Chapter 10.
Charlie lets her tears fall and struggles to walk along the sand, challenging herself not to look back at the woman she loves and cursing herself for leaving again, but knowing that if they continued then they would just hurt each other more. Closing her eyes and wiping her tears before sighing as they are replaced by fresh ones she suddenly feels herself being spun around and sees Joey before her. They stand for a moment and Joey feels her heart pound as she sees Charlie's puffed up eyes and notices tears running uncontrollably down her face. Swallowing hard she says,
"Charlie you can't just keep walking away from this or we will never be able to move on." Charlie shakes her head before saying,
"I'm tired Joey and I'm not the only one who keeps walking away." Joey moves closer to Charlie and says quietly,
"What do you want because I really don't know anymore Charlie?" Charlie stands and thinks for a moment while taking Joey in, noticing the desperate and confused look in Joey's eyes she finally says,
"I want to talk about this properly Joey, without all the drama." Joey smiles a little and then says,
"Well then let's do that."
Charlie opens the door and indicates for Joey to walk into the house, following her nervously Charlie says,
"Coffee?" Joey nods and follows Charlie into the kitchen where she takes a seat at the familiar table, she sits and waits as Charlie stands at the counter, waiting for the kettle to boil, she watches Joey for a moment thinking how scared and lost the younger girls seems. Smiling a little Charlie takes a seat next to Joey and takes her hand before saying quietly,
"I'm so sorry for what I said on the beach, it was unfair. I know that you were hurting and that you were angry with me, I know…" Joey shakes her head saying,
"I shouldn't have done that to Jess, she deserved better. I'm not even like that but when I saw you and Drew together I just couldn't breathe and I had to leave, then when I got home Jess was there and I just wanted to get lost for a moment." Charlie releases Joeys hand and gets up, going to the counter she puts her hands down and closes her eyes, trying desperately to forget that Joey had just been in the arms of another woman. Joey watches Charlie closely and sighs before getting to her feet and walking to the woman. Charlie remains with her back to Joey but can sense the woman behind her, Joey breaths heavily before whispering,
"Charlie I have forgiven you for Hugo, I was just angry and it just slipped out." Charlie turns now and faces Joey, very aware of how close their lips are together she says while looking Joey in the eyes,
"But that's just it Joey, even if we where together it would always be there and If we argue then that would be the perfect ammunition for you." Joey shakes her head, trying to convince Charlie she says,
"You really hurt me when you slept with Hugo Charlie, but what hurt me more was when I left you there on the docks." Charlie feels the tears make there way down her face again and she sniffs and wipes them away before moving out of Joey's shadow and walking to the other side of the kitchen, Joey stands with her back to Charlie for a moment before turning and saying,
"I was hurt and confused but I never for one moment stopped loving you." Charlie stands breathless and with her mouth open, trying to choke back the tears she says,
"Why did you leave me Joey? Why couldn't you just stay and forgive me." Joey feels a tear fall from her eyes and she replies quietly,
"If I had of stayed then we would have fallen apart Charlie, leaving you was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but it was the right thing at the time." Charlie shakes her head before saying,
"And now?" Joey moves around the table and stops in front of Charlie before saying,
"And now I think that I made a mistake. I mean if I'd have stayed then maybe we could have worked things out and maybe we never would have been with other people." Charlie looks away from Joey, guilty about her relationship with Drew and almost feeling as though she has cheated on Joey again. Joey smiles and takes Charlie's face in her hands, forcing their eyes to meet she says,
"I understand now Charlie. When I was on that boat I had all the time in the world to think and to re play what happened, but it wasn't until Alex made me put myself in your shoes that I really got it." Charlie looks at Joey, confused about what she is trying to say, Joey sees this and continues,
"Part of the reason we fell apart is because everything moved to fast, I have known that I am gay for a long time, but before me it had never even occurred to you. Then you kissed me and from then on it all just kind of snowballed." Joey stops to try and read Charlie's reaction; Charlie shakes her head and pulls back from Joey's hands, sitting at the table she says,
"None of this is your fault Joey; I just don't seem to be able to hold onto a relationship." Joey stands behind Charlie and says,
"I shouldn't have pushed you so much; I should have just let you take your time. I should have understood that." Charlie puts her head in her hands as Joey takes the seat next to her and says quietly,
"Charlie we have both made mistakes, the only question is whether we let them mistakes ruin the way we obviously still feel for one another." Charlie looks up, surprised by Joey's words and Joey looks at her intently before leaning forward and capturing Charlie's lips in a passionate and lingering kiss. After what seems like a life time Joey pulls away and watches as Charlie keeps her eyes closed, still lost in the kiss. Joey places her palm on Charlie's cheek and Charlie opens her eyes, they gaze at one another and Joey whispers,
"I'm still completely and madly in love with you Charlie. The only question and hang up I have is whether you still feel the same." Charlie leans forward and allows herself to be immersed in the moment as she places her lips softly against Joey's before saying, her mouth millimetres from her lovers,
"I have never stopped falling for you Joey and I don't think I ever will. I'm in love with you."
