Description: New Dawson's Creek story that I have been working on. Its based after the series ended, the only character that I own is Caleb and Jake.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the original story and Caleb/Jake.
Authors Note: if this story receives reviews I will update it regularly.
Lost love Found:
Chapter#10
(Pacey's continued pov; next morning)
" I guess you're not mad at me anymore Caleb? I told you last night, you're who I want to be with not Pacey. ….I love you.", mumbles joey in a sleepy voice when she feels my arms tighten around her gently. Ouch, her words really cut me deep. She thinks that I'm Caleb right now? I can't win can I? First Joey won't acknowledge that she knows me and now she doesn't even realize it is me who's holding her? Did Potter honestly forget what it felt like to wake up in my arms?
" That isn't something a guy wants to wake up to.", I mutter in a gruff tone. Tensing up at the sound of my voice, I watch as Joey glancing up at me. To my relief there isn't anger or hatred in her eyes like I thought there would be. Is it possible that Potter isn't mad at me? God I hope so, I feel like a complete jerk for the way I treated her last night. When Joey took off crying, it damn near broke my heart. Once again I had managed to cause her pain.
" Pacey?...What the hell.", exclaims Joey with a frown and a sigh. She doesn't look too thrilled to see me but at least Joey hasn't asked me to leave. That has to be a good sign, right? If she didn't want me in here, Joey would have kicked me out of bed and asked me to get the hell out. As of yet she hasn't done this. I can only hope that Joey will let me stay near her, the last thing I want is to leave.
" You don't love me?", I can't help but ask in a quiet voice. Staring down into Joey's eyes, I search for just about any sign that she could be lying. She has to be right? Then again, I did shatter her heart when we broke up all those years ago. There was a point when whenever Joey was out with one of the gang and I showed up, she would think of just about any excuse to leave. She has a talent for avoiding those she wants nothing to do with that much is for sure.
Turning around in my arms, Joey looks up at me," Why are you in here?"
Holding Joey close, I rest my chin on her shoulder," I miss having you in my arms."
" Then you should have never let me go Pacey.", responds Joey softly. There is a look in her eyes that I can't decipher. Breathing a heavy sigh, I close my eyes as Joey's hand touches my bare chest. I miss the feel of her hands on me. This girl knows how to drive my insane without even trying. Joey always has, it is one of the things I love and hate about her. All I want to do is lean down and kiss Joey senseless. I'm not sure if she wants me to though.
" I regret it every day Jo.", I admit without hesitation. This is the truth too. I should have never let Joey get away. Not waking up beside her all these years has slowly taken its toll on me. My damn insecurities over Dawson are what got me into this mess all those years ago. At one point I had actually convinced myself that it was merely a matter of time before Joey broke up with me and took him back. The thought of this had driven me beyond jealousy and resentment of Dawson.
"…Caleb broke up with me.", confesses Joey after a minute or so of silence. There isn't hurt or resentment in her voice at all as she tells me this. I'm unsure what to think. Does she want to be with him still? Joey isn't even so much as crying a single tear. Maybe she got all of her tears out last night? What does this new information mean for me? Could I possibly have another chance with Joey or does she want nothing more to do with me?
" Are you upset Jo?", I inquire with a look of concern. This causes Joey to look up at me with tired eyes. Nudging her cheek against my chest, I smile when she presses her lips to my skin in a light peck. God Joey is making it difficult for me not to just kiss her senseless. Does she even know what she is doing to me right now? I want to make my move but I'm afraid of how she will react.
Lying back in my arms, Joey grasps hold of my hand,"….No, I kind of expected him to."
Taking a risk, I lean down to kiss Joey," I love you Potter."
" Why did you have to hurt me then?", inquires Joey in an inaudible whisper. Her lips meet mine once more and I pull Joey as close to me as I can. Wow, I did not expect her to kiss me back. If anything I was certain that Joey would have slapped me across the face once more. I'm glad that she didn't, her slaps hurt like hell. My cheek stung for nearly two hours, but to be fair I deserved to be in pain. I can't exactly blame Joey for hitting me the way that she did.
" I let my damn insecurities get the best of me Joey.", I confess before nudging my face into the crook of her neck. In turn Joey leans up to kiss me again and I can't help but grin. I'm not exactly sure what this means and right now I don't even care. Joey is kissing me and in my arms, that is all that matters. I never thought that I would ever have her in my arms again. This almost feels like the old days, the only difference is that Potter and I aren't together anymore.
"….All I ever wanted was you Pacey, why couldn't you have seen that?", questions Joey with a sad look in her eyes. Watching as a single tear rolls down her cheek, I swipe it away with my finger. Joey is the only one I ever wanted too. Had I known that she felt this way about the two of us I never would have let her go. Does Joey miss me the way that I do her? Is there any chance that she would take me back? God I hope that there is. I only want to be with Joey and no one else.
" I let my uncertainties about Dawson get the best of me. I was an idiot Joey, could you ever give me another shot? ….I need you Jo, please.", I all but plead with her. My lips meet Joey's once more. I kiss her with all that I have; every single word that I've ever left unsaid is poured into this kiss. To my surprise and relief, she responds just as eagerly. Wrapping Joey tightly in my arms, I nudge my nose against hers. I never want to let her go again. If it were up to me, I never would either. Having Joey in my arms right now is the best feeling in the world. ….