HEY PEOPLE. ENJOY THIS CHAPTER! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR FOLLOWING AND FAVOURITING! WHATS UP WITH SANS POWERS AND NOT BEING ABLE TO SENSE ADDI? YOU'RE FINALLY GUNNA FIND OUT! HOPE EVERYONE IS WELL, HEALTHY AND HAPPY. ENJOY XX
After talking to Rachel I didn't know what to do. I sat under the tree for I don't know how long staring into space. I was in a complete daze until Brittany walked out.
DO I TELL HER? DO I TELL HER? DO I TELL HER?
My heart started to race.
I didn't want to tell her. I couldn't. I didn't want to worry her…
So I won't. I had to tell her at the right time and what Rachel said could be totally wrong… But then her words popped into my head
"… don't live in denial all the time…"
Brittany strolled over like something out of a dream taking me away from my thoughts. The sunlight was hitting her face so perfectly it's like we were both in the right place at the right time. We were.
"What's wrong?" She asked as she sat beside me.
"Nothing, this garden is so beautiful! Did you fall asleep?" I said changing the subject.
"No after you left I just hung with Addi for a bit in her room, look San… I might not have heightened senses but I can tell when you're upset."
I just sighed.
"Tell me what's wrong San. You're worrying me."
I didn't want to worry her, but if I told her the truth… I would.
"I'm just… Thirsty …" I lied.
"Don't worry, Quinn will be here soon right, you can drink tonight."
"Yea, they're gunna meet us at that karaoke place." I smiled falsely.
"Look, stop stressing babe. Everything is going to be fine."
God I fall so much more in love with her every day and I didn't think it was possible to love her any more than I already did.
She leaned across and hugged me. I breathed out and closed my eyes.
"I just wanna stay like this forever." I whispered.
Brittany started to rub my back before she kissed my cheek.
"Soon." Brittany replied.
I have to tell her what Rachel said. She needs to know. She deserves to.
"Brittany."
"Yes?" She let go of me and looked at me so innocently, so beautiful, so happy.
I simply couldn't. What Rachel told me would change everything. I'd find a way to fix all of this though…I would.
"… I love you…BRITSTA!" I deflected.
"I know you do... I thought you hated that nickname?" Brittany laughed.
"I do!"
"Me too to be honest." Brittany grinned.
"I'll be sure to tell Sam that tonight then." I cheekily said.
"Don't you dare Santana, behave!" She punched me lightly.
I giggled because that wouldn't hurt a human let alone a vampire. The strongest vampire ever might I add.
"Ouch!" I whined.
"That did not hurt. Come on lets go inside." She took my hand and kissed it lightly as she stood up.
"Oh and Santana? I love you too."
"I know."
"Hey did you get the chance to ask Rachel about… You know? And you didn't tell them my decision did you?"
I froze. I couldn't swallow. FUCK.
"No, no. I didn't do either." I croaked, "Rachel was driving and I didn't want to distract her. I'll ask tonight okay?"
"Cool." Brittany smiled.
I was so over feeling like the bad guy and beyond over being stressed. Tonight I was going to feed with my girl Quinn and let loose. Try to ignore what Rachel said, because after all I was going to figure everything out and fix it. I will forget about sleazy Sam and just enjoy a good time out with my beautiful girlfriend and my beautiful friends. God I would never say that out loud near Berry, she'd never let me live it down… And we live forever…
I would tell Brittany about the phone call… Just not yet.
I hate to admit it but I was excited to go out tonight. I needed to just breathe. All this worrying was taking over my brain… I was all set to enjoy myself.
But first, I had to get through dinner with the Pierce's.
"I am soooo hungry." Brittany whispered to me. She widened her eyes to indicate it was obviously her vampire gene playing up.
I sympathised with her, the hunger is unimaginable. It's just this huge craving that's never filled, normal hunger is bad enough, but the vampire gene is just wanting to stay alive so much it drives the hunger to want and want and want. Back when my gene was triggered food was hard to come by and it was sometimes unbearable. Luckily it didn't take long till I built the courage to bite someone, after I did the hunger turned to thirst for blood but, the craving wasn't as strong as the hunger I had felt.
The movies and stories these days are all exaggerated. Sure, back in the day some vampires were just complete dicks and slaughtered towns but, that was only the odd psycho and even humans have the odd nutter. Now days, vampires know better. It's simple. Just don't turn a bad human into a vampire. It's not that hard.
