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"Doug and ruby. If you mess up that TV room one more damn time I swear to god I will not be held responsible for my actions" I screeched loudly as I walked into the TV room to find Ruby and Doug messing about, knocking over things and disrupting my nicely placed cushions as they did so. Tonight was the night of Tom's party and I was trying to keep the place looking nice for when the actual guests arrived. I hadn't even had time to get dressed yet. As I watched the gruesome twosome make their way sheepishly into the kitchen I quickly took my chance and ran upstairs to throw myself together. As I was putting my make up on I began to think about the night ahead. It was going to the first time in a while that I was going to be in the same place as Harry for any kind of significant amount of time. I was excited because I missed him but I was also very nervous and apprehensive as the last time I had seen him he seemed to be pretty furious at me and I didn't know why. I was hoping to talk to him tonight but that depended on me having the guts to actually go through with it.
Lyndsey had brought Tom out for dinner but the boys were going to pick him up early telling him that their manager had scheduled some kind of urgent meeting back at the house.
"He's not answering his damn phone" Danny yelped at me across the room. "just keep trying and if that doesn't work ring lyndsey's phone and ask for Tom she will know to answer considering she thought up this whole hair brained scheme" I was getting very flustered, for some reason people seemed to think I was the leader of this little operation so they ran all ideas past me and most of the time I didn't have a bloody clue how to answer them.
"Tom! Finally why the hell wouldn't you answer your phone? The managers have called some kind of urgent meeting they are on their way over to the house now. Harry is going to pick you up on the way back from his mum's" I could hear Tom protesting on the other end of the phone. To say he was annoyed would be a huge understatement. He finally relented and agreed to be waiting outside the restaurant.
There was a flurry of activity as people started looking for places to hide and stand so that it didn't look to Tom from the outside that there was a ton of people waiting in the living room, to scare the living daylights out of him when he came in. After a few minutes the crowd had calmed down and the room was ready for his arrival, as if on cue we saw the headlights of Harry's car glare against the shut curtains. A few seconds later the car doors opened and we could hear the three occupants muttering "for god's sake they aren't even here yet, I can't believe they have called a bloody meeting at nine o clock at night on MY BIRTHDAY there is no bloody justice in the world I was just about to have dinner, I'm bloody starving" there were a few muffled giggles in amongst the partygoers as they listened to Tom go on and on about all the injustices being thrust upon him. A few seconds later we could hear the scratch of the key in the door, I could feel everyone's anticipation and there was a collective intake of air as they waited for the door to swing open. I grinned at Danny he had such a goofy smile on his face, you would swear Santa Claus himself was about to walk through the door.
"SURPRISE!!!!" Tom literally jumped a foot of the floor he got such a fright as he walked in the door. He looked so confused for a few moments before the lads engulfed him in a group hug. After he was released, he had the biggest smile on his face; I thought I saw his eyes become a little watery as he took in the sight before him. "Did you know about this Lyndsey?" He said quickly. "Course she knew about it dummy it was all her idea!" Exclaimed Dougie, like it was the stupidest question ever asked. Tom grabbed her into a hug and kissed her with such love and affection, Ruby and I couldn't help but let out a collective "AWWW"
"Stop that you two" Tom said sheepishly after he had released her from their embrace. "Happy birthday" I said while giving him a big hug, ignoring his previous comment. "Right come on everybody lets party" Lyndsey said and pulled us all towards the make shift bar that had been set up in the kitchen.
As I entered the party behind Tom even amongst all the commotion I immediately spotted Lola at the front of the crowd standing beside Danny. She looked so amazing, she was all dressed for the night but she had the most beautiful smile. It lit up her whole face and her eyes were gleaming like only hers could. Tonight was the night I was going to talk to her. My stomach was in knots I was so nervous. I was also a little excited to spend time with her again. I really missed our chats - I just hoped that after tonight we would still be on good enough terms to be able to have our little chats. I headed towards the bar with everyone else I was definitely going to need a bit of Dutch courage.
The house was heaving. There seemed to be crowds of people everywhere I went, luckily it was a warm summer night so people could happily spill out into the garden. After spending what seemed like hours trying to teach Dougie how to dance without accidentally knocking people out with his flailing arms, I left him in the capable hands of ruby, who seemed more than happy to accommodate him. I was beginning to think those two could end up being more than friends.
