"Mason please stay with me" i cried.
"Rose, you let me die" he said weakly.
"NO im still here Mason, please just be strong" i yelled.
"You killed me" he said while forever shutting his eyes.
I woke up with a scream drenched in sweat. Everything felt so real. Mason never said those words to me but they felt so real.
I sat up in bed and looked at my phone. Sunday, November 14th. 9:36am. Today was the 6 month mark since the accident and Mason's death.
6 months, 26 weeks, 182 days, 4382 hours, 262,974 minutes, 15,778,463 seconds without Mason.
I closed my eyes and let myself fall back into my bed. It seems like yesterday he was with me shining his amazing smile at me.
BEEP.
I looked down at my phone and saw a text from Lissa.
"If you think you're staying in your room all day, you're wrong. Get ready and meet me in the Cafeteria :)"
She probably figured i was going to be beyond depressed today, she was right.
I put all my strength together and got up. I took a shower, threw some shorts of with a black top, and some of my gladiator sandals.
I dried my hair and straighted it. I guess i looked decent. I almost forgot but i got my concealer and covered my tattoo, it was becoming a ritual now.
I grabbed my key and walked down to the cafeteria.
"Hey Ripsi" said a way to familiar voice.
I looked in the direction the voice came from and sure enough it was Adrian with Lissa, Christian, who was Lissa's ever loving boyfriend, not. Eddie and Mia were also with them. Eddie was an amazing guy, he was really dedicated and smart but had a wild side to him, Mia was really sweet although she came off as a bitch, i guess it true that you cant judge a book by its cover. Christian, or Fire crotch as i called him, was Lissa's boyfriend. He loved fire and the color Black apparently. He was sarcastic and rude. Almost a boy version of me.
I glared at Adrian and said "Don't call me that"
Ripsi was the incredibly ridiculous nickname Adrian had given me. I thought it was cute in the moment but now it made me sound like a cat.
"Dont bother her Adrian" said Lissa while shooing him to another seat.
"Hey Rose" said Lissa in her angelic voice with a smile.
"Hey Liss, Hey thing" I said while looking at Adrian.
"Your words injure me little Ripsi" he said while being dramatic.
"You want a black eye Adrian, it would go with your black ego" i said.
He flinched and i sat down.
"So, why is everyone so tense?" i asked.
Someone cleared their throat from behind me.
"Miss Hathaway, im certain that you weren't threatening a student, correct?" A certain Russian god asked along with Tasha, i wanted to puke.
"WHAT? I am HURT Dimitri, i know im impulsive, but to put in danger the life of my fellow classmate is ridiculous" i said dramatically.
"Save it, Rose" said the God.
"So what brings you here" i asked.
"Me and Tasha were wondering if You, Adrian, Lissa, Mia, Christian and Eddie wanted to come to the beach with us" shouted Tasha.
Ugh, she makes me sick. Tasha had a pretty face, but her body, well i dont know what Dimitri saw. She was Short and stout, like a teacup.
"The beach? They'll mistake Tasha for a whale and throw her back in" i whispered to Adrian but clearly Dimitri heard.
"What was that Rose? You wanted to stay here? Lovely" he said.
"NOOOO, she'll be good" shouted Lissa.
Damn her.
"I'll be good" i repeated.
"Don't be a party pooper" said Tasha. Im going to break her nose.
"Me a party pooper? I'm a walking holiday, I am so excited cause we are going to see the crocadillies." i said.
"Crocadillies?" asked Dimitri clearly amused.
"Were going to the ocean not a swamp" said Adrian.
"Damn, i wanted to see you play with them" i pouted.
Adrian looked horrified and everyone else looked amused.
"We'll meet back here in 2 hours, whoever isn't here gets left behind" said Dimitri while looking at me.
"I'll be here comrade" i said smiling. I couldn't miss my chance to drown Tasha.
They walked away which caused the table to bust out in giggles about my Tasha the whale comment.
"Please dont be late Rose, im not leaving you here" pleaded Lissa.
There was no way out of this, just my luck. Fuck. We were going to be in the water. That would for sure wipe the concealer off my wrist.
"Hey Liss, would you happen to have some waterproof concealer?" i asked.
"Does the big bad Rose have a huge sit she wants to cover?" said no one other than Christian.
"No, but you'll have a broken nose along with a big black bad bruise you'll want to cover" i said, and he immediately looked down.
"Yeah i do, c'mon lets go get it " said Lissa while tugging at my arm.
Lissa gave me the concealer and i walked back to my room. It's a good thing i brought a Bikini. It was Aqua with lime green cheetah spots and matching undies. I also had some white shorts i could wear with it and a Aqua tank top.
