I'm so sorry for the long update! I hope I didn't loose any followers and I greatly appreciate everyone's reviews and PM's. I was going through something really heavy personal things and things just barely started getting better. So for my apology I give you this extra long chapter :) I can't promise the next update will be soon, but I can promise you wouldn't have to wait as long.

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My body was in so much pain. What just happened? The last thing I remember was me and my best friend Anthony laughing and having a good time at the back seat of his mom's sedan. I tried to look around. Things didn't look and feel right. Everything was upside down. I was feeling around to realize that I was being held up by something rough. I tried to get my vision back in order, but everything was spinning. My head was throbbing in pain. I could hear screaming outside of the car, but I couldn't see anyone. There was smoke building up and it was getting harder to breathe. I tried to break loose from whatever was keeping me up, but I couldn't. Fuck! My head. I tried to touch my temple, but as soon as I touched it I felt a burning sensation overcome me. I quickly took a look at my hand, it was covered in blood. I started to panic. I tried screaming for help, but my voice was gone. Then Anthony came to the forefront of my thoughts. Where was he? I tried to look to my side to see if he was still there. As I turned my vision started to give up on me. Next thing I know, everything became dark.

When I finally opened my eyes again everything was so bright. I could see that there was a machine next to me beeping. Some tubes were tied to me. I was laying down on some bed. This isn't my bed. Where am I? Then it hit me. The pain was so unbearable. I started to scream. I was in so much pain. Not a second later people came running into the room I was in. Who are they? Then out of the crowd, I found my sister slicing through them and after her my parents. They looked like they hadn't slept in a while. My mom ran over to grab my hand and she was crying and my dad quickly stood behind her looking at me with so much worry. I was so confused. Then I felt Leah sit on my bed. She was rubbing my leg and it looked like she's been through hell and back. A man wearing an all white coat came walking next to where I was laying and pressed something. I looked into his eyes and all I could see was all the hope in his blue eyes. Things became dizzy. The darkness took over again.

When I finally woke back up again things were a little different. The lights weren't as bright. I felt something or someone holding my hand. I looked over and I see that Leah was right next to me holding my hand. She was sitting in a chair next to me with her head on my bed. It looked like she was sleeping. I tried to move a little bit, but it was so hard to even move. I grunted a little bit because I was still in pain. Leah quickly shot up. I smiled a little seeing that she had a little drool coming down her mouth. She smiled back at me and wiped herself clean. Then her eyes started watering as she started rubbing my arms.

"Leah, why are you crying?"

I could see the tears rolling down her cheeks. "Because I'm so happy". I could feel her hand that was holding my hand was starting to shake. "You were out of it for a few weeks now." She got up and leaned over to give me a hug. "I was so scared...that I...was going to...lose you."

"Where's mom and dad?"

"I made them go home. They've been here for days now not sleeping. So I told them I'd call them if anything new happens."

I began to feel uneasy. "What do you mean lose me? What happened?" Leah let go of me and sat back down to the chair next to me.

"You don't remember?" Leah asked with worry. I lightly shook my head. She gave out a long exhale and her eyebrows furrowed. There was fear in her eyes.

"You, Anthony, and his mom were on your way to Disneyland. Then you guys got into a car accident."

My eyes opened wide in horror. I tried to get up, but I couldn't I felt so weak. "Where's Anthony?! Where's his mom?! Are they ok?!"

Leah didn't answer me, but her silence told me everything. She continued to cry and shook her head. "They didn't make it Seth."

My body felt heavy. I didn't want to hear that. I started crying too. "It's all my fault."

"It's not your fault Seth. Don't you ever say that." Leah was rubbing my arm once again.

I turned my head to the other side so she couldn't see me. It was my fault. I tried to recall the the weeks before the car accident. Anthony was my best friend. He was around my height with short brown hair. He'd always were these 3D glasses with the lenses popped off. Saying that he was Harry Potter. I would just laugh and shake my head at him. He was always smiling. His smile was so contagious. We would always talk about how we would always be there for each other. He'd always have my back and vice versa. I remember a time when we were younger and these kids were trying to bully me. As I was being pushed to one bully to another; out of nowhere Anthony popped out and started wildly swinging and screaming at the other kids. We were the same height, but at that time he looked a few feet taller than me. We totally got our assed served to us, but after all said and done we were just laying there laughing. That's how it went for the next few years of our friendship. Though we weren't related; I felt like we were brothers. We were family. It was only his mom and him because his dad left them when he was younger. His mom was friends with my parents and they would always come over. We would always play little pranks on my sister. When she found out it was us she started running after us like it was an episode of Tom and Jerry.

