I'm so sorry I haven't updated in a while and I left it on the biggest cliff hanger :( Busy girl these days :p well here's chapter 10.

As both my feet left the battlement, my parents flashed through my mind, but quickly disappeared, then my friends, but they left even quicker. The final image that lingered a while was Edward, his face, his smile, him holding me, him saying he loved me. I knew then who meant the most to me, but sadly it was too late. I never would of thought of myself as the suicidal type, but I guess when you have no one to live for it seems like the best option. If Edward didn't tell me to leave, I would never have had the courage to admit defeat and jump. The truth is I did have someone to live for, but when that someone abandons you, what is there to live for?

As soon as my shoulders dropped past the battlement, I felt his hands latch under my arms and I became a rag doll, dangling from the top of the building as I dangled I felt his hands start to slip from my underarms but the sheer adrenaline had gone straight to my head and had made me pass out, partly hoping he would have lost full grip sending me plummeting to the ground below.

As my eyes opened, I pondered two options:

I was safely in my bed at home and the entire time spent with Edward was a dream.

My body was now lying on the ground below the point I had just jumped from and in Patrick Swayze - Ghost style my spirit was now ready to leave my body.

Unfortunately it was neither of the above as when my eyes opened, they were greeted by the same bedroom I had been staying in, in the same house that -from what I remembered- I had just jumped off.

Well, I felt okay, I still had all of my body parts so I tried getting out of bed. Success, but there were too many thoughts rushing through my head to process what to do next. Luckily my fate was decided for me when the door opened and in strode an expressionless Edward.

He hesitated, looking straight into my eyes before he looked down at his hands in which he was holding my school bag. "Oh good, your up. The car is downstairs whenever your ready, I'll take you home" he said with no emotion.

I tried to speak but no words came out. "What?"

"The car is ready so I'll take you home" he said as if he were talking to foreigner.

"I heard what you said Edward, I just don't understand! You still want me to leave? After what I just did? Don't you care about me at all, or was everything you said on the roof a lie?"

He looked up at me now with anger contorting his features. He dropped the bag and strode over to me, stopping when I edged back, a little shocked at his actions.

"Bella, get in the car!" he seethed through gritted teeth.

"I'm not going anywhere until you answer my question!"

"Get in the car or I will throw you in the back like I did the day I took you!" he yelled, I knew my comment about taking me touched a nerve. I was silent for a long while, taking in his pained expression.

"Do you really think im scared of you? Kidnapping me, drugging me, and you think your scary when you shout at me? Ha, you couldn't scare a five year old girl!" with that he grabbed my waist and threw me over his shoulder, I squirmed all I could but he was too strong.

"Edward put me down! I mean it! Put me down!" when we got outside I stopped struggling and he put me down.

"Now get in the van." he was so bleak and lifeless it was killing me to see.

"No!"

"Bella!"

"Stop it! I'm not going anywhere! Why do you want me to leave? You said you loved me! What, did you just change your mind? Why do you think I jumped?" He quickly answered.

"I know exactly why you jumped, you jumped because of me, I did this to you! I kidnapped you, I drugged you!I love you more than you will ever understand, I love you so much and I've turned you into something I hoped you'd never be, all I want is for you to be happy, but instead, I drive you to suicide!" a long moment passed "Now do you see why I want you to leave? I'm not good for you Bella. I want you to have a normal life. One that doesn't involve you getting killed on my behalf!"

"Edward...I didn't jump because of you! I jumped because you didn't want me! You try listening to the person you love most in the world say they don't want you!"

"I already have, that's why I told you to leave, you made it clear that you didn't want me and you wanted to leave."

"Don't you get it, I know that my parents aren't looking for me and that my friends don't miss me but you, when you told me to leave what did I do? I cant imagine living without you! Edward, I love you so much that even the thought of not being with you kills me. If you can honestly look me in the eye and say you don't love me, I'll leave. Just don't expect me not to do anything like I just did because you know damn well how serious I am. Did you not just drag me off the side of a building? Go on! Say you don't love me! Say it!" he stood like a statue staring into my eyes before practically running at me and crushing his lips onto mine.

The kiss was the most passionate experience of my life so far and the relief finally settled when Edward broke the kiss and whispered in my ear "I will always love you Bella. Don't ever think I wont".

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