I want you to know that when I leave
It'll be the last you'll ever see of me
I tried so damn hard to fix you
To make you believe in what I see
If you want to be broken, be broken
I won't dare try to mend you again
I've tried my best to get through
But there's no getting in
After a long 23 hour flight with a six hour delay the plane finally landed in my destination, I got my luggage and into a cab giving the address, I just laid my head closing my eyes, I don't know what to do or where to go from here, but at least im free of him.
Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote
Mean while back in England-
Mark just got done telling randy Adam,john and Amy what Shane had done to Sam, what he thought happened to her last night, and he was even more furious when randy told him about sams face, the bruises and the huge gash on the side.
How she flinched when he hugged her, randy felt the anger boiling in him, how could anyone hurt a women alone like that but much less Sam, she was a sweetheart she didn't fuck with anyone.
"Fuck it" randy said getting up and storming out on a mission, mark just nodded knowing what he was going to do, mark planned on it but out of the arena.
Randy stormed down the hall he knew Shane was with Paul in stephanies office, he slammed open the door, grabbing Shane throwing him against the wall and hitting him.
"Randy stop it!" Stephanie yelled frantically Paul just sat there knowing, watching his wife try to pull randy off of what she thought was her innocent brother, randy kept hitting him repeatedly.
"Paul stop him!" Stephanie screamed, Paul sighed getting up pulling randy off of him.
"Enough man his had enough" Paul said calmly, randy shook his head.
"Did SAM beg you to stop huh? Did she cry!" randy screamed trying to get around Paul.
"Man stop SAM doesn't want this"Paul said, randy sighed just nodding as he walked out Stephanie stopped him.
"I don't know what the hell she told you but that's no excuse to come and beat my brother like that your suspended imadadalitly without pay for a month!" she said, randy smirked his evil smirk {but its so sexy :)) "Gladly steph, and she didn't tell me shit, I saw her with my own eyes" he told her and nodded to Paul walking out of the little room, Shane on the floor covered in blood. Stephanie looked to Shane and back to Paul.
"What is he talking about?" she asked helping Shane up
"Why don't you ask your precious brother" Paul said walking out of the room.
BACK TO SAM
[Verse 2:]
I tell myself that this time
Something's going to change
That you'll look into my eyes
And your heart will fall in place
I paid the cab driver and got out, my sister there hugging me tightly I just closed my eyes willing myself not to cry, sunglasses still covering my face, my two older brothers got my bags and we headed inside.
I sat outside with just me and Morgan my sister, I told her everything, I just stared at the pool feeling completely numb "How did I end up like this?" I whispered, she put her arm around me hugging me.
"Sweetie this isn't your fault shanes a sick man, in the morning we're going to go and get you some divorce papers, you can stay here as long as you need" she said, I just nodded, Morgan sensing I needed some time to myself got up and hugged me then walked inside, I felt my phone vibrating I looked at it seeing marks number, I didn't know what to do answer or not, I want to cut this entire world out of my life.
Well you need space
Darling, you're such a headache
I'm not sure
How much I can take
I sighed knowing I cant resit mark "Hello" I said
"Darlin are you okay?" he asked sounding worried, I closed my eyes nodding my head, I cleared my throat.
"Uh yea im fine, whats up? Do you need something?" I asked
"You don't have to be tough with me darlin" he said
"Nor for you mark, its for me, I cant be in this world any more, im sorry" I told him.
"do you know how much everyone here loves you? Randy just got suspended for a month for beating the shit out of Shane, he might be fired" mark said, I closed my eyes, I didn't want for this to happen "Now I know that's not something you wanted to happen, but we love you and we'll protect you, Stephanie guarantees your job" he said, I shook my head.
"I cant im sorry please mark for me please lose my number" I said and hung up, I stood up and tossed my phone in the pool.
[Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote
When I go, I won't be back
Don't ask me for
A second chance
No, that's all I wrote
"Well that's not good" Greg my oldest brother said coming out of the house
"Yea I realized that after I did it" I told
"Eh fuck it we'll get you a new one tomorrow why don't you just go in your room and sleep' he said, I nodded, that's what I love about Greg no questions his just there, he gave me a hug.
I laid down on my old bed,i couldn't believe I was back here back in my old childhood home living with my family again, I sighed closing my eyes going to sleep.
[Bridge:]
Drop everything baby
The bottle is calling
Whoa, you're sinking
Fall down, pass out
No you can't feel a thing
And if you start to honey
Just keep drinking
I walked into a room filled with rose petals and candles lit everywhere, I looked around smiling "Shane?" I asked as he stepped out of the shadows hold one long steamed red rose "What is this?" I asked still awed by all this.
"I love you, I love you so much, and baby I don't want to spend another day with out you, will you marry me?' Shane said while walking towards me and bending down holding out the rose that had a ring tied to it.
"Oh my god yes, yes! I will" I said has he untied the ring putting it on my finger kissing me.
"you stupid whore!" Shane yelled slapping me "Wake up I want you to feel this!" he said slamming himself into me, making me scream out in pain, he covered my mouth "Shut up whore you know you like this, that's what whores like" he said gripping my mouth so hard until everything went back to black.