Joey smiles at her loves words and then breathes a sigh of relief, Charlie laughs at her before saying,
"What was that face?" Joey shakes her head and says, quickly pecking Charlie on the lips,
"I have wanted to hear you say those words from the moment I arrived back here, and now you have I feel…"
"Alive?" Charlie finishes Joey's thought and then leans in, kissing her more passionately. The two women kiss for several minutes before Joey pulls back, breathless and flustered she says,
"I should go before this gets out of hand." Charlie takes Joey's lips once again and then stands before the woman, taking her hand, not another word is spoken as Charlie leads her to the bedroom.
Closing the door behind her Charlie turns to see Joey standing, looking as beautiful as ever but also so nervous. Charlie walks to Joey now and takes her hands, they entangle their fingers and Charlie leans in, kissing Joey gently and lightly, she feels Joey shudder and pulls away. Joey looks into Charlie's eyes intensely before saying,
"Are you sure?" Charlie nods her head and leans in, placing her mouth against Joey's ear she whispers,
"Can I make love to you Joey?" Joey moves her head back and meets Charlie's lips, answering her question with a passion filled kiss and heartfelt embrace.
The two woman stand for a while, kissing overpoweringly and using their hands to explore one another. Charlie moans lightly as Joey's tongue slips in and out of her mouth, caressing her own tongue and playing with it as they fight for control. Joey smiles as she feels Charlie's kiss deepen and then she feels Charlie pull her closer, almost taking her off her feet as they stumble to the bed and crash down, still kissing and not breaking contact for a second. Charlie feels Joey beneath her, she feels her warm body, her throbbing intimacy and her racing heart, smiling wickedly she whispers,
"I want to feel your hands on me, I need to feel you." Joey kisses Charlie urgently before breathlessly whispering,
"I love you so much."
Charlie smiles and kisses Joey once again, deepening their kiss and fuelling their passions, Joey overpowers Charlie and straddles her, holding Charlie's wrists firmly against the bed before leaning in and placing delicate kisses over her neck and around her jaw. Charlie moans at the sensation and feels herself getting hotter and hotter, desperate for Joey's touch, Joey feels Charlie's response and pulls her up from the bed, kissing her wildly as Joey sits in Charlie's lap and Charlie eases her hand up Joey's top, caressing her stomach before placing both hands on Joey and lifting her top, revealing Joey's stunningly tones figure. Charlie takes in the sight of Joey as Joey breathes in and out, her breathing increasing with the passion she is feeling as Charlie runs a hand slowly up her stomach and around her back, releasing Joeys black lacy bra, Charlie lets it hang for a moment before bringing her hand back around to Joey's front and moving it north, up Joey's body, she move her hand beneath the bra and caresses Joey's right breast, removing the bra before doing the same to Joey's left breast. Joey bucks in response as Charlie pulls the younger woman in close and captures her right nipple in her mouth, slowly circling it and biting it gently as her hands grasp Joey's back gently, supporting her and preventing her from moving away from Charlie's teasing.
Joey feels herself getting wetter and wetter and as Charlie's sucking becomes more and more intense she moves her hands and slowly removes Charlie top, revealing Charlie's white silky bra, with one hand Joey removes it and discards it as Charlie receives another captivating kiss. The two woman tease one another by rubbing their hands over each others bodies and caressing their intimate areas over their cloths. Joey smiles as she feels how much Charlie wants her and pushing her gently back onto the bed Joey lifts herself from Charlie and removes Charlie's jeans, Charlie blushes a little as Joey takes in the woman in front of her, gasping at her beautiful and well maintained figure. Joey smiles at Charlie's shyness before she places her knee in between Charlie's legs and crawls slowly on top of the waiting police woman, capturing her lips tenderly and passionately Joey moves herself slowly, pushing her knee in between Charlie's legs, feeling Charlie's juices against her leg and getting more and more turned on the more she feels Charlie giving in. Joey rocks on top of Charlie as Charlie moves her hips in sync with Joey, feeling the full effect and power of Joeys knee against her, Charlie moans loudly and Joey feels herself pulse, taking Charlie's hand she guides it down her body and places in beneath her jeans and Charlie feels how wet Joey is and how much she needs Charlie's touch. Looking Charlie deep in the eyes now Joey whisper breathlessly,
"Make love to me Charlie." Charlie relents and gently places her fingers on Joey, rubbing her area and making Joey buckle and moans loudly. Joey kisses Charlie hard on the lips as she closes her eyes tightly trying to concentrate and not wanting to come too early, wanting more of Charlie. Charlie arches her back as Joey finally makes contact with her fingers, placing them gently inside Charlie and watching Charlie's face as she pleasures her, the two woman place their foreheads together and stare into one another's eyes and they move up and down together, feeling the intensity rise within themselves they both buck at the same time and then feel the release, Joey lays her sweat covered body onto Charlie's and the two woman lay for a while, breathing heavily and smiling wildly.