A/N I was going to update again yester day but I was too tired and my eyes hurt, but anyways I already worked out and read my bible, so I might me updating a lot today, so check every few hours for a new up date, my goal is to get up to the dress shopping for prom…enjoy…
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After playing the new composition I wrote, I immediately thought of Bella and the time since I lost track of time while I was playing I hope I wasn't late, that would make a bad first impression, I checked the time it was… 4:10! Dammit I was late I ran upstairs, I got my car keys and flew back downstairs, every ones eyes were wide with shock when I did this, did I forget to mention I had a date tonight? I must've because all there thought were the same,
Wow what's he got planned tonight? I laughed to myself in the car, I was sure Alice would tell them once she knew of course, I looked over myself in the mirror, okay, I think I look presentable I mean I've never been on a date before, so I hope my attire was okay, I wore a pair of fitted black vintage wash jeans, a Michael kors graphic satin strip dress shirt, with a pair of my favorite florsheim riva black loafers, I hope I looked presentable, I pulled up to her house at exactly 4:13, I got out the car and didn't bother to shut the door I ran up to the front door (human pace of course) and I knocked once. I turned to face the opposite direction, but I choose to see Bella's reaction first so I turned back around just in time because she answered the door, I spoke quickly,
"I'm so sorry I'm late, if you never forgive me I'll understand, sorry," I stopped to catch her reaction, and she smiled, and laughed at me,
"it's okay Edward," though I heard her sigh in relief,
"why were you late?" she asked,
"I was…writing something for you and lost track of the time, sorry again," I sighed, and looked down at her, and for the first time today I noticed what she was wearing a pair of blue jeans that fit her perfectly, and a lovely blue shirt that in contrast with her skin was a beautiful sight, the clothes fit perfectly and looked lovely on her, truth be told I didn't care if she wore rags I would still be going on a date with her right now, she seemed to notice my staring at her because she blushed and looked down to see if what she was wearing was ;good enough' I picked up her chin with my two middle fingers and whispered in to her ear,
"you look so beautiful right now, it's hardly fair," and released my hold on her and stepped back to give her some room,, she seemed to notice what I meant because the next thing she said was,
"if it makes you uncomfortable, I can go change." my Bella was so serious, that when she spoke it was too funny, I burst out laughing,
"Bella you're perfect, and the whole blood thing isn't what I was talking about, you are tempting me in other ways," I smirked down at her, and her blush was growing even more scarlet,
"come on, I have to have you home by 11, remember," she nodded and took a brown jacket from the stair case and followed me out, I stopped her,
"shouldn't you tell Charlie you're going now?" she smiled,
" I left him a note in case he woke up," oh that made sense, he was tired after all, I smiled and led her to the car, I opened the car door and she entered, I closed the door and ran back to my door which was wet, because I hadn't closed it in my rush to get to Bella, I sighed as I entered, I didn't bother to buckle up, but Bella did, I don't understand why she should be afraid of my driving when I was a monster who was fighting ever minute to not lose control of my senses, I turned and smiled to her,
"so how was you're day? I want to know ever single detail?" she heaved a sigh than said,
"well, there's this guy, who I really like and he finally asked me out today," it took all of two seconds to figure out that she meant me,
"Oh and who is this guy?" I pretended to sound jealous,
"well he's the most amazing, spectacular, sweet, honest, trust worthy, and handsome guy I've ever met, his name is Edward," I smirked.
"well this Edward guy is luck, I hope he knows that," I said still sounding jealous,
"plus he's an amazing kisser," I turned and smirked at her, I knew now that she wanted me to kiss her, but I decided to tease her a little,
" uh oh well it seems I have no chance," her smile dropped, I was looking at her expression through the corner of my eye, and said,
"not right now, love I'm driving and I don't want to be distracted," she lightened up when I said this,
"Bella, tell me more about you? Have you ever dated before?" I had to admit this was my first date ever and I had no experience so I figured getting know her more would be easier for me,
"no, actually this is my first date," I smiled and than sighed, why was this her first date? I assumed she had been on plenty in phoenix,
"really, why?" I asked still confounded, did guys ask her out and she say no or was she never asked out?