I put on the bikini and then put my shorts and tank top over it and grabbed some sandals.
Fuck, i had less than 10 minutes to get to the cafeteria.
I quickly applied the concealer to my wrist and threw it in my bag just in case, i flew out of my room and was just in time.
Everyone else was already there, Lissa gave me a dirty look, i flashed a smile her way and soon enough Adrian was making comments.
"You are the sexiest person I've ever met Rose" he said while eyeing me up and down.
"And you are the dirtiest pig I've ever laid eyes on" i replied.
"Your words hurt me Rose" he said while drawing a circle around his heart with his finger.
"Enough, Hathaway, Ivashkov, behave and get in the truck" said Dimitri while giving me "the look".
He looked sexy as hell. He had a black wife beater and blue shorts. His muscles were on display just for me. and every other girl out there. ugh.
While we were getting in, Adrian decided to grab my ass. the nerve of him.
"You must not value your life Ivashkov" i shouted.
He was clearly scared by the look i gave him.
"My hand slipped, i swear Rose" he manage to get out.
"I'm going to break your face" i spat.
"You wouldn't, its too pretty" he said.
Lissa caught on and held me back.
"I should sue you for sexual harassment" i said while eyeing Adrian.
"I should sue you for being so sexy" he said while grinning.
Needless to say it was a long ride consisting of me & Adrian bickering, Dimitri and Tasha laughing, Lissa and Christian going goo-goo for each other and Eddie and Mia in their own world.
When i finally saw something that remotely looked like an ocean i screamed "THE BEACH, Thank you lord" and everyone laughed.
I hopped off as fast as i could and got away from Adrian, one car ride was more than enough with him.
"You hurt me Little Ripsi" he said.
"I will hurt you" i said back while sticking my tongue out.
"Do you two ever stop fighting?" asked Lissa clearly annoyed.
"If he were to leave me alone we wouldn't be fighting" i said blaming it on him.
"If she weren't so beautiful id leave her alone" said Adrian defending himself.
"Young love" sighed Tasha.
"Young love my ass" i yelled.
"Language Rose" said Dimitri. I glared at him and said "Why do i always get the blame for everything? You see him harassing me but no its always my fault"
"Ivashkov leave Rose alone or you wont make it back to the academy" said Dimitri to Adrian, i smiled.
"whatever" replied Adrian while rolling his eyes.
"Okay, go have fun today, keep in a distance where i can see you, i expect you to act like mature adults and be responsible" said Dimitri while walking us to the beach.
Eddie, Christian, Mia, and Adrian ran into the water while me and Lissa stayed behind.
"Are you okay Rose?" asked Lissa.
"Yeah, why wouldn't i be?" i replied.
"You know, Mason.." she said quietly.
"ill be fine, have you told the others?" i whispered.
"No, but i think you should, you know we can trust them, and it might help them understand a little bit better" she said with a smile.
"Adrian knows" i said quickly.
"You told him?" she gasped.
"Yeah, he's not a bad guy, just annoying" i said while giggling.
"That he is" she said while taking my hand and walking me to the others.
"Liss, Rose cmon, the water's amazing!" shouted Eddie.
i jumped in and then Lissa, for the first time in a while i felt happy and relaxed. I felt guilty for feeling this way, knowing Mason was never going to be able to do this again.
I tried to push my feelings away but they kept getting stronger. I decided to leave the water and take a little walk.
"Where are you going?" asked Lissa.
"Restroom" i lied.
I walked out of their viewing distance and just looked down. It seemed like with every step i took a new memory of Mason would pop into my head. That's when i felt someone grab my arm.
Tasha. What the hell did she want? She dragged me to the opposite side of the beach where no one was and threw me into a little shed.
"Come here and keep your mouth shut" she said.
"Let go of me bitch" i replied trying to squirm out of her hold.
"Shut Up and sit down" she said while pulling my hair.
"What the hell do you want" i asked while trying to keep calm.
"Now i know why you look so familiar, you're Rose Hathaway, the little teenager for killed her friend in a car accident six months ago" she said while grinning.
"I didnt kill him!" i screamed.
"That's not what the newspapers and people at your school said, i heard you had to drop out, stupid little girl. You're a murderer" she said while slapping me.
"What the fuck is your problem?" i shrieked.
"If you tell anyone about this, i promise you will regret it. I will tell everyone at the academy who you really are and what you did, do you understand idiot" she hissed in my ear.
"Get me out of here" i said while trying to catch my breath.
