Hey guys! So sorry I haven't updated in forever! Just haven't really felt the want to write or anything. Things have been a little tough around my home right now. I moving away two years before I graduate! So I'm leaving all my friends and just not a good couple of months. But I figured that maybe writing would help take my mind off of things. Well here you go!
I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS!
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BPOV:
"Bella. Bells. Bella baby wake up." I heard Jake's voice and slowly opened my eyes. I saw him staring deep into my eyes and smiled and stretched out all my muscles. "Have a nice nap babe?" He asked me and I smiled up at him and nodded.
"Yes I did. Thank you for letting me sleep. It's been a long day." I told him and he smiled down at me.
"Well, don't thank me just yet. I lost track of time and your parents are probably going to be pissed that you're not home yet." He told me and I shot up and looked at my phone to see that is was almost 3 in the morning.
"Jake! Oh shit! Jake I gotta get home! They are going to kill me!" I yelled as I jumped up and gathered all of my stuff and ran for the car. Jake followed and quickly drove me back to the house.
"Goodnight Bella. I love you." He told me as he leaned over and kissed me gently.
"Night Jake. I love you too." I replied after I kissed him back and then jumped out of the car and quietly snuck inside the front door. A light switched on just as I was sneaking up the stairs and I closed my eyes and groaned.
"You're up awful late." Edward said and I sighed in relief, glad it wasn't Esme or Carlisle.
"Oh Edward you scared me!" I told him quietly and he sighed and hung his head. I sighed and walked back down the stairs.
"Ummm, can we talk?" He asked me nervously and I smiled reassuringly at him and nodded, taking his hand and pulling him into the living room. I sat down on the couch and he followed suit, sitting next to me. "Bella, I need to ask you something and I need you to just be honest with me. I need you to not get upset and just be completely honest with me ok?" He told me.
"Edward I promise." I told him and he sighed and looked up at me and I could see the sadness in his eyes.
"Bella, are you sure you want to go through with this? I mean I know you love Jacob and I know you guys have been together for a long time. I just, I can't help but feel this is a little rushed. I mean Bells, you're only eighteen. That's a little young to get married don't you think?" He told me and I took a deep breath before answering.
"The only thing I am sure about is that I love him. But that is enough for me. I know we are young and I know it seems rushed, but life is short. If anything that is one thing my parents taught me. I don't want to end up like my mom, married to someone I don't truly love. But I also know that I truly love Jacob and I know that he truly loves me. He put me back together Edward. I was so broken when I came back here and he put me back together. I mean don't get me wrong you and your family definately helped. But he played a big part in that and because of that, I just feel like he will always be there for me and I can trust him." I explained and Edward groaned and ran his hands through his messy hair.
"Do you really want to commit to spending the rest of your life with someone just because you trust them?" He asked me.
"I don't know Edward. I just feel like this is the right decision for me as of right now." I told him and he nodded and leaned back, closing his eyes and rubbing his temples. "Hey," I said as I rubbed his arm comfortingly, "everything is going to be ok, alright?" I told him.
"I hope so." He told me and I sighed.
"I need you Edward. I can't do this on my own. I need my best friend. Please." I pleaded with him and he looked up at me.
"You're absolutely positive you want this?" He asked me and I nodded my head. "Then I'm here. Whatever you need Bells, I'm here." He told me as he pulled me into a hug. I melted into the hug and felt myself calm in Edward's arms.
"Thank you Edward. Thank you so much." I told him after we pulled apart.
"You don't need to thank me Bella. It is my duty as your best friend to be here for you and make sure you are happy no matter what. If you marrying Jacob and me being a part of it is what is going to make you happy then I am all in. One hundred percent. I swear to it." He told me and I smiled at him and laid my head down on his lap. He began gently stroking my hair and I felt myself relax.
"I still am so thankful for everything you have done for me Edward. It means alot to me. You have to know that." I told him as I looked up at him and smiled. He plastered a fake smile on his face and I knew that we would have to talk everything out eventually but for now I was exhausted of fighting with Edward. I didn't want to do it anymore tonight and his fake happiness for me was enough for the moment.
