Chapter 10- Angel in my arms

I made sure to wake up before Dean and tried to avoid him all day, this was because I knew what would happen, he would get super pissed at me and start throwing punches. I never saw Dean as the caring type who opens up to people, although on the contrary I was surprised when he hugged me yesterday and after we slept together... again.

Iv'e been reading lore books for 6 hours in the library consumed in my own thoughts, though a hand rested on my shoulder which caused myself to jump at the sudden presence. I turned around to meet green eyes watching my own.

"Hey Cas, I haven't seen you around all day" Dean stated hurt evident in his voice. "You gonna tell me what happened yesterday, y'know after you just took off like you left sunday dinner burning in the oven"

"I don't understand that reference" I replied with a serious tone "I also don't want to talk about it because it's complicated and you wouldn't understand"

"What? So we're just gonna pretend that nothing happened and I'm supposed to be peachy about that" Dean argued back, his voice rising.

"Dean your just making the situation worse" I pushed forcefully out of my seat making the chair fall back as I went to walk away. Dean went to grab my shoulder but I dodged his grasp, making him accidently grab a handful of the most sensitive feathers.

Crap

This caused an immense pleasure to shoot up my back and lust soon overcame my senses.

Not in control of my actions, I grabbed Dean's hips and before he could even react, he was pinned to the wall. From the force of my strength the wall cracked beneath him and Dean yelped from the pain. I trailed my thumb along Dean's jawline then brought my lips to his own sliding my tongue in, Dean was hesitant at first but then moved in melody to my rough kisses, Dean trailed his hands along my hip bones and I pulled away finally coming to my senses, ''Dean I... I can't'', my voice was pained knowing the truth from this outcome.

''Whats wrong?'' Dean rubbed my cheek with his thumb and I leaned into the touch letting out a shaky breath ''I tried to kill myself''

''You what?'' Dean looked annoyed but was trying to keep his voice down ''Why Cas, you have people that care about you and you just wanna throw that all away'', he wiped away the tears on my cheeks that I didn't even realised had fallen and then I realised that I was crying so Dean hugged me tightly. He started rubbing circles with his hand into my back like so many times he has done before, it reassured me that I was safe and everything would be okay.

Dean pulled away and looked deeply in my eyes, his own sparkling in determination and grabbed my hands, leading us to the impala. He drove us to the hillside that I had once been before, as I stepped out, the air felt warmer. The sun was just setting in the distance, casting orange and pink hues in the sky. I noticed a huge cherry blossom tree situated behind us so we sat beneath it on the grass watching the clouds soar, I could feel the cold wind ruffle my wings sending a slight chill down my spine, the silence was comfortable but Dean was the first to speak, staring at my wings in admiration.

''Cas I realised how much of a dick iv'e been to you lately, I remembered how everyone treated you like an object only needed for their own selfish needs, we only ever called when we needed help, hell even I used you at first and even though you knew that you always put me and Sam first even if it cost you your life... But Cas what I love about you most is that you kept trying, no matter who treated you like you were insignificant, like your feelings didn't matter, you always stayed kind helping everyone even if inside you were broken. I -I just wish I realised earlier and didn't keep pushing you away, this is my fault, how could I watch someone I care about become damaged''.

'damaged' I laughed bitterly at that knowing how true the words were, if anyone screwed things up more than anything is me, i'm no angel, i'm nothing. Dean stopped my thoughts as he brought his lips to mine, it felt so natural, so tender, making all the negative thoughts disappear as if nothing else mattered but this moment. As Dean pulled away he watched my face in hope, looking for some sort of expression whilst I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. ''Why did you kiss me?''

''because I like you, dumb ass'' Dean smiled genuinely however I looked away sadly,

''Dean, we can't be together, heaven forbids any relationship between an angel and human otherwise there will be severe consequences... i'm cursed Dean''

''Who cares what heaven thinks, i'd rather have you Cas, cursed or not''.

Dean leaned in again pressing a soft kiss to my own, I kissed back passionately and sighed deeply feeling everything disappear once more. I was finally with Dean, the hunter that I so desperately wanted but knowing that nothing good will come from this, knowing that heaven will disapprove makes me regret ever getting too close, trusting someone too much. I know that Dean will never hurt me purposely but I feared that I would hurt him. Dean pulled me closer so my head was resting on his lap and stroked my hair. ''Dean are we... together now?''

''I guess so'' he replied watching me with those green eyes shining with dedication and loyalty, he leaned backwards with his hands reared to the ground, closing his eyes as the wind blew through his hair "you feel that Cas?" Dean breathed looking at peace with his soul. "That's what life feels like, you may think that your dirt, dust and nothing else but that's also what the world is made up of and it's beautiful, you are my world"

I smiled at that, Dean's words were comforting and when I closed my eyes I focused on Dean's soul, the green aura was swirling around my own blue one, forming a protective atmosphere, this was how I knew Dean cared, how I knew he would protect me.

''Dean your soul, it's so beautiful and pure'' I mumbled with closed eyes, his soul was my aesthetic, so graceful and perfect.

''My soul? you can see it''

I nodded, opening my eyes to face Deans green ones with intent

''mmm, well your eyes are beautiful, like the sky after a storm'' Dean smiled tracing his thumb over my cheekbones

I smiled sheepishly ''is that a flirtation''

''sure is angel'' Dean replied, 'angel' I liked the nickname he'd given me, it was cute and reflected who I was. Even though I was a poor excuse of one.

After an hour of sky watching, Dean slowly stood up brushing of the cherry blossom flowers that had collected in his hair. ''You know, the marks we leave are too often scars, so were gonna leave our own marks'', he hands me a pocket knife and sets about marking the the cherry blossom tree with the initials 'D.W.'

I followed his example and engraved the words 'CAS' into the soft bark of the tree under Dean's initials, we stood back an admired the work before walking back to the impala and driving home with Dean's hand grasped firmly around my own, AC/DC softly blurring on the radio.

When the two men arrived home they saw an unusual light glow around one of the open windows, it was a blinding light and Cas told Dean to shut his eyes. This only meant one thing... Angels. The glass shattered and a deafening screech surrounded them which Cas was unaffected by, Dean on the other hand was clutching his ears as blood dripped down the side of his face.

''Dean!'' Cas shouted watching Dean writhing in excruciating pain, there was nothing he could do but watch in fear, the angels had come to punish Cas, he knew it. Cas ran into the bunker with an angel blade in one hand, ready to fight the garrison of angels but he suddenly dropped it in shock when he saw who it was, Cas mouthed the words slowly trying to understand why he was here.

''Dean?''...

A/N: AHHH sorry for the plot twist haha and this chapter is dedicated to VegasGranny for supporting my stories thank you XD