Onodera woke to the sound of gentle snoring beside him. His eyes flickered open and he saw a mass of raven coloured hair, he blinked to try and clear the sleep from his eyes as he tried to remember going home with another man but as far as he knew he'd come straight home alone. He groaned from a slight headache and rubbed at his tired eyes. He checked the time on his phone and suddenly remembered his date with Shin, he sighed in relief when he realized he still had a couple of hours until then. He turned his attention back to the man lying beside him and saw with a shock that it was Takano. The brunette swallowed hard and slowly got off the bed, not sure how to react to this man being so close. He thought back to the conversation they'd had before. Was it true? Did Onodera really just misunderstand the whole situation? He closed his eyes and the memory of the laugh still haunted him, he clamped his hands over his ears and tried hard to concentrate and think past the laugh. He tried to remember the moments just before and after Takano had laughed at him.

Onodera fell to his knees as the images came flashing in his mind. They were tangled in bed together, the soft, warm hands of his senpai causing sweet sensations to overcome his body. No one had ever made him feel this good before. Onodera felt his body reacting to the memory of the touch but he ignored it and tried to draw the rest of the memory from his mind.

Onodera had sat clutching his shirt, even now he could feel the blush on his cheeks from the attention his senpai had given him. Then he'd asked the question. That stupid question that Onodera grew to regret. "Senpai…do you like me?"

Onodera's heart skipped a beat as he recalled this fatal question. When he'd asked that he'd just wanted his senpai to reassure him of their love, he'd just wanted to know that he was special to someone, that he actually mattered. Onodera thought harder and replayed the scene over and over again in his mind. Only after the fifth time did he realize something. The shift in expression on Takano's face, the slight blush that was well hidden under his bangs. His mouth may have been smiling, but the blush and the look in his beautiful amber eyes said something different. Love.

Takano felt the bed shifting under him and realized Onodera was awake. He slid his eyes open to see Onodera collapse to his knees with his hands over his ears. Takano sprang off the bed and knelt in front of him, not sure what to do. "Onodera? Onodera are you okay?" He got no response and watched as his cheeks became flushed and his body began to tremble. "Oi, Onodera?" He still got no response so he took the trembling body into his arms and tried to soothe him by running his fingers through the soft, chocolate locks and whispering soothing words into his ear.

Onodera released his grip on his ears as the realization hit him. He really had misunderstood everything. His senpai really had loved him and the laughter was nothing but nerves. He felt stupid. Stupid and ashamed that his own misunderstanding had caused his life to spiral out of control to a point of no return. He began to weep. He cried for all his wasted years and he cried for breaking both his own heart and his senpai's heart in one go.

The brunette only realised he was being held when he felt warm, toned arms hold him tighter. This time he didn't care that he was showing his weakness in front of anyone. He didn't care that it was Takano holding him, he just needed to be held and told that everything was okay. Which is exactly what Takano did.

A half our later Onodera finally ran out of tears. He pulled away from the warmth he'd craved so much and looked into the sad, heart-broken eyes of his senpai. "Onodera?" Takano smoothed the hair away from the shining green eyes and placed a gentle kiss on the now exposed forehead. "I'm sorry."

Onodera froze as Takano's lips pressed themselves to his forehead and the whispered apology sent shockwaves through his body. "I'm so sorry, Onodera." Butterfly kisses were scattered over his tear-streaked cheeks and he just sat there, unable to move, unable to pull away from the gentleness of the man before him. "I'm sorry." This apology repeated itself between each kiss and Onodera closed his eyes to absorb the sensation of the warm lips on his cold face.

"Takano-san, please."

Takano smoothed fresh tears from Onodera's face and placed a soft kiss on his love's lips. The sweetness and suppleness were the same as he remembered from high school. The lips that he'd become addicted to he was able to claim once again.

Onodera gasped at the sensation. The warmth in Takano's damp lips cause shivers to run down his spine, his reaction was immediate and instinctive. He began to kiss Takano back. Their lips locked in a tight embrace as they grabbed onto each other in heated passion. Onodera wrapped his arms around Takano's neck to pull them closer and pressed himself into the warmth.

Takano groaned and snaked his arms around the slim waist, pulling Onodera into his lap as he felt the brunette's legs wrap themselves around him. Takano moved from the plump, luscious lips and trailed kisses down Onodera's jaw and carried on down his neck until he reached the dainty collar bone. Onodera moaned erotically in his ear as he began to nibble on the smooth skin. "I love you."

Onodera immediately pulled back and frantically disentangled himself. "I can't. I can't do this."

Takano, still in a lustful daze, reached for Onodera again. "But you felt it right?"

Onodera shook his head and pushed the man away. "I can't do this. Leave. Get out." The flushed brunette got to his feet and stumbled from the room. "I need you to leave. Please."

Takano heard the desperation in Onodera's voice and sighed in defeat. "Okay, but please don't forget the feeling. I know you felt it just now. And please, I just want you to know how sorry I am." Takano waited for a response, but after he received nothing from the man he ran his hand through his hair, worried that he'd blown it. "Onodera-"

"Just go. I'll…I'll see you around…I guess."

Takano felt his heart lighten a little at this and smiled before seeing himself out of the small apartment.

Onodera let out a breath he hadn't realized he was holding and rushed to the bathroom, pulling out bottles of pills and spilling them into his hand. He threw them all into his mouth and swallowed before gasping and looking at himself in the mirror. "What have I done?"

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