Return To me
Chapter Ten A New Life
By Inuyashas Youkai
It had been a few weeks since Tommy had seen Toto ever since he had said goodbye. Until today during a recital before lunch, had took him by surprise to see after all this time and with Kouta no less on stage . Her voice coming thru the mic had his complete attention, turning around to find her making her appearance known and then proceeded to mention that because she was leaving next term it would be her last concert. Kotome soon sat sat down in her chair and waited for her partner to count off . It shortly started with . and then Toto began struming the chords,and then Tommy knew who the voice was... Kouta. Kotome played her guitar with Tasou and with her Kouta joined her on the drums, then the gym was her hypnotic voice filling the expanse to echo off the walls. Only smiling to Kouta and Tasou, while she sang Caught myself with glistening stubborn tears ,knowing that soon she would leave them.
"Alright girls for my last If you know it I want you to sing it with me"Toto's voice called out.
Only laughing when she reached the guitar rif that she was leary on doing but through Tommy's eyes saw both Tasou and Kouta cheering her on . Tommy remembered the first time hearing them practice this awhile back after they broke up and she was rough but now she was actually good. When she went for it closing her eyes while she stood in front of the mic center stage with her electric guitar before taking it on and nailing it, causing the crowd to cheer, while she sang.
" Alright Honey! Now take her home" Kouta 's voice yelled out over the crowds screams
" Ya, Blow em away while you have the chance " Cheered Tasou
" You know I love you guys, but just try to keep up before I leave you in the dust" Toto taunted
"Come on Girls I can't hear ya ? Toto cried out before singing "Now when I caught myself , I had to stop myself . I saying something something that I should've never thought off you .Don't know what I want but I know in my heart it's not you.
" Come on Satsuka ,Ren, get up here and sing this with me show em how it's done and like my boys said lets bring her home!" Toto sang her her heart out with the girls joining on either side of her while she continued to play
A pang of jealousy ran through Tommy's frame when he saw the interaction between the two ,and the thought occured to him as to why she was leaving . When the song ended the tears that she tried so hard in holding in fell from her eyes. An oncore was called out for Hey Ya , luckily for him Kouta had told them otherwise that at the time he didn't feel as though Toto was up to all the jumping around. Although suggested another song of his choosing that they had been working on .
Once the crowd settled down everyone was quiet until they heard Kouta after looking at Toto to make sure that she was okay to proceed . Once she gave a definite nod after she repositioned her guitar, Kouta began the countdown ... then quickly Toto's fingers heavily strummed the guitar while Kouta beat the drums and Tasou joined them. Closing her eyes, once again while she sang the words ,the ones that she didn't want to sing because they reminded her of him. The crowd was once again thrilled while Tommy was awed and floored ,while listening to the words. Tears flowed from her eyes and hearing a whistle Kouta gained her attention to come to him. When she made it to him Kouta pulled her to lean up against him ,while he rubbed her back and continuing to rattle heavily on the drums ,while she continued to play and sing.
Tasou soon made it to her side and began to make her laugh in between bars by making goofy faces at her. Soon Toto soon regained herself and stepped away to once again go in center stage with Tasou.
"Do you see what we've done .We are gonna make such fools of did we get here when I used to know you so well I think I know There is something I see you it might kill me I wanted you to be true. " Toto sang her last words then bowed with Kouta making it to her from behind and Tasou hugging her before leading her down stage.
In science class , They were doing a disection of a frog to Toto 's dismay and Kouta as her new lab partner teased her about it. Tommy shook his head with a smirk while he watched them off and on while doing his part in his disection withh his partner. It was until Toto all of a sudden didn't look so well that she ran out of the room because Kouta pretended that the opened up frog was alive and talking to her to ease her stomach that was giving her hell lately. Slowly Kouta followed her letting the teacher now he would be right back .
Tommy wondered what happened and the curiosity had gotten the better of him ,following them out. On the way past his class Satoru noticed that Toto ran to the bathroom ,following with Kouta then his brother. Satoru knowing that a intervention would be soon needed after his brother found out what he left behind when Tommy left her. Satoru used a page from Toto's book to get excuse from class to meet up with the three heading towards the girls bathroom.
When Kouta saw Tommy coming with his brother following closely behind to intercept him.
