The next morning, Meredith awoke beside Alex. She looked over at him and felt sad for him. She reached over and stroked the side of his head, before getting up and heading to her room. It was still two hours before the alarms were suppose to go off, but Meredith decided not to go back to sleep. She climbed into the shower and let the warm water engulf her body. She let out a long sigh as she remembered everything between Derek cheating on her and now Alex's sister dying. She knew what it was like; losing someone you love. Except in her case there wasn't really a death. But, she lost someone who she though was going to be the one she was in love with. Now, she wasn't so sure. She wasn't in love with him, in anyway, but the one who was the love of her life…. She wasn't sure at this point. It was complicated. She felt alone… except when she was with Alex. She felt loved.

She sighed and finished up her shower trying to push that thought away to keep it from resurfacing all day. She couldn't love Alex. He was Alex! She turned off the water and got out, grabbing her towel that hung close by.

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He woke up to the smell of coffee. He looked around the room to see Meredith was missing. The alarm was set to go off in ten minutes. He reached up and clicked it off. Sighing as he pulled his arm back and let it fall to his side. After a few minutes, he decided to get up and shower.

The water turned on and he stepped in letting out a moan. The water felt good against his skin. He had done a lot of thinking before he fell asleep the night before. Mainly about the death of his sister, but also about his life. He fell asleep and it was like an old movie on one of those old fashion reels. It just played his life. Then it got to the part of his internship and it seemed like the reel kept replaying Meredith over and over through his mind. He could hear her laugh, see her smile, feel the tears. It was like he was watching it all over and over.

He groaned and hit the side of the bathtub with his foot and continued with the shower. After he washed the soap from his body and shampoo from his hair he turned the water off. He stepped out onto the blue fuzzy rug. He leaned over the sink and looked up into the mirror. What the hell was he doing with his life? What was he? A lonely surgical intern who had no hope of settling down. Someone everyone things sleeps with every girl with a pulse.

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"Hey," Meredith looked up and gave him a small smile.

"Hey," He responded quietly.

"Coffee?" She offered holding up the pot. He nodded and she got his cup ready before passing it to him. "Are you going in today? Because I can cover you or… or stay here if you need support."

"No, I need to work," He said softly. "But thanks, Mere, for everything."

"Your welcome, Alex," Meredith gave him another smile before they prepared for work.

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They walked into the hospital together and waited for the elevator without a word being passed between the two. The elevator door opened and they got one alone. Alex hit the button for the surgical floor and they contently watched the numbers go by. It wasn't awkward or uncomfortable… just no words had to be said. They got off and headed towards the locker room. Still, not talking.

"Hey," Christina said when she saw Meredith enter.

"Hey," Meredith said plainly.

"Oh, that was heartfelt," Christina said sarcastically.

"Shut up, Yang," Alex said in the same tone.

"What bite your asses?" Christina said looking between the two.

"Our lives suck," Meredith said.

"Well I know why yours sucks but," Christina said before looking at Alex. "Why you, Evil Spawn?"

"None of your business," Alex said and walked out in no mood to talk about it.

"What the hell?" Christina looked back at Meredith.

"His sister died." Meredith said sadly. "Don't tell him I told you."

"Okay, Whatever," Christina said continuing to change.