I think this is the longest chapter yet. I know, I know, I haven't updated in so long, and I'm so sorry for that. But here it is!! Yey!! I hope you like it.

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Recap of the previous chapter:

I couldn't wait any longer so I stood up and went outside check it all out.

Chapter 10: Goodbye

I headed to the boys restroom, but I heard a voice that was so familiar coming from the backyard of the school. So instead, I turned and headed for the backyard. The voice was getting louder, then I heard another voice. He's not alone. I know hw would never do anything to hurt me. He promised and I trust him with that. I have a bad feeling about this though. Maybe it's due to stress, I've been staying up late. But, if it is because of that, then why is my stomach twisting and my heart, beating like crazy.

I don't know if it's just me, but I think I can hear someone shouting, 'Turn back! Don't go and look!' But I wanted to know. He wont leave me hanging, and he wont take 15 minutes just to go to the bathroom.

Something is DEFINITELY up.

"Get off of me." I heard Edward growl. I was there, but I don't have the courage to look yet. So I just leaned on the wall and waited. Eavesdropping is not what I usually do, but I can't help it this time.

"Don't be like that sweetheart. We had a thing before you know." It was Tanya! His ex! What the heck are the doing here?

"We had a thing once, but it's over. Get over it." He said.

"No you don't. Don't escape from me. And you know you wont be able to escape from me." She giggled. Oh how much I want to show up and pull Edward away from him. "You know you can't." She finished.

"Haven't you had enough yet? Alice slapping you, and Rosalie pouring juice all over you?" Edward said. I could here how much he hated to be here. It was so clear in his voice. But Alice slapped her? Why didn't Alice mention that?

"They're suckers. I don't really care about them." Tanya said in a bored tone.

"Don't call them that!" Edward's loosing it.

"There's no rule in the world that says I couldn't is there? Besides, what do you see in that klutz anyway? I'm way, way better than her." That's it! If only Rose is here with me, I wouldn't stop her from beating the hell out of her! She's going way too much.

I waited for the next thing that I would hear.

…

Nothing. At all.

What's going on? Did Edward run away from her?

My heart raced more and more. My stomach, twisting like it never did before. What's going on?

I got all of my courage and decide to take a peek.

Facing the wall, I pressed my palms on it and leaned my head.

My eyes widened and my breathing got heavier.

Edward was pressed up against the wall, Tanya, in front of him. Kissing each other.

I waited, hoping Edward would push her away and walk out. But he didn't. He didn't push her away. After a few seconds, Edward's hand came up at the back of her neck and pushed her to him.

I can't help it. I walked out to the backyard. I guess it's time for me to show up. I don't know what to say, or do. I feel numb, I was trying to hold back the tears too. How could Edward do this to me?

"Bella!" Edward exhaled, letting go of Tanya. His face was pale, shock filled his face while his eyes were wide with alarm.

I stood there, about 2 meters away from them, unable to speak or move. With the strength I have, I slowly covered my mouth with my shivering hand.

"Edward, how—" I trailed off. I don't know what to say yet. I was too shocked. Without my consent, tears suddenly fell rapidly down my cheeks.

Tanya was standing there, smirking like nothing happened. Half her expression also showed boredom and of course, she doesn't care how much pain both of them inflicted on me.

Edward walked towards me slowly and I involuntarily took a step back, and when I did that, he stopped and I saw his eyes were full of worry and pain.

"Look Bella, I can explain." He said. "She was the one who—" I cut him off.

"What else is there to explain? I saw everything right before my eyes. Everything was explained when I saw you kissing her back." I whispered, loud enough that he could hear me.

My chest started to hurt, while the tears didn't stop flowing out.

"It was a mistake—"

"The mistake was trusting you! For believing the things and promises that you told me!" I shrieked.

I harshly wiped the tears away and folded my arms across my chest. Anger was taking over now.

"Tell me Edward, were you just playing around with me from the very beginning? Every promises were actually lies? And every action was a mistake? That every kiss was forced?" I asked him in a cold voice. I flinched as the memories flooded through my mind which brought the tears back again. He flinched too, because of how cold my voice is.

He could see how much he'd hurt me and he could see that this was coming to an end.

"Bella, I'll never lie to you. I wouldn't have enough strength to do that." He said, taking a step forward. "Every promise, every action, and every kiss was never an act or lie. What ever I told you were true. What you just saw, it wasn't what you thought it was." He explained, every word were precisely picked and chosen so that tell me what he wanted me to know.

"What was it then?" I asked, my voice sharp as daggers. I mentally flinched at that.

He flinched too but tried hard to compose his features.

"Tanya forced me to—"

"And you let her?" I said. "And you kissed her back." I concluded. He was quiet, not knowing how to answer me.

"Was all of this just a game for you?"My voice turned into something that sounded intense but at the same time serious. "Was I just your doll after all? Something to play with when it's new and be thrown away once you get tired of it." I glared at him, observing his expression as I talked. His face had a mixture of anger, embarrassment, sadness and worry.