" Is Toto in there ? " Tommy asked
" She doesn't want to see you Tommy .Why don't you leave her to me to take care of her and go back to the life you left her for. I will help her clean up the mess that you created" Kouta sneered
" Maybe I just want to make sure she's okay then I 'll leave. " Tommy said ignoring Kouta's interruptions to look for the girl
Upon entering to pass one of the stalls Tommy found Toto throwing up in one of them. Coming up beside herto lightly rub circles on her back ,seeing that she relaxed, only to find her body clench when he spoke.
" Hey are you okay? " Tommy softly said
Toto quickly pulled herself together not when she had done so well up to now ,and wasn't going to fall apart. Rising slowly only to push past Tommy to get away from him. It was until not knowing they had a audience , Tommy caught her hand to stop her hand and pinned her against the wall, for her to stop and talk to him.
" Damn Tommy you already broke her heart .Are you trying to kill the baby too?" Kouga yelled before pushing Tommy from Toto .
"What?" Tommy said trying to look at her for a answer but she only had her eyes closed with the tears falling down her face.
" What you didn't know ? When you were a thing claiming that you loved her only to rip her heart out ,you knocked her up and now she's expecting your child " Kouta smugly taunted
Satoru had then decided it was time to intervene and taking Toto out of the the violent atmosphere before Tommy stoodbefore them demading that she talked to him.
" Don't you see Tommy ? It don't matter anymore okay ? Yes I am carrying your child but I don't want nothing from you but for you to leave me alone ! Toto yelled before pushing him out of his way and escape down one of the halls.
"Tommy ,leave her be any stress won't be good for the is why she will be leaving before the end of the semester. "Satoru stated a matter of factly
"Are you telling me that you knew about the baby and you didn't tell me ?Why?"Tommy yelled
"Would it have mattered if we had Tommy you left her and now that you now she is pregnant what are you going to do that isn't already done .Okay she is getting taken care of .." Satoru said before sending Kouta to check on her, while he dealt with his brother
Tommy then took his fist slamming it into the nearby wall, to relive his emotions and only had sorrow left over consuming him,dropping him to his knees.
Satoru's cell vibrated as a text came through his phone letting him know that Kouta got to her and they were leaving slightly,Satoru turned to his defeated looking brother.
" Look Tommy she will be fine alright we all been making sure she's taken care ever since . Though you got to let her go man it's over , it has been since the moment you left ..Take some advice from me lil brother and go back to you life and let the both of you move on. Why don't you go home and get some sleep. " Satoru said while leading him to his car,to drive him home.
Later that night Tommy clicked on his computer hoping that he might find her on ,he felt that he so desperately needed to talk to her . Finding his buddy Miroku in one of the chat rooms and joining to see Setsuka and Toto on as well .
HornyBadAss: Wait Toto please before you log off ,can we talk ?
DeviouslyNaughtyMiko69:(Logoff)
HornyBadAss:Dammit she left anyway.
BallBusterMistress: Well what were you expecting Tommy you left her first ,not only did you break her heart , you ripped it out and stomped on it repeatedly ..What you don't think that she got hurt enough the first time you want to finish the job?
CursedMonk69:Setsuka!
HornyBadAss:It's alright ,Minoru she's right I did do those things ,all of them .I know it the moment I saw it in her eyes after I did it. I know that I am a piece of shit and I live with it everyday of my pathetic life, ever since . I don't want to hurt her anymore, I never did want to hurt her and as bad as I know I have . I know she doesn't want anything to do with me ,and she has every reason not to ..But I have to do something ..
BallBusterMistress:Look if your worried about the baby ,Toto and the baby will be fine . After she has the baby she will come back to join us for Senior year ,she is just going to take the rest of Junior year all have been taking care of her since you left and with Kouta's and Tasou's help we will make sure that she and the baby will get everything they need.
CursedMonk69:Definately
HornyBadAss:Except for what she needed most from the one who abandoned her ,I am sorry I gotta go (Logoff)
Tommy totally destroyed his room before collasping on his bed crying in deep sorrow for the one who he hurt so badly ,one that he knew now that he loved more than life itself. Taking a piece of paper out and scrolling down a letter to her, she had to know how sorry he was ,and how he felt.