I wish I could have told that to the vampire who turned Marie into one.
At the end of the day vampires were once living humans, we still have the same emotions and still think the same. We're just…. "Undead" with powers. We're all different and we don't hurt purposely, yea we make mistakes… But so do humans. I'm not saying I want the world to know we exist and that we're here… Because I don't want that. Ever. But sometimes I wish there wasn't all these myths and legends about us. Vampires were made into "monsters" and "murders" for the same reason there is discrimination today. Because we're different, and people don't like what they don't understand.
A lot of good, kind vampires I knew were killed by humans. But you don't see me hating on the whole human kind now do you? Because I know they're not all bad. I saw wonderful humans killed too... Just for being mistaken as "vampires."
Town slaughtering's went both ways. Humans killing vampires and vampires killing humans. It was just life. A life I've blocked out. Or so I thought.
Once vampire's disappeared into the shadows, society found other reason's to hate. Skin colour, sexual preference, ethnicity, gender and even religion. The humans that chased me with a cross shouting at me in the name of the lord to go back to hell, soon found a way to hate on other religions. I don't know why society hate the different. To me, it should be celebrated.
It's sad.
I must say that human kind are progressing from those days. But it still could be better.
Although, like I said, I'm glad vampires are "non existant" in the modern world.
"Santana are you okay? You were in la la land for a minute there."
Addison clicked her fingers in front of my face at the dinner table. Wonderful little Addison.
"Addison Carter Pierce, don't be so rude!" Sarah gasped.
"No, sorry I was the one being rude, day dreaming! Sorry! This pasta is so delicious!" The pasta was really good, my heightened senses also meant heightened taste! Which could sometimes be a very bad thing… But not in this case.
When dinner finished I was still deep in vampire thoughts… Thoughts and memories I never wanted to remember.
As we were getting ready Brittany kept looking over at me through the reflection in the mirror, she tried to make conversation but I was so lost in thought I didn't have much to say. I was sat on her bed as she stood curling her hair delicately, the silence became deafening and she finally snapped.
"Santana I'm actually getting really sick of this. When something's up you're supposed to tell me. You never do. I don't want another repeat of last night because it's exhausting. I can't keep guessing what's up with you."
I just looked up at her in the mirror not knowing what to say.
She threw her curling iron onto her bench and turned around to face me properly.
"Fuck you Santana."
She began to leave when I finally spoke
"Sorry I'm just lost in thought, I promise I'll let lose tonight okay? Please just, don't walk out. I'll stop being like this." I begged.
She stopped and turned back around.
"Tell me what's up."
She stood still and waited. I got up off of the bed and walked towards her.
"A lot of old memories have come up and I know I shouldn't keep you out but, I've been keeping them from myself. I've been through a lot Britt and I know you have too but sometimes old memories creep up on me out of nowhere."
Brittany took my hand and guided me to the bed where we sat comfortably next to each other.
She looked at me so apologetically.
"I forget how long you've been around… Sorry."
"No, you don't have to apologise." I said truthfully.
"I'm not forcing you to tell me, but talking about it can help. If you ever want to, I'll listen." Brittany smiled at me. Her smile was everything.
There's a lot I never told Quinn or Rachel, a lot happened before them and they knew, respectfully, never to ask. There's a lot I never even admitted myself. Whenever I do look back, it's like I'm looking at everything through third person, like it all happened to someone else and I can feel the intense emotion of it all like it was just yesterday... The memories play over in my mind and I can't stop them. The one I hate the most is about the last time I saw my family…
My family… My… My little brother.
"I'll tell you one day Britt, just not now."
There was a lot I needed to tell her… I had to tell her.
"That's okay, we have time baby! A whole lot of it!" She stroked my hand and then hopped up and continued curling her hair.
As I got ready myself one other memory kept replaying in my brain….
"No it's not that. Rachel… I don't know if you'll have read anything about this but the truth is… I can't sense Addi. At all. It's like she's not… there. Do you know what this could mean?"
There was 4 seconds of heart clenching silence… out of all the words I wanted to hear from Rachel's mouth, I only got one. It was only half of a whisper but the word exploded into my ear.
"Shit."
"What is it Rachel!?"
"Well, Santana I've read about certain… humans that our powers don't work on. And it could be that-"
"WHAT?"