One day Anthony and I were discussing what I wanted to do on my 13th birthday. My birthday. That's what caused this. It was all my fault. He was talking about it would be cool to go to this place called "Johns Incredible Pizza", but I told him I wanted to go to Disneyland. We would argue and point out the pro's and con's about which place was better. We even set up a meeting with our parents to like we were some kind of business trying to sell one of our products. At the end we ended up going to Disneyland.

Anthony and I couldn't sleep that night because we both were too excited. We got online to take a look at the park map and started to map out our day. We were going to each some churros first and start riding some of the rides. Then after that we would take pictures with as much characters as we can. I would also get one of those birthday pins to wear proudly around the theme park. When the morning came we were already dressed waiting impatiently for everyone to be ready. Leah would tease us that if we wouldn't stop moving that we wouldn't be able to leave anymore. As kids we believed her so we just sat down in the patio waiting. We were talking about how much fun we were going to have. We all couldn't fit in one car so we decided to take two. My parents and Leah in one, while Anthony and I in another. We were thinking about the new ride that just opened and joking around that the other would pee their pants. I looked behind us to see that my parents and Leah were just behind us. That was the last thing I remember.

I turned around to look at Leah who was still rubbing my arm. "If it wasn't for my birthday they would still be alive. It's all my fault!" I lost it. I couldn't stop crying now.

After that every time when my birthday was coming around I never had a desire to celebrate it. Leah would always take it upon herself to make sure that I would have a good time. There was even a time when no one showed up for one of my birthday party, but that didn't stop her from cheering me up.

I mean after Leah's famous words, "Fuck them". We would just set off and do something ourselves.

I looked outside the window as Jasper and Edward was taking me home. Taking a look into what just happened at the pool hall I couldn't feel any worse. I wanted Jacob back into my life, but him being hot and cold I just don't know how to approach things. I missed my best friend.

When we finally reached my house I could see Leah pacing back and forth on our driveway. I grinned when I noticed that she was wearing heels. Paul really did a number on her. Never in my life would I think that Leah, my sister, would ever show a little bit of feminism in her. When she realized that we were there she stopped and put her hands on her waist tapping her heels now.

I bid Jasper and Edward goodbye and they told me to have a good time with my family tonight. Before I could even turn around I felt Leah grab me by ears and start dragging me into the house. Jasper and Edward hasn't even drove off yet and I could see that they were laughing inside the car. My face was burning red as I walked into my house in embarrassment.

"What took you so long?! You know we were having dinner tonight" Leah telling me as she let go of my ear.

I rubbed my ear to ease out the pain and just smiled at her. She gave me her best "What the fuck" look, but that didn't scare me away. I walked towards her and just gave her a hug. She let out a grunt and hugged me back. "I love you too squirt."

"Seth you're home" I heard my mom say behind me. "Sweetie, hurry up and get dressed. We have reservations in half an hour."

I quickly ran upstairs and looked into my closet to see what I should wear for dinner tonight. Did I want to wear a tie or bow tie? Or should I just go simple with a just a long sleeve? Slacks or jeans? So much to think from, but so little time. One by one I would take my clothes out of my closet and look in front of the mirror to see if this shirt would look ok with these pants. I finally decided to just wear some khakis with a black buttoned down shirt. As I finished getting ready I looked at myself again. I shrugged at myself. This is the best that it's going to get.

I looked outside my window to see that my parents were already waiting for me in the car. Leah was standing outside the door on the phone; probably talking to Paul. I glanced at Jacob's house and noticed that he just arrived home. I sighed. This wasn't the right time for that. I made my way downstairs and out the front door with Leah already on her way to the car. I could see the sun was already coming down illuminating the sky with a vermillion color which I thought looked beautiful. I got into the car and we quickly departed our house.

"So where are we going?" I asked everyone

My mom turned around and giggled a little bit. "Well, Leah has been telling your dad and I about this Thai restaurant in Port Angeles so we decided to try that out. We know how much you love Thai." My mom giggled some more and turned back around. She and my dad started talking about something lowly to which I couldn't really hear. I got so excited as my mouth started to water. The last time I remember eating anything oriental was back when we were in Los Angeles. I gave a huge grin.

I turned to Leah to see she was playing with her phone. I gave her a nudge. "How'd you find out about this place?"

Leah took her eyes off her phone and gave me her attention. "Paul took me there one night. It was quite funny actually. I got mad at him one night he was taking me out to dinner. He couldn't find a place for to eat. You know me when I get hungry." She laughed and smiled at the thought. "Anyways, at first he wanted to take me to this buffet, but he didn't know that place actually shut down. We drove around for about another hour till I was starting to get cranky. We stopped at red light and I just decided to get out the car without telling him. I guess he pulled over and parked trying to catch up with me. One thing led to another while we were arguing and I poured some random guy's water on him then he noticed this little Thai restaurant in a corner. He suggested it and I just walked towards the restaurant without even talking to him. The food's really good there." She continued laughing after telling her story.