She pulled me outside and pushed me onto the floor and then ran. How did she know about Mason? Why did she care? What the fuck is this shit? I hate her. Calm down Rose, breathe in, breathe out. Fuck. I need my inhaler. I got up, shook the sand off me, and made my way to the car. By the time i got there it was getting really difficult to breathe, I was panting and shaking. I saw the car and jogged to it as fast as i could.
"Rose whats wrong?" i heard Dimitri say.
"Im..fine..I just..need.. my ..inhaler" i said in between breaths.
He snapped into action and came to me. He pulled out my inhaler from his shorts pocket. He had it with him. Maybe he does care about me, or he just doesnt want to film out a dead person report.
I took the inhaler and stuck it in my mouth. Suddenly the world changed colors. It was all clearer now.
"Thank you for having it with you" i said after catching my breath.
"im not going to let anything happen to you Roza" he said.
Did i hear right? He said RozA? instead of RosE?
"C'mon lets get you back to your friends" he said while tugging my arm.
"Rose are you okay?" She asked while pouncing on me.
"I'm fine Liss" i said while hugging her back.
"We were looking for you, but we didnt see you" said Christian.
"I got distracted and wondered to the other side, im sorry" i said lying.
Lissa eyed me knowing i was lying. Damn her for knowing me so well.
"Rose can i talk to you?" she asked me.
"yep" i said while popping the "p"
"We'll be right back you guys" she shouted to Christian and them.
We found a cute tree with a shade and decided to sit.
"Spill" she said while looking into my eyes.
"Tasha" i said quietly.
"What did she say?" she asked, clearly curious.
"She knows about Mason and threaten to tell the school" i said wanting to just cry.
"WHAT?" squealed Lissa.
"Liss, i need to tell Eddie, Christian, & Mia what happend. I want them to hear from me" i said quietly.
"Lets go" said Lissa.
"Go where?" I replied confused.
"To tell them" she said.
She grabbed my arm and had me at the ocean before i could even reply.
"Hey guys come here" said Lissa while motioning them to the shore.
"What happend?" asked Mia.
"Rose needs to tell you something" she said swiftly.
She motioned us to sit by another tree, she checked that no one was listening or close by and then she sat down.
"Look, i have something really personal to tell all of you with the exception of Adrian and Lissa. I want you to hear it from me instead of someone else" i said trying to gain every ounce of courage i had.
"What is it?" said Mia quietly.
"Yeah what happend?" asked Eddie.
"Spill" stated Christian.
I took a deep breathe and Lissa rubbed circle on my back.
"6 Months ago today, i was in a car accident with my best friend Mason. He was drunk and racing some of his friends. I begged him to pull over but he wouldn't listen. A few minutes into the race a car hit us from the front and then another from the back. I was conscious but in a lot of pain, i looked over and Mason looked horrible. His eyes were closed and he was covered in blood i closed my eyes and took a deep breath. "there was just so much blood, i undid my seat belt and broke a window to get to him. he was choking on his own blood. He told me he loved me and then just died. A woke up in a hospital lost and confused. My nurse told me what happend and i started hyperventilating. They tranquilized me. 2 weeks after that my mom had therapist & physiatrist talk to me about what happend. I would just sit there, i didn't talk, i didn't move.
I went back to school and everyone was calling me a murderer. They said i killed him, that it was my fault. I decided to not go back and instead i was home schooled. I wouldn't sleep or eat for the longest time. It was really killing me. My mom decided she had enough of me so she shipped me to this academy. Even now i still have nightmares. I wake up screaming and crying. I feel like it was all my fault. Like i should have done something. No one at the academy knows. i wanted y'all to hear it from me and not anyone else.
I didnt kill him" i said and then started to cry.
"oh my god Rose, im so sorry" said Mia while leaning in to hug me.
"Rose..i had no idea, im sorry" said Christian.
"You didnt kill him Rose, he obviously loved you, he wouldn't want you feeling like this" said Eddie while holding my hand.
"Thanks guys, i just need you to know all this from me and not someone else, i trust you all enough to tell you, and i hope none of this gets out" i said quietly.
"Whats going on here?" Said Tasha while walking up to us with Dimitri.
I quickly tried to dry my tears without them noticing and Adrian sat beside me and hugged me while i did it.
"I repeat, whats going on here?" Dimitri said this time.
"We were just telling scary stories" said Christian. Nice save.
"Very well, Rose, Tasha said you were being rude to her, what is the meaning on that?" Said Dimitri. I could tell that he didnt want to ask me, she must have guilted him into it. that fucking bitch.
"What are you talking about?" i said clearly outraged.
"Rose, I just love you so much, like a daughter even, and when you called me a bitch, it really hurt" she said while whimpering.
"Thats because you are a bitch" i said while standing up and going face to face with her.
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