"There could be a few… potential reasons…"
"AND THEY ARE?" I spat.
"Well, Addison could already be a vampire and you can't sense her because blocking powers is HER vampire power..."
"That's not possible. Yea, I can't sense her but I KNOW a vampire when I see one. I've met vampires in the past that block senses and I've STILL been able to sense them, I'm the strongest vampire there ever was Berry. I'd be able to sense her!"
"I know, I know let me continue. Well, the other theory is that she has the vampire gene … That you can't sense her because her sort of "future" vampire powers are the blocking ones or the sucking of other vampire's energy."
"That's not possible either Berry. Britt has the gene, we know only one sibling can carry it and Brittany definitely does. Plus even if she did carry it what could trigger it anyway? That can't be right. Are you sure you're reading the proper books here?" My legs were lightly shaking up and down as I bit my nails.
"San these books are like manuscripts okay, they've been helpful and correct so far."
"Well…Maybe, maybe she got bit then? Maybe she already is one? And my powers just aren't that great anymore?"
That's not all bad, I mean, then Brittany won't feel bad for leaving Addi behind. Addi could live forever with us... This could be a good thing.. A great thing... But that can't be true... She was hurt today. If she was a vampire that wouldn't of hurt her...
"No that can't be true she got hurt today in soccer. Maybe my powers are messed."
"Wait, there's one more reason."
It is my powers isn't it...
"And that is? It's me isn't it" What else could it be?
She wasn't answering.
"Rachel?" I asked lightly.
"Santana…Addison could be dying."
It was like the world had swallowed me up whole.
"What?"I whispered. Tears filled my eyes as my body shook…
She had to be wrong. This wasn't … couldn't be right. I stopped the tears that were forming in my eyes. This couldn't be real.
"She's not even sick what are you saying Rachel!?"
"I'm saying that Addison could be living on borrowed time, she might not be sick… but she will die… At some point."
"All humans die at some stage you idiot, I don't understand can you please elaborate?"
"I mean that, Addison isn't meant… I mean, might not meant to be alive. You can't sense her because… you SHOULDN'T be. It's a theory that it's our vampire senses actually telling us that the person we can not sense should not be there. If this is right then, I don't know when she will die, but destiny will catch up with her…If this is right... Then destiny IS catching up with her."
"Fuck destiny Rachel, this is bullshit. Do some more reading about this."
I refuse to believe it.
"San…"
"Maybe she does have a vampire gene! Maybe both sisters do."
"I'm saying this cos I love you, but don't live in denial all the time. We will figure this out but we both know only one sibling can have the vampire gene… The older sibling."
I did know.
"And it's not Addi's destiny to be a vampire, it's Brittany's.."
I FUCKING HATE THAT WORD!
"Say destiny one more time man hands and I will jump through this phone and make it so I won't be able to sense you anymore." I was shaking. I needed to breathe.
"You don't mean that…"
"No, sorry.. I don't… Sorry."
"It's okay, I understand… Its just that the books-"
"Nope. Stop. Those books are all myths and legends. Not everything in them can be right."
My voice turned to a whisper. "How is this possible? Tell me how this is possible."
"We ARE from those books of myths and legends and yet we're real…. Tell me how vampires are possibly real, tell me how it's even possible for you to have a human soul mate? Like I always say, if I knew, I'd tell you... If there was some other explanation apart from these then I'd be all for it."
"She's 14 Rachel." I don't know why someone so young would be living on borrowed time…
"I'm sorry." Rachel's voice was weak, she really was.
Silence surrounded me. It was closing in around me and the air was getting thin... I rested my head into my free hand and massaged my forehead..
"Could I bite her?... Rach if this is real, if this so happens to be possible. Could I bite her? Will I be able to turn her?"
I heard her breathe out before answering quietly.
"I don't know Santana. I really don't."
We sat in silence. Quinn hadn't said anything and I really wished she'd speak up. I wish she'd just magically come up with some other explanation or way to fix this. But there was nothing.
…Addison could be dying? That poor little girl could be… Dying.
It was the only explanation that actually made sense. Which, ultimately meant that Addison wasn't only potentially dying. She was…
There we have it! This chapter wasn't very long I know but I just want to make this all one chapter. The karaoke bar the next chapter with Q and Rach back ! I've missed them! x