"You two are something." I laughed with her. "So where did that guy come from?"

She shrugged. "I don't know. I saw him walking towards us bopping his head listening to some Miley Cyrus tunes and I noticed he was holding a water bottle" My eyes widened as I tried to picture this whole scene happening. She pushed me gently. "What?! You know I wear the big pants in the relationship"

I shook my head. "Oh great, let me know when Paul gets them back."

"Um. Yea. That won't happen."

We continued driving some more when I recieved a text message from Jasper. He was wondering how was dinner, but we haven't reached our destination yet. So I replied back that we weren't eating yet. He then sent another to let him know how the food was.

We stopped at a red light when we saw 2 guys holding hands walking in front of us. Aw, they looked so cute and happy together. They were just laughing; I guess cracking jokes to one another.

"I'm so glad I don't have to deal with 'them' in my house." My dad quickly said. My eyes quickly turned to look at my dads reflection in the rear view mirror. He had this disgusted look. I turned to look out my window as I slowly sank into my seat.

"Dear, that's not really nice." My mom tells him.

"That's just not normal."

"What's not normal. Love is love." my mom replied back.

The light finally turned green and we passed the same sex couple. "Yes, love may be just love. But that's not how I view things and that's not how I raised my kids." I could see my dad tightening his grip on the steering wheel.

"You know our son has a gay friend right?"

My dad sighed, "Seth." I looked right back at him, "I'm glad you're finally making friends again. I know how hard it is for you to even socialise with new people. Especially, you know, with some prior events that I don't really want to get into. I'm not saying that I don't approve of it. I'm saying that I'm glad you're not one of them." He said it so aggressively and matter of fact. I felt like crap. I didn't know what to say or do other that just nod my head at him. I looked back right out the window as we continued to drive towards the restaurant.

Dinner was actually really nice. The food was great. I had a really nice time with my family even with the prior incident that happened before arriving at the restaurant. My favorite was the pad thai. I was able to get my mind off a few things during our meal. Other than having conversations with my family; dinner was pretty uneventful.

When we finally got home my dad called me into the living room. I was getting pretty nervous because he had a certain tone in his voice that's only reserved for whenever my sister or I were in trouble. I sat down on the couch and Leah sat down right next to me. It felt weird. She grabbed my hand and had a huge grin on her face. I looked over to my parents who now took a seat comfortably on the other couch facing towards us. I started to feel chills. What was going on?

"So Seth. You're turning 17 this year. I still remember when you started learning how to walk." My dad started laughing and my mom giggling right next to him. Oh god. I could tell where this was going. I was starting to get embarrassed. "You were...special. You never liked to wear any pants or even your diapers. If it was up to you, you'd be walking around naked everywhere." He turned to my mom "Honey, do you remember that one time at the park he was with Anthony? Seth, you convinced your best friend that you had a special ability and that you can turn invisible. You told Anthony that he can be invisible as well as long as both of you were naked and he had to be only an arm's distance away from you. Oh boy, I remember all the parents facial expressions watching 2 kids running around the park naked." I missed Anthony. Why did they have to bring him back up?

Leah tried to join in on the fun. "How about that one time I convinced him that he can fly as long as he his special cape on."

I pushed her, "That's not really funny Leah."

"Oh my god! Why not?!" She was starting to laugh

"Because I broke my arm"

"Only because you jumped off our roof!" She fell to the ground laughing now. Tears were starting to form in her eyes. I just shook my head at her. "Seth, you were sure gullible back then."

I rolled my eyes back at her and focused my attention back at my parents. "Anyways" my dad said, "The point is that with time passing up, you're growing up. You're going to be taking your driving test soon and with that you're going to need some wheels." My dad reaches inside his pocket and takes out a key. My eyes stay strained to his hands and then he tosses it to me. I grab it before it can hit me on the face. I opened my hands to look at the key I just caught. Then I looked right back up to my parents with a questionable face.

"What is this?"

My mom chuckles some more. "What do you think it is honey?" I looked over at Leah with a grin still on her face.

I looked at the keys again, it looked like a car key. "Is this for a car?"

My dad just nods. "You're mom and I decided that it's time for you to have a car. It's nothing fancy. A good starter car."

"Paul already took a look at it and made sure the oil is changed. The engine is in good shape so it shouldn't give you any trouble." Leah added.

"Did you guys really get me a car?!" I was so ecstatic.

"It's yours WHEN you pass your test." My dad said. I couldn't hold myself. I jumped off the couch and went to hug both my parents.

I couldn't hide the smile that was plastered on my face even if I wanted to. "Thanks Dad, Mom. You guys are the best!"

Leah cleared her throat. "How about me?! I was the one pushing for you to have one" I looked over to her and I walked over to her. I reached my arm out and pulled her up into a hug.

