How was it a simple little test could possible ruin everything you ever planned for your future? How could one little test send your nerves a blaze? It held the answer you needed to know. The outcome of the results would be dire. It could send everything that seemed to be good in your life down a spiral hole with a blink of an eye, with no remorse. It sits and mocks you. Let's you know that life as you know it, is now over and you've got to start over.
She couldn't continue on the campaign trail any longer. She had to face Jess. She had no idea what his reaction would be about this whole thing. She wanted to think that he would be thrilled beyond words, but that might not be the case taking in consideration both of their fathers. Then she'd have to tell her mom and Luke. Then she'd have to go and tell her grandparents and deal with whatever her grandma thought of this situation. She wanted to be happy, but she couldn't be, not now anyway.
"Rory, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be on a bus in the middle of nowhere?" Jess asked pushing himself off the floor. He was in the middle checking some of the lower selves. It was the thud of her bag hitting the floor that gained his attention.
She found that she couldn't move, she was froze to her spot. "Are you ok, Rory? You're starting to scare me," Jess spoke with an edge to his voice. He closed the gap between them, cupping her face in his hands. He could see a mix of emotions surge through her cool blue eyes. He just didn't know what could cause her to freeze up like this. He had never seen her like this before.
"What's with sleeping beauty?" Matt asked walking through the door being forced to squeeze past Rory.
"I'm taking a break," Jess told him ignoring Matt's question. Matt shrugged going back to work. Jess had managed to get Rory outside and down the block.
Her feet moved on their on accord, words refused to come out of her mouth. If it was this hard to tell Jess, it was going to be even harder to tell the rest of them. Couldn't see just send out a mass email explaining her situation? That would be easier on her. But she couldn't do that.
The sweet smell of roasted coffee had her relaxing. She panicked knowing Jess would figure out something serious was going on when she had to refuse the coffee. She couldn't drink it anymore. She was more pre-cautious than her mom has ever been, not that Lorelai was reckless.
"Your coffee is going to go cold," Jess pointed out. She wasn't sure how much time had passed her. Not talking and she wasn't drinking her coffee, both were huge red flags.
He couldn't figure out what was bothering her. Normally she would ramble on about everything in the world when something was bugging her no matter how small or huge it was. She'd also be on her third cup of coffee by now.
Rory pushed the cup that held the black liquid away from her with the dying smell. She wanted to hold his hand to keep him from bolting when she was able to tell him the news that was eating away at her. She thought better of it though, giving him the chance to bolt if he needed to. It was a lot to take in.
"Hi," she greeted with a smile that did nothing to make Jess relax. She could hear Paris in her ear, threatening her to open her mouth and let the words out. It would be the only way for her to relax, she had to woman up and tell him.
"Hi," Jess replied before she get her bearings in order and tell him. She could have told him hi once more and play their little game or she could finally tell him what was going on.
"How do you feel about having kids of your own? Being a father?" She asked taking a whole different course of action. She wanted to feel him out first to better gage his reaction when she told him.
"It's not something I've put much thought in to, Rory. Not with how Jimmy had run off. I don't want to be like that, ever. I do know that right now isn't the time for us to have kids. You're on the road and we don't have our own house. Where is this coming from?" Jess asked seeing rage surge behind his wife's eyes that were now a dark blue color.
"I'm pregnant, asshole," Rory snapped getting up. She stormed outside, letting her feet carry her away as the tears started to fall freely down her face. Her arms hugged her body tight. She had remembered a park somewhere near by, she just didn't know how to get there.
Jess had followed her out with his eyes. She was pregnant; with his child. He should have been overjoyed, panicked even, but he was calm as could be. Neither one of them had come from fathers that could stick around. He wasn't afraid that he would make that same mistake, he had learned from Jimmy's mistake greatly. What was he waiting for?
He started to walk the way Rory had went. It wasn't that hard to find her. He stayed back letting her go where she wished. They couldn't talk at the moment. It was best if he let her have some more space.
Within seconds of her sitting down on an empty park bench, Jess was right there.
"How far along?" He asked. He didn't need that answered. The only time they had sex was on New Year's and it was now the middle of March.
"A little over 10 weeks," she whispered, refusing to look at him. He counted in his head and it added up, but he knew that. He took a deep breath ready for this conversation to turn serious.
"You can't ask a question like that and get bent out of shape with the answer I give you," he started out. "I didn't know you where pregnant, Rory. I thought it was a hypothetical question." He paused waiting to see if Rory had anything to say. But she didn't. "These first few months won't be easy, but we can make it work. I want this, Rory. It'll all work out," he soothed taking her hand in his.
"Will it?" She croaked out, clearing her throat.
"It will, it has to, doesn't it?" He asked.
"In some way, I suppose," she replied back with a sigh.
"Does Mommy dearest know?" Jess asked wanting to see the bright smile his wife had.
"Just you," Rory replied back. "We don't have time to waste, Jess. We need to find a house or an apartment." He couldn't argue with that. They couldn't raise a child sharing a place with Matt and Chris.
"We'll make an appointment tomorrow to check out a few places, we've got this under control, Rory. We're gonna have to make a trip to Stars Hollow to tell your Mom."
"I know but for now, I want this to be between us. Is it wrong for us to keep this between us?"
"No, we'll get everything taken care of and go from there. We'll have to find a doctor, have you been to the doctor?" Jess asked, the second the thought popped into his head. Rory shook her head. She was a wreck when the idea popped into her head. She bought the test but it took her an extra week to actually take it and when the answer was right there written out for her, she quit and went straight to Philly.
"We should do that now," Rory told him. "I'm going to find a paper to work at. This really is the start of our life's, Jess." He leaned in capturing her lips with his. It really was and he couldn't wait to start this new journey with her.
