Hey,hey,hey!It's me the ever preaching ScarrFace!I like how I suprised some of the readers in the last chapter.It makes me feel like I accomplished my side mission.I would also like to add that Kamasu is Hagiri's older brother.Since they didn't give him a name in the series I decided to give him one.Anyway I seriously have to get more into Hagiri's character.Well enough of that let's get on with the meat!XD
Disclaimer:We own?Since when?Exactly..TT TT I ownly Kiyoji:3
(Mitarai 3rd P.O.V.)
As time passed by his affection for him grew as well as his adoration.Everyday ,even though,Hagiri made almost no contact with Mitarai felt that Kaname understood him and that
little hope kept him going.For all he knew though Kaname hated him or thought him to be inferior to him but at least had finally found someone that knew what he was going through.
It had been a week since that deep conversation and for awhile they both didn't talk to each but whenever they did it had always been something meaningful.That discussion had
taken it's toll on Kiyoshi and it made him wonder Is that why Kaname is so isolated and cold?Did anyone ever try to understand him or did they look down on him?Is that why he
follows Mr.Sensui?So he decided to gather his strength and ask him a very personal and solid question.
"Kaname-san I have a question if I may ask you?" He asked though barely audiable.All Hagiri did was just turn to look at him."Um I don't mean to kinda barge into your space but um
was that how your life was?" He quickly regretted saying that and turned away.I shouldn't have asked it's really non of my buisness I just wanted..to see if it was true..He thought to
himself.
"Well what do you think?Do you think someone would lie about that?" He answers with a hint of attitude."I'm sorry it's just I wanted to know.." "Know what?" Hagiri responds with irrtation in his voice.Mitarai began to feel his anger rise and Hagiri's attitude only fueled."Listen I know it's none of my buisness but you don't have to be a jerk about it!" Mitarai yelled
back.
(Hagiri P.O.V.)
I thought this kid understood but it seems he doesn't quite get my drift.It's ironic how time repeats itself...
(Flash Back)
I woke up in the middle of the night only to hear the shattering of glass and things knocked over.I already knew how it was my 'father'.He was on another one of those nights where
he drunk himself to sleep.Last time I remebered he went on like this for 3 days.I would've fell back into my sleep but I heard foot steps coming up the stairs and before I knew it my
father busted into my room.I tried and pretended that I was asleep but he grabbed me by mair and throw me across the room.I hit one of the cabinets that contained the little clothes
I had.
"Ow.." I quietly said to myself.I remeber my voice wasn't that deep not like today.I was 12 years old and had no toughness in my voice.I rubbed my now bruised back that ached like
crazy.In my whole life I never really talked a lot except for when I needed to."Ey,you go to ya brother's room.." he said sluggishly.I didn't want to get beaten up again so I left instantly.My
dad always got like that whenever he lost gambling bets or something.I went to Kamasu's and Kagami's room.
While I was going I noticed I was limping to thier room.Oh jeez the pain ripped through me.I was almost there just two more rooms.I opened the door only to find a restless Kagami
and Kamasu wide awake."Got kicked out again?" he asked but already knew the answer.I just looked at him and he continued "Alright you can get my bed I'll sleep on the floor." It
amazed me how he could stay so cheerful even though he got beaten almost everyday.
"Are you okay Kaname-kun?" asked Kagami.She was so young and she saw all this violence yet her face remained calm as usual."Yeah I'm alright." I respond."Alright kiddies
we should get some rest I mean we won't want to hear those noises,right?" Kamasu asked cheerfully and gave me a smile.There was one thing I noticed everytime he gave any of us a smile.It was always a depressing one...
The Next Day
I woke up thanks to that morning light.As soon as I sat up a sharp pain seared through my body like nails to wood."Here." said Kamasu who held in his hand an ice pack."Thanks."
I replied."Good ol' Kaname a man of a few words!" He excalimed and began to laugh.Keep it down Kamasu!" yelled our mother from the kitchen.Kamasu sighed and sat down next
to me."Where's Kagami?" I asked."She left early.Speaking of which we have to get to school to." Kamasu replied.
I got up and went to go get dressed in my room but I recognized the sour smell of liquior.He's still in there I thought to myself and headed back. to Kamasu's room."So I'm guessing the bastard is till knocked out huh?" I nodded to my older brother and all he did was sigh."Here where this I think it'll fit you." He said.After putting n the outfit on I noticed that the shirts sleeves were a bit long.Hehe I must've looked like anorexia...
