OH MY GOD GUYS, I'M SO SORRY!
REAL LIFE IS A BITCH AND I HAD A SHITLOAD OF PERSONAL PROBLEMS!
I couldn't upload anything, I couldn't write anything, but now I'm back :D
Buuuuuut, sorry to say, final exams are comming up and I haven't studied one bit. Well, all I have to study is some math shit and Health and Nutrition and normally it would be not that much, but I have to study stuff from over one and a half year and shit just got real. I ONLY HAVE FIVE WEEKS LEFT! FIVE!WEEKS! It scares the LIVING SHIT OUT OF ME!
But here I am and I'll upload the last three chapters of "Of Fathers and Sons" and I may upload a new story today, a soulmate AU with top!Bilbo and HalfElv!Bilbo.
See ya :D
Chapter 9
"Frodo Baggins, where have you been? I was looking for you all over the place!" Bilbo said and glared at Frodo. Frodo looked at him sheepishly and said: "Well, er... I had a little talk you know. From Father to son you know... I'm confused now, you know."
Bilbo could see that Frodo was struggling with something.
"Father told me the whys and things and all the stuff that happened when he chased you away..." Frodo said and sat down beside his papa.
"Oh well... So...you have no problems saying Father to him?"
"Hmm it still feels strange and I'm still a bit mad, but I kind of understand him. Even I could see that he really regrets his mistakes and would do anything to erase them. He missed you. He just felt betrayed and I don't really understand, but he looks so sad..." Frodo tried to explain.
Bilbo was lost in thought after that. Frodo watched him carefully.
"You know Papa, I think you should go to him, talk to him. Sort things out, you know!" Frodo grinned and shoved his papa out of their chambers. Bilbo was a bit overrun but soon he found himself in front of Thorin's room, Frodo grinning behind him.
"I guess I should have wrapped you in some kind of paper and presented you like a present!" Frodo grinned mischievously and knocked at the door. As soon as the door openend, Frodo shoved Bilbo into Thorin's arms and made a run for it, yelling: "HAVE FUUUUUUN!"
"That blasted child. There I was and thought what a respectable kid you have and then something like this happens..." Bilbo murmured and looked up to Thorin. He looked equally surprised at the change of events.
Thorin let go of Bilbo, and Bilbo cleared his throat before saying:" So I heard you and Frodo had a little talk?"
"Uhm... yes, we had a littl talk...about...things, you know..." Thorin said and scratched the back of his head.
"You are just like Frodo. He always scratches the back of his head when he is nervous. And all this 'you know'..." Bilbo mumbled and looked to the ground.
"Well, I am his other father after all. But he seemed to have forgiven me. At least for now..." Thorin said and motioned for Bilbo to sit down on one of the armchairs near the fire.
"Well, one mistake from your side and you can be sure that he will be mad until you gave him some kind of present." Bilbo chuckled.
"I gave him a dagger. It's an old tradition. By Aule did he just forgive me because I gave him a present?" Thorin asked worriedly.
"No. I can assure you that's not why he forgave you. Frodo might not seem like it, but when he decides to use his head, he's actually kind of smart. He is special. All his carefree attitude and his cheering nature are good acting. He actually is a very sensitive boy. He knows that you are truly sorry and he can understand you to some point." Bilbo said an sighed heavily.
"Where there any problems while rising him?" Thorin asked concerned but also curious.
"Oh there were a few accidents. Sometimes he would become very strange. He would sit outside for hours, staring into nowhere. His daily routine where sleeping, eating, and brooding when he was in this mood. Legolas certainly helped him, but sometimes Legolas wasn't enough. Sometimes even I wasn't enough. Frodo would get kind of depressive and wouldn't talk for weeks. Gandalf told us why... It was because something was still missing in Frodo's heart. You." Bilbo murmured and he looked down on the ground again. But he wasn't finished.
"But the older he got, the fewer were those periods. We thought it was finally over, but when this times actually do hit sometimes, they were much worse. But you will never guess who helped Frodo through this times and could actually do something to make him smile." Bilbo grinned mischievously. Thorin had a bad feeling about this... He choked down his pride and said: "I think I should...th-thank Thandruil then."
"Haha, good guess, but it wasn't Thandruil! It was a little white Warg baby he found in the woods. Right now, Teddie is with Radagast, but he will return soon."
