Hello dear readers,
I write to you with a heavy heart filled with sadness and disappointment. As I previously stated, I have been feeling unsatisfied with the story. After much thought, I must discontinue Breath of Life. My heart is not in it any more. In fact, my heart and mind are not in my writing at all. To be honest, I felt my motivation slipping towards the end of Bedroom Hymns. I thought that was due to Breath of Life rattling around in my head demanding to be written. I should have waited to publish Breath of Life, I should have taken a break after Bedroom Hymns, I should have... I should have done a lot of things, but I didn't. Which is why I'm very disappointed in myself for giving up, for publishing a story that may not be completed and for wasting your time reading. I apologize from the bottom of my heart; I never intended to get all of you invested only to be left hanging like this. I do hope that a break in writing anything altogether will help me clear my mind and bring back my motivation. I hope to one day return to this story and to this site. As of right now, I am heartbroken I am unable to write anything because this site, my works, have always given me a way to express myself and deal with my depression and anxiety. I'm frightened without this I won't be able to pull through, but I can't force myself to write either because I've always wanted to be as good as Richelle Mead. I've always wanted to share only the best of me with you all. I only hope you understand and don't crucify me though I will accept insults and getting dragged through the mud. I deserve your anger I just hope if I do return one day, you will give me another chance. As always, I'm very grateful for your kind words. I'm grateful you gave me a chance in Beauty and the Beast despite its rough start, despite its flaws, and despite how long it took to complete. I'll always love B&B for the confidence it gave me that I could be a good writer. I'll always love you all for giving me and my works so much love and kindness. I will carry your love with me as I try to pull out of this nasty black hole I somehow have found myself in. Thank you so much and again I am deeply sorry to be discontinuing Breath of Life. I will leave the story posted as a promise to myself to one day return to it with a clear mind and a better version of it and myself. Until next time...
Love,
littlerichellemead