It's been four weeks since my sweet has been born. And Edward has been around. He's been helping me care for Julian. Which means he's been staying at my house. With me and Jacob. It's pretty awkward. But this is what has to be done. Julian needs to know his father and I won't stand in the way of that. It's not right to keep them from one another especially if he's willing to be there for him.

As for Julian, he's been great. He's grown so much since his birth which is shocking because it's only been four weeks. He's still so beautiful and the joy of my life.

Jacob and I are in a good place. We're still together but he hates the fact that Edward hangs around. But he also understands that he's trying to be around for his son and this is the only way.

Edward insists that we live with him because there's no space but we are not playing by his rules. I won't budge on this unless I have the okay from Jake and I don't think I will be getting that. And I understand. I like my house better anyway.

Jake is away at work and it's only Edward, Julian, and I. It makes me nervous but it's nothing I can't handle.

"So, it seems like you're serious about Jacob." Edward says softly. He's trying to start conversation but I'm not sure if this the conversation I want to be having with the father of my child.

"Yes. He's been there for me since the last half of my pregnancy. He means so much to me."

"Good." I know he wants to say more, but doesn't. And for some reason, I think about my feelings for him.

"I still care for you too, you know. Just because you left doesn't mean I stopped caring. I was just taken by surprise when you arrived during that hectic time. I was also angry. I still am. And I don't know when I will get over it." Word vomit. It's the worst. I didn't mean to say all that. It just came out.

To my surprise he had an odd look on his face. It looked like a mixture of pain, hope, and guilt. I don't mean to make him feel anything negative. Sure he doesn't my kindness, but I'm not about to inflict the same pain he inflicted on me. It hurts, why make someone else feel what I felt.

"Look, I'm not going to change my life because you all of a sudden popped back into my life. I will allow you your time with Julian. I refuse to keep you two apart. He needs you and you need him. I can see it. But I'm not ready to let you back into my life other than to father our baby. And you're doing an amazing job. But I'm with Jake now. And I owe it to him and our relationship." I thought he would understand the most. He gave our relationship a chance.

"I understand, Bella. Please forgive me for the intrusion in your life."

"You don't get to make me feel bad. This happened because you left me with this baby. I was expected to do this on my own. I was scared and depressed and alone. You don't get to make this about you. And you don't get to make me feel guilty. I did what I was supposed to do." He just sits there quietly, thinking hard. We stayed that way until Jacob came home. When he arrived, I greated him and offered to make him dinner.

After I made dinner for us all I started to prepare myself for bed. Being with Julian all day is such an amazing experience, it's just tiring. It's reassuring knowing that I have both Edward and Jake to help me with him. As awkward as it's been with Edward staying with us, I really don't know what I would've done without them. But maybe Edward is right, maybe we all should move to his place. He has more space, everyone could have their own room...

For some reason that thought made me feel excited yet uneasy. If that happens we'd have to play by his rules, it would be his house. But we would all be able to move freely. We wouldn't have to be couped up in my tiny apartment, trying to find a good flow between all us. But would that be a better solution?