I wandered into the kitchen to get myself a drink only to be greeted by a very drunk Tom and Danny who were attempting to make cocktails because apparently everyone was far too sober. Those two were so far away from sober that they wouldn't know what it was if it came up and smacked them in the face. I decided to leave them to it and I promptly left the kitchen with the concoction that had been thrust in my hand, and made my way out to the garden. The cool breeze lightly hit my face as I exited the house and travelled down the garden path towards the benches at the back of the garden. I lay down on the bench and gazed up at the stars. I had planned to have a chat with Harry tonight but I hadn't really seen him through the throngs of people. I felt slightly light headed; it was a mix of the heat of the party and the various vodka drinks I had consumed throughout the night. It was a perfect summer night. The stars were twinkling in the night sky; the light breeze was causing the trees to create a low rustling noise. As I lay there the noise of the nearby party seemed to fade away into the distance as I became lost in the wonders of the night sky. I felt myself shiver slightly as a stronger breeze ran through the garden.
"Here take my jumper, you look cold" I jumped slightly as I heard a voice above me. I turned my head to the side to be greeted by Harry's comforting features. I quickly sat up from the bench. "Eh yeah thanks I am a bit chilly alright" I was taken aback slightly by his gesture, this wasn't in line with his recent attitude towards me. There was an awkward silence as I placed the jumper over my head. I was wracking my brain for something to say that wouldn't sound completely stupid.
"So I haven't seen you around much recently" he turned to look at me, our eyes met, it was a really uncomfortable situation yet I felt comfortable sitting beside him. I didn't want to be anywhere else in that moment. "Well…. Stuff has been kind of strained between us of late, I wanted to give you your space……..look Harry I'm really sorry for upsetting you." I blurted out in a hurry.
"Lolly you have nothing to say sorry for. I'm surprised you are even talking to me I have been such a jerk to you these last few weeks I can't apologise enough to you Lola" he said quickly. There was a sense of urgency and regret to his voice. He seemed as nervous as I was about this whole conversation. My head was spinning, if I hadn't done anything why had he been acting so strangely?
"Harry are you sure I didn't do something to annoy you, as it's really not like you to fly off the handle like that for no reason." I looked at him questioningly. "I didn't fly off the handle for no reason but it wasn't because you did something Lolly, I promise you, you did nothing I was just being a ridiculously immature jerk and I'm so sorry." I turned my body and sat cross legged on the bench facing him. I was relieved that I hadn't done something to upset him but I was majorly confused. He was looking at me, searching my face for some kind of response. "Ok well then what's wrong? I know you're like me and bottle everything up inside. The only reason I can see you acting so out of character is if you bottled something up so much it just exploded out in some kind of blaze of madness." He turned to face me, mirroring my stance. "You know me far too well Lolly" he said with a quick smile which quickly faded from his face, he looked down at his hands where he was cradling a half empty bottle of beer. I was becoming more concerned as the conversation went on. "What is it? You know I won't tell a soul, look I don't want to force you to tell me something but you should talk to someone about it Haz, it seems to be eating you up inside." He just sat there gazing at his hands. I thought I was an emotional wreck trying to deal with my feelings for Harry; he seemed to be just as bad.
I wandered out of the house; I had searched the whole party looking for Lola. As I entered the garden, I saw a figure lying down on the bench at the base of the garden. I immediately knew who it was. As I approached the bench her face glistened in the light of the moon. A breeze blew through the garden disrupting all the trees. She shivered; I could see the goosebumps forming on her skin. "Here take my jumper, you look cold" my voice sounded confident but my stomach was awash with nerves. She jumped up quickly from her position and I sat down beside her as she pulled my jumper over her head. "So I haven't seen you around much recently." I wasn't really sure how to start up the conversation, but I figured that was as good a place as any. I listened to her as she hurriedly apologised even though she had done nothing wrong. My heart sank as I watched her face fill with worry and apprehension. I knew I had hurt her over the last few weeks but watching her try and make sense of my behaviour and blaming herself was horrible to experience. " Lolly you have nothing to say sorry for, I'm surprised you are even talking to me, I have been such a jerk to you over the last few weeks I can't apologise enough Lola" I was getting more and more nervous by the second as it felt like the inevitable was about to happen. In the next few minutes I could run the risk of losing one of my best friends. The question I was expecting soon followed. She knew I wouldn't go mad fro no reason. What answer was I supposed to give her? "I didn't fly off the handle for no reason but it wasn't because you did something Lolly. I promise you, you did nothing wrong. I was just being a ridiculously immature jerk and I'm really sorry." Lola knew me so well. Lola and the three lads were the four people in the world who knew me best and they were the four people who pretty much always knew when there was something wrong with me. Lola wanted to know what was wrong. What was I supposed to tell her? I sat opposite her looking at her in the face battling with myself whether to tell her or not. Could any good come from me telling her?