"I know Bella. I would do anything for you. Absolutely anything. You know that." He told me as he looked down at me and a genuine smile crossed his face. I smiled back, feeling the familiar warmth of everything that was Edward surround and comfort me.
"I know. And I absolutely adore you for it." I told him as I turned back over and got comfortable on his lap as he began to play with my hair again.
"Ditto." He whispered down to me and I smiled and giggled slightly. "Sleep Bella. Sweet dreams sweetheart. I'll be right here when you wake up." He whispered down to me as he began to hum an unfamiliar tune. I gave up trying to figure it out and let the darkness overcome me. It was a little crazy how one little promise from my best friend has comforted me so greatly I felt at home.
When I woke up I was in my own bed with just a vague memory of the night before. I smiled as I stretched all my muscles out and glanced at the clock. I saw that it was only seven thirty, time for my usual morning run. I started running as soon as the doctor gave me the all clear after I moved back to Forks with the Cullens. It helped me to channel all of my anger and energy so it didn't "eat me alive" as Alice has so kindly put it. I got up, ran a brush through me hair before putting it in a ponytail, and threw on my running clothes and shoes. I grabbed my Ipod and earphones and turned on the familiar playlist full of the rock music I listened to while I ran. I went downstairs and out the front door and quickly stretched out the muscles in my legs. I began a slow jog on the trail I took every morning and gradually began to increase my speed. By the end of the run when I was about a little more than a quarter mile from the house, I was full out sprinting. I felt the familiar burning in my thighs and just pushed myself harder until my legs were just numb. I slowed as I got to the house and tried to get my breathing in check. I continued to walk in big circles in front of the house with my hands on my head until my breathing was completely normal. I went inside and grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and slowly took small sips so I wouldn't get a cramp.
"Goodmorning Bella. Did you have a nice run?" Carlisle asked as he came into the kitchen and poured himself a cup of coffee.
"Yes I did. Thanks for asking." I replied.
"Would you like some?" He offered me some coffee.
"Oh no thanks. Caffine addiction. Been there, done that. Not one of my highlights." I told him and he chuckled. "I'll stick to my water." I said as I took another sip.
"Smart choice dear." He replied and we both laughed. I hopped off the barstool I was sitting on and went to look through the fridge.
"What do you think everyone wants for breakfast?" I asked him and he chuckled.
"Bella, no need to butter everyone up. No one is angry with you for skipping out on us last night." He told me and I whirled around in shock, not knowing what to say.
"Fine, no breakfast for you." I told him as I shoved him playfully and walked by.
"Rude!" He yelled back at me and I laughed as I went back upstairs to my room. My room, along with Edward's and Emmet's, was on the second floor of the house. There was also a guest bedroom and a gameroom along with an extra bathroom. Alice's, Jasper's, and Rosalie's rooms were on the third floor along with Edward's music room. Esme and Carlisle's bedroom was on the bottom floor along with the kitchen, living room, another gameroom, and two more bathrooms. There was also a basment which the Cullen's had turned into a home theatre that was absolutely amazing. I went up to my bedroom, one of the biggest rooms in the house next to Esme and Carlisle's, and went to my bathroom. I turned the shower on to let it warm up and closed the bathroom door. I took of my sweaty clothes and threw them into the dirty clothes hamper. I let my hair down and stepped into the shower carefully. I felt my tense muscles relax under the spray of the warm water. I washed my hair and body clear of any and all sweat and when I was all squeaky clean, I turned the water off and carefully stepped out of the shower. I dried off with a big, fluffy, white towel and wrapped myself in my big, fluffy, blue robe. I went out of the bathroom into my huge, walk-in closet. The closet was more to shut Alice up, but I had to admit, I really had come to love the thing. I picked out a pair of long, light blue, skinny jeans and a black, v-neck, long sleeved shirt. I picked out a blue tank top to go underneath it. I grabbed my pair of fluffy socks and my black uggs and went to lay everything out on my bed. I went back into the bathroom and plugged in my blow dryer and straightener. I blow dried my hair and sighed at the frizzy mess it created. I straightened it in about thirty minutes and let out a breath of relief when I was finished. I put on my usual light makeup and when I was finished, I unplugged everything and put it all away. I turned the light in the bathroom off and went back into my room. I closed my bedroom door and went to my dresser to pick out a plain black bra along with matching black boy shorts. I got dressed quickly before I looked in the full length mirror in my bedroom. When I deemed myself ready for the day I quickly made my bed and cleaned up the rest of my room before I turned the light out and headed back downstairs. By now it was about nine thirty and my stomach was making loud annoying noises from hunger. I walked past the living room and saw Rose and Alice curled up on the couch next to Jasper and Emmet.
