Sorry I haven't updated in a while but my internet hasn't been working. I hope you like this chapter and please review and tell me what you think. I have hardly any reviews but I really want to know what you think even if it's criticism (it can only make me better lol). Anyways enough rambling and i hope you enjoy but now i've got to go get ready for my prom. yay lol. Enjoy and review. Love Tashi xx
I get up and run to him and hold him in a tight embrace. Taylor joins soon after me. We just stand there hugging while the vicar continues with the ceremony. We just hold each other and think about Josh.
"Gabriella I'm going now but if you ever need to talk or ever need anything then please don't hesitate to call" I don't even know who is talking. People have been saying that to me all day but I don't really hear them. Since we left the church everything's been a blur. There has been people hugging me and talking to me all day but I haven't really seen or heard any of them.
They can't help me. No one can. It's alright saying call me if you ever need anything but no one will be able to give me what I need. I need the sound of his voice, the taste of his lips, the smell of his cologne, the look of happiness in his eyes, the feeling of love and total security that only comes when I'm in his arms. What I need is his love.
"Gabriella?" I look up to see Taylor with a worried expression on her face "are you ok you've been quite all afternoon" I nod and yawn
"I'm going to bed"
"Ok I'll see you tomorrow" she hugs me and whispers in my ear "He loves you" I pull away and see the truth and sincerity in her eyes. I nod and start to leave the room
"Oh and Gabriella" I turn "You no where I am if you need me"
"Thanks. Night"
"Night sweetie. Sleep well" Sleep well? Yeah right I haven't slept well in days. I don't even want to go to sleep because if I do I'll see it again. I'll see the look on his face and hear the sound of his voice. I can't see it again. It hurts me more and more each time and I can't put my self through it.
Getting to my room I get changed and sit on my bed with the box in front of me. The box. The black, velvety, square box that was meant for me. I still haven't opened it but I don't know why. Whatever is inside was bought for me and was going to be given to me that night but yet I still can't gain enough courage to open it and look inside.
"Chris you've got to help me" Josh stated walking into Chris's house
"With what…and please come in" Chris said mildly confused as he shuts the door and turned to see his best friends pacing around the living room as if he were walking on hot coals
"With an idea of what to get Gabriella for our 3 year anniversary" Josh said with a hint of panic laced in his voice
"How about..."
"No Chris not a token for an hour of Josh loving" he interrupted before his friend could even finish the sentence
"She might like it" Chris said slightly offended but then saw the look in his best friend's eye "maybe not"
"It has to be perfect. I mean this is three years Chris three years" he was starting to panic
"I know and it would have been 4 years if it didn't take you so long to ask her out" he said trying to change the subject slightly to calm his panicked friend down
"Ok for the last time it took me so long to ask her out because I wasn't sure if she liked me the same way I liked her and if she didn't and I told her how I felt then it might have risked loosing our friendship which at the time was not something I was willing to do" he said in a monotone voice as he had explained this to his impossible friend hundreds of times before
"Yeah and that's all ok but it was so clear to everyone but you that she felt exactly the same for you. Even that exchange student from china could see it and he barely spoke English"
"Well if it was so obvious why did it take me a year before I was sure" he said cockily thinking he'd won this argument
"Because you were to busy drooling over her to see that she felt the same way" he smirked knowing that he had really won "I mean you would have thought it were clear when someone loves you and acts in the same love struck way as you"
"Ok whatever but we have gone way of subject here. I need to think of the perfect present"
"But I thought you agreed not to do present's this year and just go out instead" Chris asked slightly confused. Again
"We did but I want to surprise her and because she doesn't know it's got to be extra special"
"Ok what about clothes"
"Nah I want something more personal" starts to think about what she likes
"Jewelry..." again he gets interrupted before he can finish
"Wait. Of course why didn't I think of this before? It's perfect. I mean we've already planned it so why not. It's perfect and she won't expect it"
"Josh what the hell are you talking about?" this time Chris was full out confused and also slightly worried about his friend who had suddenly gone from the verge of a nervous breakdown to excitedly muttering nonsense in a matter of seconds
"Your idea its perfect" he exclaimed excitedly rushing to the door pulling it open so fast it almost comes of the hinges
"Which idea?" Chris asked form the doorway as Josh is already at his car
"I've got to go but thanks for the idea it's helped me big time" Josh shouted while climbing into his car
"Your welcome?" Chris said more to himself than Josh who was already driving down the street at an unusually fast speed for him "God I don't know whether to be scared or happy for gabs" he muttered to himself while closing the door and getting the phone to ring someone who might be able to understand Josh's behavior. He dials the number he knows from heart and waits for the person to pick up.
"Hello?"
"Hey Taylor it's me"
"Gabriella?" I open the door and walk into my daughters bedroom when she doesn't answer. She sat on her huge windowsill looking out at the street and I automatically know what she's looking at. The tree that's leaning slightly to left, the stain of blood on the road and then imagining it all again. Replaying it over and over in her head. I can't stand to see her like this. "Gabriella are you coming downstairs for something to eat?" I sit in front of her and she doesn't even acknowledge that I'm in the room
"No"
""Gabriella you have to eat something"
"I'm fine"
"Also you need to come out of this room. Apart from the funeral you haven't left it in a week"
"I said I'm fine" she is still staring out the window having not even look at me once. I get up to leave.
"Ok well I'll bring you up something later" As I get downstairs I see Taylor, Chris and my husband waiting expectantly for me and Gabriella.
"Is she coming down" I can hear the hope in Roberts voice and see the desperation in his eyes. I don't want to tell him although he already knows. Our only child's life has been ripped apart and we have no idea how to fix. It's not like when she was little and have a nightmare, then we could tell her it was just a dream but this is real and there's no saying when or if she'll get over it
"No" I spoke in barely a whisper but I knew they all heard me. I sit down and we all start to eat in silence. I see Robert never takes his eyes of his plate and Taylor and Chris sharing a few nervous glances.
Chris has been staying here since it happened. He and Taylor have been sharing the guest room which is right next to Gabriella's. They don't know but I've seen them going into Gabriella's room at night when she's having the nightmare of the crash. I've watched them wake her up and comfort her and the slowly lull her to sleep again. They are so good with her and she seems to be letting them in but no one else. Not even me. Even though I'm glad she's talking to someone I have to admit that I'm slightly jealous that it's not me, I'm her mother I should be the one she confides in but she's barely spoken to me or her father this past week. I know that Taylor and Chris were Josh's best friends so can understand what she's feeling more but I still wish she'd open up to me. She used to tell me everything but since the crash I feel like she's a completely different person. Which I suppose in a way she is.
"Maria are you ok" I look up to see three concerned faces and it's not till now that I realize I've started to cry. I quickly wipe the tears and start to clear the table even though I have barely touched the food
"Yes I'm fine"
"Hunni are you sure" I can see Robert is concerned but I don't need to worry him any more.
"Yeah honestly I'm just a bit emotional at the moment. Don't worry about me I'll be fine" I quickly leave the room before anyone else can start to question me. I'll be fine? Yes. Will Gabriella be fine? I'm not so sure.
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