"Thanks big sis", I whispered into her ear. We were wrapped around in each others arms for a good minute.

Leah finally pulled out of the hug, "Glad you love it. Anyways, tomorrow's your birthday and your barbeque so it's going to be a long day"

I found out a few minutes later that my actual car wasn't home, but at Paul's house because they didn't me to find out. Paul was going to drive it over the next day and show me around the car. This was such an amazing present.

After receiving my present I went to my room to just stared at my car key. I laughed to myself. It's not like me staring at it for a long period can make the car come to me. Then a thought came to me. This would have been a perfect moment to share with Anthony. He was my best friend and he would been so happy for me. Then it hit me.

'Anthony would have been happy for me'

I smiled as my a tear slid down my cheeks. He may not be here anymore, but he'll always be in my heart.

I quickly grabbed my phone because I wanted to tell everything that just happened to Jasper. When he answered I didn't even miss a beat. I didn't even give him a chance to speak. It was actually funny. When he would think I was about to finish my sentence I would cut him off with how I couldn't wait to see my car or that Paul was driving it to my house tomorrow. Just like I expected Jasper was happy for me as well.

The next morning didn't come fast enough. I was up by 7am and that was not normal in my book, but I couldn't help it. I had already received numerous text messages from family and friends greeting me a happy birthday. I was excited. Yes, I wouldn't be able to drive it till I get my license, but having it here at my house was all the inspiration I needed. Paul arrived an hour later calling me on my phone letting me know he was right outside. Since I have been awake for an hour already I was already up and ready to run outside. As I opened my front door, I noticed a white car sitting in my driveway. Even though my dad said that it was just a nice starter car I couldn't help but think it was nothing else but perfect. Paul showed me around the car. It was quite roomy inside. He opened the hood and he showed me how to check the oil and other necessary stuff I needed to know.

"So how do you like your car?" Paul asked me as he closed the hood of the car.

"I love it."

Paul laughed and put his hand on my shoulder, "Happy Birthday buddy" He turned around to take a seat on my car hood. "Look Seth I wanted to talk to you."

"Sure what's up Paul?" I asked and took a seat next to him.

"We're friends right?"

This was a weird question for him to ask. "I thought so yea"

He just smiled, looked down, and shook his head. "That came out wrong. Um. Anyways, I should have asked you if it was ok for me to date your sister before actually trying to pursue her and I'm sorry if it came out of left field. You're sister..." He released out a deep breathe. "Your sisters amazing. I just wanted to let you know that. She's not intimidated of me or even try to put on this pretty girl front. She is how she is and honestly...that's what I love about her." I was still trying to figure out where is he going with this.

Paul turned his head towards me again. "Your sister can be closed off at times and there are times she can be...um. What's the right word for this. I guess you can say, difficult. I'm trying to understand her, but there are things as what I said she doesn't want to tell me. Especially if I try to bring out her past. I promise you that I'm not trying to play her wrong man, but what else can I do to prove to her that I'm all for her and I only want to make her happy. I just feel like she's hiding something from me. I'm trying to open up to her, but when I try to have her open up to me it just ends up us getting into an argument."

I smiled at Paul. He was very genuine. A side I rarely see come out of him. I don't really know what I was about to say to him, but I know that he wouldn't hurt my sister. "I shouldn't really be telling you this because if she knew she would probably kill me and as a resort of you knowing she'd probably kill you too." We both laughed because we knew how true my statement was. "I don't know if she ever told you, but you're basically the second guy she's ever dated."

"Yea, she's mentioned it, but she doesn't talk about the first guy at all. I mean that should be a good thing, but I want to know her story." He chuckled. "I know that sounds lame, but I want to know all of her. I want to know why she is the person she is right now. I know everyone doesn't have a perfect past. Hell, look at me. I was in and out of juvie when I was a kid. I hung out with the wrong crowd. That was until I met Jake and the guys. Then I started changed and I guess you can say for the better. Point is that I know what I have in front of me and that's your sister, but I want to know how she got there. Um. I don't even know if that made any sense." He started laughing now.

I gulped. "Hmm...yea you're right and I see where you're coming from. There's a reason for her being so closed off. Sam. That was his name. They dated for a long time. Yea, they were happy, but what he did broke her and her trust for other guys. There was a time I thought she was going to go lesbian on us. Anyways, it was during the summer and our family went out fishing one weekend. We actually came home earlier than we expected. Sam didn't live too far away from our house back in Los Angeles. I guess a few blocks the most. She walked towards his house and not even a half an hour later she came running back in crying. She wouldn't come out her room, she wouldn't even eat. Till one day she finally opened her door for me. At first she wouldn't talk to me. I guess she just wanted my company with her in her room. She was crying and I had to force her to eat at least a piece of bread a day. I just went through a lost of a friend recently before that and she was there for me every minute to make sure I was ok. I wasn't going to give up on her."

