I stayed by Rivens side all the time, after all that was the least i could do after he sacrificed himself for me. I still couldn't believe he did that... i sat by his bedside, staring at him.
I didn't want to look or sound like a creep, but he looked very peaceful and cute.
Looking at him much longer, gave me butterflies. What, wait? butterflies? no, i had to force myself not to love him, after all, we were friends.
He probably saved my ass cause he was being nice to me and he just wanted to protect me.
"Riven, can you hear me?" i wondered. There was no movement, i could only watch his chest go up and down as he was breathing in and out.
I watched his chest all the time cause what if he stopped breathing?
I felt sad about the situation, i wish i wasn't so stupid.
I slowly reached for his hand, he probably wouldn't have noticed anyways, so i could just do whatever.
"Riven... i don't know why you did what you did, but i just wanted to say thank you." i started.
Part of me still didn't believe he was back after all those years, and part of me felt horrible for what happend.
"I wish there was something i could do to help you." i looked down, and then back up at him again.
"See, when you returned, i felt like this excited school girl that i was back when we first met." i stared at his hands, this was the first time in forever since i held it again, it was a bittersweet feeling.
"I just... I don't know how to say this without hurting myself, cause i don't want to open up too much about my feelings..."
I took a deep breath, why was i so nervous? it's not like he could hear me anyways.
"I love you... Riven..." Those words i've been dying to tell him for so long, and i finally said it...
"I've always loved you, even when you were gone, i kept wondering where you were, if you moved on and if you had someone else." tears burned in my eyes.
"I don't know why we ended what we had, because i know it wasn't perfect, but it felt right... We had our disagreements but i feel like that's what all couples go through in life, i've tried to date other men, but i just keep comparing them to you, and they're just not like you." it was true, i tried to date other men to get over Riven, but it never worked.
"I wish i could tell you this in person, but i'm a fool, i can't do such thing... I'm weak." i looked down.
"I just love you... and i never wanted you to leave in the first place, but i wanted you to be happy, and i guess it worked..." I let go of his hand, and bent over to him.
This was my last chance of kissing him. I closed my eyes and slowly, slowly moved towards his lips.
I didn't know what i was doing, what if he woke up in the process and saw me doing this?
I slowly felt his soft lips on mine, and only then realised what i was doing. It felt so wrong, but it also just felt so right, so natural.
I had my lips on his for about 5 seconds, until i stopped, and leaned back.
I looked at him. "You are my hero, Riven, please don't die on me." I wiped my tears away, and looked back at him. I really just kissed him? It's just too bad he didn't react to it, but i probably would be too scared to do it to him face to face, when he's awake.
"I have class... so i will come back tonight, but please don't leave me." I stood up, and touched his hand one more time. Then i grabbed my purse and left.

"How did it go?" Aisha asked.
"It was just painful to watch him laying there, doing nothing." i said. "It feels like i took that freedom away from him. I just feel so guilty."
Aisha placed a hand on my shoulder.
"Don't feel sorry... it's not your fault, he chose to protect you, which obviously means that you mean a lot to him."
i looked up at my friend, she was right.
"I feel that, but it's just... mixed signals you know. He wants us to be friends, but he is risking his life for mine... What am i supposed to think?"
"That a big part of him still loves you, whether it's friendly or romantically." Flora said.
"But i think, if it was really friendly, he wouldn't take such a huge risk, this man truly loves you."
I looked up at Flora. Men could be so confusing at times, how was i sure whether he liked me or not? I couldn't just ask him? not after the conversation we've had earlier.
"I feel like you should just get yourself together and ask him. It may hurt you, but at least you know the answer. If he loves you, that's great, you can pick up from where you've left off. If he doesn't, that's painful but at least you can move forward with your life. "
Flora was so right.
Getting your feelings hurt is the worst when you love someone, but i needed to know the answer, for my own good.
"I just hope he wakes up... so i could talk to him."

It took Riven about two weeks to finally recover from the huge blow. He was his old self again, and that was great cause two weeks ago we were unsure about his future.
"You need a lot of rest, just stay in your bed and if you need anything, just call me, okay?" i said. I wanted to take care of him as best as i could, after all, i was the problem he ended up in the hospital anyways.
"A water would be nice, thank you." Riven said. I nodded and walked over to the kitchen to get him a glass of nice, cold water.
"Musa..." Riven looked hesitant, he was about to say something but didn't know if he should continue or not.
I walked over to him, and sat down on his bedside, handing him the glass of water.
"Thank you." he said, taking a few sips.
"Musa... i just... i mean... i want to."
He struggled to find the words. "It's okay, one step at a time." i said, as i placed his pillow up in his neck a little.
"Why did you do what you did?" i wondered. "My life isn't worth anything compared to your own, why would you risk your own life?"
"Because that's what i'm supposed to do, i'm supposed to help people."
That was the answer i expected, he would tell me that it was his job, which was true, but it still gave me these mixed emotions.
"That's what i figured, but please, next time, don't." i smiled at him, briefly.
"Why wouldn't i? i can't just let you get hurt, i would never forgive myself for that."
i looked down.
"Musa." Riven sat up a little, and looked at me.
"I've... heard everything you've told me at the hospital... when i couldn't answer you back, when i was unconscious..." i looked up with a shocked face. Did he hear and FEEL everything? How embarrassing...
I stood up. "Ohh... uhh what exactly did you witness?"
I just wanted to make sure he didn't feel the kiss.
"You telling me that... you loved me." Riven said. Could this be any more awkward?
"Oh heaven... " i said.
"I'm sorry... i didn't mean to." i said, blushing. Gosh i just wanted to run away and stick my head under my pillow.
"It's alright, i really enjoyed the kiss."
I looked up as he said that. Oh no! he felt the kiss too!? I walked over to the door.
"I'm sorry, i'm sorry, i never wanted it to happen, i apologize... i'll tell Helia to come take care of you."
" That's not fun." Riven said.
"Please stay, i really didn't mind." He didn't? "Actually... as you kissed me, i saw all these flashbacks of our relationship, when we kissed, when we argued, and as soon as i woke up, i felt like i missed you when you weren't with me."
Did he mean that or did he just hit his head badly?
"Musa... " i looked up at him.
"I love you too.."
He smiled at me. My heart skipped a beat. Did he just tell me he loved me? He never said that! even when we were in a relationship.
"Oh Riven!" i ran up to him, and pulled him in a hug.
"I really do Musa, i wish i would have just told you sooner." i looked him in the eye, and smiled.
"I couldn't be any happier right now."
Riven placed his hand on my cheek, and looked at me. I looked right back at him, this was the moment i have been waiting for, for so long.
Riven leaned in, and i moved closer to him, his lips softly touched mine, and my heart beated faster.
I wrapped my arms around his neck, and we kissed each other passionatly.
I felt tears streaming down my face as we kissed, this was a moment of pure bliss, a moment that i longed for for many years, and it did happen.
I was getting my happily ever after, just as the other Winx did, just like i deserved.
"I love you, Riven..."
"I love you too Musa, with all my heart."

The End!