"Bella, please listen to me, I didn't mean it—" I cut him off again. His previous actions was louder than a person shouting and it was crystal clear. Why should I listen to him when every evidence of his act was set out 2 meters away from me?

"No you listen Edward! All this time I was thinking that you're actually different from the others. And look what I found, you making out with that slut!" I said in disgust.

"Who the hell are you calling a slut?!" Tanya demanded.

"Who else is here, Ms. Girlfriend-of-every-guy-in –school?" I shot back at her.

She probably didn't talk back due to fear that I'm in my worst mood ever.

I turned to Edward to see shock across his features. Guess he never saw me like this before.

I narrowed my eyes at him.

"You know what Edward? I don't know who the bigger fool was. You, who lied to me all along, or me, the blind one who knew that something was up before, but didn't mind it?" I whispered, my voice in pain. My chest hurts too much. "But I guess we both know who the real idiot was." I finished. I was now gasping for air.

"What do you mean by that?" Edward asked.

"It's over Edward. Though it's hard for me to say that, I just had to, and I just did." I whispered.

The pain in my chest hurts so much more than before, more pain was going in my chest.

"Hey, what's going on here?" Alice asked suddenly coming from the wall I just came from. Tears flowed restlessly through my eyes. I turned to Alice gasping for more air.

"Bella , what's going on?!" She demanded. I wasn't able to answer her, though I was trying hard to find my voice.

"Rose! Rose! Call an ambulance! Call Carlisle!" Alice shrieked. She ran towards me just when I lost my strength to keep on standing. Edward caught me. No matter how much I hated him right now, I couldn't push him away with my strength failing me.

I saw Rose peeked through the wall with what vision I have left.

"Oh my God! Bella!" She yelled, panic in her face as she ran towards me.

My mind was in total chaos. Alice's panicked face, Rosalie's demanding voice as she talked to the

phone and Edward's worried sick expression.

"We need an ambulance here at school Carlisle! Bella fainted and is gasping for air like she's chocking. We need it now!" Rosalie said, her voice hard with authority.

"Bella stay with us!" Alice chanted, years flowing down her face.

"Emmett, I need you right now! Behind the school as fast as you can!" Rosalie ordered through the phone again.

"Everything will be alright Bella." Rosalie said.

"It's alright Bella." Edward told me.

"Goodbye." I whispered before the darkness overtook my consciousness.

***

What an awful dream I had. Edward cheated on me in my dream and I broke up with him. That's not really possible is it?

***

Was it all a dream? If it was, I hope it wont come true 'cause I swear I would go mad. But to my greatest fear it wasn't a dream. Everything from the beginning was never a dream. All of it happened precisely, and I remembered every words that escaped my mouth.

I wasn't dreaming at all, but the question is, will I be able to face reality?

***

I opened my eyes through the bright light that blinded me. I looked around seeing mostly nothing in the white room. Wait. Isn't this the hospital? I thought to myself. I instinctively looked at my arms to check something I feared. Good. No needles. I though again.

White room, a bed which has white metals by my side, a small table. Obviously the hospital.

I've here once or twice… or many times.

I turned to my right and something or someone caught my attention. And I thought I was all alone.

"Alice? Rosalie?" I asked through my hoarse voice. I cleared my throat then.

Rosalie was looking out the window, her back to me, while Alice was just beside me. Probably sleeping, her head resting on both of her arms.

Rose was the one who heard me and quickly turned around and Alice, as I suspected is asleep.

I blinked my eyes a few more times and looked at Rose.

"Are you really awake now?" She asked. Oh, so there were false alarms. Thought so.

"What's going on? Why are we here?" I asked, ignoring her first question completely. She half ran towards me and when she was beside me, she took my hands and squeezed it.

"Bella, you can't believe how worried we were." She said. Now I know, just basing from the tone of her voice.

"What are you guys doing here? What happened?" I asked, my voice hoarse again and I cleared my voice once more. I sat up, uncomfortable with talking while lying down and Rose helped me, though it was unnecessary.

"What's with all the ruckus?" Alice asked, yawning and finally awake. She stretched and stopped instantly when she saw me sitting.

"Good morning sleepy head." I grinned.

"Bella!" She gasped. "You're alive?!"

"What?!" Rosalie said softly, he voice stating what are you talking about.

"Do expect me to be dead?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"No, what I meant was you're awake!" She shrieked.

"Alice, pipe down!" Rose hissed.

"Oh Bella." Alice hugged me. When she let go, her face was full of joy, tears flooding her eyes. Now I know how worried they really were for me. But shouldn't they be at school?

"Bella, we've been worried sick!" Alice cried. I chuckled then.

"Sorry for worrying you guys but aren't you guess supposed to be at school?" I asked, then both of their expression twisted and Alice looked at Rose.

It was like a silent conversation between the both of them. Then Rose sighed and turned to me.

"Bella, do you know what day today is?" Rosalie asked, he voice careful.

I'm confused. "Yea, September 15."' I answered, but as soon as I saw they're expression, it made me unsure. "Right?" I added.

