hello again people! I had a lot of fun writing this chapter, it was difficult :/ but here it is. I'm cutting short the story, shorter than i initially plotted it out cuz of my sem exams and projects. Updates may be slower and i apologize for that. its a real bitch keeping up with work here. Anyway i hope you enjoy the chapter. Please don't hate me for it T.T and lemme know if I've made mistakes.

CHAPTER 10

You make a beeline straight to the Captain's door and knock gently twice. "Come in" you hear his voice and you enter and see the Captain facing the window and looking out with his back turned towards you. The fading sunlight bathes him in an orange glow and you stare trying to memorize how soft and peaceful his profile looks.

"I expected you much later..." he says without turning back

"The Commander caught me... but he let me go.." you trail away

"Captain, thank you.. i don't know why you did it but you have my gratitude"

"I didn't do it for your gratitude brat" he finally turns and looks at you. "Were you spying on the Commander for someone or is it a personal agenda?"

You owe the Captain an explanation for sticking his neck out for you so you end up telling him the entire story including how you ended up owing Hanji the favour. Not that you want to but you know he would question you till you revealed everything, so why prolong the inevitable? You'd just made it through a tough situation just a bit shaken, so you tempt fate a bit more.

"So you're telling me... that a bunch of unsupervised teenagers consumed alcohol... under my watch...?! And you are to blame?" he says in a dangerously low voice

"Not exactly... you were drunk and it was not your responsibility...The alcohol...and..." you notice his gradually narrowing eyes trained at you like a predator

"And? Go on" he prompts silkily

"And I have to go Captain...Commander's orders to relay a message" you fib so you can escape

"You are a terrible liar you know" he tells you unmoved by your attempt

"I am actually a very good liar... you just look really scary right now Captain"

"I am one step away from burying you under a fucking rock so none of your hare brained schemes will see the light of day ever again"

"well no one ended up hurt Captain.. why are you so mad anyway?"

"what if someone did get hurt? Would you have taken the responsibility?"

"Yeah.. if it came to that i would have. But i made sure no one got more than a cup" you try to explain in a calm voice

"so you think it excuses the fact that you did something so fucking stupid"

You don't know why the Captain is getting so worked up when nothing happened that night. You took every precaution to make sure everyone got enough to only get mildly tipsy. You feel a nerve pulse on your forehead and you say the first thing that comes to you mind.

"damn...you really have a stick up your ass"

"now you are starting to sound exactly like that soul sucking harpy"

"I'm sure she would appreciate you calling her that"

"I don't give a fuck about what Hanji feels"

The Captain folds his hands to his chest and leans against the desk. "You'll move your things to the dungeons and occupy a cell as your punishment. You will stay there indefinitely"

"What?! Isn't that overkill Captain? I mean that's too much. The dungeons are filled with rats and cockroaches. It's disgusting!" your voice sounds suspiciously whiny even to you and you hate yourself for it but rats and insects rate high on your 'Must avoid at all cost' list.

"Don't worry, you can always call out to Eren, i'm sure he would jump to your rescue" he makes a disgusted face

"Oh is this what it's about now Captain? Eren?" you ask angrily

"I don't have the plague and I won't end up hurting your precious Titan" you snap at him and turn away heading for the door. You don't know why every conversation has to turn into some sort of confrontation with Levi. You yank open the door only to feel the Captain slamming it back into place before you even get halfway to opening it. He grabs the sides of your arms and turns you over pushing you with your back against the door roughly.

"Who said I was done talking to you?" he enunciates each word slowly and softly and it gives you the impression of a coiled snake.

If the situation wasn't so dire you would laugh at how familiar this feels. Only the last time, you were pinned to his dresser this way, the circumstances were the same though. Really mad Captain Vs scared you.

"What do you feel about Eren?" he asks tightening his hold on you

You wince in pain, "Why? You like him Captain? Didn't know you swung that way but I'm not judging you"

His eyes open wide in horror "You think I.. Eren?"

You just blink up at him without a word. His lips twist into a humorless smile and you realize you've pushed him over the edge.

"You like playing games with me don't you? I'll show you just how fucking dangerous it is to play so close to fire" he says in the same soft and menacing tone.

Before your mind registers it, he leans in fast and you feel his lips pressed against you cold and unfeeling but hurting you all the same. His tongue pries apart your lips and forcefully makes its way into your mouth making you feel violated and angry. You try and push against his chest but it yields no results, you'd have better luck trying to push a boulder. "This isn't how it's supposed to be, it's so wrong" you think. Anger and hurt drives you to sink your teeth into his lower lip hard enough to draw blood. The Captain pulls away and looks at you in shock breathing hard.

"I deserved that, I'm sorry (name)" he looks at you with so much sorrow clouding his beautiful features. "I couldn't... I got so angry... I shouldn't have."

"I should slap you at the least for that Levi" you say without even using his title of authority.