"What did Sam do?" Paul asked.

I looked away. "It was a week later till she finally told me what happened. When she arrived at Sam's house she noticed that his front door wasn't closed properly. At first she thought it was weird, but she didn't really question it. Since she was close to Sam's family she knew that they wouldn't mind if she just came in. She thought Sam was sleeping and that she wanted to surprise him. In the end he was surprised alright. She walked into Sam having sex with our second cousin Emily. Ever since then she was always closed off to dating guys. Well...until you came along. So honestly Paul, there's no apology needed. You kind of saved my sister out of her funk. She learned how to trust again. She's happy with you, I can see that. If she seems closed off at times then maybe she is, but that scar is always going to be there. It's not your fault, but it really isn't hers either. Just give her time. I see that she loves you...actually I know that she loves you too."

"She hasn't said it to me."

I shrugged. "She doesn't have too. She looks at you like you're the world to her."

Unexpectedly, Paul pulls me in and gives me a hug. "Thanks man."

"No problem Paul, just keep doing what you're doing. Don't become another Sam in her life. Just be Paul."

Paul pulls back out and puts his hands on both my shoulders and he looks right into my eyes. "I don't mean to pry, but since you're Leah's brother I can't help now, but to feel like I need to make sure you're ok. Is there anything going on between you and Jake?"

I couldn't look him into his eye, but he wouldn't let me turn away. So the best I could do was look down. "We just got into an argument." That was the best I can think of on the spot.

"Well whatever you guys are fighter over; you two need to get over it. We're all friends. Friends don't turn their back on friends regardless of what they're fighting about. I tried talking to Jacob, but he wouldn't say a word and I'm not going to try and squeeze it out of you too. Just know, if you need someone to talk to, I'm here for you too ok?"

I just nodded.

I saw Leah creeping behind Paul and wrap her hands around his waist smiling. He in return smiled right back at her. It was good to see her happy. "Sorry to break up the bromance, but babe I'm going to need help setting up these tables." She planted a kiss on his cheeks. "Seth, why don't you wash up."

Not wanting to be around the love fest downstairs anymore I followed Leah's request. Plus, with all the stuff Paul was showing me around the engine my hands were full of dirt. I still can't believe I have a car. I went to my room to grab some clean clothes and went straight for the bathroom.

As I was standing in the shower letting the water hit my face. I just stood there. Relaxed. For the first time not trying to think about any drama that has been going on. Today was my day. Normally, I would have dreaded my birthday due my past, but I feel lighter today and that was all I needed. I finished washing up and dried myself. I went straight towards my room and I found a small box on my bed. That's weird. That wasn't there before. Underneath the box was an envelope. I walked slowly to it. I wonder who's it from. I picked up the box and placed it on the side and picked up the envelope. The envelope was left blank. Also weird. I opened it to realise that it wasn't even closed. I pulled out a note the was typed on a piece of hard paper. Like this person didn't want me to know who wrote it. I started to blush as I read what the note said.

'All everyone really needs is a good adventure to write down in their own personal history books. We go through life missing things that are right in front of us even if it does hit us on the face. This journey is like a roller coaster. We have our ups and we have our downs. Be happy. Nobody like you deserves to be in a sad mood. At the end of the day remember this; YOU will always be my favorite part of history. Happy Birthday Seth.'

There was no name written on it. I turned the card over and it was blank. Who was this from? I noticed the small box I laid on my bed. I put down the card and replaced it with the box. I started to tear off the gift wrap around it. As I slowly opened the small lid I noticed something shiny inside reflecting from the sun. It was a key chain and it looks like a dog tag was hooked on to it. On one side it had my name 'Seth Clearwater' and on the other it said 'let's go on a new adventure and create more history'. I'm still trying to figure out what this all means. Was Jasper here? I did like the keychain though. I thought it looked pretty cool. I grabbed my new car key and added it to my new keychain. Whoever this came from, thank you.

I finished up getting ready in my room and then I headed back downstairs to offer some help. I found Paul in the kitchen marinating some meat and I saw Leah outside setting up the table and decorations outside. Looks like Quil got here when I was getting ready because he was outside helping my sister out.

"Hey what's up Quil" I greeted. He nodded back in reply. "Hey Leah, did you put that present on my bed?"

She gave me a questionable look. "What present dork? I was down here all the time setting up for your party." I shrugged it off.

"Did you guys need any help?" I offered.

Leah finished putting down a table cloth. "Um. You can see if Paul needs any help marinating."

I walked back inside to find Paul.

"Hey Paul did you need any help?" He just smiled and shook his head at me. I was about to ask him about the present as well, but I decided just to drop it. I figured it was just a kind gesture from someone anonymous. I guess I'd figure it out another time.

My phone rang and I grabbed it out of my pockets. It was Jasper.