"I don't know, no body ever asked," what?! How could any guy not want to ask out this beautiful creature sitting next to me? What about mike? He asked her out a lot, she continued,
"and when I came here to forks and all the attention was on me, it felt weird, sometimes I wonder if I'm seeing the world through my eyes as the rest of the world see's through there's. I only said no because I've never been attracted to immature high schooler's," she blushed as she said the last part, I had to admit she did make sense, Bella soul was far to old and mature to be a high school teenage, and yet she was, as was I.
"that's strange, I would have thought you had had previous relationships before." well it was true! She was too good at this stuff, and she had no 'experience' before now, she blushed again,
"teenaged boys aren't attracted to girls who don't want to have sex on the first date," she looked down again, something was bothering her, but what?
"what's wrong love?" I reached over to her and stroked her cheek. She sighed as she looked up at me and said.
"it's just sometimes I wonder what it's like to be a…teenager, if you know what I mean." I knew what she meant it was so annoying trying to pretend to 'act' like a teenager when you feel so distant from them and there issues,
"I know what it's like to feel so distant from every one, to not feel wanted where you are." I sighed and looked at her. I hadn't realized it yet, but being with Bella made me feel somewhat 'normal' just ten minutes ago I was worried about my appearance, I've never had to worry about that before, strange.
She finally smiled,
"yes I guess you would understand, Edward." I smiled this time to, we had been driving for twenty minutes, before she asked,
"so what were you writing?" what did she mean?
"what's that Bella?" she looked over at me,
"you said you wrote something for me, what is it?" I smiled, oh yeah that,
"I'll show you tomorrow at my house, okay?" she nodded, I was positive that she had more questions to ask me, but was probably to 'afraid' to ask them,
" so no more hundred questions?" I asked attempting to 'break the ice' she seemed a little shy to ask so I continued.
"because I'm pretty sure you want to know more about me, go ahead and ask, I have no reason for secrets with you," she sighed in relief as I said this,
"how…old are you?" well I didn't see that one coming but I answered truthfully.
"I was born in Chicago in 1901," I paused to test her reaction, she seemed to understand and I continued,
"it was 1918 when Carlisle changed me into what I am, I was dying of the Spanish influenza, my father was hit with the first wave and died about four months before my mother and I were hit, my mother Elizabeth was far better off than I was and her recovery was going good until she found out that I was going to die, she tried to nurse me back to health but when doing so her strength was rapidly deteriating, I don't remember much, human memories fade over time and eventually you forget," I stopped looked over to her and to my surprise she was smiling, I took that in relief I was afraid that my story would freak her out to much," is there anything else I don't know?" she asked, did she know I could read minds?"mmm…did I ever tell you I could read minds?" I guess I didn't because her reaction was sudden,
"you can read minds?!" I laughed,
"I guess I didn't tell you," suddenly Bella was blushing, I guess I should tell her that I can't read her mind,
"yeah, except yours," she looked at me shocked,
"why? Is there something wrong with me?" I began to laugh again, it would be so Bella to assume that there is something wrong with her,
"you see I tell you that I'm a vampire that can read minds and you think there's something wrong with you." it was funny, I couldn't stop laughing, soon after I said that Bella was laughing as well,
"don't worry there's nothing wrong with you, it's sort of like I'm only hearing the F.M station and your on the A.M frequency," I reassured her, the laughter had died down and than she spoke,
"can any one else read minds like you can?" this question made me uncomfortable and Bella seemed to notice, but I don't like to talk about my family, I mean I already heard much more than I should have
And taking about to some else is just weird to me, Bella quickly said,
"you don't have to tell me, I was just curious," I smiled, she was so innocent, and curious, I couldn't leave her in suspense and I did promise to answer all her questions.
"no…but Alice…Alice can see the future…and jasper can manipulate emotions," she was shocked and than smiled,
"I bet she saw me coming." she stated,
"not exactly… Alice's visions are subjective, I mean the future can always change." I spoke monotone.
