I remember this feeling, pure bliss…
Puck pulled away from my lips, what had just happened?
"Quinn, I am so sorry"
…he was sorry? Why? Did he not want this? Did he not want me anymore? Was I supposed to tell him that I loved him now? Or do I wait like Rachel told me?… or do I tell him at all? He is apologizing for kissing me, you apologize for regrets, did he regret doing this?… I can't do this right now…
"I have to go" I got off Puck and left as fast as I could, not able to bring myself to look back.

"Quinn! Wait up!" Rachel was following behind me, I wasn't stopping, "Quinn, Please!" I'd do a lot for Rachel these days, but I was still not stopping.
"Qui…IIINNN" I heard her shriek and then a thud on the ground.
Great she has slipped on the ice, now I have to stop. Wiping away my tears I turned my heel and headed back to the girl who's butt was still pressed against the icy cement of Pucks driveway.
"Here" I extended out my hand to help her up.
Rachel grabbed it a little too ambitiously and the next think I knew …SMACK… I was down with her. Pain shot up my arm, I'd fallen on the ice before but it never hurt less.
I looked at Rachel and we both cracked up laughing.
We pulled ourselves up and moved to sit on Pucks front porch swing.
"So why'd you run out of the party Quinn?"
"He kissed me…"
"I saw but why is that a bad thing?"
"He regretted it, I could tell straight away…"
"Are you sure? He looked like he was enjoying it."
"It was the moment, but I am sure… he regretted it"
"I'm sorry Quinn" Rachel was genuine "Maybe it is just too much right now? Remember he almost died Quinn, I am sure a lot is going through his mind right now"
Her friends words helped a little bit.
"I suppose. I don't know Rach, maybe it is too late now…"
"It is never too late Quinn. Just give it some more time. Be there for him, make sure you assert yourself as his friend. That is what he needs more than anything right now."
Why did Rachel always know what to say? She could really put her mouth in things sometimes but she was always there when it mattered.
"Thank you. That actually kind of helped. I am impressed."

Wow… This. Sucks!...
Quinn had practically broke a new world record in sprinting after I kissed her. I guess I truly know where things stand now.
…Suck it up Puckerman, she doesn't want to be with you, just make sure you keep her as a friend. Do not stuff this up!"…
I took a deep breath, and tried to head towards my bedroom.
"PUCKY BEAR!" I heard a whiny childish voice calling.
…oh no, not now…not…
"Hey Sugar" I said uncomfortably.
"Oh Pucky, I was so worried about you" Sugar leant in for a hug and kissed my cheek. I did not like where this was going.
"Ha, yeah… but I am here now, so it's sweet." I was looking for a way to make my escape, nope she'd pretty much cornered me.
"Soooo, like, I was thinking… maybe you'd want to take me out for dinner or something, I'll pay, cause my daddy is like rich and all, and judging by your furniture you are not so rich… but I'd make it worth your while" Sugar said in a sweet sickening tone batting her false lashes.
…Yeah I am sorry Sugar, I am just not ready to date… fake a stroke… create a distraction… They are all the things I should have done, but then I saw Quinn walk back through my door, and the words just escaped my mouth.
"Um, Ok sure, sounds great."
"AHHHHH" Sugar let out a loud scream making sure to grab everyone's attention.
"Shush Sugar" I shoved my finger to my lips. "It's OK everyone, she just thought she saw a mouse"
"Breadsticks, 8 tomorrow" Sugar said leaning in to kiss my cheek before prancing away.
Great… what have I gotten myself into?…

"Hey Rach what on earth happened with Quinn?" I'd noticed Quinn's swift exit from the party before Rachel had bought her back in looking rather glum.
"They kissed…"
"That's great! Isn't it?"
"Not exactly… She says he regretted it, I don't know Finn, maybe he isn't ready after all that has happened. Honestly I don't think either of them have a clue."

"Oi Finn, I need to ask you a kind of favor" Puck called as he wheeled himself over "Would you drive me to Breadsticks tomorrow? I kind of have a date…"
Rachel's face dropped, I looked at her to give me an answer …come on Rach what am I supposed to do here? I can't exactly say no can I?…
Rachel continued with her 'what the hell is this' face, I don't think I can get out of this.
"Ah, yeah, sure thing Bro. Who's the lucky lady?" I couldn't help but ask the question.
"Sugar" Puck responded before leaving Rachel and I alone again.

