really sensitive guy. He was so easily broken. He's been broken so many times I sometimes wonder how I fix him every time he falls. I saw tears form in his eyes. The bad thing about Matt was that he pretended not to care, and that only made it worse for him.

"I'll fucking kill them." I growled. I hugged Matt, falling back on the bed in our embrace.

Matt let his tears spill over, and he craned his neck up to kiss my lips.

"Matt?"

"Y-yeah?" He stuttered.

"I swear, when I grow up and leave this place, I'm taking you with me."

"Promise?" He looked up at me.

"Yeah, I promise." I smiled down at him. I had a feeling something bad was going to happen.

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Hold on before its too late
We'll run til we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

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Before It's Too Late – Goo Goo Dolls

The previous chapter's song: Ice Cream – Jeffree Star

I'm sorry these chapters are getting so short. I just can't write very long chapters, I'm sorry!

Also… some bad news…

The next chapter might be the final of this fic! I'm not discontinuing the fic, it's just that the next chapter might be the end of the fic. But worry not! I will also have good news at the end of the next chapter!