What If…?

Twilight FanFiction Chapter 10: BPOV

I was putting on the clothes Alice gave me thoughtfully. What Edward had said about vampires with special powers made me wonder if I would have any gifts. Maybe my self control was my gift. That would be good enough. All my life I had been nothing but average. Being more controlled that the others was a good thing. I finished changing and looked at the mirror in my new bathroom.

Staring at me was a gorgeous girl with long legs and a beautiful pale skin. Was that me? Being a vampire had changed me so much. I looked the girl in the eyes. I expected to find my old and dull brown eyes to comfort me, but instead I found a pair of crimson orbs. I jumped back a little. The eyes were scary, and reminded me of a cat that would attack a little mouse.

Would my eyes change colors? I noticed that every single member of the Cullen family had golden eyes. Why were mine blood red? I went out and looked at Alice. She had golden eyes. And so did Edward. I noticed that Edward was looking at me with a funny expression. Was I… pretty? I never thought that. But I ignored him and turned to Alice.

"Alice, why did you make me wear this?" I could see Alice hiding little pixie laughs behind her hands. What was she laughing about? I wish I had Edward's power just for a few seconds.

"No special reason, I just wanted you to see some of your new wardrobe." she said, looking at Edward. I followed her gaze and realized that Edward was still looking at me. He turned his head as soon as my eyes met his. Alice interrupted my thoughts again. I noticed that she did that a lot, but that didn't annoy me. I really liked her.

"Bella, why don't you change back and help me find an outfit for school?" she said and I got the impression that she didn't really need my help, but I followed her anyway. Soon we were inside Alice's room, which had a huge closet. I was trying to discover if her closet was bigger than the room itself when Alice shoved Edward out of her door.

"Get out, we're going to do girl's stuff, so boys aren't allowed." she said and closed her door on Edward's face with a loud bang. Ouch, that must've hurt. But who cares, he shouldn't be following us around that much.

"So, Bella, what do you like doing in your free time?" Alice said, trying to start a conversation. I was happy, the silence that formed itself while she was searching thought her closet began to fell awkward.

"Well, I mostly read." I said, not remembering anything else I liked doing in my free time.

"Edward likes to read too. I suppose you two are bookworms." she said with a chuckle, not taking her eyes from her clothes. I didn't like the comparison. I wasn't trying to like him. I shouldn't even try to forgive him… should I? Maybe I should. But not because I wanted to make him happier. Alice noticed my lack of answer to her comment.

"Bella, please take it easy on him. He was the most controlled of us, except for Carlisle, until you showed up." she said, as if she had read my mind. "He almost killed himself when he realized what he had done to you. He really didn't want to do that to you. Well, imagine the scent we caught while hunting."

I didn't want to do that, but I did as I was being told. My throat started burning immediately. But I just hunted! How could I be thirsty again?

"Now imagine that scent five times stronger. It was just like you smelled to Edward." I couldn't imagine that scent any stronger. Maybe Edward wasn't a monster after all. "His instincts took over his mind, and he hadn't any self control left. I was surprised that he didn't kill the whole class." Alice said looking at me this time.

I felt ashamed about my behavior. Maybe I should have had accepted the lion he offered me… he was trying to be nice. Wait! You can't forget that he did this to you, Bella, whichever were the conditions. Alice squealed and jumped up and down:

"Yay! I found the perfect outfit! We always need to be well dressed, no matter where we are going, don't we?" she said mostly to herself. I kept staring at her. How could she be so serious in one moment, and then change to hyper in the next second?

When Alice talked about school, I got a little sad that I couldn't go too. Even that I didn't like school that much, it represented normality to me. My life wasn't normal anymore… Alice changed her mood again.

"Bella, when you are around Edward, please keep in mind that the guilt he feels is enough payment for what he has done with you. I know it might be difficult, but please try." she said before her usual smile returned to her face. "Now, time for school!!"

With that, she danced her way to the door and disappeared. She left me thinking about the subject. Should I be nicer to Edward? Maybe he wasn't that bad. I could give him a chance.

I went downstairs and bid everyone goodbye, except for Edward, that stayed home. Esme questioned him about that.

"Edward, why aren't you going to the school? Bella is already fully transformed and you can leave her side." she said with a motherly tone that I couldn't help but to notice.

"I don't feel like going today. And I have a melody forming in my head that I wanted to try to put into music." he said looking at the piano I saw him sitting on earlier. Esme's face lit up when he mentioned the piano.

"Oh that's great! It has been ages since you last played, I mean, apart from this morning. I'll be in the garden, but when you're finished, please call me!" she said and reminded me of my mom when she started a new hobby; so exited, eyes gleaming in the light. I pushed that thought away. Edward chuckled softly, because of Esme, and went to his piano.

I wandered in the living room, looking at all the books on the shelves. I picked one that I had never heard of and sat at the couch. I was in the third chapter when I heard it. A sweet lullaby was coming from the piano, which I hadn't ever heard. It was beautiful, and I couldn't concentrate in my book anymore. I gave up and turned my head towards the source of the sound. There sat Edward, elegantly running his hands on the ivory keys. I felt something that I had never felt. What was this feeling?

It was all very new to me. I looked at Edward and felt… warmth? I just wanted to come closer, but I didn't. What is this feeling toward Edward?

A/N: Mwahaha, I am mean and I'll finish this chapter here…

Now we celebrate! Tenth chapter, huh! It is getting long, indeed… ;D

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