BPOV
"Damon?" I ask I wasn't cold so it couldn't have been Edward.
"Who else could it be? Oh wait that's right. Sparkly vamp dude; come on Bella let go hang out." He pulled me towards the door but I pulled away.
"Damon as much as I would love too I can't and you know that. Plus I'm tired I need sleep." I told him.
"What happened to you where's my Bella? The fun one, the one who didn't care about what others think, the one…" I cut him off
"The one who doesn't hurt people, the one who is nothing like Katherine, remember? Damon I don't play with two guys at once you know this I'm with Edward right now and I don't want to hurt anyone. Please don't make me have to." I pleaded with him.
"I get it Bella I do. But I want you to know that I want you back and for real this time. I'm over Katherine and all I want now is my Bella back. I won't give up until I have you back Bella." He stepped closer and leaned in to kiss my forehead and with that he was gone. I let out a deep breath; no one saw that. I ran up to Edward's room and there he was waiting for me in bed.
"What took you so long?" he asked me
"Nothing I was just cleaning up for Esme down stairs." I lied
"Well come on lets go to sleep." He said and smiled as he patted the spot next to him.
"No Edward, I have to clean up take a shower and stuff, 20 minutes tops." I told him and with that left to the bathroom all my stuff was still here from this morning. I turned on the shower and got in to the hot steam.
What is happening to me? I know I love Edward and Edward loves me. Edward and I are the same we work we flow. Edward understands me; and I mean what will happen if I leave him? It would crush him. He never opened his heart to anyone and then he trusted me to with it and I'm just going to leave him? That's just horrible I could never do that to him. And how could I be sure that Damon won't hurt me again that he means what he says. When we finally find Katherine will he still want to kill her or run off with her? But then again I don't want to have a one sided relationship with Edward it just wouldn't be fair to him. I love him but I'm pretty sure I love Damon just as much if not even more. With that being said I formulated a plan.
I Damon really loves me and wants to be with me then he will have to prove himself to me. He will have to prove that he is completely over Katherine and won't leave me for anyone. Only then I will be able to be with him. If he can do this then I will stay with him and will have to figure out some way to let Edward down easy. I only hope that he will forgive me and still want to be friends after; because I don't want to lose the Cullen's friendship.
I turned off the water and got out the shower. I got dressed in Edward's shirt and left the bathroom. Edward was still there waiting on the bed his expression instantly changed when he saw me.
"Have a good shower?" he asked and I nodded climbing into bed next to him under the covers. "Is everything okay?" he asked
"Edward you I love you right?" I asked and he nodded yes. "And you know that if I had it my way I would never hurt you?" now he looked concerned.
"What's going on Bella is it Damon? What has he done now?" he asked angrily
"Edward calm down. Damon hasn't done anything it's just I want you to know that I really do love you and I never want to hurt you. Please always remember that." I told him I leaned in to kiss him long and hard to emphasize my point. "Now let me sleep we have a long day ahead of us." I told him kissed him once more before laying down and snuggling closer towards him. Gosh I really do hope everything works out for the best. If I do end up with Damon it's only because it's my true heart's desire. And if I do let go of Edward then Damon better count his blessings because if he hurts me again I swear to god I'll kill him.
Because I Still Love You
A/N This chapter came a little earlier just because it was so short I wanted to let you know what Bella is thinking before I went any further into the story. Bella is not going to make it easy on Damon. But I will give you guys a little action now and then. Poor Edward has the whole night to think about Bella's words. Next Chapter will be them asking the Cullen's for help and trying to formulate a plan. I will update as soon as I have a chance. Love you Beautiful people.