The Walk To School
My brother had just dropped me off the corner of the block where my school was.It was there I always came across my frind Kiyoji Mata.He smiled warmly and greeted me."I see
your limping again I'm guessing it happened it again." He said.Beside our family Kiyoju know of my problems at home.He was always there for me ever since I met him at the park
when I was three.We began to walk until we finally arrived at school without any antagonizers."So they decided to not try and chase us." He said.I just looked at him and that answered his question."Well let's go we don't want to be late for Ms.McSoda's(1) class." He said smiling.At that we both chuckled."Oh by the way before I forget do you know what day it is today?" Kiyoji asked me. "Huh?" I asked back a bit startled."Nah,never mind."
I wrote my name,period,and date on my paper.Just then I remebered what Kiyoji had asked me and then I noticed the date.Febuary 14,I thought to myself.Wait?Today was Valentine's Day?I can't believe I din't remeber.Well I can't blame myself I have no one to love and it's not like anyone loved me.The bell rang and it was finally time to go home.It's funny how hell is a place called home..
After School(Woohoo!)
Usually by this time of day Kiyoji and I would probably be running away or fighting the kids that picked on us everyday but fortunatly for us it today was that stupid day."They're probably out making out with thier girlfriends or something." Kiyoji said like he read my mind."Kaname there's something I want to ask you." When he said that I stopped walking.His voice held nervousness when it usually has a more content tune.I turned to look at him."Do you think love,in any form it may be,or what I'm trying to say is would you accept it?" This was weird he never acted like this but it drew my curiosty so I continued to listen."Well...what if... someone developed feelings for you?" I was actually shocked.I began to feel uncomfortable and shifted my weight to my other foot.
Never in my life did I have to face a moment like this.It made me uneasy yet I liked this feeling.It was something I had never felt before and the fact that someone might actually care for me it excited me.There were rare moments of happiness in my life and whenever I did feel it I tried to keep it with me and this was one of them.But then I realized what if it was a question that Kiyoji had to answer for himself.
"Lately I've noticed that I've taken a sort of 'liking' to you." I looked at him and could feel my purple eyes buring with confusion,interest,and excitment while they were being occupied
by soulful and lazy blue ones.I could've said many things but at the only time I could just say "Kiyoji..." It wasn't a question or comment but a a statement."What if I had feelings for you Kaname Hagiri?" He really wasn't screwing around.Whenever he said my full name he was serious.He walked towards me as if stalking a prey.He looked at me and gave me a happy and somehow depressing smile sort of like Kamasu's.He looked into my eyes as they were once again thrown into an emotional battle.He then took my hand.For a boy he had soft hands.
I quickly ripped our contact and turned away.This felt wrong.He was a boy and I was a boy.This wasn't meant to be it's not what a normal person would do.Wasn't a guy suppposed
to fall in love with a beatiful woman like in the fairy tales?I didn't want to look back it'd probably cause me more pain.It suddenly hit me.I just rejected my friends feelings.It hurt me even more now what would he think.Would he leave me?I never thought about that?What if-
"I..never should have told you.." He said sadly.He walked up to me and looked me at me smiling "Just for-" I didn't let him finish.For a long rime those smiles that Kamasu,Kagami,
and Kiyoji gave they were supposed to reassure me that everything would be alright but it never had a true purpose behind it.Wouldn't it be nice for at least once to see a smile that truly looked happy?
"It's just I don't know.Maybe it's because I've never felt.." "Never felt what?" Kiyoji chirped in excitedly.I looked back with a suprised expression and then reverted to back to my lazy emotionless gaze.He was always like this since the day I met him one moment he was sad and then happy how his emotions rocked from one extreme to the next was beyond me.I wasn't going to answer that he already knew the answer.I looked up at the deep,blue sky.There wasn't a single cloud yet the day felt fresh like a forest after rainfall.Sometimes the sky reminded me of me just being there day through night endlessly.
My life had been a routine.Everyday was just like the other or weekends would repeat themselves but there were very few occasions were my routine went on a diffrent schedule.Wouldn't it be nice to know that someone actually loved you?I got this unknown feeling from inside..It felt...nice.It would definately change my days.So I looked back at him with a smile that practically spoke on it's own.
He grabed my hand again and I held it tightly.We continued to walk down the street and I looked at my friend again.He hadbrown hair up to his neck.Though it didn't seem like it he could take punches from just about anyone.He was about my height but slightly taller and had captivating brown eyes.So what if we were both boys doesn't affection come in all forms?
Hagiri Residence
Even though people looked at us strangely and there was mumuring all across town we still held hands even when we arrived at the front of my house.That's when I had to let go and
we had to part ways."But before you go," He said vaguely.He pulled me closer to him and he pecked me softly on the cheek.It was so sudden and it felt weird.I began to glow slightly red.He just smiled,a real,true,smile and told me "See ya later."I thought I would wake up and see him the morning like I always but little did I know I was wrong...