"oh" she said. I knew she was scared of asking any more questions, but I didn't want her to be scared when she wanted to ask me something, we were about twenty minutes from Seattle now,
"Bella can I ask you something?" I was nervous to ask this but I needed to know,
"you can ask me anything, Edward you know that," I heaved and sighed, before I asked I took an unnecessary deep breathe I pulled the car over and parked we were here already (goes to show how long it took for me to ask) she looked worried now, I was wasting time only because I was afraid of the answer, finally I knew I couldn't keep avoiding the question so I took another deep breath and turned to her, her eyes were burning with curiosity and wonder, I was surprised she stood so patient, I reached out and stroked her hair one last time before asking,
"Bella, I need to know this…" I paused to gauge her reaction,
"I'll tell you anything…" I sighed again,
"Bella why.. How could you a beautiful, amazing creature; angel love me a damned, black hearted monster?" it hurt to say these words but I needed the answer, my low self esteem was at an all time high and I needed to be reassured. Bella had unfastened her seat belt and was leaning toward me, we were close our proximity was like an electric pull toward each other, she leaned in closer and wrapped her right arm around my neck and whispered into my ear,
"Because, you saw me, when nobody else did," her voice was sweet as was her breathe it flowed into my ear and I could feel the warmth in her, I reached around and placed my hand around her neck, the same way she had done with me I turned to look into her deep, brown, knowing, beautiful eyes and said,
"I don't understand why you would want me, when you could have someone so much better, some one who could love you in ways that I can't,"she opened her mouth and was gapping at me,
" I don't want them, Edward I want you and I love you," we were almost touching now, I leaned in closer, finally mustering up all the restraint I had left in me, I kissed her, no one could kiss like Bella her lips so soft and tender she was warm, when she wrapped her hands into my hair and began to pull on my hair it only made things all the better, I pulled her closer to me and sat her on my lap, her breathing became heavy and I know I would have to stop soon, than it hit me I could feel my throat burn and the need for her…blood, I couldn't stop the feeling was too great but the burn in my throat grew hotter with ever second, finally I couldn't take it any more I realesed my hold on her, instead of pulling away I stedily moved my mouth to her neck and slowly pecked, her heart was racing and her breathing was coming in pants. I slowly moved away and said, I chuckled before I said,
"were going to be late,bella," he eyes opened slowly and she said,
"how do you do that?" she asked and I chuckled again. She was obviously referring to my kissing,
"years of practice," I was joking of course but I saw the hurt in her eyes, I exited the car and went to open her door, I could still see the hurt on her face, I would have to fix that, I opened the door and reached to pull her out, after she was out and standing in front of me, I reached over and pulled her close to me, our bodies were tied together as I wrapped my arms around her, I could feel her warm body culed around me I spoke to her,"I was only joking, actually I've never kissed a girl before you," I lookled down at her smiling face,
"or dated any body in both my human and vampire life, until you," I smirked at her, and she was glowing now, it made me happy to see her happy I bent down and kissed her on the forehead before saying ,
"we really are going to be late now," I took her hand and led her to a restaurant that I hear the food is remarkable, we got there at exactly six o'clock. As I walked in I could see that there wasn't many people we were greeted by a waitress whose thoughts were so provocative it made me want to leave the restaurant I was about to lead the way out until I seen Bella's eyes glow when she looked around at her surrondings, I would stick through it just to make her happy,
"hello welcome to Brasa's Seattles most fine dining experience, im kymbra and I will be you server for tonight, do you have a reservation?," I nodded,
"yes it's under Cullen," she checked the list and nodded, she was obviously ignoring Bella because her eyes never left me, ugh, girls and their hormones, I pulled bella closer to me and kissed the top of her hair just to make a point,
"Kymbra we would like to a table for two, please," I didn't take my eyes off of Bella, which didn't bother me, Kybra on the other hand thoughts where volatile,
Ugh, who is she, she's not even pretty,ugh. I'd bet that boy is great in bed, I wonder what position he prefers, I wonder if I can slip him to a table with zero privacy… that was sick, gross, well two can play that game, she led the way to a table that was right in the middle of everyone,
"is this good?" she asked I'd be good to you baby, just ditch her, ugh! Her thoughts were so sick! This time I looked at her right in the eye and said,
"Bella, honey would you prefer a more privet venue?" I looked down at her and she said,
"yes, Edward." I smiled than looked back to kymbra,
"a more privet sitting please, kymbra and thank you," she was stunned obviously, I bet no one had ever refused a seat, she led us to a much more privet seat, far away from other people and from her view, I approved and went to ppul out bellas seat and took her jacket from her and laid it on her seat. When she sat I pushed it infor her, kymbra was obviously surprised by my gentleman ways, because her thoughts were,
Damn no guy ever did that for me, and I thought chivalry was dead, I had to admit these days chivalry was as good as dead.