"Morning Bella!" Emmet yelled out at me as I passed him on my way to the kitchen and I rolled my eyes and laughed.
"Goodmorning Emm." I said back as I continued into the kitchen. I saw Edward sitting at the counter drinking some orange juice and eating a bowl on Captain Crunch. I scrunched my nose at the thought of the flavor of the combo and Edward laughed when he saw my face.
"Don't knock it unless you try it first." Edward said teasingly as he so oftenly did.
"Just the thought makes me want to throw up." I told him as I made gagging noises and then laughed.
"Very attractive Bells." He said mockingly and I playfully shoved his arm as I poured myself a bowl of Captain Crunch, minus the orange juice, and sat down next to him to eat. We sat in silence for awhile, just eating, before the rest of the gang came into the kitchen. Alice went and poured herself another cup of coffee and Rose grabbed a protein bar from the cabinet and tossed it to Emmet.
"Awh Rosie! This shit is nasty! Can't I have some pancakes or bacon or something?" He begged and she rolled her eyes as she took the bar back and started eating it herself.
"Whatever Emmet. You eat whatever you want. Hope you enjoy burnt pancakes because you can't cook for shit." She told him and we all laughed at the truth behind her statement.
"Well, I was hoping Bella Boo would cook something up for me? Maybe some of her delicious chocolate chip pancakes with some bacon and sausage and some eggs." Emmet said as he rubbed his stomach and looked at me in hope.
"Emm, I'm not really in the mood to cook right now. Besides, everyone else has probably already eaten and I am not cooking for just you. Especially all that food." I told him as I squeezed past him to wash by bowl and put it away.
"Please BellieBean." He begged as he looked at me with a puppydog look in his eyes.
"Emmet she said no. Stop being so pathetic. You can have cereal or something." Rose said as she went to pour him a bowl of cereal. Emmet was just so helpless. She sat him down at the table and gave him his cereal and he grinned like a baby who just had chocolate for the first time. "Now eat." Rose ordered and we all laughed. She rolled her eyes and put the box of cereal back into the pantry.
"I don't know what he would do without you Rose." Edward said and we all agreed.
"Yeah well I don't know what I would do without the big goofball either." She said as she ruffled his hair and pecked his cheek with a light kiss. Me and Alice 'Awwed' and Edward and Jasper just smiled.
"So what is the plan for today?" Alice asked and we all looked around in confusement.
"The plan?" I asked her and she rolled her eyes.
"Yes the plan. Are we going to hang out today or are we all going to do our seperate things?" She asked. I shrugged my shoulders.
"Well, me and Emm don't have anything planned today. I was just going to lay out by the pool. Not very often you get a nice day like this in Forks." Rose said and we all agreed.
"That sounds good to me. Jazzy you in?" Alice said and he smiled and wrapped his arms around Alice's tiny waste.
"Do you even have to ask me Darlin?" He asked her and then bent down to kiss her gently. She smiled when the broke apart and turned back to face the rest of us.
"Good, so me and Jazz are in. What about you guys?" She asked as she looked at me and Edward.
"I'm in!" Edward said happily and I laughed at his excitement.
"That just leaves you Bells. You in or you got something better to do?" Rose said and I rolled my eyes.
"I guess I can run errands later. I'm in too." I told them and smiled. This was just the beginning of what was going to be a great day.