"Hey what's up Jaz!"

"Happy Birthday best friend!" He greeted me.

"Thanks! What's up?!" I asked

I heard laughter in the background. "We're right outside. Can you open the door?". I smiled and walked towards the door to open it. As I opened the door to find Jasper, Edward, and some girl wrapped around Edward.

"Happy Birthday Seth." Edward greeted me. "This is Bella." I waved at her and she smiled and greeted me as well.

Jasper pulled me into the living room, Edward joined Paul in the kitchen, and Bella went outside.

Once we were alone Jasper pulled me into a hug. "So are you excited about your car?". We pulled out of the hug and I just nodded my head. "I've known about it for a while now. It's a nice car. Look who's a big boy now." He chuckled.

"I can't actually drive it till I get my license."

Jasper put his hand on my shoulder. "Well we better get started...after your birthday of course." Jasper then reached into his back pocket and pulled out a card.

"What's this?"

"Open it to find out." He just smiled back at me. When I opened it I found a Happy Birthday card and inside it said 'I.O.U.'

I gave him a look of confusion. "I figured you'd look at me that way." He laughed. "You told me that you always wanted to learn how to play the piano and I figured...I could be your tutor."

I was in awe. "Jasper..." I couldn't find the words to tell him how much I appreciated him.

He held up his hand for me to stop. "Don't mention it." We joined the others outside. Paul and Edward was right by grill starting the fire. Embry came a few minutes later. Quill was sitting at the edge of the table eating some chips and dip and Bella was taking pictures with Leah on her phone. I wonder if Jacob is coming? As much as things are weird between us, I wish he was here. We were all having a good time and my phone went off again. It was James. I walked away from our group and answered my phone.

"What's up James."

"Yo! Buddy. What are you doing today?" James asked. My eyes widened in surprise. I didn't tell him. Oh crap.

"Um. Sorry. I forgot to tell you. My sister is throwing me a barbeque for my birthday. Did you want to come?"

I heard him laugh. "It's your birthday and you didn't tell me?"

"I know I'm sorry!"

"Don't be sorry. It's your day." James said.

"So are you coming?" I asked.

"No, I don't want to cause any drama. Especially on your day. I tell you what. There's a meteor shower going on tonight and the sky is going to be clear. Let me take you out to watch it with me for your birthday?"

I smiled. Without second thinking. "Sure."

"Great. I'll pick you up later. Have fun." James said and we ended the call.

I joined the others again. They were talking about how things were before Leah and I arrived at Forks. Hearing these stories were bittersweet. I love the stories of the past, but it made me feel left out because I wasn't there. Regardless, I was here now. We were all having fun. Talking have great conversations. Teasing each other. Teasing me mostly. Leah excused herself because she got a phone call and I eyed the food. I asked Paul if it was almost ready and he nodded. Seems like he and Edward were in a deep conversation.

I wanted to grab a soda from the fridge while I was waiting and on my way to the kitchen the front door opened. As it opened it seemed like a slow motion scene from one of the movies. A small gust of wind blew in and I see a body start to come through the door. The light outside was hitting me in my eyes so I couldn't really see who it was at first. Then as they got closer I noticed the silhouette of the person. With hair like that it was hard to miss. It was Melissa. She was smiling and then she turned around like she was talking to someone. My heart stopped and my eyes widened. Was Jacob about to come to my party? I hoped so. I really missed him. Desperate as it may seem, I would have loved if he just came and completely ignored me the whole time. As the door opened even further I was disappointed to see that it was only Leah behind Melissa. I turned and continued walking towards the kitchen to get my soda. I didn't want them to see my saddened face. Why did I even get my hopes up?

As I was getting my drink in the fridge I stuck my head in there get a good cold breeze to blow on my face. Then all of the sudden I felt someone hug me from behind. I turned around to find it was Melissa. She greeted me happy birthday and I thanked her and hugged her back. Even she came. We had small talk and we both walked to join the others outside. I realised that even with all the negativity and transgressions I threw at her she was still here wanting to be my friend.

I heard my phone go off again, but it was only a text message alert. I grabbed my phone once again and to my surprise I saw Jacob's name. I haven't seen his name flash on my cell phone screen in a while. Nervously I just kept looking at my phone staring at his name that popped up. I finally used my thumb to click open the message.

'Happy Birthday Seth. - Jake' was all it said. My stomach turned giddy and I couldn't help but smile. He didn't forget about me. I replied back 'thank you' and just left it as that. I didn't want to push my luck.

I turned my focus back to the group and had some more fun. The food was delicious. I guess Melissa baked this lemon jello cake that was bomb dot com. Everyone got second servings. She was a really good baker. I couldn't be any happier on who I was spending my birthday with. Everyone was amazing and they all made sure that I had a wonderful day. The sun was setting, but that didn't mean the party was ending soon. I didn't realise that they set up a portable bonfire that they placed in my backyard. We all gathered around the bonfire and just talked some more. It was getting kind of chilly, but being next to the fire was pleasant. James was right. The skies were clear tonight.