"So what drinks can I get for you?" she aked clearly not interested any more, I looked at bella,
"bella?" I asked she looked at the menu ant said,
"I'll have a coke, please," it sounded more like question rather a statement,kymbra than looked at me,
"and for you?" she asked, I wasn't going to order but something inside of me wanted to try and be 'normal' for once so I said,
"I'll take a coke as well," bella looked at me dumbfounded and I smile back at her, the waitress wrote thst down gave us our menues and left, bella's eyes were burning with curiosity again,
"you have another question, don't you?" she nodded, and I smiled I waved my hand to signal her to ask,
"okay don't laugh but, do vampires eat?" I had to hid my laughter with a cough as to not disturb any one it didn't work to well because the other couple a few seats ahead of us looked back, I answered,
" well if some one dared you to eat dirt you could, right?" she cringed and aighed
"I did once on a dar, it was nasty," she had a beautiful smile on her angelic face I couldn't help but smirk as well.
"I guess im not entirely surprised at that," I stated,
"so you can eat but it's not appetizing?" she asked and I nodded the cokes where here now and kymbra was ready to take our order,I waved to bella,bella honey what would you like?" I was trying my best to act human, she quickly glanced over the menue and said,
"um I'll take the pappardelle," she looked at me to see if that 'okay' she should already know that she could have the most expensive thing on the menu and I wouldn't care, I nodded,
"And for you ?," I didn't look at the menu and said,
" I'll have the Agnolotti al Plin," I handed her the menu and looked back at Bella, I smiled to with humor in my eyes, she was curious again, kymbra left and wouldn't be returning for a while,
"have you eaten here before?" I chuckled,
" no." waas my honest reply, she looked at me again,
"than how did you know what to get, you didn't read the menue," I smiled at her before saying,
"I googled it," (Seriously you can google it, I did to find the menu and it worked,lol.) she was laughing at me now, I looked back at her,
"what?" I asked, she looked back at me,
"I'm just thinking how funny it is that Edward Cullen is so bored that he googles restraunt menu's it's too funny." she was laughing still and I had to admit It was pathetic, I ignored her laughter,
"you know it's not fair ,dazzling people into doing what you want them to," I was officially confused what did she mean by 'dazzling' people into getting what you want,
"what?" I asked
"oh come on, you have to know the effect you have on people, you think everyone gets their way so easily?'she said, did I really dazzle people,
"do I dazzle you?" I wanted to know, did I? she smiled and whispered,
"frequently." I smiled. My thoughts began to wonder, what did I ever do to deserve this good fortune?why did Bella want me when she could have someone so much better? Even after she told me why she loved me I still wondered how? How could she love a monster like me? How? As I sit here now looking at her, her beautiful brunette hair so long and thick and perfect, the way I could get lost in her wide, brown beautiful eyes, she was perfect, the way she cared for others and never put herself before any one but last, the way she was so mature for her age, while kids her age were out at parties she stood home and read, the way she was so brave and confident about everything was amazing to me. And for some reason I had a feeling that some how and some way everything would be okay…
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A/N I WILL UPDATE AS SOON AS I GET DONE WORKING OUT I PROMISE GIVE ME ABOUT THREE HOURS. IT WILL BE UP TONIGHT I SWEAR!