"You really have no idea, do you Bella?" Alice said shaking her head sadly. I turned to Rosalie.

"It's September 17. Bella, you know you don't have to pretend that you're alright." She hesitated. "We know what happened."

They knew.

Sadness took over my whole body. They knew what happened. But do they know the whole reason behind it? But, how did they know?

"You've been screaming in your sleep. You said you don't want him to leave. You don't want everything to end. 'Why did you have to do this?' You said. But we want to know more. Edward wouldn't tell us and you never spoke about what really happened. Not a clue or anything. Bella, we want to help you." Alice explained.

"There's nothing else that you could've done." I said in a flat tone.

"Yes there is." Rose retorted. "We could talk some sense into that boys brain and ask him to be with you again."

They misunderstood. Edward would never break up with me. That's stupid. But I know I could. After what I saw, I really could and I just did. It looks easy but it's not. I needed to sum up all my courage and strength to do that and I did it. But unfortunately, I lost control of how I acted. I did it all with my reflexes, no brain at all which was stupid and idiotic, but I can't help it, it was too much to bear and so difficult for my part.

"No Rose, there's really nothing else that you could do." I said, looking down. I glanced up and saw their confused expressions

"Bella, what are you talking about?" Rose asked.

"Didn't he just break up with you? Maybe he was just out of his mind." Alice said.

They totally misunderstood everything.

"You misunderstood everything. He didn't break up with me." I said in a low voice.

"What?!" Alice and Rosalie demanded at the same time.

"I broke up with him." I said in a more lower tone that sounded like a whisper.

They stared at me with incredulous eyes, unable to believe what I just said. How could they? Even I myself couldn't believe it. They knew how much I love him. But it's still his fault, he knew how I take most of his promises seriously. Especially the one when he told me that he wont ever cheat on me. He should've known better.

"Why?" Rose asked.

"It must have taken a lot for you to break up with him." Alice murmured.

"Oh, it did." I muttered. They waited for me to continue.

I sighed. "It's not even worth explaining." I said and lied down on the bed, covering my head with a blanket.

They understood and left the room.

I cried myself to sleep and ended up with a dream about Edward Cullen, hopefully, this'll be the last dream I'll have about him.

"What the hell is the matter with you?!"

The shouting woke me up.

"She wouldn't let me explain." I heard Edward say.

"Your explanation doesn't matter anymore damn it!" Rosalie snapped. "Why would Bella even break up with you if it was okay with her?" She demanded.

"Rose, chill. He already heard enough of Alice." Emmett said soothingly.

"Oh that's not even enough." Rose growled.

Then the silence grew as the tears continued flowing out of my eyes.

If he'd ever want to get back with me after what had happened, I promise I wouldn't even think twice or dare to say yes to him. I promised in my head.

I cried again, hoping that this will be the last set of tears that would escape my eyes for Edward.

I woke up the next morning. No sun. Just like an ordinary day on Forks. I sat up and suddenly, all the memories of that day flooded back right in front of me, as if I was watching a movie. After that, the tears decided to show up and went falling down my cheek restlessly. I tried to stop, but it seems that my tears has a mind of its own. Moving freely down my face, and landing on the white blanket, making circle spots on it and making it wet.

I wiped it away, though it kept falling.

"Oh no." I said. "Why am I crying. I shouldn't cry. There's no sense in crying anymore. He made his choice, I made mine. There's nothing else that the both of us could do." Then I started sobbing for no exact reason.

I started to cry my heart out. I didn't mind crying. I cried until there were no more tears that could flow out of my eyes.

I saw a cold coke in can on the table and I got it and pressed it in both of my eyes to hide the sign of me crying.

Soon after, Jake came.

"Hey Bells." He greeted me with a big grin.

"Hey Jake. How are you?" My face may be clear of evidence of crying, but my voice can't escape.

"You've been crying." He stated.

"Yea, I just had to get it off my chest." I smiled. "But I'm so much better now." I assured him.

"You don't seem fine. You can't lie to me." Jake said, grinning.

He's right. I'm not fine at all. Well, at least not fully.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

He shrugged. "I used to stay here when you were knocked out in bed."

"Jake, you know you didn't have to do that." I told him.

"No, it's fine. I really don't mind Bells." He reassured me.

With that, we went on talking.

When he left Carlisle went in together with Emmett, Rosalie, Alice, and Jasper.

I'm wondering myself why I'm in the hospital, I could just settle on my room.

"Well Bella, I think you were just shocked from the happenings and it seems like you reacted quit strongly about it. You were stressed too. But you're free to go home now. Be careful. We don't want you fainting again." Carlisle said, calm as ever.

That's a relief. I could finally go home.

I'm so thankful to Jacob. He's my best friend and he was the one who had been there when I need him.

Ever since the incident, I don't hang out with the Cullen much, instead I stay with Jake most of the time. Having fun with Seth, Embry, Quil and more.

It's been fun. And it was then that things between me and Jake changed.

-End of Flashback-

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