The music was deafening as I stayed on the bed, silent. You went to shower and I was left in your room with the music blaring. My clothing was long forgotten, I wasn't ready to move yet, my body still frozen and stiff. I close my eyes focusing on the way the piano echoed off the walls becoming so soft it was barely audible like it was tip toeing afraid to be discovered. Then it rises quicker and quicker as if trying to escape scowling half way thinking it was safe only to be found by the booming notes pounding the softness out of the melody. Over and over until the light sound went silent over powered by the dominate one. When the soft piano appears again, it is reserved in fear of angering that beast once more. Like a dance for power and control. They music dances together careful not to twist anything. They mingle coming close and meshing together before once again the loud booming took over silencing the meek piano.
My shoulders ached, my legs ached, everything felt sore and I was so tired. Curling on my side, I tucked your blanket under my chin letting the music lull me into a state of calm. I traced my fingers over one of my large bruises and pressed it hard wincing at the dull throb shooting up my side. Smiling at the sweet ache I allow myself to retreat further in my mind.
Warm hands, still damp ran through my hair pushing it away from my neck. Smooth lips greet the new exposed skin sending shivers over my flesh. The music seemed quieter, but still there and still just as powerful. You laid beside me with your towel discarded, you moved your blanket off my body which caused me to break out into goose bumps and curl further into myself trying to retain some warmth. A gentle hand pulled close allowing my head to rest on a warm chest and my body aligns against a smooth torso which still held great warmth. Your hand found my own intertwining our fingers allowing our clasped hands to stay on your chest as we laid letting the music consume us. Neither of us speaking or moving. The only sound was our breathing rising and falling in tandem and the music. My cheek felt the thumps of your heart beating against your ribs strong and determined. I pondered what it would take to silence the rhythmic sound. I willed it to stop focusing all my hatred hoping sheer loathing would be enough, but it was still there beating, a constant reminder. My eyes flutter shut as we stay unmoving.
You shifted causing me to stir awake, I stay silent keeping the illusion I am still dead to the world. You moved carefully cradling my head as you freed your arm. I could feel the bed shift as you got off. The loss of your warmth causes me to shiver and furrow my brow. I could hear you shuffle about and then felt the blanket on my skin. You tucked it around my still sleeping form. The sound of you buckling your belt and shrug into shirt echoes in the small confines of the space. I realized the music had stopped.
The bed shifted again and I sensed you beside me. A light hand touches my cheek in a gentle embrace. I stay absolutely still, especially when you lean down placing a tender on my head. Your breath: sweet, warm, threatening. You cup my chin rubbing your thumb over my jaw.
"Lamb?" You beckoned encouraging me to wake.
My eyes flickered open looking up to you in fascination. A quick smile greeted your face. It wasn't cynical or menacing. It was a genuine smile. My voice caught in my throat when you bent down bestowing yet another kiss upon my lips. I resisted the urge to pull away curious to see what your intentions were. You break the embrace looking me in the eyes with a slight smirk.
"You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen." You whispered tucking the blanket over my shoulders as I sat up.
"You are the best liar I have ever met." I rolled my eyes stretching as you kept a watchful eye on me. You chuckled a dark chuckle letting me know the real you was back.
We go our separate ways for the day, but not before you leaned me against your door mouth finding mine without mercy demanding, yearning for deeper contact. You tugged on my lips sucking ever so slightly as your hands held me in place tangling in my hair while the other rested on my breast. You didn't bruise or hurt, but just held me against your body coming close to my ear whispering those words you knew would destroy me. I stare back in horror taking shallow breaths. Moving away I go to my flat closing the door behind me and let the confession skink in.
I step out hearing voices in the hall and see you with two other girls. You pounded playfully at the blonde causing her to giggle. I watch with a lifted brow. The brunette noticed my watchful eyes avoiding my glare. You look to me giving a devilish smirk causing my anger to flare.
"Care to join us love?" You mocked only to receive an infuriated growl leave my throat. I roll my eyes and slam my door.
My blood boiled as I let out a frustrated shriek. Why did the thought of you fucking them leave me so furious? My emotions wrecking havoc on me, I grab my backpack tossing everything I could fit or need in there. Things were thrown about while I tried to calm my breathing. You were so proud knowing you had gotten under my skin. I sat on my bed knees to my chin rage coiling in my stomach from the tears threatening to fall.
No, you wouldn't get my tears. You didn't deserve them. I dug my nails into my arms raking them down over and over leaving angry red lines, small ruby dots blossoming on the ivory skin. The pain a good distraction from the chaos in my mind. Clenching my jaw I slung the bag over my shoulder open the door and head down the staircase greeted by three boys in white. I retreat back up a step looking at them lounging about the lobby.
"Well, hello beautiful." The lanky one stands and gives a mocking bow. I snarl my lip glaring as I pushed past him.
Another one who had make up on his eyes to mimic black eyes took my arm pulling me into his locking his arms around my waist.
He smiled on my neck placing a hot kiss on my skin. I shrieked in anger throwing back my elbow hitting him in his throat. He tosses me from his lap and I get to my feet and take off. I could hear their obscenities, but it didn't matter. Nothing was going to matter.
My legs traveled knowing their destination, not slowing until they reached it. My breathing too ragged for my lungs to keep up. I find the door to my haven banging over and over. He opens the door looking concerned as I threw my arms around his neck holding him close.
"It's okay. You're safe now."
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