I groaned in the morning getting probably two hours of total sleep being up and down with nightmares, I groaned slowly waking up and walking downstairs, all my family sitting at the table, I smiled lightly and got a cup of coffee.
I sighed as I walked into a lawyers office "Hi I have an appointment" I told the lady she nodded knowing who I was and lead me back to an office, I smiled sitting down.
"Hello McMahon, im Matt ill be handling your divorce, now tell me what do you want out of this?"
"I just want it to be over, I don't want any money from him any property nothing I just want to walk away" I told him, he nodded.
"Well that makes it easy, as long as he doesn't contest the divorce" he said, I nodded as we started all the nescary paper work, I told him about the rapes and the abouse, he took pictures of my bruises and I wrote a statement of both accounts, I sighed leaving after two hours, that was tough.
I had one more stop to make the hospital, I sighed driving, I parked in the parking lot and headed in.
I walked to the receptionist "Um hi does chance still work here?" I asked the lady smiled.
"Yea hold on let me page him for you, you can have a sit" she said, I smiled at her and sat down, glad I kept my sunglasses on the covered most of the bruising, I smiled seeing chance walk through the doors, he instantly smiled walking to me hugging me "How are you?" he asked
"Um I've been better, I wanted to talk to you privately" I told him,he nodded leading me back to his office, he ran the hospital now, I sat down.
"You know you can take off your sunglasses"he said, I sighed taking them off
"Holy shit what the hell happened?" he asked I shook my head.
"The worst mistake of my life" I told him, he just nodded sympathetically, key word of the day sympathy.
"well whats up?" chance asked getting right to the point
"i was wondering if you need any nurses? I just last month renewed everything, and im in need for a job" I told him, he nodded getting on his computer.
"Uh actually I do, can you start next week?" he asked, I smiled nodding my head yes as we stood up, he walked me out to the car.
"Alright just come find me Tuesday morning around eight ill get you set up, you know the drill scrubs, no jewelery bla bla bla" he said I laughed thanking him again.
I detoured knowing my family would want to talk, I don't want to talk about Shane, about what happened none of it I just want to move on, I stopped at a cute little house with a for rent sign on the fence.
I got out and walked up the drive way looking around the little house, I smiled perfect, I peeked in the windows falling in love, I instantly called the number and waited for them to come. I gathered first last and security deposit and even a pet deposit.
I smiled at the lady when she pulled up we shook hands "Are you new in town? You look familiar" she said I smiled
"No im not new I just moved home, I grew up here'' I told her, she smiled as we walked in.
"Aw nothing better then coming home, what did you do while you were away?" she asked as I walked around the house, I smiled stopping the kitchen.
"I uh wrestled, and was married but that's now all over and I just wanted to be home" I told her, she smiled as I took off my sunglasses
"Well uh its 650 a month first last and security, you have to have a job I don't know if you have that already or some legal forum to pay rent, I include water and trash in rent, its all electric" she said, I nodded handing her the money.
"I just got a job up at the hospital" I told her, she nodded as she signed the lease and I sighed it she handed me the keys and headed out the door stopping half way.
"And sweetie, it looks like you made a good chose leaving that man" she said nodding, I smiled lightly as she left shutting the door behind her.
I smiled looking around the little place, it was a two bedroom two bath, it had a wrap around pourch. A good size front and back yard, I was in love with the master bathroom, it had one of those old time bath tubs that you could just soak in.
I locked the door behind me calling the electric company setting to turn it on today, I sighed heading to my moms. I parked my brothers car and headed inside, stopping when I seen randy sitting on my moms couch, his hand completely wrapped up, I shut the door making everyone look at me.
"What are you doing here?" I asked completely shocked seeing him
"I needed to check on you, can we go and uh talk?" he asked, I nodded leading him to the backyard, we sat next to the pool. "I'm sorry I know you told mark for everyone to leave you alone but I figure I get a get out of jail free card, since I did get suspend a month no pay and broke my hand on that creeps face" he said, giving me his famous smirk, making me laugh a little.
"Thank you but you shouldn't have done that" I told him he sighed
"Its wrong to hit women, someone needed to do something, mark would've killed him and then be sitting in an England jail we cant have that" he told me, I nodded my head looking down "So what have you been up to?" he asked, as if we were old friends who just haven't seen each other in a while, I filled him in on my job,my house and the divorce papers, after making him swear not to tell anyone else this information.
"Well come on im taking you out to dinner before I catch my plane home" randy said pulling me up with his good hand.
We went to a little Mexican food place and ordered I told him what I now planned on doing "Well you know we all love you and wont let Shane near you right, you don't have to cut us out" randy said, I nodded
"Yea but I know how things work things get slipped Shane will find out" I told him, he just nodded leaving it at that. We finished and I dropped him off at the airport and headed to my moms.
[Chorus:]
When I go, I'll pack my bags
Won't leave a note
No second chance
No, that's all we wrote
When I go, I won't be back
Don't ask me for
A second chance
No, that's all I wrote
a/n I know its a long one, the song is by ally cupcake we would've broken up anyways once you heard this song.