Disclaimer as always, Stephenie Meyer owns it all, it's not mine :) Oh, and obviously, Moulin Rouge etc is not mine, either.
AN – Tenth chapter, hurrah! I'm aiming to have 29 chapters and an epilogue, so there are currently only 19 chapters to go! So you guys see why I have to make the chapters shorter, right? Again, review and let me know whether you're on Team Jasper or Team Edward?
Nestled in Jasper's arms on the couch, any tears that had been lingering in my eyes had dissipated a while ago. I watched the movie quietly, apart from during the singing parts. During those, Jasper and I sang. But I was aware, the entire time, that it was not a brother and sister's embrace. His cold hand resided on my hip, under my shirt, covering the angry indent his hand had left. It was easy being with Jasper. Yes, he had the thirst, but he didn't shy away from me to keep himself in control like Edward did. There wasn't a constant edge.
"Sing with me, Bella?" He asked, quietly. It was the finale. Come What May. The courtesan and the sitar player's secret love song. The song that was meant to stop him being jealous of the courtesan and the maharajah. How could I refuse Jasper?
Never knew I could feel like this
It's like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart can you hear it sing?
Come back to me and forgive everything!
Seasons may change winter to spring
I love you, 'til the end of time.
Come what may
Come what may
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Jasper smiled at me, and I whispered to him,"You won't get jealous, will you Jasper?"
He shook his head. "No, Bella, I won't. I'll be a good penniless sitar player." He laughed. I laughed too, before I turned my attention back to the screen.
Satine was dying. Before I could stop them, tears began running down my face. Jasper tried to pacify me, sending waves of calm my way, but I couldn't stop them. They ran down my face in a waterfall, cascading down my cheeks and running down my neck. Jasper couldn't wipe them away, they were falling so quickly.
Jasper couldn't understand why I was crying so much because of Satine's death – after all, it was just a movie. But I was crying freely because now that I'd broken down the barrier that I'd put up against my tears, I was sobbing for Edward. I had thought maybe it would be better for him if I just died, ceased to be, so that he could continue living without a heartbeat. He could love Tanya, and Jasper and Alice could be the couple they always had been. One that had stood out since Alice had been changed. One that made everything better for Jasper.
Jasper stopped trying to force the reason for my tears out of me, and just bundled me up in his arms and rocked me back and forth. As the hours passed, I grew more tired. Jasper carried me to Edward's room and tucked me into bed. He left, then. "He doesn't love you Bella. He would have stayed if he did" my subconscious chided. I fell into an uneasy sleep in the early hours of the morning, to be greeted by nightmares.
I was sitting on a boat, and though no one had told me where I was, I knew I was on the coast of France. It shocked me that I was here, considering that France was where Edward and I had decided to spend our belated honeymoon, after he had changed me. I became aware also, that I was a vampire. I was sitting on the rail of the boat, ready to push myself off the side into the murky depths. I recognized the sickening pain in my chest. Edward had left. The wound was raw, and it hurt more than it had the last time. My cell phone beeped a warning in my pocket, I assumed that it was Alice, telling me not to do it. But I didn't care. Vampire or no vampire, I needed to kid myself that I was drowning again. Though Jacob wouldn't be there to save me this time. Jacob, Jasper, Edward...why did I have any of them? I didn't deserve anyone, let alone 3 amazing people. I jumped from the rail, and hit the icy cold water.
I woke up, gasping for air. It was still night time. I stood up, and walked to the window-wall. The dark expanse of trees was almost frightening – what was out there? A flash of brilliant white sped across the trees, and they began falling. I strained my groggy eyes, and looked closer. Jasper. Jasper was out in the black forest, breaking trees down. I watched him for a while, in wonder. Then, he fell. The trees he'd impaired fell down around him as he sat on the floor, up against a tree that he hadn't torn apart. He held his face in his hands, and tucked his legs up against his body. I felt a wave of pain shake through me, and I gasped. Jasper's eyes flicked up in seconds, to meet mine. He didn't move, and neither did I. He sat on the ground outside, staring up at me.
I fell asleep at some point, sitting by the window. I woke up the next morning, back in bed. I had probably dreamed seeing Jasper tearing down trees. Sure enough, I walked to the window, and everything was as it should have been. I stole a look at the clock. 12:00. The Cullens were coming home.
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