Out of the corner of my eyes I saw someone walking towards me and I turned to see that Leah was holding a cake lit with candles. At that moment everyone started singing happy birthday to me. I started gushing and I was in awe. I blew out my candles and made my wish. My only wish right now was to have Jacob back in my life. Embry tried to pry out what I wished for then Melissa smacked him on the arm saying that I couldn't do that or my wish couldn't come true. I smiled and shook my head.

It was about another hour till everyone started heading out. First it was Quil and Embry. Half an hour after that it was Melissa saying that she had to go home and walk her dogs because her parents were out of town. She then began to explain of how super anxious her dogs get if they don't go for a walk that they would start tearing her house apart. This girl was cute. I smiled, thanked her, and walked her to the door.

The rest of the gang helped Leah and I clean up the back yard which we finished faster than I thought. Jasper, Edward, and Bella left right after we got finished cleaning. Leah and Paul stayed outside in the backyard next to the slowly dying bonfire and I just hung out in the living room waiting for James to pick me up. I didn't tell Leah and Paul that I was going out with James due to the fact that I know that I'd be lectured and I really wasn't up to any that today. Today was my day and I get to hang out with whoever I want. I sent James a text message to ask where he was and he replied back a few minutes later stating that he would be at my house in 5 minutes.

I decided to wait for him outside, but before I did I went to my backyard to tell Leah that I would just be going out for a walk since it was a nice night out. She just nodded, told me to be safe, and asked me to call her if I ran into trouble.

As I waited for James outside my house I kept looking up at the sky wondering what the meteor shower would look like. Previously living in Los Angeles I wouldn't have been able to watch this since the sky is always thick with clouds. James pulled into my driveway in a really nice red convertible car. Was this his? I got in and we quickly drove off with the tires of his car screeching.

"Thanks for taking me with you to see the meteor shower tonight" I told James

He gave a small laugh, "Don't thank me. It's your birthday. All I want you to do is enjoy the last part of your day. I have a feeling that this night you're going to remember forever."

I smiled at him. "I hope so. I've never seen a meteor shower before. Where are we heading?"

"The beach. It's a great place to see it. I brought a blanket in the back seat so we can just chill on the sand." He pointed to the back and I saw this dark blanket thrown into the back.

We got to the beach in record time. Surprisingly James didn't get stopped for speeding. We both got out of the car, James grabbed the blanket, and we were off to face the sand. I tried to look around to see if there were anyone else that had the same idea, but I didn't see anyone else. Oh well, their loss I guess. The beach was really dark. The last time I was here was when Paul threw that bonfire. That night Jacob looked at me differently. I shook the thought away and sat down on the blanket after James swiftly set it down.

I exhaled. "This is such a beautiful night. I would have thought that other people would have had the same idea to be at the beach."

"Hmmm..."

I gently pushed James. "Hmm...What?!" I laughed.

"Nothing. I'm just joking." James replied. He looked straight up towards the sky which in return made me look up as well.

"Do you know when it's suppose to start?" I asked.

"Um. No idea." He laughed.

"Is there even supposed to be a meteor shower tonight?!"

He looked straight at me with a grin. "Would you be mad at me if there wasn't?"

"Not necessarily." I looked down. "Maybe a little disappointed for the fact that you got my hopes up."

He gave me a questionable look. "So you're telling me that the only reason that you came with me here tonight was because of the shower?"

I looked right back at him and shook my head. "No, I would have chilled with you without an occasion. You don't need to lie to kick it dork." I chuckled.

"You are right. There really isn't anybody around."

I looked towards the ocean hearing the waves hit the sand. It was kind of windy, but not too windy that it gave you chills.

James and I decided to lay back on the blanket staring into the sky. As time continues to pass by I felt James moving closer to me. I assumed that he was just trying to get comfortable and I felt James turn his head to look at me.

"We're here to watch the meteor shower not for you to stare at me" I told James without taking my eyes off the sky.

He scooted closer and whispered in my ear, "But you're so sexy though..."

I started to get an uneasy feeling, but I tried to ignore it. Next thing I know James was now hovering over me. My eyes widened. I was so nervous and uncomfortable I didn't know what to do. James kept getting closer and closer and I knew that if I didn't stop him our lips would meet. At the last second I turned, rolled over, and got to my feet as quick as I could. I could feel a little anger rising up inside me.

"What are doing? I told you we're just friends." I confronted James.

James just chuckles and gets on his feet as well. Slowly he starts walking towards me and I automatically start stepping back to keep the distance between us. As I kept stepping back I lost my footing into a hole someone dug in the sand and I fell on my back. I could feel my heart racing and I started breathing faster. I noticed James shake his head and kneel down beside me with his arms in either side of my head. Crap, I'm stuck.