We sat in silence for a few minutes just looking at each other. I didn't want to push him into discussing something he didn't want to discuss but I wanted to help him. As I sat there looking into his eyes I wanted to do everything in my power to make him feel better, after his recent behaviour I should probably be annoyed with him, but I knew that Harry didn't mean to hurt me. Whenever Harry was completely confused about something he lashed out and to be honest I'm surprised I didn't recognise the signs. I probably had some kind of guilty conscience because I knew I was harbouring feelings for him that he didn't know about.
Harry still hadn't said a word I could see him battling with himself in his head. Before I had time to think anything more I launched myself at him and grabbed him into a big hug, within seconds his arms were around me pulling me towards him to sit in his lap. I could feel his warm breath blowing against my ear, tickling me every so slightly. After a few minutes I went to pull away but he held me even closer as he felt me move, lightly rubbing his hand on my back. I leant my head on his shoulder and just enjoyed being close to him again. Although my heart still quickened when I was near him and his touch sent the butterflies in my stomach into a flurry at this moment in time I was completely contented just being involved in a friendly hug.
As I contemplated my answer, we sat there just looking at each other, after a few minutes I still hadn't said anything, I thought she was going to start questioning me again but before I knew what was going on she had pulled me into a warm hug. I immediately responded and wrapped my arms around her body, pulling her in to sit on my lap, resting my head on her shoulder. I had a sudden urge to start kissing her neck, it felt like the natural thing to do but then I quickly remembered that Lola , as much as I wanted her to be, wasn't my girlfriend. I felt her move to pull away but I couldn't bear to be separated from her yet so held her close to me and rubbed my hand on her back. She rested her head on my shoulder and we just stayed there clutching onto each other, our breathing synchronized.
We sat there for ages holding each other, eventually we pulled away but we were still close and I stayed resting in his lap his arms rested around me supporting my stance. "Ooh come here!" I said while standing up and pulled him up by the hand leading him over to the grass. "What you doing lolly?" he asked confused. "Just follow my lead its cool" I lay down on the grass and looked up at the sky. He followed my lead and lay down beside me. "Now, tell me that isn't cool. I love the sky during the summer the stars seem to twinkle with extra vigour or something." I rambled on.
After a while we pulled away and she led me over to the grass and we lay down to gaze up at the sky. She was right the night sky during the summer really was something to admire. As I moved my arms down by my side, my hand brushed against hers. At this stage my body was craving her touch so much I didn't care if she became suspicious. I interlocked my fingers with hers and brushed my thumb against the back of her hand, each stroke sent shivers up my spine. I turned to look at her tearing my eyes from the night sky. She was basking in the moonlight, her eyes transfixed on the night sky. After a few minutes she turned to face me. "What you thinking" I asked.
As we lay there I stared at the sky, a few moments passed and I felt Harry move, he clasped my hand in his and brushed his thumb against my hand. It took all my will power to not turn and kiss him right there and then, but I didn't know how long I would be able to continue this control. After a while I felt him looking at me and turned to meet his gaze. "What you thinking?" he asked. If I was to be honest my answer would be that I was thinking about kissing him A LOT but the decision was whether to be honest or not. "Nothing much really just taking in the view" I said with a giggle. Another breeze blew through the garden and I shivered, Harry quickly pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around me to keep me warm. I looked up at his face, we nearly nose to nose, our breaths mingling in front of our faces. We stared into each others eyes. I suddenly felt incredibly nervous; we were so close together it was hard to tell our bodies apart. It felt like Harry was holding me as close as he possibly could. I felt electricity run through my body. The moment was intense. It began to dawn on me that maybe the moment was so intense because I wasn't the only one who could feel rushes of electricity running through them.
She was so close to me now my stomach was in knots. We lay there looking into each others eyes. For the first time I felt like she may be feeling the same rushes of electricity run through her body. There was a veil of tension surrounding us.Our faces only inches apart.