"Yeah.. you should" and he waits for you to which kind of makes you feel like laughing at the absurdity of the situation. But instead you reach out and put your hands at the nape of his neck and draw him in which surprises him. You gently lick away the blood on his lip and you hear him taking in a sharp breath. You look up into his worried eyes that shine with a question "why?"

"Cuz i'm stupid and i still like you" you say softly. His expression changes to that of gratefulness and he wraps his arms around your waist and dips his head to kiss you.

"Wait!" you put your finger to his lips. He looks at you in mild confusion and you smile up at him mischievously, "on your desk"

He looks at you incredulously and chuckles, "enterprising brat". The he sweeps you off your feet and picks you up and plants you on his desk in one smooth motion. "Better?" he asks face inches from yours and looking at your lips with half lidded eyes which you find extremely sexy. He brings his lips to yours and this time he kisses you like a lover, warm and sweet. His lips move against yours slowly and achingly sweet it almost makes you want to cry. His tongue licks your lower lip mimicking what you did and it sends a jolt of pleasure through you. Then it gently pressures your lips and you part them welcoming it into you. You tentatively lick his tongue and he makes a sound like a groan and it encourages you further explore these new sensations. Your senses are overwhelmed with the taste and smell of the Captain. He smells like cinnamon and smoke to you, a pleasant combination that intoxicates you. His mouth moves to your ear lobe which he licks and peppers a trail of kisses down your neck and to your open collar. His fingers coax your buttons open and he licks through the thin material of your bra and it sends you on a crazy ride of pleasure. His left hand cups you and his thumb gently rubs the nub that hardens at his touch.

"You thumb should be awarded or something" you say with a shaky voice

"Shut up and enjoy it brat" he says while kissing your shoulder. He slides the strap off one side while kissing you on your bare shoulder and slides the other side off too and unhooks the bra. You aren't exactly a prude but with the Captain gazing at your naked skin, you blush crimson and make a move to cover up.

"Don't" he catches your hands and looks into eyes, "you look really lovely, especially when you are blushing like that. You should do that more instead of making angry faces all the time."

"It's you who always makes me ang-" he seals your lips with another kiss and you close your eyes and kiss him back. He presses his body against yours moulding you to him and you instantly feel his erection. His hand travels down to your trousers and he unbuttons it which sends you into a flurry of panic.

"Er Captain, i..i don't think i'm ready for that" you stammer apologetically because you really aren't ready. It's a big step!

He sighs theatrically, "This is what i get for trying to get it on with a kid"

"You damn fossil, thank your lucky stars you get to touch someone as young as me and satisfy your pedo urges" you reply flippantly

"Now that really hurts brat"

This makes you laugh hard. "Aren't you going to run away now Captain? Scared like always after touching me?"

"No. I've come to terms with my feelings"

"You have feelings for me that aren't of hostility, anger or irritation? you ask sarcastically while counting them down on your fingers

"yeah that pretty much sums it up"

"I need a better explanation Captain" you reply

"put on your shirt first, its distracting" he frowns

"help me with it Captain" you get off the desk and walk over to him

You nuzzle his neck and take in the rich scent of Levi. You give the Captain a hickey high on his neck while he gets distracted fumbling with your bra strap.

"You really suck at this" you tell him

"I don't know why women even bother with it" and he manages to hook it in

"This feels unreal, like i'm dreaming Captain. The fear that you'll shut yourself off from me lingers despite your assurance"

"Sigh! Like i said, I've come to terms with my feelings. It's a losing battle trying to deny it. Especially when you flirt around with Eren" he looks down sadly

"Why does that upset you so much? Am i such a repulsive person you would rather not associate with me?" you ask

"Look at us brat, I'm older, a lot older and your Captain." he looks away with a blackness in his eyes that seems to reach his very soul. "I have a duty to perform, people rely on me with their lives and i cannot play with that responsibility. I cannot afford to get distracted when every decision i make affects the lives of many men. I don't want to hesitate and question my judgement when you ride into battle with me. Feelings don't count in the equation, they are not supposed to. This is my reality."

In that moment, you get a glimpse of the Captain no one gets to see. A fragileness like a thin thread of crack running through a stone. A small crack but one that reaches his heart. And you wonder just how many he has for all the years of watching people die under his command.

You'd like to say more, so many things you want to tell him but you realize how right the Captain is and how fucked up everything could get because of your selfishness "I understand Captain" you reach up and cup his face gently and kiss him lightly on his lips. "We'll just go on with life like we have to, good night then" and you leave Levi looking like a broken person but you know its Levi, "he wont stay down for long because unlike me he knows whats important". You feel like you've left a piece of your soul in his office, something you might never get back.

"A burden, I hate that the most and I refuse to be one to anybody" you square your shoulders and head off to Hanji's office to report the events that led to your discovery.