"Where you going little puppy? We haven't even started playing yet." James said. He leans in for another kiss and this time he got our lips to touch. I was so disgusted that my first reaction was to push him off of me. I place both my hands on his chest and pushed him off as hard as I could. It took James by surprised and suddenly I can see anger flash in his eyes.

I tried to get back up, but James quickly pushed me back down hard into the sand. "If you'll just let me give you my gift, I swear it'll be easier on you."

"What the fuck does that even mean?!" I shouted at him. James just started laughing again. "You're fucking crazy!" Now he has a smirk planted on his face and he starts to lean in again. With fear and adrenaline rushing through me I did the only thing that I thought that can get me away from this situation. I balled up my first with all my strength and connected it with James' left cheek.

It stunns James, stumbles back, and falls onto his butt. It gave me enough time to get on my knees and crawl away as fast I could. I couldn't get my footing so I continued to stumble along the sand when I felt a side splitting pain and I fell to the sand and gasping for air to breathe. That's when I realised that James had kicked me on my side and James was now standing over me with a demonic look on his face.

"Bitch, where are you going?! I'm not done with you yet!" he yelled out and continued to kick me on my stomach. He just continued laughing at my pain that he was causing me. "You're going to make me feel so good tonight you dirty whore."

As he was about to kick me again I saw an opportunity to grab his foot and flip him off balance. I gathered up all the energy I had to get on my knees and the only thing I can think of was I need to hurt him bad enough so I can get away. As I got closer to him his eyes were closed and it looked like he was trying to pull himself back together. It gave me a chance that I needed to start throwing the punches I needed hoping to knock him out so I can flee. After the third punch he grabbed my arm and hit me on my temple. It gave me a blinding pain through my head and everything went black for a second.

When I recovered I was on my back and James straddling me. I felt my shirt being ripped apart. "Why are you doing this?" While I was kicking trying to get away from James. "I thought we were friends? Why are you doing things? What did I do to you?

James leans into my ear which gave me even more chills. "I told you I don't have any friends."

"But I thought I was giving you a chance for us to be friends. You told me about your life...something you said that you never told anybody else."

James gave a psychotic laugh. "You're so gullible. You think you're the only person who fell for that sob story. What other way would I have been able to gain your trust?" He started rubbing his thumb on my lips. "No more talking; you're going to make me feel good tonight."

Panic surged through me and the only thing I could think of is I have to fight until I couldn't fight anymore. I was still kicking underneath James trying to get away. I tried to swing my fist at James again, but unfortunately luck wasn't on my side. He got even more mad and he started throwing punches my way. I got hit on both sides of my face and while this is happening I was still kicking underneath.

Since we were both on the sand James somehow lost his balance and I scurried to my feet and took off running. My thought was to get to the street and hopefully someone can help me. To my dismay I couldn't really see where I was going because there was blood running into my eyes. Then a sudden realisation hit me. I went the wrong way. I felt the water hitting my feet and I exhaled in defeat.

Out of nowhere I felt someone grab my waist and body slammed me into the sand head first. Then I heard a snap and my left arm was on fire. What just happened? I couldn't see and I couldn't breathe. I had sand in my mouth. In my eyes and I was in so much pain. I couldn't believe what was going on. All of the sudden I heard James laughing again and he grabbed me into head lock and started dragging up the beach. Scared that he might snap my neck I decided to push myself along with my feet.

We finally stopped moving, he rolled me over to my stomach, and he got back to straddling me from behind. I could hear him breathing over me trying to catching his breath. Again, James started punching on my head again. You know that saying people say that when you think you're about to die, your life flashes before your eyes. With each blow I saw my mom taking care of me when I was sick. My dad teaching me how to ride my bike. Leah and I running around playing jokes on each other. The guys hanging out laughing have a good time and...Jake.

No, this isn't how I'm going to die. This isn't how my parents are going to find me. With little strength I had left I threw my right elbow back. I hit something and I heard crunching. James let out a painful scream and I knew I got him.

"You broke my nose bitch! You're going to pay for that!" With that being said he put me into another headlock took my right arm and pinned it under his knee. My left arm was useless and I was gasping for air. I felt James arm reaching under me. Oh god, he's trying to take my pants off. I started crying. This is it. This is the end. I could feel the ocean breeze hitting every part of my body. With each breeze it seems to take a part of my life with it. I was getting light headed. I couldn't breath. My vision was going in and out. Is this how it feels to slowly die?

Then I saw it. The bright light. The last thing I can think of was take me away from this pain. I'm sorry to everyone who cares about me. I'm ready now. Goodbye. I tried to fight for my life, but it just wasn't enough.