I went inside and ran upstairs.Maybe Kamasu was home and I could tell him what happened today.I ran up until I ran into my father.I immediately stopped and looked up to him pleading for him to leave me alone."So who was that boy?" He asked roughly."It's..Kiyoji remeber?" I answered uptightly.What did he want from me."Why were ya holdin' his hand?"
I could tell his anger was rising by the tone in his voice.Unfortunately I had no answer to that I was scared out of my mind and my stammering did not help.My thoughts kept repeating itself over and over Did he see us."I..." "Answer you me you god damn queer!"With that he struck at me agian.That blow sent me flying hitting a vase.The vase came crashing down
You little ass!Look what you've gone and done now!"
I was coughing and rubbing my bruise.I tried making myself stand up but my father came and started kicking me hard.I started bleeding from my mouth and I felt like a car had just ran over me."You are actin' like a little bitch!Get off your lazy ass you homo!" In my current state I couldn't even omve so my father decided to take advantage of this and picked me up by my collar."I'm going to teach you a lesson little boy.So you decided to be a whore in my house huh?Well I'll teach you and your friend a lesson!"
"What the hell are you doing!!?" My 'father' and I turned to the side and I saw Kamasu with a horrified expression on his face.My father dropped me and I fell like a brick to the ground.The pain it hurt so bad I could feel tears threatening to pour over and fall.I saw Kamasu ran over to me but dear old daddy socked him and good.My brother and I both grasped for what little air we can get and my father grabbed Kamsu's hair "You little prick think you can stop me?Heh!"
"Augh,Fuck you!" Kamasu yelled and kicked him in the chest.While may our father was preoccupied with his own pain Kamasu ran to me."Are you okay!?" He couldn't sit still but then our father grabbed Kamasu by his hair and dragged to a closet.He quickly shut and locked the closet.My vision was bluring I could hear Kamasu's screams become faint."Now where were we." He said vaguely.His grip on my shirt was strong.
"You stupid bastard let him go!!"
I felt his grip lose it firmness and I felt free for a moment.Then I hit ones of the stairs with a loud thud.
"What the hell are you doing let him go!!!"
I began to roll violently down the steps until I got to the bottom.My head it felt so light headed.I could feel blood slowing coming out.I felt so weak unable to stop anything.
"LET HIM GOOOOO!!!!..."
I woke up seeing a flash of white and a bright light.The first thoughts that came to me were Am I dead.I realized what I had thought and automatically got up.I found out that,that was a bad mistake because then the same ripping pain shot through my whole body.So I wasn't de-"Kaname are you up!Holy hell are you alright!?" I knew that voice anywhere Kamasu.I looked to next to me and found him sitting on one of the chairs along with Kagami.I looked at the window and found that it was daytime."How long have I been out?" I asked."Three days." My sister simply said.Three days!?"What?" was all I can say."Yeah,good for nothing bastard knocked you up pretty good can you remember anything?" Kamasu buzzed.
Let's see I went up the stairs,father said he he saw Kiyoji and I-.Wait then I remebered what he told me "I'll teach you and your friend a lesson!.." "Did anything happen to Kiyojo,how's he been?"I asked concerned.What if he really did do something to him?Kagami's face changed from the hazy one I always knew to one slightly graced with sorrow."Well about that.." Kamasu's tone completely changed.This was not a good combination."It seems that when he was walking to school there was a shoot out." I didn't need to know more.He was just in the way and got shot huh?Just some coincidence that so happened after my dad found out of our little secret.
I felt like I was dying from the inside.In the many ways that this couldv'e been expressed I did one of the more obvious signs cry.I silently began to cry for awhile though.Kagami was surprised but Kamasu just looked at the ground."I think I should go now.Please Kaname get well soon."Kagami said in a gentle and sad voice.Kamasu stood up and went to my bedside."Everytime I start to believe in something...It always gets raped and taken from me." I said.All Kamasu did was hug me.I could tell he felt my pain but unlike me he wasn't afraid to show it...
(End Flash)
(Hagiri P.O.V.)
I sighed I remeber that memory almost evry moment of my existance since it happened.Maybe that's waht was eating me because maybe I might've doind the same mistake again...
1.Also known as my teacher Ms.Mesada but she's always so rude and bitter to us!Ha I got back at her!!
Alright!I actual like how this chapter came out.I always imagined Sniper had a painful past and so this was just the tip of the ice-berg.Anyway tell me what you guys!Remeber review it's life greatest companion!:3