"Are you serious? He found a Warg baby and adopted it?" Thorin said, flabbergasted. Bilbo nodded gently, but then his face darkened again.
"It was helping yes, but there were times were he and Frodo would disappear for days and when they returned they would both look so utterly lonely. Like if they sought sometihing but didn't find. I guess Teddie was looking for his mother, but I bet that Azog's white Warg killed Teddie's mother after she gave birth. Female wargs are rare, because they are more gentle than the males. The males kill them, after they give birth. But Teddie is different, he is the most gentle creature I've ever encountered. He has a deep bond with Frodo." Bilbo said.
"It is good for him to have such a good companion, even if it is a Warg of all things. But how have you been?" Thorin asked.
"Well, I couldn't sink into depression. I had Frodo to take care of and young Legolas couldn't help out all the time. Still, there were many nights where I thought about the how's and why's and I got so desperate. But I had to pretend like nothing bad ever happened. Like I said, Frodo is very sensible around others." Bilbo had to stop there. All the memories were threatening to come back to the surface.
"There were times where Legolas had to take Frodo away, because I couldn't handle my feelings anymore. I would have a breakdown and I would be out for a few days..." Bilbo murmured. That wasn't true. Bilbo would lose every common sense during that times. It isn't easy for people who get rejected by their mates.
Thorin knew that too, and he knew the consequences when a mate rejected his other mate. Bilbo must have suffered badly.
"Listen to me Bilbo. I can't make up for the lost time, but you must believe me when I say I am sorry!" Thorin exclaimed and took a hold of Bilbo's hands.
"I never meant to reject you. The gold lust, this damned curse, took over and clouded my mind and heart. I'm sorry, I know that's no excuse, but I missed you. As soon as you left my heart was beating in agony! But there was this little voice inside my head, the voice of the gold lust, who told me that I made the right decision. That you betrayed me. Too late did I notice that I was the one who betrayed you. I can never forgive myself for what I've done to you and Frodo." Thorin said and Bilbo was shocked to find a lonely tear running down Thorin's face. He stared at him in shock, but finally, all clicked together.
Thorin was here, he was actually here, and he had apologized. He did care for him and Frodo and he regret his decision to throw Bilbo out of Erebor. HE came all the way here, without asking questions and apologized and tried to made up for all those years. He was sitting in front of Bilbo, crying, CRYING of all things and Bilbo felt his heart melt once again. He had heard from the curse, from this terrible gold lust, and he found that he couldn't even blame Thorin that much for loosing control. Thorin wasn't in his right mind there and Bilbo understood fully now.
"It's allright." Bilbo said, his voice raspy, and slowly but surely he got closer to Thorin, until they made in a bone crushing embrace.
"I'm sorry..." was all that Thorin whispered, over and over again, still crying, and Bilbo sobbed too and hugged Thorin even tighter and kissed his neck, the only place he could reach.
Then, finally, Thorin's lips found his and they were kissing the sweet kiss of lovers reunited. It was wet and messy, because both lost control there for a moment, but it was wonderful.
Somehow Bilbo ended up in Thorin's lap, and they were still kissing, though this time more passionate.
"Gods how I missed you..." Thorin breathed in between to kisses and Bilbo could just hum and press himself closer to Thorin.
"I don't want you and Frodo to leave my side ever again... I love you Bilbo..." Thorin murmured and pulled Bilbo tighter to his chest. Bilbo listened to the thunderous heartbeat of Thorin and he knew that his heart was beating equally fast. Bilbo straddled Thorin and slung his arms around his neck to be closer.
"Careful my burglar... If you straddle me like that, I am afraid I can't control myself any longer..." Thorin growled and nipped at Bilbo's neck. Bilbo shuddered and said: "And who said that I want you in control?"
"Don't you think it's too soon? You just forgave me..." Thorin whispered worried, but he couldn't quiet stop himself from sucking in the tip of Bilbo's ear.
"I've waited eighteen years Thorin... Eighteen years of longing, and do you know how strange it feels to have a wank when you stay at an elven's place?" Bilbo moaned and to unbutton Thorin's tunic. Thorin actually snorted at that comment.
"You don't have to wank anymore, my precious little burglar... Unless I want you to do it..." Thorin growled and picked Bilbo up to carry him to the bed...