"Finn, this isn't good."
"I know, poor Quinn."
"What do we do now?" Rachel asked anxiously
"I don't know Rach, Puck is big enough to make his own choices, maybe we should talk to him about Quinn?"
"Meddling? In our friends love life? Who do you think I am Finn Hudson?"
"Rachel Berry of course, and we all know Rachel Berry loves plotting little plans"
She giggled and punched my arm "Oh shut up" she told me playfully "But I don't know Finn, it is just Sugar, maybe we should let it run its course… I don't want to risk Quinn's trust"
"I suppose. It is just one date, how bad could it be?…"

Tonight was the first night my mum allowed me to stay in the house alone. She had to work a night shift so she wouldn't be back until past midnight, so it was just me, the T.V and whatever she'd left in the fridge. I'd been out with Sugar a few days ago, it was weird… I think she thinks we are like dating now, I'm not sure how I feel about that, I mean I still want Quinn, but I do have to move on eventually right? Besides Sugar was kind of hot. She is very over the top obnoxious though, I mean I thought Berry was bad back when I dated her, but Sugar is just WOAH! I guess I'll just let things play out whatever way they will.
I heard a knock at my door, 8 o'clock on a Friday… that's strange.
Quinn was standing at my door looking beautiful in a yellow sundress, groceries in hand.
"Quinn what are you doing here?"
"Your mum told me you'd be alone tonight, so I thought I'd come cook for you" She stood smiling, waiting for me to let her in. She wanted to cook for me, wow, that was unexpected…
I moved out of her way and watched as she started unloading her groceries onto my kitchen counter.
"Quinn, you don't need to cook for me, my mum left dinner in the fridge."
"I know, but I thought you'd like some company, besides I make a mean Chicken Carbonara"

I watched as she worked her way around my kitchen, opening every draw to find the tools she needed, she wasn't looking at me, she was just keeping herself busy. She'd set up my dining table, and placed two bowls down.
"All done"
I pulled myself up at a plate, it actually looked really good, Quinn stared at my bowl waiting for me to have a try. I twirled some around my fork and had my first taste.
"This is great Quinn!" I shoved some more food into my mouth and she seemed to relax a bit.
"I'm sorry I haven't been around in a few days, I hope you haven't been too bored"
"It's been alright, just trying to keep myself busy, and getting used to walking around again, I'll be back at school in two weeks, I never thought I'd say this but I seriously want to be back there."
"Noah Puckerman missing school. Just wait until I tell everyone about this!"
"Oh be quiet Fabray. I miss it and I miss all of you guys"
"Well I suppose we miss you too… I mean maybe just a little bit" Quinn teased me, a big smile spread across her face, this was actually really fun.
"Don't even pretend you don't miss me!"
Quinn sighed, "Alright, alright I miss you. Glee club isn't the same without you"
I spent the next twenty minutes or so listening to Quinn tell me stories about the last few weeks at school, Nationals was approaching fast it was just over a month away, I really hoped I'd be OK in time to head out to Chicago. She told me about her plans for Yale, which I still couldn't believe. Quinn was so happy I couldn't peel my eyes off her as she laughed about the stories she was telling, this was perfect.
"So… have I convinced you with my cooking skills?" she smiled.
"Yes! This is much better than the stuff I got at breadstix the other night."
"Breadstix? Did your mum take you out for a 'welcome home' type dinner or something?"
"No, I was on a date with Sugar"

Sugar? He was on a date with Sugar? It was like someone had punched me directly in the heart. Why was he out with her?
"Oh" I responded "What was that like?"
Puck shrugged, "It was OK, she's crazy but alright"
So pretty much any chance I had with him had just flown out the window, I don't know what to do now.
"Does she make you happy?"
"Nothing is serious yet, but I dunno maybe she could"
Wow, I guess all I can do is be happy for him. God knows he needs something positive right now but I can't pretend like this doesn't hurt.
"I should get going Puck, but if you need any help EVER, call me OK? I'm always here for you." Honestly I just wanted to go home the process what I was feeling.
"Wait Quinn, my mum won't be home till really late. Would you please keep me company?" He sounded so helpless, I couldn't just leave him by himself when he was asking for me to stay. I am his friend first and foremost…
"Alright" I answered forcing a smile.
His face became brighter "Great! We can team up on Super Mario. But first would you be able to get the 2 pill containers down from my fridge? I think my mum forgot I struggle to reach up there."
I noticed the two small bottles he'd asked me to get.
"What are these for?"
"The first one is just a pain killer…"
"Pain? Are you in Pain Puck" I quickly cut him off worried that he was hurting.
"Yes Quinn, my leg is kind of a bitch, but don't stress it'll get there" Puck reassured me.
"And the second one?"
"That is for my blood pressure. It was a bit too low, so my Doctor wants me to take one of these after every meal just to stop me from getting faint and what not. But again it'll get there so do not stress!"
Puck popped the two pills as I set up his old Nintendo 64.
"You ready for this?" He asked.
I just laughed at how serious he took his video games. It was nice to see him so happy...