Toto,
I know you hate me ,you have every right to because I hate myself right now.I also now you want me to stay out of your life and that's understandable .I wouldn't want to be near me either if I had hurt myself as much as I have hurt you. It might not mean much to you ,but I am so truly sorry for that. You never will know how much on that day after I just upped and left you ,that I destroyed a part of myself .I didn't realize realize it until I did it ,almost right after I did it that I wished that I could take it back. Although I know as I knew it then that nobody could take back or make up for the damage that I had inflicted when I hurt you by leaving you. I could see it in your eyes ,that apart of you died then ,one of most tragic moments of my life . One that I don't care to repeat again because at the same time I felt something tore within myself and since then I haven't been the same ever since . I know there's nothing that I could do to fix what already 's been broken but let me do something .I don't care if you want to yell at me for hours or cry for days I'll let you do it because even though I don't care for either..They have to be so much better then this,and I know I don't deserve anything from you ,not even a response from you. I knew I was nothing special when I got with you but now I realize how much of a piece of shit I am for leaving you.
Tommy
The next day on the way to his home room with his friend Minoru ,Only stopping to kiss the letter and slipping it in her locker before rushing to class. After school Satoro and his brother drove home in silence and pulling into their drive , Tommy defeatedly walked into the house and crashed in his to re awoken by his brother that he had a visitor and that he needed to see her. Opening his eyes to who was standing in his doorway,to see Toto looking back at motioned her over with his hand then stood to stretched hearing the door close behind her when she made her way over to him .Tommy had already sat down back on his bed feeling the tightening in his chest as his heart broke once again,knowing that she was in the room with him and he didn't know what to do. Looking over to see her standing there next to him, he realized that she didn't know what to do either.
Reaching up to lightly grasp her hand ,and looking up into her deep teary chocolate brown eyes with his own .Shakily standing to pull her gently in a light embrace Tommy found that he couldn't fight his tears anymore,and letting them silently fall when she returned it. Toto began to feel Tommy's body shake and made to look at him but his hand gently stopped her entangling his hand into her hair holding her with him for a moment while he shook felt her tears falling down her face as her body seemed to fall into rhythm with his gasping cries. Sinking his head down into her hair ,while he sunk slowly to his knees bringing her along with him,taking a deep breath before speaking .Although Totome bet him to it asking for one request.
" I can't promise you what I can offer you now but for now can you just hold me ?" Toto asked
Without answering her just yet ,Tommy stood to pull her up and then laid in his bed underneath the covers and offered his hand to her.
" Anytime , Come here" Tommy softly called to her when she hesitantly laid her hands into his.
Pulling her into his bed with him and then snuggled her into a loving embrace lightly rubbing circles across her belly,until she fell asleep in his arms. A few hours later Tommy brought back food and drinks for them and was curious of away to wake her when her belly caught his eye. Laying down next to her and placing both hands on either side of her belly before softly talking to the child inside her many kisses on her belly ,Tommy found that Toto had caught him and was at the moment laying her hand on his head to run her fingers thru his hair.
"You hungry, I brought up some dinner so you can eat something?" Tommy asked.
" I could eat,just having the problem of keeping it down " Toto stated
"So I see here eat this ,I think it might help "Tommy returned with the food and drink
After they both ate Tommy had turned on the stereo, laying back against the bed until she finished her second helping which was more than happy to see her eat and keep it she finished she made it back to snuggle against him and his hands made it around her. It was when Tommy rose his hand to lift her face to him.
" Baby doll I know I know I don't deserve this but will you stay with me . Let me take care of you. I still love you very much ,and I know it will take time but I so much would like to do what it takes to have you once again and do anything it takes to keep you this time.I miss you so damn much. Please? Tommy whispered
" Keep holding me like this and we will talk tomorrow since I am staying the night"Toto said before placing a peck on his lips
" Forever ,for as long as you need me " Tommy softly spoke against her lips before taking them into his.
"I love you so much" Tommy sighed pulling tighter into his embrace
" I love you too and I missed you being with me " Toto returned only to snuggle deeper into his chest
"God I couldn't even begin to tell you how much I've missed you in mine Thank you "Tommy lovingly said
"Never Again ,you are stuck with me !" Tommy sighed
"It's the only way I want it.." Toto returned
"Good now time for sleep love,baby needs sleep and so do so when is your last day of school .?" Tommy asked
"It was today " Toto answered
" Alright ,baby go to sleep and I will take care of the rest and bring everything over here to get you settled .Is there anything special that you want me to bring you back on the way home " Tommy asked
"Just you. As long as you come back and continue to take care of me,I will be happy" Toto answered
"Always " Tommy whispered before kissing her forehead
The reunited lovers snuggled happily into the other and it didn't take long before sleep took them ,as long as they had each other the rest of world could crumble around them and they couldn't care less.
TBC...